• Marie Antoinette
• Cruel Intentions
• Hormones
• Brokeback Mountain
• Sherlock Holmes
• Time-Traveler's Wife
• Trainspotting
• Butterfly Effect
• Hard Candy
• Paper Heart
• the imaginarium of doctor parnassus
• Nine
• The Lovely Bones
• Chocolat
• PS I Love You
• Monsters vs. Aliens
• Persepolis
• Elf
• Gandhi

• I want some freaking salmon chowder!
• I could use some close friends here on campus.
• I really like this boy and...
• ...I wouldn't say no to being his bed buddy =)
• my computer is sort of...blinking...wish I knew what THAT was about
• I want my mail to get here. I'm looking for a textbook, yarn and needles, magazines, and a bank document thingy
• I want to knit. My hands are so empty.
• I wish I was getting my hair cut on Tuesday and not just a consultation
• I wish I was more into partying

• lyrics I love {new}
• I Believe...
• things that influence me
• best memories growing up
• things that surprised me
• ways to make me feel better
• places I'd like to work and what I like about them
• things that hold me back
• things I would sell if I was desperate, in chronological order
• my monster qualities
• my superhero qualities
• things I'd like to say to someone which I'm holding back
• things I've learned about myself
• things that disgust me
• wishes
• pretty words in various languages
• things I want from Etsy
• biggest risks I've ever taken

• caffeine. usually in the form of diet mountain dew
• iPhone
• headphones
• hairbrush
• notebook/pens

• I really fucking miss/hate my exboyfriend
• his best friend is in every one of my classes
• there's nothing to do at school.
• I have no job. no money.
• no drugs. or hardly, anyways.
• I HATE BEING SINGLE (?!?!?!)
• my music is dull. and I don't have time to just suddenly acquire new shit.
• bad moods perpetuate themselves
• caffeine is expensive and makes me not stoned
• I can't really eat, so I haven't got any comfort
• I have no one I can depend on.
• my friends are graduating/leaving for a long while
• I have no summer plans because of the previous issue.
• ugh.

• woke up and went running, go me :)
• played PSP...twice. heh.
• dancing...c'mon, ride the train.
• took a nap, loveeee
• Spongebob! I know!
• ran...literally...into Corey. so weird that we've been living in the same neighborhood for a year without knowing it. lolz
• "What are you running from?"
• the people on the tractors all waving at me..super weird but awesome lol
• talked to Ben, what a little oddity.
• NM smells awesome before the rain
• listening to the storm
• looking at the mountain
• whipped through the test, now it's overrrr
• rockstar.
• new friends at Jess's party. so great.
• I'm digging the new hair serum, it's totally working.

• Lily
• Jackson
• Cyd
• Adam
• Seamus
• Bethany
• Charlotte
• Bella
• Liliana
• Ainsley
• Ariel
• Alfie
• Sebastian

• Vietnam war protests
• Martin Luther King Jr. speeches
• 80's punk shows
• Woodstock

• Lily Allen
• Jena Malone
• Ellen Page
• Paolo Nutini
• Daniel Radcliffe
• Alan Rickman
• Holly Marie Combs
• Alexis Bledel
• Ellen DeGeneres

• read my Bible, pray and pursue a better relationship with Christ
• drink more water
• run
• work on my creative projects
• write more/ whenever I think of it
• finish little projects
• stop convincing myself not to read
• be kinder to my friends and try to grow closer to them
• share my writing with someone
• loosen up around certain people
• download more music, especially from artists I already know I like
• start at least one guerrilla art project

• give me hugs
• call me up randomly/leave sweet myspace comments
• remember little things I mention
• know what I'm thinking
• leave me texts
• take me out

I...

• love Diet Mountain Dew
• hold things really close to read them because my eyesight is terrible
• get along better with guys than girls, but have more girl friends because good guys really are hard to find
• keep lots of secrets from my family
• have chronically sore back and shoulders
• read lots of magazines and keep every one
• look better with a tan
• crave greasy food, except for chips; don't eat chips much
• shop online too much
• love Engrish
• am obsessed with Asian culture
• used to think Hello Kitty was really dumb
• highly value a balance between conceited and self-deprecating

• New Moon
• Character Traits
• Hooked
• Writing Ideas
• The Bell Jar
• HP & Deathly Hallows (reread)
• Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
• Life is Not Fair
• Velvet Elvis
• Edgar Allan Poe anthology

• Redwall
• Babysitters' Club
• Nancy Drew
• Harry Potter
• Series of Unfortunate Events
• Little House on the Prairie
• Amelia Bedelia

making this list, I now understand why my weight is what it is. haha.

