• "And her ending something as powerful as this, that she started...wow." -bookstore clerk
• "That was soooo recession." -someone at NPR
• "David Foster Wallace is sooooo 2008." -someone at NPR
• "I hate sleeping on anything other than down."
• "You're funny...looking (maniacal laughs)" -middle age woman to her male partner
• "Look, it's Lil Weezy!" -Linda in reference to a small dog that resembled our neighbor's dog, Weezy.

• Day 1 of NPR internship- FANTASTIC. But really, genuinely, wholeheartedly I am thrilled. Brief synopsis: Today included a segment on young farmers and a documentary called The Greenhorns (http://www.thegreenhorns.net/). I participated in my first "Idea meeting," and, if all goes well, 2-3 my ideas will be on air next week. Everyone eats lunch together at a round table.
• Boots that Linda refers to as "Your Grandmother's Boots" and John calls "Paratrooper boots" came in the mail today. I can't wait to crunch orange leaves in these boots.
• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EIeUlvHA...
• The air smells clean. Not to sound like a spokesperson for a "Come to New Hampshire, What're you waiting for?" campaign (a la California's Terminator) but really, breathing here feels like hugging someone with freshly shampooed hair.

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• Two men fill the tank of their very damaged Audi at the Zebra Express Mart, two pumps away from me. One man wears a tee-shirt that reads, "Whipped cream. Handcuffs. You. Me. Any questions?" the other wears one that says "Give Me Vagina." Presumably, they are friends.

I used to be the only kid at dinner parties in a house with:

• Long, dark wood tables
• A table centerpiece made of glass that was full to the brim with tennis balls
• A refrigerator with a photo of young Bill Clinton in denim cut-offs juxtaposed with a picture of Geroge Bush's head growing out of a Texan tobacco plant
• A bedroom with white walls and a fireplace framed with painted ceramic tiles
• A porch with a long drop-off
• Tenuous inhabitants who started their own business and never had kids
• Salad bowls made of carved wood
• A faded gold handle which led to a hidden bathroom under the dark wood stairs. The bathroom had a blue and white painted Portuguese ceramic bowl for a sink
• A neighbor who owned a children's store where I helped for a day

• What instrument makes that whirly spinny sound in the back of Radiohead's Spinning Plates, the one that actually sounds like a plate spinning?
• Does anyone else in this world have a voice remotely comparable to Macy Gray's?
• Where can I find a good molasses clove cookie recipe?
• Why is intracampus mail not ultra-uber-super-popular?!
• Why is gender neutral housing at Skidmore so limited?

• intro to glass blowing
• intro to beekeeping
• intermediate urban beekeeping
• the art of haiku: much meaning in few syllables
• basic motor skills: how to snap
• intro to botany: successfully cultivating spider plants
• tofu preparation and mastering the art of stir fry
• the usefulness of goats: goat cheese making and cashmere production

• Salvation - The Cranberries
• Zombie - The Cranberries
• Carmina Burana - Carl Orff
• All The Things She Said - Tatu
• Birthday Sex - Jeremiah
• Devil's Spoke - Laura Marling
• Commes Des Enfants - Couer de Pirate
• Suck My Dick - Lil Kim
• Sometimes - Erykah Badu
• When I Grow Up - Fever Ray
• Ya Leil - Sufjan Stevens
• Another Sun - Malakai
• Bury My Body - The Animals
• Crosses - Zero 7
• I Don't Blame You - Cat Power

• Acknowledge that an English paper, especially Fiction, has never intimidated you or created anxiety in you this way.
• Get out of denial.
• Remember that you are peer mentoring for this professor next year and cringe upon realization that stakes feel high.
• Read source.
• Wander around house, eat berries, and make a list about the paper rather than actually writing, claiming that these activities let the source "marinate" in your brain.
• Flip through vegan/vegetarian cookbook, look for potential dinner. Further "marinating."
• Sit in bed and think.
• Open Word Document.
• Stare.
• Stop writing list as to stare uninterrupted at Word Document.

