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• clinique chubby sticks - bountiful blush, super strawberry, fuller fig, mega melon, mighty mimosa
• clinique intense chubby sticks - curviest caramel, mightiest maraschino, chunkiest chilli, roomiest rose
• amazing cosmetics amazing concealer
• cover fx concealer
• nars concealer
• face atelier zero minus 1 foundation (white for mixing)- illamasqua also do a white one
• keromask camouflage cream (also has a white mixer)
• bourjois healthy mix shade 51
• clinique anti-blemish solutions foundation
• make up for ever mat velvet foundation
• estee lauder invisible fluid foundation
• lorac pro palette
• anastasia beverley hills brow wiz in cara...

• starships-
• sexy and I know it- LMFAO
• moves like jagger- maroon 5?
• turn me on- david guetta & nicki minaj
• let's get it started- black eyed peas
• jump- van halen
• stronger- kanye west
• gold digger- kanye west
• don't stop the music- rihanna
• applause- lady gaga
• starships- nicki minaj
• call me maybe
• single ladies- beyonce
• telephone- lady gaga and beyonce
• let's dance- david bowie
• get lucky- daft punk
• s&m- rihanna
• chasing the sun- the wanted
• burn- ellie goulding
• break your heart- taio cruz
• sexyback- justin timberlake

• got a job doing GCMS- got on well with the people, liked it a lot.
• got another job, slightly better paid but still not well paid, doing much more stuff and a wider variety of career-helping stuff, with people who are LOVELY.
• Shell Island
• Paris with Becky
• some friends turned out to be kind of shit
• some friends are still lovely
• made new friends as well
• spent more time with Rachel this year, bonded with Becky and Netty too
• mum was having chemo and operations and being ill all year. Now her cancer is all over the place, and terminal.
• depression's back, big surprise
• first crush in two years, first primarily lusty crush on a real person...possibly ever. I'm calling that progress.

• big living room, not little and pokey like in all the rented houses I've lived in
• big kitchen/dining room combined
• bathroom leading off a hallway, NOT through the kitchen or living room
• nice size bedroom
• spare bedroom to use as a study/library/sewing room
• detached or semi-detached if possible- I don't like the way terraced houses are set out, and they don't have insulation or thick walls most of the time. Plus they usually have rubbish gardens and small windows, and no proper parking space
• a leafy garden with plants and grass
• a driveway that's not difficult to drive into
• big windows, lots of light
• french windows leading from the living room/other reception room to the back garden would be nice

• mattress
• bed
• sofa(s)
• shelving etc
• dining table
• chairs
• lots of bookcases
• chest of drawers and wardrobe if needed
• hooks for wall
• TV table
• coffee table/side tables

• While You Were Sleeping
• Bridget Jones's Diary
• 10 Things I Hate About You
• Moulin Rouge
• Pride and Prejudice (both good versions)
• The Sound Of Music
• Finding Nemo (don't judge me)
• Forgetting Sarah Marshall
• Enchanted
• Tangled

• play The Sims
• watch a good DVD I haven't watched a million times
• tidy my room with my music up LOUD
• cook something
• go SOMEWHERE ELSE APART FROM THIS BLOODY ROOM
• read a really good, long story

• fairy lights
• dappled sunlight through leaves on trees
• fireworks
• sunrises and sunsets
• dogs running so their ears flop up and down
• anything arranged in colour order (rainbow order)- accessories in a shop, fabric, thread, beads, sweets, paints, makeup, whatever.
• babies waving their hands and feet around happily
• puppies
• collections of postcards
• modern art
• low, golden sunlight on autumn afternoons
• my family
• a bonfire
• green countryside or landscapes
• candles in the dark

• Sophie
• Lorna
• Alex
• Alice
• Ben
• Andrew
• Caroline
• Ethan
• Lily
• Matthew
• Joshua
• Samantha
• Sam
• Lucy
• Molly

• don't eat out
• finish food in the cupboard
• plan meals ahead, use leftovers when possible
• cook stuff in bulk and freeze
• keep the heating LOW
• make some of own clothes, etc
• monthly TTC pass
• special deal on mobile
• wear glasses sometimes when going out, and wear glasses at home instead of contacts
• make cosmetics last as long as possible
• look for deals, cheap shops and sales
• eat breakfast, bring made lunch
• live somewhere with cheap rent
• buy a flat/house if I'll be staying there more than 3 years
• download things if poss (I don't care if it's legal, I'm poor. If I like them I'll buy them one day when I have money)