• cheese (any kind)
• mexican food
• pizza with pepperoni and sausage
• greek salad
• italian, meatball and steak&cheese subs
• blueberries, and just about anything blueberry flavored, especially muffins
• sweets, esp. chocolate
• hamburgers, etc.
• baked potatoes with butter
• seasoned fries, esp. curly
• frozen grapes
• cucumber salad
• chili
• rice
• chicken pot pie
• asparagus
• broccoli
• any kind of boneless chicken, but especia...

• Food Matters
• Food, Inc
• Media That Matters: Good Food
• The Future of Food
• The New Medicine
• Deconstructing Supper
• Change Your Food, Change Your Life

• knit!
• sketch something
• draw a picture of myself to use for profile pics
• have a photoshoot done, formally or informally...
• explore w-avl and attend Harvest gatherings
• reread Harrypotters
• explore fashion design, beginning with tshirt construction & reconstruction

• Chokechain
• Oh My God
• Do You Remember
• Big Pimpin
• Pork and Beans
• You, Me & the Bourgeoisie
• One Headlight
• Semi-Charmed Life
• LGFUAD
• Grace Kelly
• Underneath It All
• Little Bit remix
• Around the World
• Country Grammar
• Keep the Lights On

• walk and listen to headphones.
• check Facebook and other websites.
• write
• read
• call Cody
• text

• a drum
• a bike I can paint
• some fancy outfits
• a new copy of Deathly Hallows

• opening my gift from Cody :)
• eating dinner with Jenna and the Daugherty's
• the car ride with Jeremy
• knowing the answers to the puzzle in history
• making weekend plans with Jessica while we scraped fences

• movies with narrators
• "Previously, on LOST..."
• Spencer from iCarly
• pacing
• dancing while holding a drink
• superfreckly skin

• finish all the books on my to-read list
• work on actual stories
• figure out what kind of writing suits each story best
• let myself write whatever I want when I feel like it
• comprehend that I'm in charge of where my story is headed
• write constantly
• write more songs and find music for each one
• decide on a name
• turn in those library books
• catch up in my classes
• work up the courage

• the beach
• amusement parks
• fairs/carnivals
• concerts
• bonfires
• hayrides (WHAT? lol)
• fireworks (such as Fourth of July...)

• under a blanket
• in a mosh pit
• in his arms
• in a pool or ocean
• on a balcony
• in the city
• in a cubby (or cardboard box)
• with my friends ANYWHERE
• online
• on a school bus (yep, I actually like it)

• listening to music on the computer and on my mp3 player
• taking walks, listening to music and sometimes making runs to the store
• baking sweets for sweet people
• talking to Cody on the phone for as long as possible
• looking forward to 4th block just to get the chance to ignore his friends
• thinking about reading, but not actually reading
• putting off homework and finally doing it the class before it's due
• not being able to concentrate on anything, ever
• dealing with a lack of sleep
• waiting for warm weather
• worrying about everything
• checking my email and my horoscope (and Cody's)
• painting my nails

• sweet
• gorgeous
• loving
• generous
• hardworking
• diligent
• joyous
• girly

• Kellie
• Alysse
• Jenna
• Sarah B-man
• Cody
• Jeremy S.
• Jessica Sher.
• Susannah Sher.
• Anthony
• Sarah Ba.
• Savy
• Catherine
• Angela
• Derek
• Vicki
• Heather H.
• Heather E.

• Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn
• ✔ go out for ice cream
• ✔ swimming
• water balloon fight/water fight/super soakers
• arcade games
• hot tub
• boat ride
• carnival
• ✔ hiking
• picnic in a park
• zoo/aquarium
• In mall/dept. store we each set off w/ $20 separately to find romantic/fun gift(s) for one another
• ✔ board games/the Things game
• stargazing w/blanket, wine, strawberries & dark chocolate, acoustic guitar...
• Star tripping
• taking turns teaching each other somethin...

