[ Pretty much all you need to do for this is write 5 things - these can be people's names, places, emotions, a film title, a song title, band, anything that sums up your day. Do it each day on your listography for a year. Copy and paste this at the top of the list so people know what this list is all about / can also join in with listography project 365. Don't forget to keep it updated and state your start date! My Start Date: November 7, 2017 ]

• 11/07/17 nervous. avoidant. too much food. helping mother till late. not excited about tomorrow.
• 11/08/17 up late. stressed. having a guest for lunch. aklava. nausea.
• 11/09/17 job fair. a walk with Angela. impatience. learning about codependency. popcorn.
• 11/10/17 scared. taking a nap. grocery shopping. this jacket. a bit worried.
• 11/11/17 tired. desk cleaning. back pain. boredom. singing along.
• 11/12/17 lazy. me being a bad critic. upset for no real reason. logic games. crunches.
• 11/13/17 preparing lunch. super nervous. craving coffee while having coffee. standard Monday evening. Stray Dogg.
• 11/14/17 clean hair. grumpy. back pain getting worse. change of plans. thirsty.
• 11/15/17 strange dreams. 1/2 cup of coffee. at the doctor. a long phone call. misunderstanding.
• 11/16/17 a bit better. yet still in pain. youtube. badly organized. feeling (and being) enormous.
• 11/17/17 160 lbs. buying wine glasses. being told I sound cute. WTF, Jesse Lacey? panicky.
• 11/18/17 motionless. not taking enough care of myself. distracted. instagram stories. envy.
• 11/19/17 barely slept. not procrastinating. sweets. finished a book. moody.
• 11/20/17 ugh. doing nothing. a messy room. mother being moody. unpleasantness.
• 11/21/17 losing things. easily irritated. sorting items in my bag. leg pain. too much popcorn.
• 11/22/17 late. a short walk with Angela. mother's Goodreads. cut my fringe. irritated by a TEDx talk.
• 11/23/17 tests and conversation. The Black Heart Procession. hanging out with dad. rather sensitive. getting ready for the trip.
• 11/24/17 waking up with back pain. postponing the trip. helping mother. grocery shopping. cold room.
• 11/25/17 postponing again. milk and biscuits. wishing I had nicer hair. wishing I had a nicer life. sad for not attending yet another concert.
• 11/26/17 overusing the snooze option. rearranging music folders. hungry non-stop. fixing and "fixing" the phone. anxious.
• 11/27/17 in a bad mood. refusing to eat. very nervous. 4 hours in a bus. ♥.
• 11/28/17 Mr. Robot S03E03. guitars and a kitty. several tram rides. Infinity Loop. milkshakes.
• 11/29/17 sharing bed with Hope (a dog). McDonald's food. Snatch. R's tiny job. silly.
• 11/30/17 sleeping badly. rainy. Kingsman: The Golden Circle. wasting time. really irritated.

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• 12/01/17 not sticking to plans. cosmetics shopping. disappointed. shrugs. headache.
• 12/02/17 new stores. burgers for lunch. slowness. helping R clean. snoooooow.
• 12/03/17 photographing. buying snacks. hugs and kisses. bus ride home. catching up.
• 12/04/17 didn't sleep well. overeating. flickr and instagram. watching my parents' friend on TV. moving the plants.
• 12/05/17 hiding from sunlight. mother hugging a birch tree. exploring christmas decoration isles in store. offended. Cheyenne's vlogmas.
• 12/06/17 2 missed calls from Angela. experimenting with paper. reading. relationship thoughs. emotional.
• 12/07/17 expecting Angela's phone call. browsing listography. my lousy pen. also, lousy handwriting. bad habits.
• 12/08/17 a bad morning. youtube. 2 cups of coffee. mother's nasty comments. too many ideas, I guess.
• 12/09/17 wanting to decorate. not overreacting. with mother at her acquaintance's. broke a mirror. preparing dessert for Sunday.
• 12/10/17 overslept. trying out new coffee making method. one email sent. bathroom cleaning. The Catcher in the Rye.
• 12/11/17 overslept again. kids playing under my window. sweet coffee. apathetic. The National.
• 12/12/17 noise from the outside. Stray Dogg. tweets. too much sugar. ebooks.
