• Szálinger Balázs: 361°
• Candace Rose Rardon: Teaivók zsebkönyve
• Juhász Tibor: Amire telik
• Esmé Weijun Wang: The Collected Schizophrenias
• Bartók Imre: Majmom, Vergilius

• Villányi László: Mindenek előtt
• Térey János: Boldogh-ház, Kétmalom utca
• Selyem Zsuzsa: Moszkvában esik
• Bakos Gyöngyi: Nyolcszáz utca gyalog
• Thomas Stangl: Die Geschichte des Körpers

• Anne Carson: The Beauty of the Husband

• Tompa Andrea: Haza

• Olga Tokarczuk: Hajtsad ekédet a holtak csontjain át
• Daniel Kehlmann: Die Vermessung der Welt
• Szécsi Noémi: Lányok és asszonyok aranykönyve
• Uri Asaf: A Föld legmélyebb pontján

• Nádasdy Ádám: Milyen nyelv a magyar?
• Joachim Meyerhoff: Alle Toten fliegen hoch Amerika
• Ferdinand von Schirach: Der Fall Collini
• Földényi F. László: A melankólia dicsérete

(note to self: többet olvasni!)

• ein neues Tattoo bekommen?
• zu Meditation-Sessions gehen
• die Sprachprüfung bestehen/schaffen
• mich mit meinen Freunden treffen
• nach Hause reisen
• tanzen
• Bier trinken und Eis essen auf der Straße
• raus ins Natur gehen
• lange Nächte in meiner Lieblingskneipe (hehe keine Alkoholiker bin ich;))verbringen
• etwa ja fröhlich, ausspannend sein

• Földényi F. László: Az eleven halál terei
• John Williams: Stoner
• Győrfi Kata: Te alszol mélyebben
• Margaret Atwood: The Testaments
• Molnár T. Eszter: Teréz, vagy a test emlékezete

• AURORA

she has such a dreamy voice, etheral, cold - if it makes any sense -, nordic and rich with emotions, i love her so much; her entire presence radiates creativity and i can't help but get super inspired whenever i listen to her music. lately i have been listening to her latest album while i am getting ready in the mornings, teeth-brushing, hair-combing, dressing-up and all, and my days get such an istant boost

• ANTI-SPOTIFY

i have been having troubles with spotify recently - the problem either being suspicious activity around my account (like lol?! the fuck is wrong with spotify letting my account got deleted)or the applications simply freezing out of the blue

• weil ich wütend bin
• mir geht es gut
• egal wohin
• niemand weist, ich was gut genug für dich
• alle menschen tier sind
• ich hoffe, es wird später besser
• die höchste eisenbahn
• auch die schöne muss sterben
• ich war schon immer hier
• die seele
• die zeuge, lügen, treffen, dagegen, wahrscheinlich, sieht es gut aus, mein nachbar
• es geht weiter, bleib ruhig
• früher war es besser, oder

Heute gibt est nur ein kurzer Eintrag eigentlich! Mein Hirn ist tatsächlich kaputt gegangen, ich habe schon unbedignt zu viel Hörenmaterial gehören, dass ich immer aufs Deutsch denken kann (hah das wäre witzig, wünsche ich das!). Aber voll seriös: mit den täglichen Übungen und - wi heißt das? das Grind - Podcasten, sowie die Zwei Männer und Eine Stunde Historie (warum nicht Geschichte?), entwickelt sich meine Sprachkenntnis wie no other thing! Wie professionell für mich! Na ja, ich gehe schon zürück zu meine beliebtes Videos, ich habe einen Libelingskanal aufs Youtube zurzeit, das heißt Plus Reportage und handelt von über Alles.

na, okay. ich MUSS jeden Tag ein neuer Eintrag hier schreiben. ich benutze das Wort 'muss', weil - sehr schon! - ich meine Sprachprüfung im frühen Februar habe. um ehrlich zu sein, ich lese täglich in Deutsch und höre mir immer mehr Hörenmaterial an, aber...die Übung macht der Master(in). ich erinnere mich, wann ich meine Englischprüfung hätte, ich habe oft - fast jeden Tag (und das ist klotzig) - immer etwas in Englisch geschrieben. war ich sicher, dass jener Eintrag toll und "fählerfrei" war? nee, nichts. und das kann ich über diese nachfolgende Eintragen sagen. also, über mein Tag: heute ist der letztes Tag des Jahres, deshalb feiere ich mit meine Familie, Freunden, usw. ganz toll, oder? ich würde sagen, dass ich ein echte party-animal bin, aber das wäre total unwahr (eine faustdicke Lüge hah). je mehr ich über das Silvester denke, desto nervös ich werde. ah. ich hasse s...

