(And in no particular order.)

• get real good at skating so I can navigate the streets of Vancouver without stopping ever
• visit the Osman residence
• sleepover at Rina's with the girlfriends
• sort out the farewell presents
• carry out super duper uber secret mission with Icky after he graduates
• take a boat ride somewhere
• catch more sunsets
• learn to drive
• attend a Malay wedding -
• do more epic shit
• stargazing
• visit all these museums I've been living around with for the last seventeen years

• frying butter
• pizza
• certain people's scents
• the subtle smell of cigarette smoke (ingrained into anything, sheets, car seats, books)
• coffeeshops
• pheromones
• melty cheese

• wallet-sized group photographs with Eddie, Rina, Aikks, Izzat, Rona, Josh and Kona
• Limmy's graduation picture
• a photograph of Rona, aged 6-7
• 'Super Chels' insignia drawn on a Post It
• a Volcom card
• two red guitar picks that look suspiciously like hearts
• a tiny seventeenth birthday card from Eddie and Zat
• my dad's business card
• the San Juan address in B.C.
• a receipt from Fratini's, circa October 2009
• a receipt issued by Nigel from Chill, circa August 2008
• a receipt issued by Nick from Chill, circa September 2008
• a receipt from Excapade, $72.50

• $1.00 in change
• $5.00 HK
• 4 pendrives
• a black elastic band
• a black Sharpie
• a candy that says "You're the Best" at the back, sweet positive reinforcement
• a couple of mechanical pencils (leadless)
• a fake moustache (for when you need a quick getaway)
• a guitar pick
• a Magnum ice-cream stick
• a paper plane Nico made in the eleventh grade I probably jacked
• a purple colour pencil
• a red pen missing a cap
• a ruler
• a swirly eraser
• a Translink ticket
• an eraser

Girls:

• Aleksandra
• Alessandra
• Alexia
• Astoria
• Atlanta/Atlantis
• Cassiopeia
• Helena
• Konstatine
• Mikhaella/Mikayla
• Meaghan/Meghan
• Nicole
• Nhoelle Jane
• Ramona
• Santini
• Siobhan
• Victoria Jane

Boys:

• Aiden
• Alekay

• play the piano
• have some pizza
• go to Disneyland
• move to Vancouver (right now)
• fly
• save the world (or some third world countries, I'm not picky)
• fast-forward to March 2012
• you (do or have, I'm not picky) (geezus I'm joking, do of course) (hah I'm kidding again really, just having you all to myself wouldn't be so bad)
• more pizza
• face melting guitar shredding skills
• my own waterslide and/or amusement park
• intangible happiness
• uncanny, flawless ability to attract that which I wish to attract
• helicopter flying skills
• nun chuck skills
• bow-hunting skills
• computer-hacking skills

• iPod locators (every time I lose my iPod Touch all I do is wish I could call it up and then realize it's not an iPhone and no, I'd rather not buy an iPhone because that goes against my philosophical beliefs)
• easier access to an abundance of pizza
• less billion-dollar movies half of whose budget could feed a starving African country probably forever
• Michael Jackson, Bob Marley and all the Beatles alive
• school starting at 10 am
• absolute non-existence of discrimination of any sort
• deserving musicians with better, unfathomable talent on the airwaves
• the comeback of fashion from the Victorian times (seriously, those people knew how to dress)
• Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
• love, love, love

• I'm not going to tell you silly, or else someday, someone, somewhere might use it against me and it would be the downfall of my everything. Duh.

• all my friends
• Patrick flippin' Stump
• the Kaulitz twins
• the awesome Gs
• a panda
• some koalas
• Kona

However, I Would Not Want to Hug

• a cactus
• some pointy stones
• a hormonal bear (or something)
• the once-pregnant librarian from my college who probably wants to roast my guts over a bonfire and then eat me (I would probably taste good though)

But I Wouldn't Mind Hugging

• that one random homeless street performer guy at the Vancouver Aquarium who hugged me when I meekly asked for a photo

• Ronalyn Perez: bestestfriend in the entire world definitely since birth probably

She left for the freaking Middle East last fall. I'm probably never gonna see her again till I'm in my 20s. Balls.

• Joshua Awesome: super cool, kind of weird but somehow very normal bestfriend

He left for Lion City... last fall (goddammit what's with autumn and farewells?) for uni but he'll be back soon. I miss his... alien-ness .

• Joel Laplap: super tall, super nifty bestfriend

He left for Vancouver last... summer.

• Ells, Aikks, Eddie, Rina, Qawi, Limmy: the gang

Graduation hacks people apart with its stupid tassel-dangling square hats. I miss ...