• 12/13/17 up at 3:30 PM. stomachache. scheduling an appointment. sandwiches. setting several alarms.
• 12/14/17 with Angela running errands. irritated by strangers. random vlogs by Roxanne. too much caffeine. hating my weight.
• 12/15/17 at Angela's. neighbours gathering at our home. underwear shopping. a good day. till it was a bad day.
• 12/16/17 not regretting staying up all night. inspired (kind of). finished two books. crêpes. needing R.
• 12/17/17 up at 2 PM. keeping a promise. missing. destructive. blah.
• 12/18/17 bad habits. facebook friends making me angry. replying to Elena. drinking enough water. noodles.
• 12/19/17 apathetic. buying a cheap milk frother with dad. bathroom sink malfunction. hazelnut cookies. mother re-telling a book.
• 12/20/17 angry. preparing soup. going through old notebooks. wasting pen and paper. freezing.
• 12/21/17 skipping breakfast. apathy. going to the library. being reprimanded over the phone. not wanting to participate in anything.
• 12/22/17 out with parents. window shopping. bad hair. homemade hot chocolate. searching songs.
• 12/23/17 exhausted. quiet. nothing going right. nausea. filling in my health tracker.
• 12/24/17 up at 10 AM. "winter cleaning". starting to get nervous becacuse of the end of December. headache. thinking about Damien and Lisa.
• 12/25/17 bad news. offended. plumber. stuck in my room. trouble falling asleep.
• 12/26/17 grocery shopping. too many cola drinks. more winter cleaning. too much food. anxious.
• 12/27/17 6 missed calls. at Angela's. I'm happy she's happy. trying to figure out gifts for R's family. illusions.
• 12/28/17 unwell. random errands. wrapping gifts. decorating. a tiny bit envious.
• 12/29/17 so much negative energy. laundry. not knowing how to pack. sad. reluctant.
• 12/30/17 up at 7:30 AM. 4-hour-long bus ride. R. The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. sharing bed finally.
• 12/31/17 final preparations. Star Wars. big dinner. gifts. discussion.

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• 01/01/18 sleeping in. more Star Wars. junk food. a bad feeling. his attention disorder (or sth).
• 01/02/18 didn's sleep well. even more Star Wars. rainy. fast food. nervousness.
• 01/03/18 spending money. helping a foreigner. half of a proper walk. sending photos to Angela. finishing the trilogy even though we're tired.
• 01/04/18 up late (unfortunately). packing. Steam artwork. bus ride home. irritated.
• 01/05/18 not being a good daughter. yelling. home alone, at last. rearranging my closet. so anxious that it makes me cry.
• 01/06/18 uncomfortable. quick lunch. Christmas eve. TV. cutting vegetables.
• 01/07/18 Christmas lunch. listography problems. guests. R's video. butterflies in stomach.
• 01/08/18 not doing much. nausea. watching a game show. making plans for tomorrow. worried.
• 01/09/18 slowness. distracted. sending an email. random pretty IG accounts. body lotion.
• 01/10/18 the doctor appointment. cooking spaghetti for lunch. at friend's. chatty. tired.
• 01/11/18 hanging out with Angela. unproductive. making sandwiches. emailing back a photographer. nausea talk with R.
• 01/12/18 not being criticized. discussing grammar with parents. This Will Destroy You. green peas. do I cut my bangs or not?
• 01/13/18 windy. BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge videos. tidying room. skipping dinner. watching (and enjoying) a New Year's Eve TV show.
• 01/14/18 lucky. hiding in my room. double dinner. scrobbling. new (private) lists.
• 01/15/18 scared. barely slept (because scared). slowness. fake lists. sore throat.
• 01/16/18 coming down with something. reading. confused. in a blah mood. unexpected email.
• 01/17/18 really unwell. got prescriptions. mint tea. kind of jealous. headache.
• 01/18/18 can barely speak. 10 years of last.fm. skipping coffee. hungry all the time, though. early in bed.
• 01/19/18 a bit better. the church. disappointed. avoidant. bubble bath.
• 01/20/18 hurried. peach and apple juice. online searching for a job. breakfast for dinner. Google Docs nightmare.
• 01/21/18 small errands. napping. (trying) writing resumes. anxious. up all night.