• Farbe (BEST. BAND. EVER. lately, i have been a sucker for music in german. okay, i still filter them and do not listen to every single one i stumble upon. but still.)
• Hunger by Roxane Gay (a beautifully raw memoir, hihgly recommended to read)
• fall-scent. to be more specific, the smell of rotting leaves hah, not to gross you out but they indeed do start rotting once they hit the ground.)
• First Reformed (Ethan Hawke plays the role of a priest in rural America, and does perform magnificently! he has quickly become one of my all-time favorite actors ever, not only in Before Midnight - etc, so in the entire Before-trilogy - did he do an amazing job but also this one, the First Reformed, IS SO GREAT. however, i still have to dig myself deeper into his works.)

• succesfully get prepared for a Sprachprüfung B2 Deutsch
• get myself into the habit of writing more essays and IN PROSE
• read more in English. period. (poems too!)
• halve my movie-list on IMDB (by watching half of the list, obviously)
• meet (and get to know eventually) an international student - and guide, help them in the fall semester
• listen to more classical music and be able to recognize and differentiate between them after hearing only the first few notes
• also speak more in German
• save money so that i could get a new tat
• visit all the lectures i have on my timetable

• this album: Mild Orange-Foreplay
• the artist Mondo Grosso
• Miley Cyrus singing Jolene (i am actually pretty surprised that I find it good because I am not so keen on Miley in general)
• CosRX BHA solution/essence (CosRX is magic)
• the movie Singing in the rain (ffs, I hate musicals but this one does its job)
• mid-life egsistencial crisis
• smoke and alcohol free for more than a month!
• charcoal sketches again (how I missed charcoal)

• Kynodontas dir. by Yorgos Lanthimos
• Mogwai - Coolverine; Helicon 1; Take me somewhere nice
• Hazai Attila - Szilvia szüzessége
• Bognár Péter - A rodológia rövid története (!!!!! highly recommend)

(btw, it's been a really dull month! honestly, nothing interesting has ever occured therefore this list takes some real strenght and guts to be finished)

• raw almond milk (not the roasted one; it has a more subtle taste, smells of real marcipan AND tastes so silky, smooth and refreshing)
• big ass family events, e.g. nameday celebrations with loads of alcohol (not that I am alcoholic) and cake
• other social outings, for instance, drinking and chatting, contemplating life and listening to industrial music or 80s new ...

PROJECTS

• read the recommended list of books on the concept of language in the hungarian romanticism, especially the one that is theorised by v.m.
• finish the book posthuman turn
• also finish one book written in german

PURCHASES

• day winter moisturizer
• vichy detoxifying clay mask
• charcoal toothbrush
• oatmilk
• bershka coat (checkered, deep red, ruby)

books, movies, events, habits, venues I am looking forward to in the new year (still expanding)

• the movie The house that Jack built (a Lars von Trier movie, the release date is still uncertain)
• Son Lux concert in Budapest
• Bonobo concert in Budapest
• nicotine free life, lungs, hair, skin, teeth, existence
• the book Aliens and Anorexia (it has been released, I know, but I am really excited about this one, as I have been longing for to read it for so long, awhh)
• yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga (I can't stress this enough)
• less junk (minimize it, for my own's sake)
• deustches sprachdiplom (SO FANCY I AM. just kidding. whatever, i am planning to do it in the early winter)

• go running at least 2 times a week
• do yoga at least 2 times a week
• do some strenghtening exercises at least 1 times a week
• drink plenty of water
• IF in the morning and break fast at around 1.00 pm
• eat a balanced, low sugar diet
• pamper yourself (baths, beauty, massage)
• sleep
• reduce alcohol intake
• quit smoking (for real)
• enjoy yourself
• go on long walks
• laugh more
• love your shape/face etc