• wears distinctive glasses on some kind of beaded chain
• has unruly, frizzy hair, likely grey or at the least with a grey streak in front
• wears jewelry made of wood and natural stones
• lives in distinctively decorated home
• holds non-corporate job, preferably non-profit
• owns multiple cats or scruffy dogs
• casually recalls wide range of sexual experience and history
• travels often
• wears more freckles than makeup
• has very few, if any, children
• wears natural oil perfume, preferably honey, patchouli, or jasmine
• drinks tea and/or fair trade coffee
• has owned some small business at some point in life
• involved in fair trade

• Dear white laundry,

Was it really necessary to turn baby blue?

• Dear new navy socks,

Was it necessary to attack the rest of my clothing?

• Dear Boston bus,

Please come through despite the rain/snow/whatever else the upstate weather gods decide to plague us with

• Dear whoever may see this,

Intracampus mail would make me a very happy girl

• Dear Salvation Army Saratoga Springs corporate,

Y u dint sell clothes?!

• Nietzscheese burger
• Kierkegaarden salad
• Platomato
• Hume-us
• Aristotlemonade
• Kafkandy

• "Relationships between things are more important than the things themselves." -Ezra Pond
• "Everything belongs to me, because I am poor." -Jack Kerouac
• "...everything about feeling" -Serge Sabarsky
• "Yes to complexities, no to absolutes." -Bill T. Jones
• "What urges me, though, to restlessness and keeps thrusting me on to life's roads, is not the wisest voice in my soul; it is a side of me that finds the earth too limited, and is unable to find myself a sufficient universe." -Isablle Eberhardt
• "Well, at least I existed." -Marjane Satrapi
• "Everything is possible again." -Jonathan Safran Foer
• "Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not...

• Ani (of course)
• xx
• Snoop Dogg
• Fever Ray
• New Boyz
• Yann Tiersen

"In elementary school they made fun of me for eating hummus." "In elementary school they made fun of you if you didn't eat hummus."

• "In Russia, peasants wear fur coats because if you don't, you die." -AK
• "Tracy, if you'll permit me to quote Jamie Foxx..." -Melizald
• "You must stop drinking this devil's juice!" -NSD
• "Cookies like boobs! When we were little, cookies were boobs." -NSD
• "They gave me a bag of drugs. I have a lot of drugs." -AH
• "Sweet leg hair."

"My nose is running." "Better go catch it." "That's my joke." "I stole it." "I'm calling the police."

• 7:45AM, waiting in the drive-thru line at Dunkin Donuts on the way to work I let a person into line ahead of me. When I reach the window to pay, I am informed that the person I let in paid for my coffee.
• 8:20AM, three middle-aged couples walk into the NPR building, each person holding hands with their partner.
• 3:45PM, Hudson, NY, coffee shop, Linda asks for a cup of tap water and proceeds to water all of the cafe's dry plants.

• Wilton Town Hall Theatre
• Meena's Kitchen
• India Palace
• A&E Roastery
• Salvation Army
• Pack Monadnock
• the river
• Used Book Superstore

• NH Public Radio's Word of Mouth internship
• Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros in ...
• Attempt to visit the Whitney Museum befo...) ends
• Explore the city and town
• Take beekeeping classes
• Visit the MacDowell Colony in Peterborough
• Dinner/Dance parties on/in porches and garages
• Live and cook vegan with Lindsey for a week
• Read a book by David Foster Wallace/Finish reading Middlesex
• Get sufficiently bug-bitten and sun burned, as record of weather beautiful enough to be outside
• Watch every Green Porno
• Visit the Used Book Superstore often
• Borrow new documentaries from the Nashua Public Library (We Live in Public)
• Spend days in Mass MoCA (mmmmm Sol Lewitt)

• orange dry
• 5 bottles of grape soda in Aquafina bottles
• 3 rows of newspaper-paper-dolls
• disco ballz
• charcoal nudez
• spider plant in a yellow pot
• snoop dogg
• vornado ("a top of the line fan")
• grace coddington
• collective schedule
• kunstschauwien
• "the game"

• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• oatmeal
• wrap bread
• raisin bread
• French bread
• oatmeal

Is this what "you don't know what you have until it's gone" means? maybe.