• ✔ live in Canada
• ✔ live in France
• ✔ become fluent in french
• ✔ graduate from university
• live in London, at least for a little while
• go diving somewhere warm with tropical fish
• ✔ see the northern lights
• write a book
• get a dog
• ✔ travel
• backpack through Europe
• get a massage
• make love
• own my own home
• ✔ learn how to drive
• learn how to make a quilt
• learn how to make and alter clothes
• watch the IMDB top 100 movies
• learn how to meditate

• ✔ Hunger Games
• ✔ Catching Fire
• ✔ Mockingjay
• The Help
• A Song Of Ice And Fire
• Game Of Thrones
• The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo
• The Perks Of Being A Wallflower
• ✔ World War Z
• The Book Thief
• Les Miserables
• The Grapes Of Wrath
• East Of Eden
• The Fry Chronicles
• lots of books by Diana Wynne Jones
• Catch-22
• Anna Karenina
• Cold Comfort Farm
• ALL of Georgette Heyer's books
• Middlemarch
• The Great Gatsby

• run fast, for ages
• ice skate without being scared
• speak italian
• make my hair go curlier
• drive
• play the piano really well

• make lists
• text or email somebody
• write a blog post
• write in my journal
• read a book
• have a shower and prettify myself
• do some cross stitch
• go for a walk
• explore some of Toronto
• make travel plans
• tidy
• listen to my ipod
• watch a favourite film or TV show
• watch a new film or TV show
• daydream and plan

• UK libel law
• the media twisting the truth so far it's just outright lying and misrepresentation
• the banks and the 1% and their greed and power over political decisions
• climate change and climate change denialists
• prejudice and discrimination against LGBT people
• young people in the UK having much fewer chances in life now due to higher cost of education; depreciation of value of a university degree; the housing market being completely out of a first time buyer's price range; fewer job prospects; public services being cut; retirement age increasing; fewer full time permanent jobs available (they're mostly part time and temporary); and jobs being given to people with decades of experience over graduates, fo...

• makeup
• skincare
• chemistry and science in general (although not compared to other chemists!)
• comedy and comedians
• Doctor Who
• Harry Potter
• the Comedy Store and the Comedy Store Players

• arrested development
• the rest of Dexter
• 30 Rock
• downton abbey
• cranford
• battlestar galactica
• firefly
• game of thrones

• TIM MINCHIN
• Eddie Izzard
• Dara O'Briain
• Ed Byrne
• Jimmy Carr
• Simon Amstell
• Michael McIntyre
• Adam Hills
• Paul Merton
• Steve Steen
• Josie Lawrence
• Andy Smart
• Neil Mullarkey
• Lee Simpson
• Richard Vranch
• Suki Webster
• Tom Wrigglesworth
• Steve Punt
• Hugh Dennis
• John Holmes
• Marcus Brigstocke

• comfy, cosy and casual
• a garden with grass and flowers
• a window seat
• lots and lots of bookcases
• a study/workspace
• space to do arty things and not have to tidy them away
• a comfy sofa
• lots of shelves, drawers and cupboards to organise things
• a kitchen big enough to cook in, with cupboards, drawers, and a fridge/freezer just for me!
• a bathroom with a good shower and a bath too
• space for my dvd collection
• a comfy double bed
• a dressing table with a mirror
• an actual living room so I have a place to hang out and sit that's not my bedroom

• the way the world smells when it's just been raining (wet earth, rain and chlorophyll?)
• warm, melted chocolate
• roast chicken dinner
• jasmine
• freshly baked bread
• freshly cut grass
• morning air
• warm, balmy night air in hot countries
• new books
• bonfires
• hot, spiced apple cider
• cinnamon
• vanilla
• whatever aftershave D used to wear
• chai tea
• satsumas
• strawberries
• ocean air
• clean sheets on my bed

• not revising enough for my A-levels
• not working hard enough in the last year of uni
• not taking an extra year to learn stuff I didn't learn while I was in France
• not making the most of France
• not going to lectures and learning while I was in France
• staying in love with D for so long
• not giving myself a chance to find someone else for so many years
• basing too much of my self-worth on how much D liked me for so long
• not starting to exercise while I was younger
• not being a bit more slaggy as a teenager
• not spending more time with my friends
• spending so much of school being afraid of people making fun of me
• not carrying on with Art for longer, or a...