• magazines
• guitar players
• cities
• glitter
• comedians

• my aunt reading/explaining newspaper comics to my other aunt
• people who are vain, but unattractive
• Twilight mania. or fads; fads in general.
• salespeople who want to help me (who say, "Can I help you find something?" and I just want to say, "I dunno, you didn't let me try first...")
• environmentally-friendly anything
• scrapbooking

• creating goal lists
• downloading music, making playlists and burning cds
• dreaming up tattoo ideas
• riding golf carts
• talking to Cody
• daydreaming about this summer
• making up songs
• making comparisons
• writing letters
• cranking up the stereo in the LR
• making collages
• dancing
• perfecting my profile
• writing on my blog
• taking pictures, editing pictures
• writing in my notebook
• watching movies that stir my imagination
• writing short stories
• baking
• being inspired by colors

• playing an instrument
• running
• downloading music (more often, anyway)
• going to the library
• dancing
• graffiti
• driving
• working
• hackysack
• making playlists
• writing letters

• I totally steal people's phrases. "I feel like..." "I mean..." "Dang."
• I should get a tattoo on my left hip/pelvic bone.
• Running is tough but really makes me feel good for the rest of the day.
• Cody really IS rubbing off on me. I'm so different from the person I was before he came back into my life.
• Though I can't do it on my own, I can do what I can. All it takes is baby steps.
• Whoa. There are so many things I should be doing right now.

I'll finish this later!

• cds
• makeup
• perfume
• cute socks
• pens and pencils

• how to make resin jewelry
• how to use my camera really well
• how to make music (I'm thinking keyboard at the moment...)
• how to do makeup really well
• capoeira

• watching Across the Universe with Catherine this weekend
• making cookies for Kaitlyn
• making tshirts on friday
• starting the x365 project
• coffee house at school
• my birthday
• Kellie's birthday
• Catherine's birthday
• fundraising for camp
• the beach trip (crossing my fingers)
• Warped Tour =]
• camp
• work crew

this day blows. what's left to not do?

• first block, work is already done, write in my journal without much inspiration or progress, listen to music, can't stop feeling frustrated, then listen to others' stories with a disgusted feeling
• second block, feel alright for a while, then do monotonous work and meet disappointment when the class isn't even there. watch as it all goes downhill; madison's a bitch, get yelled at, blame blame blame away.
• lunch is hurtful, friends fade in and out, can't stand all this stop-and-go. feel left out, ignored, betrayed, forgotten, confused, and unwanted.
• third block meets panic, frustration, desperation, discomfort. hurry up and wait.
• fourth block laugh, feel good, try harder, make it up, fake a smile, shun the attack and let it go, bask in some praise. ge...

• Take risks
• Don't quit before you try. You can't win if you don't try.
• Don't worry about changing your relationship
• Read! lots!
• Write things down, even and especially the little things
• Appreciate little moments
• Love your friends, and build them up
• Stop caring about what everyone thinks; live for yourself
• Life is way too short to be cool
• Do what makes you happy
• Dream big
• Step outside yourself and your problems sometimes, and get a reality check
• People are small part of something so much bigger than ourselves. Remember that you are small.

• hot weather
• thunderstorms
• traveling
• swimming (at the pool and beach)
• flip flops
• luaus
• dancing
• parties
• staying out late, sleeping in
• FREE TIME
• the feel of air conditioner on a sunburn
• getting a tan
• ice cream

• "...but I won't regret 'cuz you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be..."- Merry Happy, Kate Nash
• "Love is the answer

at least for most of the questions in my heart, like Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?"- Better Together, Jack Johnson

• "Sometimes

I wish I was brave I wish I was stronger I wish I could feel no pain I wish I was young I wish I was shy I wish I was honest I wish I was you not I

'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callous So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over

Sometimes I wish I was smart I wish I made cures for How people are I wish I had power I wish I could lead I wish I could c...

at one time, I'd have told you that the greatest thing about love was...

• flirting
• cuddling in the bleachers
• always agreeing on everything
• him trying to spend as much time with you as possible
• him being goofy
• wondering whether he likes you
• having something of his or that he made (even if it wasn't for you)

but now, I think it's more like....

• not needing to flirt, because you already get along
• kissing your best friend
• playful banter
• hanging out in restaurants
• him being serious all of a sudden
• forming your plans for the future around each other

• reading over my shoulder (this is my biggest pet peeve...I immediately freeze and can't write another word)
• parents who make their children call them <sir> and <ma'am>
• gray skies
• flaky people
• math
• fakeness
• grapefruit
• music snobs
• limited thinking/closedmindedness
• conformity
• incorrect spelling and grammar
• mediocrity
• song titles that have nothing to do with anything, much less the song itself