• 01/22/18 feeling miserable. still unsure if I want a different haircut. ANGELA'S GOOD NEWS! mother's dissatisfied. overwhelmed.
• 01/23/18 distracted. trying out something book related. moving furniture. preparing food makes me happy. Stuck in Love.
• 01/24/18 careful. random ideas. so cold in my room. cornbread. research.
• 01/25/18 lazy. too much chocolate. plans for Saturday. bittersweet feeling. Dead Poets Society.
• 01/26/18 irritable. negativity is in the air. didn't buy a present (didn't even look for one). feeling guilty for no real reason. wasting paper.
• 01/27/18 bad-tempered. gift shopping. stressed. dinner with Angela and her friends. should've held my tongue (at home).
• 01/28/18 all over the place. quiet. a short walk. pretending I'm busy. setting several alarms.
• 01/29/18 ouch. uneventful day. proud of self for not reacting wrong. blues. again with the alarms.
• 01/30/18 procrastinator. feeling panicky. editing the resume. her. catching up.
• 01/31/18 almost gave up. sent the application. going for a walk much needed. sharing. a bit sad.

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• 02/01/18 nervousness. pessimistic. craving chocolate. youtube in the background. passwords.
• 02/02/18 ignoring the alarm. phone trouble. bad mood. facebook lists. unwell.
• 02/03/18 can't leave the bed. empty-minded. grocery shopping. making chocolate pudding. rain.
• 02/04/18 unaware of the time. pretending to be someone else. funny musicians on TV. building a fictitious library. a good day, I think.
• 02/05/18 tea instead of coffee. folding clothes. a stray cat. hazelnut cookies. I think I'm jealous.
• 02/06/18 bad at English. tired. I need a job. chocolate. Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close.
• 02/07/18 rather lifeless. went to the library, though. not eating bread today. at the neighbour's. apple and cinnamon tea.
• 02/08/18 upset. preparing lunch. doing nothing the entire afternoon. both patient and impatient. headache.
• 02/09/18 forgetful. answering a phone call from a stranger. a sad day. wishing I could go window shopping. cookies recipes.
• 02/10/18 repeating myself. editing my want-to-read list. buying house cleaning products. creating free hard-disk space. yoga on my mind.
• 02/11/18 too slow. eating unhealthy food. a short walk while it was snowing. baking cookies. irritated though I shouldn't be.
• 02/12/18 M's divorce news. too much sad. chrome extensions. kind of decided when to travel. unproductive.
• 02/13/18 rushed. being made fun of. bored. pointless. new phone wallpaper.
• 02/14/18 home alone for a bit. sudoku. joined a forum. fell in love with a skirt. I believed tomorrow was Wednesday.
• 02/15/18 "stronger-willed" than usual. International Childhood Cancer Day. watching a film with Dad. DIY ideas. High Violet.
• 02/16/18 same DIY ideas. the book fair. more comfortable than usual when among people. new tea packet. inspired by airbnb.
• 02/17/18 cleaning. missing R. pizza experiment. hating my hair. dry skin.
• 02/18/18 house chores. baking cookies. having a (loud) conversation with parents. overeating. feeling low.
• 02/19/18 refusing to leave bed. packing. a pleasant encounter. 300+ km. warm.
• 02/20/18 fast food. The Force Awakens. impatient. doing the dishes. watching TV.
• 02/21/18 in a bad mood. OKNOTOK. with R and his friend. french fries. going to bed at 11 PM.
• 02/22/18 sandwiches. craving chocolate. a loud talk. Lady Bird. feeling like a mess.
• 02/23/18 fried chicken. Westworld. errands. not communicating well. dizzy.
• 02/24/18 laughing in bed. filming. lunch with R and his parents. bus ride home. chatty.
• 02/25/18 typical Sunday. jotting down ideas. pinterest. new pasta recipe. going to bed late even though I should be up early tomorrow.
• 02/26/18 a doctor appointment. at Angela's. sick because of the sugar intake. Dad's stressed. love.
• 02/27/18 hiding under the covers. my parents' friend is in hospital. scared. too much bread. scatterbrained.
• 02/28/18 sunny, but cold. measured self. trying out a bread recipe. an unexpected message from a fellow student. sadness.

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• 03/01/18 nothing according to plan. late lunch. a walk in the snow. drinking coffee again. a rather interesting film.