• Domino's
• Quizno's
• McDonalds
• Veda (indian food)
• EJ's Fry Days
• Chinese Delight
• Shanghai Garden

• USA
• New Zealand
• Fiji
• Vanuatu
• Hawaii
• Somewhere in the Caribbean
• Greece
• Norway
• Antarctica
• India
• Italy (again)
• Ireland
• Tunisia
• Morocco
• Botswana
• Egypt

• write books
• sell paintings and drawings I do
• sell stuff I don't need on ebay
• sell cross stitch things on etsy
• create my own cross stitch patterns
• write a blog and put adverts on it
• have a youtube channel and put adverts on the videos
• make homemade beauty products
• start a small cleaning business
• become an avon lady (is there the same thing for non-avon products?)
• sell british things (I'm in Canada right now- immigrants want stuff from home!)
• get a job at an english pub
• join an agency and do temp office work
• write to chemical companies to see if they have jobs
• apply for the next round of interviews for the EU
• charity fundraising in the street

• large, hard case suitcase with 4 wheels (so it can be wheeled sideways as well)
• weekend bag suitable for taking on a train- easy to carry, not too big. small suitcase?
• day bag for carrying around while on holiday- secure, roomy shoulder bag in case of pickpockets
• carry on bag- could be the same as train/weekend bag or day bag?
• bring a fold up blue owl tote bag in case I buy stuff during the day
• toiletries bag-
• makeup bag
• small makeup bag for putting in handbag
• wallet for travel documents and travel money
• electronics and cables organiser-
• grid-it for random stuff-
• packing cubes-
• portable charger-

• five run away together
• hollow tree house
• the secret island
• the maze runner
• the giver
• roll of thunder hear my cry
• enders game
• do androids dream of electric sheep
• the last starfighter

• go for at least a 20 minute walk every day, or do some other kind of exercise
• get better and better at my job
• organise my room
• look for a place of my own
• put on clothes, wash my face and brush my teeth every day
• try and improve my skin
• eat more healthily- more fruit and veg, less chocolate and fizzy drink
• possibly try out rowing?
• make sure my clothes are clean and ironed, my hair is clean and I am clean for work every day
• socialise
• prepare for work the night before- clothes, shower, lunch, breakfast etc
• get into work before 9am every day
• talk to the guy I fancy, look him in the face and smile
• spend less time lying around in my bed (i...

• 2 months emergency money
• sewing machine and stuff to sew
• outfit and presents for Christine and Greg's wedding
• furniture and moving fees
• trips to London
• 6 months emergency money
• mortgage
• yearly car expenses
• emergency expenses (house repairs etc)

• Rocky Horror Picture Show
• Blink
• Shaun of the Dead
• Shutter Island
• Edward Scissorhands
• Silence of the Lambs
• Psycho
• Buffy The Vampire Slayer :D
• Films of John Wyndham books
• The Nightmare Before Christmas? Bit of overlap there
• Jekyll
• Fright Night!
• Corpse Bride

• we need to talk about kevin
• the artist
• brave

I have...

• fallen in love
• had my heart broken
• recovered from it
• studied abroad
• lived on a different continent
• finished a degree in Chemistry
• synthesized a new compound that no one in the world has made before
• travelled abroad with friends
• stayed in hostels
• stayed in an old railway station in the Scottish highlands
• stayed in a highland farm
• seen a pine marten up close in the wild
• seen a deer in the wild
• been given an offer for Oxford University
• learnt to speak French and German
• met lots of new people and made friends with them

• lasagne
• bolognese
• beef stew
• lentil soup
• cinnamon buns
• fruit (for smoothies)
• bread
• christmas dinner portion
• meatballs
• cookies (in small portions)
• butter chicken
• quiche
• minestrone soup
• macaroni cheese
• cooked bacon
• garlic bread
• tortellini
• hachis parmentier

• chemist
• paralegal
• pharmacist
• optician
• author
• illustrator
• translator
• teacher
• civil servant
• consultant for environmetal/scientific issues
• lab technician
• start my own business
• medicinal chemist
• scientific journalist
• scientific patent writer
• international liaison for chemical company
• chemical engineer

