• Farbe (BEST. BAND. EVER. lately, i have been a sucker for music in german. okay, i still filter them and do not listen to every single one i stumble upon. but still.)
  • Hunger by Roxane Gay (a beautifully raw memoir, hihgly recommended to read)
  • fall-scent. to be more specific, the smell of rotting leaves hah, not to gross you out but they indeed do start rotting once they hit the ground.)
  • First Reformed (Ethan Hawke plays the role of a priest in rural America, and does perform magnificently! he has quickly become one of my all-time favorite actors ever, not only in Before Midnight - etc, so in the entire Before-trilogy - did he do an amazing job but also this one, the First Reformed, IS SO GREAT. however, i still have to dig myself deeper into his works.)
nov 4 2018 ∞
nov 4 2018 +
  • succesfully get prepared for a Sprachprüfung B2 Deutsch
  • get myself into the habit of writing more essays and IN PROSE
  • read more in English. period. (poems too!)
  • halve my movie-list on IMDB (by watching half of the list, obviously)
  • meet (and get to know eventually) an international student - and guide, help them in the fall semester
  • listen to more classical music and be able to recognize and differentiate between them after hearing only the first few notes
  • also speak more in German
  • save money so that i could get a new tat
  • visit all the lectures i have on my timetable
aug 4 2018 ∞
sep 16 2018 +
  • this album: Mild Orange-Foreplay
  • the artist Mondo Grosso
  • Miley Cyrus singing Jolene (i am actually pretty surprised that I find it good because I am not so keen on Miley in general)
  • CosRX BHA solution/essence (CosRX is magic)
  • the movie Singing in the rain (ffs, I hate musicals but this one does its job)
  • mid-life egsistencial crisis
  • smoke and alcohol free for more than a month!
  • charcoal sketches again (how I missed charcoal)
may 31 2018 ∞
may 31 2018 +
  • Kynodontas dir. by Yorgos Lanthimos
  • Mogwai - Coolverine; Helicon 1; Take me somewhere nice
  • Hazai Attila - Szilvia szüzessége
  • Bognár Péter - A rodológia rövid története (!!!!! highly recommend)

(btw, it's been a really dull month! honestly, nothing interesting has ever occured therefore this list takes some real strenght and guts to be finished)

  • raw almond milk (not the roasted one; it has a more subtle taste, smells of real marcipan AND tastes so silky, smooth and refreshing)
  • big ass family events, e.g. nameday celebrations with loads of alcohol (not that I am alcoholic) and cake
  • other social outings, for instance, drinking and chatting, contemplating life and listening to industrial music or 80s new ...
mar 27 2018 ∞
mar 27 2018 +

PROJECTS

  • read the recommended list of books on the concept of language in the hungarian romanticism, especially the one that is theorised by v.m.
  • finish the book posthuman turn
  • also finish one book written in german

PURCHASES

  • day winter moisturizer
  • vichy detoxifying clay mask
  • charcoal toothbrush
  • oatmilk
  • bershka coat (checkered, deep red, ruby)
feb 8 2018 ∞
feb 8 2018 +

books, movies, events, habits, venues I am looking forward to in the new year (still expanding)