• post-modern and metabolical architecture
• especially Japanese architecture of such
• therefore every construction by Kenzo Tange
• and also the Takara Beautilion by Kisho Kurokawa
• beton brut
• this song: salami rose joe louis - I miss you so
• buzzcut for women
• the movie Feed and also the one called To The Bone
• weather getting cold
• Bailey's Irish Cream
• black tea with natural sweeteners and almond milk
• Vincent Cassel's upcoming role in Edouard Deluc's new movie Gauguin
• La vié d' Adéle
• prunes
• Anti-Oedipus:Capitalism and Schizophrenia...

NOT NECCESSARILY IN THIS PARTICULAR ORDER

• Vincent Cassel
• Eugene Hütz
• Tom Hardy
• Jamie Bell (aka K.)
• Keanu Reeves
• Christoph Waltz
• Adrien Brody
• Shia Labeouf
• Jason Schwartzman
• Freja Beha Erichsen
• Catherine McNeil
• PJ Harvey

and also a bunch of unmentioned, really seductive people whose name is better off anonymous

• Satyricon
• The Holy Mountain
• A hosszútávfutó magányossága
• Vivre sa vie
• A félelem megeszi a lelket
• A bádogdob
• Farkasok órája, Persona, A hetedik pecsét (
• Sirokkó (Jancsó)
• Fényes szelek
• Kés a vízben(Polanski)
• Simon, a mágus+Az én XX. századom
• Virgin Suicides
• Woyzeck
• Enter the void(Noé)
• Mary and Max
• Itchi the Killer+Oldboy
• This is just the end of the world
• Saló
• The silence of the lambs
• American history X

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• begin each item with an asterisk

• új tetoválás
• új piercing
• sok sport
• kirándulás
• barátokkal kocsma
• tánc
• séta
• fagyizás
• éneklés, kiabálás
• hosszú alvás

• Sánta Ferenc: Az ötödik pecsét
• Zoltán Gábor: Orgia

• Friedrich Dürrenmatt: Die Physiker
• Láng Zsolt: Bolyai
• Bertolt Brecht: Die Dreigroschenoper
• Sirokai Mátyás: Lomboldal
• Mark Fisher: Capitalist Realism

• Margaret Atwood: The Edible Woman
• Seres Lili Hanna: Várunk
• Karl Ove Knausgård: Szerelem
• Ottlik Géza: Hajnali háztetők
• Pamela Druckerman: Bonjour Madame

• Where the Crawdads Sing
• Girl, Woman, Other
• Educated
• 1984
• The Body Keeps the Score
• Slouching Towards Bethlehem

Ich bin wirklich zu Hause gesperrt (gestuck?) - gibt es diese Wort auf Deutsch in diesem Form -, denn ich arbeite zurzeit von Zuhause. Es ist ein sehr gutes Gefühl, um ehrlich zu sein, aber es gibt auch sehr viele Gelegenheiten mich zu langweilen. Verstehe mich nicht falsch, es fühlt sich wie einen echten Sagen (Gnade?), aber das Gefühl,wichtig und fähig zu sein, wehrt mir ja sehr viel. Trotz dieses Gefühls, versuche ich mich ja ausreichend zu entspannen. Ich höre mich sehr viele deutschen podcaste an, schaue mir youtube an, mache ständing Übungen. Aus diesem Grund fühle ich mich sicherer, als, zum Beispiel, habe ich mich vor ein paar Wochen vorher gefühlt. Irgendwie trefft oder erreicht man ein Lebenspunkt oder Zeitpunt, wenn man diese ewigen Tätigkeitsgefühlen ignorieren kann. Ewig zu Verfügung zu stehen, das geht nicht. Das macht mir krank im Kopft.