• Sunglasses that look like 3D glasses but are real functioning sunglasses with one eye red and one eye blue would probably be really trendy for one season if ever created.

Expansion may or may not come later.

TLC thinks you are a scrub IF you:

• think you're fine
• always talk about what you want
• sit on your broke ass
• can't get no love from me
  
• hang out on the passengers side of your best friend's ride
• try to holla at me
  
• look like trash, while I
  
  look like class

• sleeping against a wall
• wise words of Ben Gibbard-- new twin size bed
• increase in coffee consumption
• new skill: slicing my own citrus fruits, emphasis on grapefruits
• New Yorker and Bust subscriptions > Glamour and Teen Vogue subscriptions
• FULL BLOWN vegetarianism
• Sometimes I wear an ambiguous watch where I used to wear Bodhi beads, but that's not always.
• I will never hesitate to call myself a feminist ever again.

• "An Exercise in List-Making"
• smooth lines
• gold glitter
• "She had drowned in the desert."
• Read: Bonjour Tristesse (Francoise Sagan)
• "I like libraries because they make me feel less lonely" -J
• Women in Academia
• Download: Gabby Morena
• To Pack: Elizabeth Bishop poetry book, Scrabble, Weather Underground documentary, knitting materials, cutoffs, luggage
• Robert Redford's Sundance Magazine grammatical crimes
• Watch: Banksy film spring 2010
• Listen: Anis Mojgani (Milos)
• Find: glow-in-the-dark leggings, tape recorder, optical leotard

• 1,2,3-I, you, he, she, we-Chai tea-Tai Chi-elementary
• Elliot Spitzer-apricot spritzer
• banjo-Bon Jovi-anchovie
• Pacific Ocean-Pacifist notion
• Mark Ronson-Ken Johnson-on sense-nonsense
• laissez faire-Liz Phair
• engender-degender
• Russia-shah

• Last week I was driving home from work and, while going around a tightly curving portion of highway, was trapped between a large truck and a van whose back door read "Caution: Show Dogs." Passing the show dog van, I noticed that the van had a picture of a large, glorified dog, with the name "Labradale" painted underneath.
• For work, I spoke with "Turbo Paul," reformed art thief and dealer turned art recovery blogger. He has a thick British accent and named his son after Oliver Twist. Turbo Paul was on the show today and when asked how he got into the art crime world replied, "Well when I was a small boy, thieves lifted me through windows. Then I got too large to fit through windows."
• Kelly Blanchard, president of Ibis Reproductive Health non-profit, wrote a NYT op-ed called "Let the Pill Go Free," explaining why the Pill should be sold to women ...

• The woman with long stringy blond hair who rearranged every chair outside of Uncommon Grounds one by one.
• The man in the Albany Greyhound Station with a maroon, purple, and red striped suit with matching fedora and deep red alligator loafers.
• The guy with full sleeves and thick-rimmed glasses who is seemingly always working at the Cambridge Urban Outfitters.
• The hyper-sensitive middle-aged woman working at the dress shop in Northampton, who broke into a visible sweat when confronted with a customer dropping a pair of purple and orange paisley patterned leggings.
• The man at the lobster shack who helped his small daughter identify each part of her clam chowder as clam or potato.

• This afternoon, I went to Lull Farm and bought plants for my vegetable garden. Growseedsgrow, Boston lettuce, "Big Boy" tomatoes, basil, eggplants, and zucchini!
• Bicycling makes me incredibly happy.
• Denny's with all of you makes me incredibly happy.
• Over the past 24 hours, I have rapid-cycled between being thrilled to be home and wanting to be nowhere that I know.
• Seeing conservative bumper stickers and a "Jesus saves" sign nailed to a tree again comes as culture shock.
• Eventually, everything will come down from my walls. Living in a plain bright buttercup yellow room might be a good idea.
• Tomorrow, I will wake up and go for a run to a cheesy pop soundtrack, visit Salvation Army, drink coffee at Bon Hoffer's, and read old New Yorkers in the sunshine. This is completely ideal.