  • the movie The house that Jack built (a Lars von Trier movie, the release date is still uncertain)
  • Son Lux concert in Budapest
  • Bonobo concert in Budapest
  • nicotine free life, lungs, hair, skin, teeth, existence
  • the book Aliens and Anorexia (it has been released, I know, but I am really excited about this one, as I have been longing for to read it for so long, awhh)
  • yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga (I can't stress this enough)
  • less junk (minimize it, for my own's sake)
  • deustches sprachdiplom (SO FANCY I AM. just kidding. whatever, i am planning to do it in the early winter)
dec 31 2017 ∞
dec 31 2017 +
  • go running at least 2 times a week
  • do yoga at least 2 times a week
  • do some strenghtening exercises at least 1 times a week
  • drink plenty of water
  • IF in the morning and break fast at around 1.00 pm
  • eat a balanced, low sugar diet
  • pamper yourself (baths, beauty, massage)
  • sleep
  • reduce alcohol intake
  • quit smoking (for real)
  • enjoy yourself
  • go on long walks
  • laugh more
  • love your shape/face etc
nov 12 2017 ∞
nov 12 2017 +
  • post-modern and metabolical architecture
  • especially Japanese architecture of such
  • therefore every construction by Kenzo Tange
  • and also the Takara Beautilion by Kisho Kurokawa
  • beton brut
  • this song: salami rose joe louis - I miss you so
  • buzzcut for women
  • the movie Feed and also the one called To The Bone
  • weather getting cold
  • Bailey's Irish Cream
  • black tea with natural sweeteners and almond milk
  • Vincent Cassel's upcoming role in Edouard Deluc's new movie Gauguin
  • La vié d' Adéle
  • prunes
  • Anti-Oedipus:Capitalism and Schizophrenia...
sep 1 2017 ∞
sep 1 2017 +

NOT NECCESSARILY IN THIS PARTICULAR ORDER

  • Vincent Cassel
  • Eugene Hütz
  • Tom Hardy
  • Jamie Bell (aka K.)
  • Keanu Reeves
  • Christoph Waltz
  • Adrien Brody
  • Shia Labeouf
  • Jason Schwartzman
  • Freja Beha Erichsen
  • Catherine McNeil
  • PJ Harvey

and also a bunch of unmentioned, really seductive people whose name is better off anonymous

jul 23 2017 ∞
sep 1 2017 +
  • Satyricon
  • The Holy Mountain
  • A hosszútávfutó magányossága
  • Vivre sa vie
  • A félelem megeszi a lelket
  • A bádogdob
  • Farkasok órája, Persona, A hetedik pecsét (
  • Sirokkó (Jancsó)
  • Fényes szelek
  • Kés a vízben(Polanski)
  • Simon, a mágus+Az én XX. századom
  • Virgin Suicides
  • Woyzeck
  • Enter the void(Noé)
  • Mary and Max
  • Itchi the Killer+Oldboy
  • This is just the end of the world
  • Saló
  • The silence of the lambs
  • American history X
jul 6 2017 ∞
jul 30 2017 +
  • get your wires crossed (to mess up certain things, esp. their outcome)
  • preface your argument
  • to amass(accumulate, pile up)
  • contrary to sg
  • to give a low-down(be really intimate or foul)
  • to wage war (to be against a certain party, to be opponents)
  • to pay tribute
  • sentient (able to perceive or feel things)
jul 2 2015 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
  • Crow, Thomas (1996): The Rise of the Sixties, 1996.
  • Habermas, Jürgen: “Modernity” - An Incomplete Project” (1980)
  • Lyotard, Jean Francois: ”What Is Postmodernism?” (1982)
  • Greenberg, Clement: “Avant-garde and Kitsch” (1939), “Towards a Newer Laocoon” (1940), “Modernist Painting” (1961)
  • Adorno, Theodor: ”Commitment” (1962)
  • Fried, Michael, ”Three American Painters” (1965)
  • Clark, T.J., ”The Unhappy Consciousness”, i Farewell to an Idea. Episodes from a History of Modernism, New Haven: Yale University Press, 1999
  • Krauss, Rosalind, ”Jackson Pollock’s Agency”
  • Kaprow, Allan, ”The Legacy of Jackson Pollock”, i Essays on the Blurring of Ar...
feb 16 2013 ∞
feb 16 2013 +
  • Apple with cinnamon on top
  • Almond with raisin
  • Steamed broccoli with garlic
  • 0% fat yogurt with calcium
  • Frozen berry salad
  • Milk and banana shake
  • A hanful of oatmeal with honey
  • A mug of hot chocolate
  • Low-fat cottage cheese with stevia
  • Grapes dipped into melted dark chocolate
feb 15 2013 ∞
feb 15 2013 +
  • Unruly Bodies - an anthology, curated by Roxane Gay.
  • Pro7, Galileo
  • The Vegetarian by Han Kang.
  • BØRNS - American Money
  • meeting new people, getting to know them
  • slow, serene days off
  • a closer insight of macro- and microeconomics
  • reading A LOT.
  • podcasts per se
sep 7 2018 ∞
sep 16 2018 +