• turkey (with bacon on top)
• sausagemeat stuffing
• gravy
• bread sauce
• cranberry sauce
• redcurrant jelly
• pigs in blankets
• roast potatoes (cooked in goose fat)
• creamed or possibly fondant potatoes
• obligatory vegetables: carrots, sprouts, parmesan parsnips?
• yule log
• mince pies
• possibly a christmas cake- possibly whisky dundee? I like the sound of that
• mulled wine
• mulled apple cider (the canadian kind)
• lebkuchen

• Hogwarts
• Narnia
• Rivendell
• The Shire
• Mallory Towers (or St Clare's)
• the Secret Island!
• Camelot
• Diagon Alley
• Wild Cat Island

Real people (in chronological order):

• Chris
• D
• Alex
• Phil
• Mark
• Pete

Celebrities (in the order I think of them):

• David Tennant
• Tim Minchin
• Richard Armitage
• Sean Biggerstaff
• Bryan Dick (unfortunate name)
• Michael Riley
• Bill Pullman
• Ryan Stiles
• Richard Vranch
• Lee Simpson
• Johnny Depp

• hamster
• guinea pigs
• rabbits
• labrador
• corgi
• any other lovely, medium sized or large dog
• any dog that goes "woof" instead of "yap"

• I'm fat
• I'm stupid
• I'm boring
• no one likes me best
• no one will ever fancy me
• no one will ever love me
• my life will be a useless failure

Well, that was depressing.

These are not necessarily true. These are just the thoughts that upset me and the insults that get too close to the bone.

But I left the "I'm fat" one uncrossed cos that is actually true. It's the mindset about it that changes.

• ice skating
• running
• flirting
• selling things to people
• getting up early when I don't have to
• getting to sleep

• Harry Potter series
• Pride and Prejudice
• Robin Hobb books
• Goodnight Mister Tom
• A Little Love Song
• Cotillion
• other Georgette Heyer books
• Lovestruck
• His Dark Materials
• Swallows and Amazons
• Artemis Fowl
• The Day of the Triffids
• Roald Dahl books and short stories

• orange juice
• peach iced tea
• vimto
• orange juice and lemonade
• apple juice and ginger beer
• hot chocolate
• hot, spiced apple cider
• mulled wine
• pear kopparberg (perry)
• vodka and ginger ale
• JD and coke
• long island iced tea
• coke
• muscat
• chai tea latte
• green chai tea
• vanilla latte or Tim Hortons French vanilla coffee
• mocha

• mind reading
• flying
• invisibility
• shapeshifting
• speaking all languages
• talk to animals
• eidetic or photographic memory

• my dad
• fanfiction
• books
• experience
• TV
• Ros
• talking to people

• friends
• family
• hugs
• people showing they care about me
• comedy
• the Comedy Store Players
• books
• Doctor Who
• really good TV/films
• Friday night comedy podcasts from BBC
• new episode of a favourite TV show
• buying pretty things
• buying cosmetics
• fantastically tasty comfort food
• a beautiful view
• walking somewhere beautiful
• cuddling cute furry animals
• listening to the rain on the window
• the fun kind of drunkeness and the best kind of music to dance to, when they combine perfectly

• working
• job hunting
• eating
• going out drinking
• socialising
• travelling
• reading
• thinking

• slipping on ice
• slipping on anything, come to think of it
• weeping angels in Doctor Who
• dolls/puppets in films that turn their head/move when you're not looking
• insects/things with too many legs
• creepy crawlies going up my nose
• meeting lots of new people with no people I know there as well
• childbirth
• the thought of spending my whole life alone
• never managing to do something with my life

Bad Things

• Work will be horrible and difficult
• Dad's wedding
• Will need to leave the people I like at Quay, may not see them again
• Will need to find and then get used to a new job

Positive Things

• Dan and Cesca's wedding
• Caz and Adam's wedding
• Possible trip to Scotland
• Possible trip to Singapore
• Robert will be back in the UK for a bit

Things I will hopefully try and do

• Get more organised
• Do more exercise
• Eat more nutrients
• Join and do more extracurricular things
• Get something to happen in my romantic li...