• 03/02/18 such awful news. crying every now and then. having little energy. pale. I hate this day.
• 03/03/18 anxious. the funeral (and the orchestra). helping out as much as I can. still dumbfounded. a long, tiring day.
• 03/04/18 not enough sleep. lazy. might be PMS-ing. homemade pizza. an urge to get better at French.
• 03/05/18 dry skin. rearranged items in the pantry. horseshoe braid attempt. another new pasta recipe. negativity.
• 03/06/18 house chores. rearranged items in the kitchen drawers. burnt cookies. worried. hiccups.
• 03/07/18 overslept. french fries. searching for inspiration with Dad. increased appetite. waiting.
• 03/08/18 Happy International Women's Day. stressful gift shopping. strong coffee. making dessert to celebrate the holiday. failing to convert videos.
• 03/09/18 healthy breakfast. clean windows. getting organized. unhealthy dinner. pen and paper.
• 03/10/18 had a bad a dream. farmer's market. needing (or just wanting) a new bag. a short message. spent a lot of my time in the kitchen.
• 03/11/18 overslept. spring-like weather. less self-conscious than usual. helping A. plan her outfits. lousy communication will be the death of us.
• 03/12/18 overslept again. green tea. playing with my ex-flatmate's niece. a weird thought (that I can't wait to get a suntan). doing the wrong thing.
• 03/13/18 time wasted. lists. stationery shopping with Dad. sad. old blog posts.
• 03/14/18 missed calls. spinach. making a wishlist. procrastinating making an appointment. judged.
• 03/15/18 restricted. (always) cleaning (something). enjoyed an evening walk. painful realizations. confusion.
• 03/16/18 lying in bed for two hours before getting up. rearranging the wardrobe. gmail settings. not creative. terrible memory.
• 03/17/18 honey. a regular Saturday. not buying junk food. fixing my jacket pockets. a start.
• 03/18/18 rain woke me up. several short messages. restless heart. experimenting. thirsty.
• 03/19/18 motionless. questioning. apathy. a bad day. hot water will do me good?
• 03/20/18 still reserved. small errands. protecting my privacy (in a wrong way). baking cookies. still wanting to do something using my hands.
• 03/21/18 a headache (throughout the entire day). watching youtube videos. not being helpful. tiredness. reading.
• 03/22/18 a stomachache. rescheduled a meet-up. got prescriptions. Oscar. cold feet.
• 03/23/18 not enjoying the snow. at Angela's. St John's wort tea. silly joys. mistakes when typing.
• 03/24/18 overeating on purpose. an interesting read. losing patience. browsing bookdepository. need to be disciplined.
• 03/25/18 dizzy. gift wrapping. 4 hours at neighbour's. a short argument with mother. accidentally waking up R. by calling him late.
• 03/26/18 discomfort. patience. cleaning. bread with seeds. ambitious (sort of).
• 03/27/18 decisive. grocery shopping. browsing job offering sites. updating my linkedin profile. baking a cake.
• 03/28/18 finished making the cake. hating my face. tutorials. learning about dysthymia. hand skin redness.
• 03/29/18 maybe tomorrow. impatient. guests. emotional. wanting to belong.
• 03/30/18 not knowing what to do with my self. outside with A. convinced mother to make another cake. feeling strange. baking a cake, again.
• 03/31/18 my mother's birthday. not satisfied with the cake this time. shopping with A. ouch. in a good mood, though.

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• 04/01/18 sleepy. the watch-later list. currently obsessed with backpacks. the strange feeling again. fairy lights.
• 04/02/18 on track. phone battery giving me troubles. dusting. 2 cups of coffee. not inventive.
• 04/03/18 up after noon. planting lavender. travel bug. helpless. almost all day in pyjamas.
• 04/04/18 up at 10. quiet-ish arguments with mother in public. finally had my hair cut. Easter shopping. Maggie's Plan.
• 04/05/18 a slow start. went to the library. just sad. overeating. polyvore shutting down?!
• 04/06/18 failing. half-honest. irritability. nausea. upset.
• 04/07/18 woken up by mother. house chores. would rather not exist. watching a film with parents. a long day.
• 04/08/18 sleeping in. Easter day. enjoying the evening weather. not enjoying my mother's comments. hollow.