• Márai Sándor: Egy polgár vallomásai
• Szvoren Edina: Nincs, és ne is legyen
• András György: A lusta portfólió

• been listening to old faves of mine, feels super weird to realize I once had such a different taste in music - i think music becomes eventually central in one's life. the german says it is ursprünglich or der Ursprung it is and also Linn Ullmann says that her father - Ingmar Bergman - told her once that the older he gets the more music means to him. i can relate to it, only not due to getting old(er) but having a completely different life than i used to have, let's say in 2019.
• i have realized no matter what i have to rely on myself one and only. in capital once again, just to stress things: you can only rely on yourself. cliché but true.
• italki defines my new decade: spending money on virtual language classes feels the right thing to do.
• having nightmares: tonight or to be more ...

endlich raus aus dem Alltag, ein paar Tage ohne Verpflichtungen und Zeitgefühl leben - danach sehnten mein Freund Eldar und ich uns schon lange. Mit einem Roadtrip wollten wir uns diesen Traum nun endlich erfüllen. Zielloses Rumerein, schlafen, wo und wann man möchte - das kling nach Freiheit pur! Weil wir aber natürlich keinen eigenen Van haben, mieten wir uns einen über Yescapa, einer Platform, über die Wohnmobile und Campingbusse von Privatpersonen verliehen werden. Das Airbnb für Vans sozusagen. Ausgestattet nur mit dem Nötigsten (packt unbedingt gemütliche Sachen ein. In engen Jeans fährt es sich nicht so bequem) saßen wir wenige Woche später im Van auf Mallorca.

• jeden Tag am mindestens 1-2 Stunden lesen
• jeden Tag irgendwas Sport treiben
• jeden Tag auf Deutsch sprechen (hören, lesen, schreiben)
• jeden Tag maximal 1200 kcl essen

ich weiß es nicht, was ist los eigentlich mit mir, aber ich habe heute einen ganzen Film (in englisch) gesehen und darüber eine Note - auch in englisch- gemacht. na ja, man kann sagen es war ein super produktive Tag. die Frage des Tages: was brauche ich für bessere Sprachkentnisse? natürlich: viele Übungen zu lösen und viel zu üben (past formular: geübt). es gibt viel unterschidliche Möglichkeiten so zu tun. ich bin aber sehr froh über mein Fortschritt. ich erinnere mich sehr gern an, wie ich im frühen Juni oder Juli - ich bin nicht sicher darüber - in deutsch schreiben kann. haha das war total witzig, aber man muss irgendwo and irgendwann anfangen. ich habe viel gelernt, nich nur viele Wörter, sonder auch Synonime, Grammatik, usw. ich weiß, ich weiß, diese Eintragen sind super langsam...zunächts.

• Unruly Bodies - an anthology, curated by Roxane Gay.
• Pro7, Galileo
• The Vegetarian by Han Kang.
• BØRNS - American Money
• meeting new people, getting to know them
• slow, serene days off
• a closer insight of macro- and microeconomics
• reading A LOT.
• podcasts per se

very accurate - exact very afraid - fearful very angry - furious very annoying - exasperating very bad - awful very beautiful - gorgeous very big - massive very bright - luminous very busy - swamped very calm - serene very capable - accomplished very careful - cautious very cheap - stingy very clear - obvious very clever - intelligent very colorful - vibrant very competitive - cutthroat very complete - comprehensive very confused - perplexed very conventional - conservative very creative - innovative very crowded - bustling very cute - adorable very dangerous - perilous very dear - cherished very deep - profound very depressed - despondent very detailed - meticulous very different - disparate very difficult - arduous very dirty - filthy very dry - arid very dull - tedious very eager - keen very easy - effortless very empty - desolate very evil - wicked very excited - thrilled very expensiv...

I am updating my monthly fave-lists with tiny jots and impressions on and about the things listed! I find it more inspirational and probably it gives you (and me, because there is high chance that no one reads it besides me) a better perspective on these items.

• Feng Suave - Honey, There Is No Time

<i am so in love with these tunes lately! a sort of mixture of lo-fi, downtempo, chill hop, you name it, i listen to it. but besides of joking, these are truly little gems of things that you should check out! i have other faves to list because they do deserve some attention here too: A Beacon School, L' Indécis>

• the feeling after finals

<OMG, it is like you have successfully painted your entire apartment, or run a marathon, learnt a new langugue...so a jigge...