very accurate - exact very afraid - fearful very angry - furious very annoying - exasperating very bad - awful very beautiful - gorgeous very big - massive very bright - luminous very busy - swamped very calm - serene very capable - accomplished very careful - cautious very cheap - stingy very clear - obvious very clever - intelligent very colorful - vibrant very competitive - cutthroat very complete - comprehensive very confused - perplexed very conventional - conservative very creative - innovative very crowded - bustling very cute - adorable very dangerous - perilous very dear - cherished very deep - profound very depressed - despondent very detailed - meticulous very different - disparate very difficult - arduous very dirty - filthy very dry - arid very dull - tedious very eager - keen very easy - effortless very empty - desolate very evil - wicked very excited - thrilled very expensiv...

aug 20 2018 ∞
aug 20 2018 +

I am updating my monthly fave-lists with tiny jots and impressions on and about the things listed! I find it more inspirational and probably it gives you (and me, because there is high chance that no one reads it besides me) a better perspective on these items.

  • Feng Suave - Honey, There Is No Time

<i am so in love with these tunes lately! a sort of mixture of lo-fi, downtempo, chill hop, you name it, i listen to it. but besides of joking, these are truly little gems of things that you should check out! i have other faves to list because they do deserve some attention here too: A Beacon School, L' Indécis>

  • the feeling after finals

<OMG, it is like you have successfully painted your entire apartment, or run a marathon, learnt a new langugue...so a jigge...

jun 27 2018 ∞
sep 16 2018 +
  • the movie Se7en (HAH)
  • My Shin Ni sheet masks, they are really high quality
  • started learning Dutch (het meisjes zijn kool)
  • also, still improving my German (kinda)
  • losing 5 kg (it is still under-progress)
  • good poems, texts, etc i actually finished
  • the movie Get out! so good
  • sunglasses (them 90s)
  • korean skincare (A Pieau, Innisfree, Tony Moly, Etude House)
  • bershka and zara clothing (bye, H&M)
  • IF!!
  • Merk & Kremont - Sad Story (Out Of Luck)
may 7 2018 ∞
may 7 2018 +
  • it is perfectly fine to cry for no reason whatsoever
  • it is perfectly fine to say no without any excuse
  • it is perfectly fine to be alone for days or so
  • it is perfectly fine to love yourself shamelessly
  • it is perfectly fine to be upset about yourself now and then
  • it is perfectly fine to have some lazy days
  • it is perfectly fine to eat sugary food, sugary beverages
  • it is perfectly fine to indulge in otherwise unnecessary things
  • it is perfectly fine to have crush on people without forcing it to become anything less or more serious
  • it is perfectly fine to be told no
  • it is perfectly fine to feel doubts
feb 21 2018 ∞
feb 21 2018 +
  • el buhó-manana tepotzlan
  • mulholland drive by david lynch
  • egy dadogás története - vida gábor
  • jump rope
  • peru
  • fire
  • realizing that healing is not a one-step achievement but a long-term process with several ups and downs which is perfectly normal
  • gaining patience
  • nightskies
  • finding nice furniture
  • self-love
  • a few breakdowns are perfectly fine
  • doing nothing is also perfectly fine
  • gettin lots of tattoo is cool
jan 23 2018 ∞
jan 23 2018 +
  • The Beast& The Sovereign by J. Derrida
  • the movie Apocalypse Now by F.F.Coppola
  • music that reminds me of cellphone hold music (e.g.Walter Wanderley)
  • French new wave cinematography
  • cold november nights with early twilight
  • sweet potato fries
  • waking up really early
  • vanilla-musk showers/baths
  • diópálinka
  • bowling
  • Masayoshi Takanaka (them 70s!!)
  • The Lips of Thomas by Marina Abramovic
  • performativity-studies
  • the movie Rear Window by A. Hitchcock
  • the movie Wings of Desire by W. Wenders
nov 12 2017 ∞
dec 1 2017 +
  • mint tea with honey
  • freshly squeezed orange juice
  • smoke-free lungs
  • Hajas Tibor
  • Otto Muehl
  • this song: The Tiger Lillies-Russians
  • Tibor Fischer's Under the frog
  • quick self-portraits made with crayons
  • long walks after 8pm
  • ashtanga yoga sessions
  • incense sticks
  • sleeping in
  • spending lovely nights at lovely people's places
  • reading on a long train ride
  • weather getting even colder
  • hair getting longer
  • SELF-CONTROL per se
oct 8 2017 ∞
oct 8 2017 +