• 04/09/18 high-calorie breakfast. ironing while listening to music. wordpress. heyclaire's beauty. bad habits.
• 04/10/18 socializing. documents. curiosity. salads. should probably start a food diary?
• 04/11/18 avoidant. with A. and her husband. tiredness. failing to cook rice so it's tasty. trying to read.
• 04/12/18 too hot for April. olive green dresses. packing (for nothing, it appeared). trembling hands. smooth skin.
• 04/13/18 home alone for few hours. cleaning the desk. late. cappuccino. absorbing negative energy.
• 04/14/18 bags under my eyes. the farmer's market. ice-cream. concentrated. links.
• 04/15/18 cloudy. the bride. just a regular Sunday. nervousness. nostalgic.
• 04/16/18 nice hair day. ♫. texting A. laughing because of a game show. remembering I should hurry up with the replies.
• 04/17/18 an orange top. in a good and a bad mood simultaneously. speaking my mind to A. introversion kicking back. Hotel Chevalier.
• 04/18/18 going to the hairdresser with mother. window shopping for handbags with A. needing R. finally a good rice dish. saving articles to read later.
• 04/19/18 the job fair. new jeans. spinach. out among trees. tired feet.
• 04/20/18 calmness. some time spent in an empty flat. everything about Mary! kind of wishing I worked as a shop assistant. missing studying English a bit.
• 04/21/18 an ugly argument. hanging up on R. choosing words later on. need to walk more. still a bad sleeping pattern.
• 04/22/18 didn't dream well. riding a bike. the small spring onion garden. playing with a family friend's dog. washing machine malfunctioning.
• 04/23/18 too lazy to get up. seeking isolation yet (see next point). helping A. with the contract. not feeling good about stuff. drawn to watch Mary again.
• 04/24/18 waking up late. preparing lunch. measuring self. sending out an application for a job. supergreat and exciting news (and me overwhelmed by happiness).
• 04/25/18 feeling kind of shaky. uncertainties. keeping A. company. not talking back. managing to send a reply at last.
• 04/26/18 this getting-up-and-out-of-bed business sucks. caught in the rain. extremely irritable. hateful, too. hungry.
• 04/27/18 awful dreams. inconsistency. helping A out. getting nervous. neighbors having a somewhat loud party on the roof terrace (ugh).
• 04/28/18 semi-good mood. time wasted. ignored. not trying, basically. iced coffee.
• 04/29/18 cherry chocolate pudding cake. feeling more self in a way. sent one somewhat lengthy message. spilled coffee. in need of courage, that is confidence.
• 04/30/18 handwashing some clothes. unsuccessful shopping. accidental hairdo. too much popcorn. the negativity is making my chest like it's about to burst.

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• 05/01/18 ticking off some boxes. indoors, mostly. chit-chat. thinking about the past. need to organize.
• 05/02/18 didn't hear the alarm. offended (and even more insecure). house chores. designing. mother's stubbornness.
• 05/03/18 lacking energy. making changes to the design. running errands. stressed. packed.
• 05/04/18 repacking. gosh, my nerves! not enjoying the bus ride. a headache. together at last.
• 05/05/18 sleeping in. questioning self in a way. disagreement. late night shopping. late night guitar playing.
• 05/06/18 today. was. a. happy. day.
• 05/07/18 up at 3 PM. The Last Jedi. having dinner with his family. better communication. an all-nighter.
• 05/08/18 talking about the future. going to buy breakfast by myself. moody. slept throughout the afternoon. Black Panther.
• 05/09/18 trouble getting up. computer stuff. needed to be alone with R and just enjoy our time out, however: (see next point). casually arguing. Mommy.
• 05/10/18 postponing the trip back till the next day. a huge amount of dishes to do. making burgers with R. Get Smart. overeating.
• 05/11/18 kept being woken up by R. organizing my suitcase. my bus ride lasted 4.5 hours. really chatty. lazy.
• 05/12/18 out of place. strawberries. a quick lunch. arranging which things to move. not enjoying the rain.
• 05/13/18 the move. in the countryside for the first time in years (for a few hours only, though). barely spending time at home. a short chat with Angela. disorganized.