• the movie Se7en (HAH)
• My Shin Ni sheet masks, they are really high quality
• started learning Dutch (het meisjes zijn kool)
• also, still improving my German (kinda)
• losing 5 kg (it is still under-progress)
• good poems, texts, etc i actually finished
• the movie Get out! so good
• sunglasses (them 90s)
• korean skincare (A Pieau, Innisfree, Tony Moly, Etude House)
• bershka and zara clothing (bye, H&M)
• IF!!
• Merk & Kremont - Sad Story (Out Of Luck)

• it is perfectly fine to cry for no reason whatsoever
• it is perfectly fine to say no without any excuse
• it is perfectly fine to be alone for days or so
• it is perfectly fine to love yourself shamelessly
• it is perfectly fine to be upset about yourself now and then
• it is perfectly fine to have some lazy days
• it is perfectly fine to eat sugary food, sugary beverages
• it is perfectly fine to indulge in otherwise unnecessary things
• it is perfectly fine to have crush on people without forcing it to become anything less or more serious
• it is perfectly fine to be told no
• it is perfectly fine to feel doubts

• el buhó-manana tepotzlan
• mulholland drive by david lynch
• egy dadogás története - vida gábor
• jump rope
• peru
• fire
• realizing that healing is not a one-step achievement but a long-term process with several ups and downs which is perfectly normal
• gaining patience
• nightskies
• finding nice furniture
• self-love
• a few breakdowns are perfectly fine
• doing nothing is also perfectly fine
• gettin lots of tattoo is cool

• The Beast& The Sovereign by J. Derrida
• the movie Apocalypse Now by F.F.Coppola
• music that reminds me of cellphone hold music (e.g.Walter Wanderley)
• French new wave cinematography
• cold november nights with early twilight
• sweet potato fries
• waking up really early
• vanilla-musk showers/baths
• diópálinka
• bowling
• Masayoshi Takanaka (them 70s!!)
• The Lips of Thomas by Marina Abramovic
• performativity-studies
• the movie Rear Window by A. Hitchcock
• the movie Wings of Desire by W. Wenders

• mint tea with honey
• freshly squeezed orange juice
• smoke-free lungs
• Hajas Tibor
• Otto Muehl
• this song: The Tiger Lillies-Russians
• Tibor Fischer's Under the frog
• quick self-portraits made with crayons
• long walks after 8pm
• ashtanga yoga sessions
• incense sticks
• sleeping in
• spending lovely nights at lovely people's places
• reading on a long train ride
• weather getting even colder
• hair getting longer
• SELF-CONTROL per se

A VERY SHORT AND ALSO A REALLY IMPERFECT LIST OF JOLLY NICE PHRASES AND IDIOMS TO PULL OFF WHEN YOU WANT TO IMPRESS SOMEONE WITH YOUR DRUNK RAMBLINGS (this calls for storytime, sorry, but i have to share this: so whenever i get slightly tipsy - which basically happens everytime because, well, my body reacts in such a poor way to booze that i get instantly drunk after a few rounds, whatever, so, i get drunk easily and every single time i start speaking in english with a really far-fetched, annoying accent that i developed some years ago by watching horrendous amounts of english comedies -fry and laurie still rocks and allo allo too -, so yeah, i always speak silly things but it is a jolly good feeling everytime SO THAT IS basically the point of my story, that, my friends i do speak english sumetimez- I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH THIS RANT so let's hop onto them posh phrases

• Bonobo: Black Sands album
• also, Lorde: Melodrama album
• Kafka: The Castle
• canned bean and lettuce salad
• JA
• afternoon reading
• quick doodles
• a.creature (instagram artist)
• Lana del Rey's new image
• Studio Ghibli movies
• art brut
• drinking hot tea before bed
• skincare routine
• vodka

• read at least 2 hours every day
• watch at least 3 movies on a weekly basis
• write every day (e.g.diary, short notes, impressions)
• write in English and in German, too (at least a few sentences)
• make more blog entries (even though no one reads blogs anymore)
• be more active (walk more, do yoga)
• drink tonns of water (at least 3 l/day)
• get emotionally disattached from toxic people
• be less moody
• quit smoking
• drink only 2 days a week
• be more assertive, positive, etc

