this day blows. what's left to not do?

• first block, work is already done, write in my journal without much inspiration or progress, listen to music, can't stop feeling frustrated, then listen to others' stories with a disgusted feeling
• second block, feel alright for a while, then do monotonous work and meet disappointment when the class isn't even there. watch as it all goes downhill; madison's a bitch, get yelled at, blame blame blame away.
• lunch is hurtful, friends fade in and out, can't stand all this stop-and-go. feel left out, ignored, betrayed, forgotten, confused, and unwanted.
• third block meets panic, frustration, desperation, discomfort. hurry up and wait.
• fourth block laugh, feel good, try harder, make it up, fake a smile, shun the attack and let it go, bask in some praise. get things done. feel accomplishment. good thing tomorrow's the play.