A VERY SHORT AND ALSO A REALLY IMPERFECT LIST OF JOLLY NICE PHRASES AND IDIOMS TO PULL OFF WHEN YOU WANT TO IMPRESS SOMEONE WITH YOUR DRUNK RAMBLINGS (this calls for storytime, sorry, but i have to share this: so whenever i get slightly tipsy - which basically happens everytime because, well, my body reacts in such a poor way to booze that i get instantly drunk after a few rounds, whatever, so, i get drunk easily and every single time i start speaking in english with a really far-fetched, annoying accent that i developed some years ago by watching horrendous amounts of english comedies -fry and laurie still rocks and allo allo too -, so yeah, i always speak silly things but it is a jolly good feeling everytime SO THAT IS basically the point of my story, that, my friends i do speak english sumetimez- I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH THIS RANT so let's hop onto them posh phrases

sep 1 2017 ∞
aug 4 2018 +
  • Bonobo: Black Sands album
  • also, Lorde: Melodrama album
  • Kafka: The Castle
  • canned bean and lettuce salad
  • JA
  • afternoon reading
  • quick doodles
  • a.creature (instagram artist)
  • Lana del Rey's new image
  • Studio Ghibli movies
  • art brut
  • drinking hot tea before bed
  • skincare routine
  • vodka
aug 8 2017 ∞
aug 8 2017 +
  • read at least 2 hours every day
  • watch at least 3 movies on a weekly basis
  • write every day (e.g.diary, short notes, impressions)
  • write in English and in German, too (at least a few sentences)
  • make more blog entries (even though no one reads blogs anymore)
  • be more active (walk more, do yoga)
  • drink tonns of water (at least 3 l/day)
  • get emotionally disattached from toxic people
  • be less moody
  • quit smoking
  • drink only 2 days a week
  • be more assertive, positive, etc
jul 11 2017 ∞
jul 30 2017 +
  • olvasni minden nap 1 órát minimum
  • írni minden nap legalább 1 órát
  • minden héten elkészíteni egy portrét(realista ábrázolással)
  • filozófiával foglalkozni
  • listát írni szerzőkről, akiktől olvasni fogok
  • iskolai munkát komolyan venni, azzal minden nap 2-3 órát foglalkozni
  • angol nyelvvel foglalkozni minden nap 0,5-1 órát
  • festeni (figurális vagy absztrakt?)
  • művészettörténeti írásokkal foglalkozni, műelemzéseket készíteni
  • kritikákat, recenziókat, irodalmi műelemzéseket írni
  • tudományos szövegeket olvasni
  • fordítani! angol verseket magyarra, angol szöveget magyarra
jul 17 2015 ∞
jul 17 2015 +
  • drink 2l water every day
  • paint or draw every day
  • go to bed at 12 pm(!!)
  • have a light breakfast
  • have three meals a day
  • eat vegan food
  • read at least an hour every day
  • improve my English
  • do yoga
  • run at least 9 km every week (3x3km)
  • meditate every night
  • smoke ONLY three cigs a day
  • go for a walk at least every second day
jul 2 2015 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
  • hit the gym 6x a week, as usual
  • learn as much about art history as possible
  • browse listography more often
  • unearth more new English words
  • figure out why my laptop can't handle heat
  • try to accept my accent
jul 31 2013 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
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  • Drink water every hour. (not only is water healthy for your body but also fexcellent to clean your skin)
  • Limit yourself to small and healthy snacks and meals whenever you are hungry.