• Füst Milán: Feleségem története
• Kállay Eszter: Kéz a levegőben
• Szaniszló Judit: Leli élete
• Daniel Kehlmann: Du hättest gehen sollen
• Halász Rita: Mély levegő

• Gotthold Ephraim Lessing: Emilia Galotti
• Gabriel García Márquez: Szerelem a kolera idején
• Marilynne Robinson: Housekeeping
• Johann Wolfgang Goethe: Die Leiden des jungen Werthers

• Tor Ulven: Türelem
• Caroline Hirons: Skin Care
• Karl Ove Knausgård: Játék

• Bereményi Géza: Magyar Copperfield
• Ljudmila Ulickaja: A lélek testéről
• Günter Grass: Katz und Maus
• Barnás Ferenc: A kilencedik
• Terék Anna: Háttal a napnak
• Kemenes Henriette: Odú

• Szilasi László: Kései házasság
• Bödecs László: Az árvíz helye
• Karl Ove Knausgård: Halál

• bejárati ajtó projekt
• erkély projekt
• német projekt
• sport projekt
• kiegészítők projekt
• ruhásszekrény projekt

• Vass Norbert: Indiáncseresznye
• Lydia Davis: The Collected Stories of Lydia Davis
• Háy János: A gyerek
• Alice Oswald: Memorial
• Fenyvesi Orsolya: Ostrom

• Geir Gulliksen: Mielőtt elváltunk
• Fenyvesi Orsolya: Tükrök állatai
• Adam Kay: This is Going to Hurt
• Linn Ullmann: A nyugtalanok
• Margaret Atwood: The Handmaid's Tale
• Harag Anita: Évszakhoz képest hűvösebb
• Simon Bettina: Strand

• Rammstein's latest album, Deutschland
• the band Die höchste Eisenbahn
• MASSIVE life changes out of the blue (seldom have i experienced such radical turnarounds, to be frank)
• english&german practice sessions (sehr lustig, sehr entspannend)
• the book The Formula (informative af)
• turning into, transforming into a somewhat complete adult - if there is any valid definition of adolescence, adulthood usw - one experiences it differently, i know. mine is rough, raw, thorough, scary, unsettling, dreamy, surprising, filled with a bunch of letting-gos, with emotions, dreams coming ture or perhaps fading away, etc. WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE TBH
• longer, natural hair (i still want a cut, tho)
• being financially conscious
• the book How Not To Die

• Lola Marsh
• Ricsárdgír
• Bartók Imre-Jerikó épül
• deutsch C1 sprachprüfung Vorbereitung
• thesis getting sloooooowly but steadily ready
• self-doubt IS HEALTHY, mkay?! a thinking man has to accept their flaws, logical slips etc - failures and flaws show that you are actually thinking - one cannot think without some trouble
• actually attending classes and seminars
• quitting snacking (preferably)
• days getting longer
• Freaks -the 1932 movie IS SO GOOD
• Cowboy Bebop -esp. the OST

hah es ist sehr witzig, dass ich immer für mir etwas zusagen, das ich kann niemals einhalten (das heißt tägliche deutsche Eintrages). das Skript ist immer die nächste: da bin ich, ein Paar Wochen später, mit einem Gesitzustand, den ich kann kaum tolerieren. man muss deshalb fragen: warum machst du dann solche Zusagen für dir? die Antwort ist ziemlich leich: weil ich irgendwie und irgenwann diese Versuche und Fehler mag! na ja, komisch aber sinnvoll. denk durch! es will ein Zeit sei, wann man jene Zusagen einhalten kann. und ich bin hier, warten auf die gleiche Zeit, wann ich meine Zusagen ausprobieren soll. ich bin schon sehr philosophistisch, oder? p.s. heute, habe ich fast gar nichts gemacht, nur ein tolles Buch gelest, youtube geschaut und endlich mit meiner Schwester über unsere Sommerfrische gesprochen. tschüs