• 05/14/18 up at 7 AM because of an appointment. craving sweets. been denied simple joys. cleaning up. not doing anything, really.
• 05/15/18 old habits. trying to set up an Etsy page. ignoring my feeling hungry. Ana Never. coveting a watch.
• 05/16/18 feeling lighter. getting prescriptions. materialistic. eager to DIY something. Michelle's happiness list.
• 05/17/18 a chocolate cappuccino for breakfast. R's dad got hurt. hearing things that piss me off. binge-watching The Home Primp videos. back pain.
• 05/18/18 didn't take meds. cleaning cleaning cleaning! so disappointed with people. a headache. somewhat lost.
• 05/19/18 not inspired. trouble concentrating. self-conscious. meeting up with Angela (finally). what's up with the headache?!
• 05/20/18 can't keep still. unfriendliness. a smoothie. missing music. note to self: be kinder.
• 05/21/18 no luck. writing a document. a walk after rain. stuffed. amazed-ish.
• 05/22/18 grocery shopping. an early lunch. at my ex-flatmate's. strawberry dessert. browsing Etsy.
• 05/23/18 wanting to hide. found an old hairbrush. cherries. crying. trying to figure out ligatures.
• 05/24/18 slept badly. haribo gummy bears. helping A. clear her kitchen cabinets. a fail of an evening. my (friendship) feelings got hurt.
• 05/25/18 fruits for breakfast. a short chat. finished a book. slightly more confident than usual. baking.
• 05/26/18 moody. finishing making the cake. feeling useless. iced coffee. a lot of information.
• 05/27/18 making plant wreaths. found the notebook! a messy head. the need to walk. even more information.
• 05/28/18 the library. bought a dress. zucchini experiment. mother making me nervous. feeling like there's something wrong.
• 05/29/18 sleepy. not my day, apparently. cherry picking. playing with my parents' friend's dog. finally updating this list.
• 05/30/18 a neighbour visiting. not tidying up. half of a DIY project (full of mistakes). disorganization. bad spelling.
• 05/31/18 heartache while dreaming? in a bad mood till later in the day. "finishing" my project (and realizing I need to repeat certain steps). feeling rather good about myself (that is, my accomplishment).

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• 06/01/18 wow, May passed so fast. sent congratulations to a high school friend. an eventless afternoon. vanilla hand cream. this!
• 06/02/18 staying in PJs even when our neigbour came by. forgetting I have tea. 2 and a half hours with Angela. popcorn for dinner. tips for writing resumes.
• 06/03/18 no privacy. caught the cleaning bug. the scent of linden trees in the air after the rainy afternoon. R jammin' in a studio! Scary Pockets.
• 06/04/18 met my mother's new clients. good energy. a thunderstorm. preparing dinner. browsing pinterest.
• 06/05/18 not sure if I'd leave the apartment. cutting my fringe. quite moody. in need of some sort of action or productivity in my life. just tired.
• 06/06/18 still tired. preparing lunch. at parents' friends'. fresh, delicious raspberries. wishlists.
• 06/07/18 Olive Kitteridge (the book). a four-hour-long nap (instead of a full night sleep). saving images. being the listener. curiosity and willingness that I'm sure will wear off after the initial couple of days.
• 06/08/18 fuzzy in my head. the news. trying to distract myself. feeling a wee bit more positive about my body (not hating myself as usual, that is). not being able to find a song I heard and liked.
• 06/09/18 woken up by the noise coming from the other room. wasting time. curious. trying to glue something. realizing that I get tired of new things very quickly.
• 06/10/18 trying to be helpful. can't stand the weather. back to zero confidence. burned vegetables. feeling like crap overall.
• 06/11/18 sick throughout the day. reading in bed a bit. skipping meals. random videos. aching.
• 06/12/18 sleeping in. helping mother with the kilim base. The Forsyte Saga on TV. PMS? wasting some more time.
• 06/13/18 still not feeling great. avoidant. my stomachache. a mistake. defeated.
• 06/14/18 unmotivated. always hungry. unpleasant (and aware of it). Radiohead instrumental covers. journal envy.
• 06/15/18 drawing calendars. upcycling. making my dad laugh. vanilla pudding. making plans (in my head).
• 06/16/18 reading till the morning. ♫. wiping the floors. how big the day is! (now that I've been up and moving since 9 AM). a breakdown.