• umami paste
• garlic salt
• onion powder
• vanilla
• worcester sauce
• knorr stock pots
• bay leaves
• celery salt
• ginger
• olive oil
• blender
• electric whisk

• No more procrastinating. If something needs to be done, you do it then and there.
• No more eating when you’re down. You’re just going to gain weight and make yourself feel even worse.
• Get to bed earlier. Nothing great happens after 2 am.
• Wake up earlier. You don’t need to see the sun come up, but if the birds are chirping then you should be working.
• Restrict your one-night stands to no more than one person per month. Anything more than that is too much of a gamble to be worth the risk.
• No more “forgetting” to wear a condom.
• Give your liver a break and stop being a short step and stumble away from alcoholism.
• Kick your drug habit and get reacquainted with reality.

• bring it on
• elementary
• how I met your mother
• ironman
• sleepy hollow (TV series)
• orphan black

• ✔ having a job I like
• having a job that pays me good enough money to do fun things and plan for the future, and pays me what I'm actually worth
• living in London
• being able to visit London a LOT (ie having someone I can always stay with no problem, or a second home! and being near a direct train line to London)
• living somewhere pretty
• having my own home and being able to make it homely
• financial solvency
• seeing ALL THE COMEDY
• seeing Matilda the Musical several more times. And several more.
• going to the Comedy Store again
• being able to spend more time with my friends
• seeing my internet/comedy friends again
• living near lots of my friends so I alway...

• I will have something actually planned
• ✔ I will have at least one present (I'll buy one for myself)
• ✔ I will have my driving license
• ✔ I will have a car
• ✔ I will have a job
• I will be living on my own (hopefully)

• The Snowman
• Muppet Christmas Carol
• While You Were Sleeping
• Love Actually
• Miracle on 34th Street
• Doctor Who Christmas specials
• White Christmas
• Disney and Pixar films
• The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe

• daffodils
• cherry blossom
• chinese lanterns
• roses
• crocuses
• ivy
• tiger lily
• tulip
• orchid
• jasmine
• snowdrop
• poppy
• rose hips
• maple leaves
• acorns
• mistletoe
• lilacs
• violets
• bluebells
• forget-me-not
• daisy

• rain pattering on a window or a tent
• the dawn chorus
• horses' hooves
• white noise from a fan
• BBC radio 4
• waves crashing on the shore
• a soothing voice reciting a poem (I like the rhythm of poetry)
• Stephen Fry saying anything
• a choir in an old, echoey stone cathedral
• an orchestra working together perfectly
• piano music
• Doctor Who theme tune
• Tim Minchin saying/doing/singing/playing anything
• wind through the trees
• guinea pigs squeaking
• a baby making happy noises
• Frontier Psychiatrist

MAC eyeshadow

• all that glitters
• patina
• shroom -
• naked lunch?
• woodwinked
• omega
• mulch?
• sable?-apparently a dupe for UD Toasted. don't need.
• texture
• antiqued
• rice paper
• soba?
• brule?-
• era?
• coquette?
• greensmoke?-
• smut?
• honey lust?
• arena?

• ✔ make the most of my time in Canada
• ✔ be friendly and sociable
• do other things when I'm bored-spend less time on the internet/computer
• keep in touch with friends and family
• ✔ figure out what I want to do
• ✔ look for a proper, grown-up job
• ✔ learn to drive
• take charge of/understand/keep track of my own finances
• procrastinate less
• ✔ save money
• lose weight
• eat more healthily
• do more exercise

• books from my "to read" list
• books from my amazon wishlist
• DVDs from my amazon wishlist
• MAC Select cover-up
• Estee Lauder Doublewear foundation
• ✔ colorstay foundation
• ✔ nail buffer
• Mitch Benn CDs
• MAC paint pot
• Anchor evening sun cross stitch kit
• Mirabilia Stargazer cross stitch pattern and materials
• Mirabilia south seas mermaid pattern and materials
• london at dusk cross stitch pattern
• other patterns on my wishlist (check sewandso and crossstitchuk)
• "The United Kingdom of Tardis" tshirt
• clarisonic mia
• heated ceramic rollers

• have a job that interests me
• earn enough to support myself and have money left over for other stuff
• travel to lots of beautiful places
• find someone to share my life with
• spend lots of time with friends and family
• have a home
• make time for the little pleasures in life
• be happy