• b2 deutsch komplex sprachprüfung
• thesis (preferably a decent one)
• trip to Florence (until that: learn a few italian expression)
• get a privat piano teacher (if you know what i mean winky face)
• the grind never stops: get back on track with my non-existent and VIRTUAL gym routine
• eat healthier
• read MORE oh my god, dios mio, mein gott PLEASE

• the album Gogol Bordello: East Infection
• Hannibal series; mainly because of Mads Mikkelsen
• Mads Mikkelsen - ha has to be featured on this list! period
• the site Man Repeller (man oh man, one of the highest quality websites on the worldwide web)
• Beszélgetések Pilinszky Jánossal (if you are Hungarian, I highly recommend it to read; a truly masterpiece. btw, read Pilinszky in English, too - his poems are translated by Ted Hughes)
• movie hiatus (sometimes it actually feels kinda good not to be inquired to be watching movies 024)
• the feeling of gratitude (not trying to sound corny but i am really grateful for a lot of things in my life right now; also the ability to be in the right mental place to comprehend the signs of me evolvin...

safe-spaces (either imaginary, virtual or actual) for me when feeling utterly blue/down/unwanted/agitated:

• the music of cigarettes after sex
• tumblr
• cold blankets
• hot water, no matter where
• dandelion-fields
• the scent of hot milk

• Yorgos Lanthimos

(omg, he is such a good director, I love him! yesterday I watched The Lobster and The killing of a sacred deer one after the other, so basically I was watching Lanthimos for a solid 4 hours in a row)

• Nick Cave: Something gotten hold of my heart
• Marc Almond & Gene Pitney - Something`s Gotten Hold Of My Heart
• One Hundred Years of Solitude by Marquez
• Mario Badescu Facial Spray
• Final Cut by Pálfi György (he also directed the movie Taxidermia)
• Army of Love-Crucified (nostalgic I am)
• unicum
• being less or more smoke free, hooray
• Lavazza grounded coffee

• animal » penguin
• band » papooz
• beatle » i dont like the beatles
• bird » Cyanistes caeruleus
• car » citroen ds
• cheese » ementaler
• classical piece » erik satie gymnopedies
• coffee » latte macchiato w/ stevia and cinnamon and LOTS OF FROTH
• color » white, sand, black
• dog breed » husky
• drug » cannabis
• flower » peony
• food » everything that is cold and (plant)milky
• genre » no specific one
• gemstone » black opal
• graphic novel » death note
• herb » peppermint
• holiday » christmas

• mulled wine with a decent amount of chili
• essays and books on cultural development(s), behaviours etc (and the phenomenon we call 'culture')
• Till Lindemann singing Mein herz brennt (piano cover)
• the book Autobiography of Red by Anne Carson
• getting in touch with my self again (after months of numbness)
• hair getting loooooooooooong
• dyeing my hair a more natural, deep brownish color
• german language (revision! and learning)
• bauhaus
• tickets for the upcoming Son Lux concert as a christmas gift (yaay)
• creamy cappucinos
• yankee candles (but just a very minimum range of possible scents that I can handle...

• Arco, Italy
• Prague, Czech Republic
• Hallstadt, Austria

for brekkie:

• fresh fruits
• smoothies
• oatmeal

for lucnh:

• vegan one-plates
• soups
• sandwiches (whole grain bread, avo, mustard, etc)
• potato
• steamed veggies

for dinner:

• salads
• cracker bread with veggies

for snacks:

• tea with plantmilk
• dried fruit

• theredlist.com
• wikiart.org
• bookdepository.com
• memrise.com

• Gilles Deleuze
• Pall Mall
• long talks
• sleeping with open windows
• oil paintings by Wols
• the smell of Avon Luck perfume
• peaches
• walking after 6pm
• writing short notes in my calendar
• linework tattoo
• French women
• patisserie
• coffee with natural sweeteners and a splash of milk
• getting ready in 20 minutes
• short pixie haircut
• fringe
• silver and white hair

• Hindi Zahra
• vegan brownies
• Chinese aesthetical studies
• the film Birdman
• Loewe f/w 15
• black leather Alexander Wang jacket
• incense stick (musk)
• Nike Air running shoes
• cashews with bell pepper
• The Neighbourhood
• Jorge Louis Borges
• long love letters
• candles (vanilla)