• january

went to the beach house for nye and spent more 4 days there - we need to come back bc he got sick - things are finally finding their way and i cant be happier about it - just gave another literary genre a try and its surprising me a lot - its contemporary romance btw and i thought i would hate it because of previous experiences - it's okay to not have a good day sometimes i guess - my period this month almost killed me - it was so f scary - we've done so much this month - looking for jobs, again - i dont even know if this is what i want - god my anxiety is gonna kill me

• february

1st day of the month and i was already called - two days later i gave up ksksks - there's nothing i can do, this is not for me - i hate being an adult - this month is just to solve bureaucracy - finished playing spider man - unfortunately i wont platinum - and more bureaucracy - started playing gta v - tested the assassin's creed valhalla and love it - recife antigo but without carnaval :(

• march

we received the consultor's answer and there are still things missing - beach house with everyone - spent my birthday with my family and babe - it was very special - my mom ordered a very funny birthday cake - love her and all the effort she puts in - next day we went to a happy hour with friends etc to celebrate - made a mini surprise to mom to celebrate her birthday - i love march its a very special month - finally had my teeth surgery - hating every moment of the recovery - i just want to eat normal food - secretly loving not doing anything and using my teeth as an excuse - is so good to mark one more check on my list of resolutions - this year i tried to be less specific and ask for more realistic things - just wish i could do all the things i planned - finished acosf and already miss the acotar series so much, hardly cant wait for the next book - im going to take a break from fantasy books now - after one week im ok again and i missed eating so much - well, the month is gone and we didnt had our answer yet - its so frustrating - the days are less hot

• april

started my programming online classes - im re-reading acomaf (just the feysand parts) because apparently i cant get over it - the month has barely started and im already feeling exhausted - back to reading romcoms and this time its a friends to lovers one - we finally applied i cant even believe it - this wait is going to kill me and my anxiety

• may

recife coffee opening in recife antigo - bar with my friends - downloaded book lovers and already started reading - we are still waiting for our answer - 13.05 we received our visa approval!!! - i am really going to get out of here - i finished watching modern family and i already miss it - this month ended with so many tragedies - i wish i could help my grandparents in some way but i cant yet - at least theyre fine and nothing bad has happened to them, but still, theyre suffering and i hate it cause i can't do anything - didnt finish any book this month

• june

we went to another graduation - there are so many things to do yet that im going crazy - just said goodbye to one of my closest friend and it was so sad - i hate goodbyes - made me think of the little time i have here - soon we gonna have to go too - we started to receive options to rent our new apartment

• july

omg we have an apartment!!! - im addicted to the vampire diaries again it feels like 2009 - we've reached the one month remaining mark and im feeling so much things all at once

• august

it's so close that im freaking out - feeling so much i dont even know how to explain - after two thousand hours of fly we finally got here - the city is everything we dreamed of and more - im missing everybody so much - especially my mom and peter - i see him everywhere, it hurts so much

• september

did some interviews - so... i guess i have a job - this wait is killing me - im tired of staying at home all the time - i just want moneyyy - autumn is here and it is cold as hell - but its also so beautiful - the library here is a dream - i borrowed some books there - started my training in the new job

• october

we've started watching house of the dragon and it is so damn good - i'm reading more this month - but i'm also sooo busy and tired and working so much - our finances are so much better - i did some shoppping for the first time and it's good but i can't stop feeling like i shouldn't have spent money on trivial things - i think my english is a bit better and im also more confident with it - there's good days and also bad days - went to get ramen with people from work - im finally socializing

• november

thinking about going to seattle - i need the tickets to the eras tour sooo bad - im already so tired of work even tho i need a second job - i think my conversations is getting better - also doing better at work and it makes me so happy - just finished a lot of on going books

• december

just work work work - got sick af - i hate flu but at least its not covid - don't know what we going to do for xmas - im missing all the city events -