• I try not to ever be horrible to people or make them feel bad
• I have lots of lovely friends so I must have been doing something right!
• I am kind
• I am clever
• I am cuddly and good at hugging
• I cook FANTASTIC mac and cheese and beef and ale stew
• I have a lot of love to give
• I am good at important, thoughtful conversations
• I have beautiful eyes
• I have lovely hair
• I have an interest in the world and a large variety of conversational topics
• I am funny
• I care about the people who seem left out, sad or lonely
• I am full of dreams

• travelling round canada-
• intensive driving course-
• car
• sewing machine
• rent/mortgage
• all the costs of living on one's own-
• seeing live comedy
• trips to london
• trips to see friends
• holidays/weekend trips to places
• things on my wishlists
• ereader

• van Gogh
• Kandinsky
• Klimt
• Monet
• Degas
• Signac
• Turner
• Mondrian
• Delaunay
• Pollock
• Derain

• watch a TV programme or film I love
• listen to Tim Minchin
• favourite food
• hugs
• conversation with lovely person
• have a shower and make myself feel pretty
• buy something (sad but true)

• facebook
• twitter
• livejournal
• blogger
• gmail
• hotmail
• the student room
• tv freeload
• youtube
• passive agressive notes
• failbook
• lamebook
• college humor
• cracked

• banoffee pie (the kind with the biscuit base)
• beef and ale stew with dumplings
• butter chicken and pilau rice
• cadburys dairy milk
• cajun chicken pasta bake from TGI Fridays or Frankie and Bennys
• cheesy chips
• chicken and chips from a proper chippy
• chicken and stuffing sandwiches
• chicken mac and cheese from Hard Rock cafe
• chicken tikka masala
• chocolate
• chocolate cake
• chocolate cheesecake
• chocolate pots
• christmas dinner
• cinnamon danish
• crispy duck pancakes and hoi sin sauce
• croque monsieur

• a place to live that's all my own-
• a job that pays enough to live on-
• a drivers license-
• a cheap little car-
• to make the most of my time in canada
• to fancy someone who fancies me back
• fun times and conversations with my friends
• to be able to start collecting books because a)I have a place to put them, b)I have the money to buy them, and c)I'm not moving from place to place all the time-
• someone who I can just hang out with for hours- not organise things to do or times to see them and talk, just hang out, for however long, doing something together for a bit then doing our own thing but just in the same room. Not having to entertain them to see them.

• economics
• politics
• child psychology
• British history
• financial advice
• books on my amazon wishlist-read reviews
• biology
• physics
• more chemistry
• art history
• sewing
• making clothes
• making quilts
• canada
• computer programming

• David Tennant
• Johnny Depp
• Tim Minchin
• Richard Armitage
• Lee Simpson
• David Tennant again?

• Urban Decay Naked palette
• Elizabeth Arden 8 Hour Cream
• diffuser
• Olay moisturiser
• Estee Lauder Double Wear foundation
• curling tongs
• hairspray
• Aussie 3 Minute Miracle
• Vaseline Hand and Nail Cream
• Ponds cold cream
• Max Factor Masterpiece Max
• Collection 2000 concealer
• skin clear oil absorbing sheets
• loose powder
• benetint
• eyeliner
• jojoba oil
• benzoyl peroxide
• AHA
• Aussie Miracle Moist shampoo and conditioner

• house in London
• car
• house somewhere beautiful in the country
• long holiday round the world
• furnishing both my houses
• my own library in the houses
• best computer there is
• all the DVDs I want
• all the CDs I want
• all the books I want
• pretty clothes
• loads of expensive makeup
• my own tropical island
• money to my family so they'd never have to worry
• wouldn't have to work so I could do whatever I wanted, not having to worry about how much money it got me
• see lots of comedy shows
• cancer research

• Doctor Who
• Sherlock
• The Big Bang Theory
• The Apprentice
• The Thick Of It

• stop procrastinating
• do something productive
• eat something healthy
• be sociable
• smile

• sense of humour
• confidence
• kindness
• being interesting
• getting my jokes and references
• intelligence
• liking me (that's always good)
• liking cuddling
• good kisser
• easy to talk to
• doesn't need entertaining constantly
• good at talking to people (I'm not so good at that, so I admire that in a person)