  • Exercise daily because eventually you will get those abs and butt.
  • Get away from internet and read a book instead.
  • Stay and be motivated. (it doesn't matter what your inspiration is, you don't need to reveal it)
feb 15 2013 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
  • LOVE
  • I-D
  • Vogue
  • Acne Paper
  • Dazed&Confused
  • 25
feb 14 2013 ∞
feb 15 2013 +
  • the album Gogol Bordello: East Infection
  • Hannibal series; mainly because of Mads Mikkelsen
  • Mads Mikkelsen - ha has to be featured on this list! period
  • the site Man Repeller (man oh man, one of the highest quality websites on the worldwide web)
  • Beszélgetések Pilinszky Jánossal (if you are Hungarian, I highly recommend it to read; a truly masterpiece. btw, read Pilinszky in English, too - his poems are translated by Ted Hughes)
  • movie hiatus (sometimes it actually feels kinda good not to be inquired to be watching movies 024)
  • the feeling of gratitude (not trying to sound corny but i am really grateful for a lot of things in my life right now; also the ability to be in the right mental place to comprehend the signs of me evolvin...
jul 29 2018 ∞
jul 29 2018 +

safe-spaces (either imaginary, virtual or actual) for me when feeling utterly blue/down/unwanted/agitated:

  • the music of cigarettes after sex
  • tumblr
  • cold blankets
  • hot water, no matter where
  • dandelion-fields
  • the scent of hot milk
may 15 2018 ∞
may 15 2018 +
  • Yorgos Lanthimos

(omg, he is such a good director, I love him! yesterday I watched The Lobster and The killing of a sacred deer one after the other, so basically I was watching Lanthimos for a solid 4 hours in a row)

  • Nick Cave: Something gotten hold of my heart
  • Marc Almond & Gene Pitney - Something`s Gotten Hold Of My Heart
  • One Hundred Years of Solitude by Marquez
  • Mario Badescu Facial Spray
  • Final Cut by Pálfi György (he also directed the movie Taxidermia)
  • Army of Love-Crucified (nostalgic I am)
  • unicum
  • being less or more smoke free, hooray
  • Lavazza grounded coffee
feb 25 2018 ∞
may 7 2018 +
  • animal » penguin
  • band » papooz
  • beatle » i dont like the beatles
  • bird » Cyanistes caeruleus
  • car » citroen ds
  • cheese » ementaler
  • classical piece » erik satie gymnopedies
  • coffee » latte macchiato w/ stevia and cinnamon and LOTS OF FROTH
  • color » white, sand, black
  • dog breed » husky
  • drug » cannabis
  • flower » peony
  • food » everything that is cold and (plant)milky
  • genre » no specific one
  • gemstone » black opal
  • graphic novel » death note
  • herb » peppermint
  • holiday » christmas
jan 30 2018 ∞
feb 8 2018 +
  • mulled wine with a decent amount of chili
  • essays and books on cultural development(s), behaviours etc (and the phenomenon we call 'culture')
  • Till Lindemann singing Mein herz brennt (piano cover)
  • the book Autobiography of Red by Anne Carson
  • getting in touch with my self again (after months of numbness)
  • hair getting loooooooooooong
  • dyeing my hair a more natural, deep brownish color
  • german language (revision! and learning)
  • bauhaus
  • tickets for the upcoming Son Lux concert as a christmas gift (yaay)
  • creamy cappucinos
  • yankee candles (but just a very minimum range of possible scents that I can handle...
dec 31 2017 ∞
dec 31 2017 +
  • Arco, Italy
  • Prague, Czech Republic
  • Hallstadt, Austria
oct 29 2017 ∞
oct 29 2017 +

for brekkie:

  • fresh fruits
  • smoothies
  • oatmeal

for lucnh:

  • vegan one-plates
  • soups
  • sandwiches (whole grain bread, avo, mustard, etc)
  • potato
  • steamed veggies

for dinner:

  • salads
  • cracker bread with veggies

for snacks:

  • tea with plantmilk
  • dried fruit
oct 8 2017 ∞
jan 23 2018 +
  • theredlist.com
  • wikiart.org
  • bookdepository.com
  • memrise.com
aug 11 2017 ∞
aug 4 2018 +
  • Gilles Deleuze
  • Pall Mall
  • long talks
  • sleeping with open windows
  • oil paintings by Wols
  • the smell of Avon Luck perfume
  • peaches
  • walking after 6pm
  • writing short notes in my calendar
  • linework tattoo
  • French women
  • patisserie
  • coffee with natural sweeteners and a splash of milk
  • getting ready in 20 minutes
  • short pixie haircut
  • fringe
  • silver and white hair
jul 18 2017 ∞
jul 30 2017 +
  • Hindi Zahra
  • vegan brownies
  • Chinese aesthetical studies
  • the film Birdman
  • Loewe f/w 15
  • black leather Alexander Wang jacket
  • incense stick (musk)
  • Nike Air running shoes
  • cashews with bell pepper
  • The Neighbourhood
  • Jorge Louis Borges
  • long love letters
  • candles (vanilla)
oct 18 2015 ∞
oct 18 2015 +
  • tantalising look
  • bambi eyes
  • heart-shaped glasses
  • cherry-coloured eyes
  • hazel iris
  • long, wavy hair (black or brown)
  • innocent look
  • skirts only (ONLY BUY SKIRTS FROM NOW ON)
  • knee-high socks
  • tops and shirts
  • flirry bras
  • lace (not too much)
  • no or minimal make-up
  • backpack
  • Lana del Rey songs in the background (or Marina and the Diamonds)
  • read Nabokov and Joyce and Updike and Sailinger and Durrell
  • love art history
  • eat cute food only!
jul 2 2015 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
  • it helps to reduce my risk of getting stressed
  • it widens my knowledge on various things
  • it prevents me to become a complete lunatic
  • it offers a wide range of videos to sing and encourages me to do so, even though i have no good voice
  • it makes me smile whenever i see my old self
  • it gives access to several famous bloggers
  • it educates me
  • it takes me to different places(virtually)
  • it shows me new people
jul 31 2013 ∞
jul 2 2015 +
  • Get a more toned and fitter body
  • Become clean-eater
  • Learn as much English words as possible
  • Draw a complete portrait of a person with graphite
  • Run the half marathon
  • Train for the marathon
  • Get tanned skin in a healthy tone
  • Drink 2 l water every day
feb 16 2013 ∞
feb 16 2013 +
  • Run every week at least 8 km.
  • Do three aerobics classes per week(pick from these alternatives):
  • a 40 minute long full body work-out
  • a 20 minute long thigh work-out
  • a 20 minute long upper body work-out
  • a 20 minute long abs work-out
  • a 20 minute long butt and hips work out
  • a 60 minute long full body work-out
  • Streching after every work-out at least for 10 minutes
  • Yoga for begginers
  • Use jump rope more often
  • Do push ups, or at least learn to do them
feb 15 2013 ∞
feb 15 2013 +