Word association with words that jumped out in this week's New Yorker: (word;association)

• marvels;growing
• charcoal;flesh
• incandescent;bugs
• zygote;Ani DiFranco
• Hefner;velvet
• windowsill;plants
• self-sacrifice;self-righteous intent
• pretty;words
• nineteen;transition
• thick-set;euphemisms
• maudlin;display
• somersault;suburbia
• wineglasses;wooden tables
• modular;Ikea
• daywear;pastel polyester
• chiffon;"Where the hell is my chiffon?"
• ambassador's wife;pearls and boredom
• plot; contrive

• Bed with Billie Holiday and Sleepytime tea
• The idea of using sample paint strips to make a full wall mural (see Narrow Stairs album cover)
• Copper in simple shapes
• When upstate NY spring smells like NH spring
• The Fred Tomaselli exhibition in the Tang
• Relentless false cynicism
• Black pique hybrid jumper-harem pants that will soon be mine and worn to nhpr frequently
• yvanrodic.blogspot.com
• Hating "Hot bananas on a road trip"
• Dreams of Burning Man Festival

Yesterday, while waiting for the bus downtown, Molly and I laid eyes upon a lovely, empty building. Small business plans commenced. If we were to open a store, it would include:

• handmade jewelry
• organic textile clothing
• locally grown organic vegetarian/vegan soups
• a mixtape section: you come to us, tell us a song you like, we make you a mix with music you don't know (like itunes' genius, but with more charm!)
• a section with small plots of land which you could buy/rent to grow your own breakfast/lunch/dinner
• coffee and tea
• vintage clothing that we will alter for you
• molasses clove cookies (SO GOOD)

• Coffee Lover's matzoh: matzoh with nutella hazelnut spread and chocolate covered coffee beans on top
• Ant's On a Log matzoh: matzoh with peanut butter and raisins on top
• Sandwich Lover's matzoh: matzoh with lettuce, tomato, cheese, and other sandwiches fixings inside (quite literally, a flat bread sandwich?)
• Stereotypical Seduction matzoh: matzoh with chocolate spread and raspberries on top
• Birthday matzoh: matzoh with frosting and sprinkles on top
• Chinese Take-Out matzoh: matzoh with assorted Asian vegetables and anything else but noodles on top

• Carmina Burana
• plans to be a beekeeper
• Grace Coddington
• t.a.t.u.
• chocolate covered matzoh
• re-terminology/DIY nomenclature
• tea-pot body language
• When Anis Mojgani said, "I can flap my arms like a goose's arms, and a goose's arms are actually called wings."
• Kafka
• Laura Marling's I Speak Because I Can album

• Consigning your Bat Mitzvah dress will make you feel like more of an adult than the actual Bat Mitzvah did.
• You will realize you forgot these books by your bed: No One Belongs Here More Than You (Miranda July), The Metamorphasis (Franz Kafka), The Dharma Bums (Jack Kerouac), Alice in Wonderland (Lewis Carroll), Frida (Barbara Mujica)
• And add these ones to the pile: Middlesex (Jeffrey Eugenides), Manifesta (Jennifer Baumgardner and Amy Richards)
• Tofu, veggies, and rice tastes better when Linda makes it than when Emily's Garden does.
• Dance-y, party-y, pop-y music sounds 2,000 times better when listened to in a car. Preferably a '94 Honda Accord.
• Salvation Army will supply you with an infinite selection of florals and rompers.
• Upon placing these florals in your suitca...

• "I love when you say my name that way."
• "Are you drinking?"
• "NICK?!"
• "I thought robotripping was smoking weed with robots."
• "Would you like a red hot instead of Vodka? That's what Hilary would say."
• N: "Are you getting the spins, Amanda?" A: "Is that what pregnant people get? I hope I'm not pregnant."
• Unintelligible whispers

• laissez faire
• without a care
• wind in hair
• church stair
• tear and wear
• naked and bare
• Sonny and Cher
• lion's lair
• billionaire heir
• au contraire!
• kitchen chair
• train fare
• county fair
• grizzly bear

• Goodies - Ciara
• Freak-a-Leak - Petey Pablo
• Get Low - Lil Jon