• the backseat of my better half's car
• in bed (with or without other human beings)
• locked in warm hugs
• coffee shops
• rooftops
• Jerudong Beach at 2 am
• under galaxies
• on stage
• hotel rooms
• trains
• in the presence of wonderful people I call my friends
• Vancouver
• the Bellybutton
• riding shotgun in special people's cars
• Eddie's place
• paintball battlegrounds
• with God
• behind my guitar
• movie theatres

• a legit piano (one where you can plug in your earphones and play like a madman without having to wake up the entire block, yeah I didn't even know those actually _existed_)
• a Macbook
• a new iPod Touch
• a Blackberry (or something)
• a pair of Vans

• Fluent Sarcasm

It seems to be mother tongue of all students around campus, I swear. I just cannot clearly tell anymore whether someone's being genuinely sweet or just being an asshole. But I don't in the least bit mind, it's constantly sharpening my already razor sharp wit and sarcastic eloquence. It's awesome.

• Punctuality? What Does That Even Mean?

Nobody ever comes on time. Ever. Ever. Okay, maybe except for MR Todd but he's Canadian and it's built into their social etiquette and stuff so he doesn't count. We had a meeting a couple of days ago, set for 4 o' clock and it did not begin till 5. I am not even joking. And it's acceptable.

• Assignments Can Save Your Sorry Ass

• simply to rent an entire amusement park and/or water park for myself and my chums for an entire day. The whole place, all to ourselves.

That's all I've got for now. I will be truly, truly happy.

I have this bag right, and in that bag, is this pocket, and in that pocket is this wild assortment of... stuff. Stuff like:

• 26 and 1/2 of $0.50 bus tickets
• 22 $1.00 bus tickets
• a wide assortment of various tickets from food outlets and DVD stores
• a Royal Brunei Economy class bag tag
• a surgical mask
• a surgical mask with a moustache drawn on it with black marker
• four bottle caps (RC Cola, Coke and a couple of Pepsis)
• two Pokemon figurines
• three rubber bands
• two broken badges
• a fork
• two can opener thingies
• a single paperclip
• a broken star

• give you up
• let you down
• run around
• desert you

He also would never:

• make you cry
• say goodbye
• tell a lie
• hurt you

But he will:

• release a pop song in the 80s that would ultimately be the subject of many, many Internet pranks that make you wanna jump off a cliff and then later, grow on you 'causing you to erupt into song at random times during boring classes much to the annoyance of your peers

• wallet-sized photographs of Rona, Rina, Eddie, Kona, Aikks and Limmy
• a Volcom card
• my Dad's business card
• a receipt from Fratini's (circa November, 2009), $77.00
• the San Juans' address in BC (for emergency purposes)
• a $1.75 Translink bus ticket
• $2.00 (Singaporean)
• $2.00 HK
• $12.00 RM
• $51.00 BND
• $10.00 Canadian
• $5.47 in Canadian change
• ₤1
• my expired IC
• a boarding pass to KK
• a rosary card
• a ticket to Senior Prom Night, 2010
• a ticket to Senior Prom Night, 2009

• very productive things
• start skating again
• learn the piano
• brush up on my German
• hang out more at coffee shops
• learn to read Braille
• learn sign language
• cook something, anything, as long as it isn't fast food/instant noodles
• dye hair before the new sem
• see Rona
• finish that caricature of everybody
• figure out the meaning to life and everything and while I'm at it, what I want to do for a living
• watch the final Potter movie
• learn to speak in every cool accent for comical purposes
• hang out with everyone I haven't seen since... well.. since I had a life
• find gigs

(in no particular order)

• Max Helyer
• Fayyadh Bahrin (pre-growth spurt)
• Old couples still crazy in love
• Lights talking
• Billy dancing/acting all gangsta/getting pissed off
• Baby yaks and seals (seriously, I want one)
• Ashley being a drama queen
• Syu
• Nina's little brother whom I call Darth Vader
• The Kaulitz twins as children
• Gustav Fucking Schaefer
• My boyfriend

I like to think that I am good/alright at:

• guitar
• (thinking I can) sing well
• being chummy with everyone
• giving out life-saving advice
• drawing
• cruising on my skateboard
• being witty
• charming people
• being funny

I am really good at/with:

• amusing myself (and on good days, everyone else)
• loving people (it's serious business, I mean my love)
• letting everyone know how I feel about stuff
• eating atrocious amounts of food and remaining skinny, skinny, skinny ('tis the life)

I am extremely picky, very lazy, and absolutely forgetful so I'll only list out stuff that I want to do, am bothered to do and can still remember with contradicting vague clarity. So yeah. Also I'll do them in any order I please. Because I can. Yeah.

• Day 01 — Create a list of “must-read” books
• Day 02 — List your pet peeves (will reveal my weaknesses)
• Day 03 — Create a list of things you want to do before you die
• Day 04 — Make a Christmas or birthday wish list
• Day 05 — Create a list of lessons you’ve learned throughout life
• Day 06 — Make a “If you really knew me…” list (it's cheating)
• Day 07 — List the goals you hope to accomplish
• Day 08 — Write a list of confessions

12:43 am

• pizza
• * ****** *******
• * ***** **** **** **** ******* *******
• also, less disappointment with life in general

1:03 am, Sunday morning

• sleepy
• hungry
• confused as to why I am still awake, what exactly I am waiting for and why I can't just go downstairs and get food to keep myself awake and my stomach happy