• 06/17/18 not knowing how to put up with the hot weather. birthday-gift-to-be out of stock! not patient enough to listen to stories about my ex-flatmate's husband. saying yes to going sunbathing this summer (though unsure if I actually will agree to expose myself). these small interests that bug me.
• 06/18/18 can't stop thinking about the birthday gift. socializing. superficial. lazy. nothing, really.
• 06/19/18 waiting. stressed. had to take a nap. watching 3 football games with Dad. not sticking to my diet.
• 06/20/18 so sleepy. in a bad mood. should contact Angela but can't bring myself to do so. eating junk food. so unproductive that it makes me anxious.
• 06/21/18 a slow start. window shopping with mother. arguing over stupid things. finishing Oona & Salinger. checking the grammar.
• 06/22/18 clean hair. trousers too big. irritated but trying to keep quiet. hot chocolate. envious.
• 06/23/18 woken up to go meet someone. being taught how to use an industrial sewing machine. can't tell if parents are pleased or not. a short chat with Angela. lousy concentration.
• 06/24/18 helping with the lunch. waiting for a phone call. learning something new via youtube. dinner gone wrong. ironing and folding clothes to subdue my nervousness.
• 06/25/18 fear of being late. day one of trial work period. not very talkative. craving sweets. couldn't keep my eyes open after midnight.
• 06/26/18 too much sleep but feeling I hadn't had enough. feeling enormous. non-chatty environment mostly. better, yet making the same mistakes. irritated but not really.
• 06/27/18 failed to stick to plan. helping. slowness. stuffed. reading before bed.
• 06/28/18 feeling funny. not knowing how to dress. being told I wouldn't get better with time. cherry pie. a serious talking to.
• 06/29/18 one task done. wet from the rain (despite my umbrella). asking for advice. 74 t-shirts. R having good intentions.
• 06/30/18 arranging to see Angela tomorrow. the weather is killing me! improvement. a kitty (I couldn't bring home with me). disappointing mother once again.

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• 07/01/18 managing to get up on time. having lunch with Angela and her friend. wishful thinking. coming down with something. not enough Internet.
• 07/02/18 unready. people from the other shift. 130 tops. it's day six and not getting better. furious with a book character (or more of them).
• 07/03/18 sensitive. organizing my bag items. a slow and hot day. watermelon. scared for my knowledge of English.
• 07/04/18 almost late. learning something new. messing up everything. awfulness. checking email finally.
• 07/05/18 sweets. fixing the mistakes. slowing down on purpose. more sweets. going through feeds quickly.
• 07/06/18 motionless. regretting wearing the looser top. getting the hang of the sewing thing, I think. too many wafers. helplessness.
• 07/07/18 bloated. dealing with needles and threads all by myself. missing R a lot. a bit of alone-ish time. clumsy.
• 07/08/18 an entire day at home. tidying. ♫. popcorn for dinner. procrastinating.
• 07/09/18 moody. mango juice. something I can't explain. hope. nervous in advance.
• 07/10/18 a long to-do list, but little time. self-conscious. a bit better. stomachache, of course. curious.
• 07/11/18 not wanting my dream to end. having no clue about programming languages. such a disappointing day job-wise. Dearest is coming on Saturday!! overwhelmed with so much.
• 07/12/18 day off. impatient mother. tidying. not well in general. overthinking and worrying in advance.
• 07/13/18 another day off. running errands. finishing touches. anxious. a phone call that lasted too long.
• 07/14/18 waiting. family! painting with Dearest. emotional. a terrible headache.
• 07/15/18 colors. two iced coffees. texting Angela. uneasiness. we talk more (openly) when we're apart.
• 07/16/18 up late. short phone calls. hopeful. in my pajamas the entire day. finished Word documents.
• 07/17/18 putting stuff away. gmail settings. poor concentration. finding ironing satisfying. unproductive.
• 07/18/18 mixed feelings. saving cake for later. an apple-watermelon cider. playing with google calendar. a small reply.
• 07/19/18 making lunch. friendship uncertainty. at the bookstore. at my ex-flatmate's. making no sense.
• 07/20/18 gift shopping. told to show up at work tomorrow. such joy! good hair day. dinner with Angela and her friends.
• 07/21/18 feeling somewhat off. payday. clothes. forgotten. not inspired enough.
• 07/22/18 bad dreams. time just flying by. at my ex-flatmate's again. forgetful. breakfast food for dinner.
• 07/23/18 updates. listening to R playing the guitar (and singing) via phone ♡. finishing the skirt. pizza dinner with parents. demotivated and anxious.
• 07/24/18 organizing bits and bobs. eating my snacks which I should have saved for Thursday. drinking a loooot of water. someone to look up to. fallen asleep fast.
• 07/25/18 3 hours with Dunja. with nearly no internet connection. almost caught in heavy rain. jitters. not knowing how to pack.
• 07/26/18 2 hours with Dunja. lost little money. packing. traveling with bff (!). talking with R till late.
• 07/27/18 R making us sandwiches. Ready Player One. random episodes of Parts Unknown. too much dessert. indecisive.
• 07/28/18 up late. decided against the concert. more Parts Unknown. finally meeting T. an hour long walk home.
• 07/29/18 in bed till 2 PM. wanting to prove I'm right. misunderstandings. sitting outside by myself for an hour. finding common ground at last.
• 07/30/18 R's work troubles. barely standing the weather. not doing much. moody. Hot Fuzz.
• 07/31/18 talking about money. nervousness. spending time with amazing people ♥. watching random videos with R. up till late.

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• 08/01/18 packing slowly. misread the timetable. crying at the bus station. online. not knowing whether I really enjoy my family time.
• 08/02/18 had to make a phone call. with Angela for about 20 minutes. overwhelmed. downloading apps. on repeat.
• 08/03/18 doing laundry. editing music folders. craving coffee. Fran's Hastings video made me cry. late grocery shopping.
• 08/04/18 going to the butcher on my own. helping mother with the dessert. on the roof balcony with neighbors. tidying. slowly catching up.
• 08/05/18 making a mess in the kitchen. can't bring myself to write emails. mother talking to her cousin via Viber. arranging to see Angela and her friend tomorrow. discussing feminism and stuff with R till 3AM.
• 08/06/18 dad playing with telephones. a new bag. tiny problems. raspberry liqueur. tense.
• 08/07/18 exhausted. delaying a task. the international dance festival. feeling stupid. not knowing what I'm doing.
• 08/08/18 my neighbour's wi-fi. not helpful. having some private time. too slow (when answering test questions). just sad.
• 08/09/18 avoidant. a job opportunity. pinterest. The Swell Season. too much caffeine.
• 08/10/18 irritable. forgetting to drink water. with Angela. trying things out. realizing it's not Saturday.
• 08/11/18 keeping a promise. funny parents. sort of organized. should really avoid caffeine. restart.
• 08/12/18 typical Sunday. wearing a skirt. no self-care. mostly angry. cravings.
• 08/13/18 panicky. researching. ♫. sudoku. reading.
• 08/14/18 had to make a phone call. a job interview (?). more sudoku. 7 up. with little energy.
• 08/15/18 had to make another phone call. waiting (for nothing). cleaning. wasteful. idk.
• 08/16/18 a slow but enjoyable morning. preparing lunch. should contact ex-flatmate but can't bring myself to do so. disorganized. no self-control.
• 08/17/18 a feeling that the day would be quite boring. Radiohead. distracted. again, no self-control. didn't leave the apartment all day.
• 08/18/18 a giant to-do list. bad spelling. browsing listography. no luck. back to normal.
• 08/19/18 being calm (without trying). giving up. forgotten passwords. not myself. up till late.
• 08/20/18 reluctance. definitely a job interview. feeling lousy. procrastination. a small concert.
• 08/21/18 worried. slow. sad. quiet. tired.
• 08/22/18 not willing to talk. still no sign of test results. managing to restore my contacts list. a short walk with Angela. criticized because of a minor thing by mother.
• 08/23/18 listing books. hating ny handwriting. too lazy. popcorn! watching a concert on TV.
• 08/24/18 uneasiness. at my ex-flatmate's place. writing down instructions. nodding. watching another concert on TV.
• 08/25/18 the market. remembering to buy sweets (of course). feeling odd. cold, too. trying to organize.
• 08/26/18 up early. old habits. out with mother. panicky. Rachel won!

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