- 2 of my "friends" in middle school saying they weren't going to hang out with me anymore because i smelled like piss
- 3 different girls i grew up with who lived in the apartment complex i did slowly but surely starting to completely ignore me and not make eye contact or wave back when i tried to interact with them in the hallway at school
- a girl i considered myself friends with in elementary school who moved away eventually moved back to our city and i saw her again in middle school and when i tried to catch up with her she had absolutely no idea who i was
- a hundred thousand instances of being told i was annoying, overbearing, weird, obnoxious, etc.
- after breaking up with my first girlfriend because i was uncomfortable with her stalking behavior i was trying very kindly to tell her i still wanted to be friends on the phone and her younger sister took the phone and screamed at me for several minutes about what a lying backstabbing bitch i was and how much she hoped i died, followed by the girlfriend cutting my face out of our middle school dance photos and burning them
- as a child spending the summer with my cousins, if i "misbehaved" my mother would have me go pick a branch off a tree so she could pull my pants down in front of everyone and lash my bare ass and legs with it
- at a "friend"s house laying on the couch and her older sister asked if i'd started menstruating yet to which i replied no so she squirted her red kool-aid all over my pants and shrieked laughing and i had to run outside and sit on the sidewalk humiliated and crying waiting for my stepdad to come pick me up while all my "friend" did was laugh with her
- being avoided like i had the plague my last 2 years of elementary school after i got headlice at a classmates birthday party
- being broken up with without an explanation in high school and only finding out through a mutual friend later it was because i didn't kiss her fast enough, which she had never once communicated to me about
- being locked out of the bathroom while a bunch of kids from my class talked shit about me at my own 10th birthday party until i started crying because no one would tell me why and my mother sent everyone home
- being made fun of and treated like a freak for brushing my teeth after lunch in high school
- being told by my gbf in high school that he would date me "if i were a guy"
- being told through the entirety of elementary school by my "best friend" and her sister that i was too fat and ugly to ever get a boyfriend so i had better learn to get good at sex to make up for it
- getting asked if i was high constantly because of my very severe dark circles
- going on an outing with 2 "friends" in high school and they told me to stay where i was so they could go somewhere alone to talk shit about me and i just had to stand there and watch them across the quad looking over at me every now and then for a good hour or so before they came back and we all went home
- having the same first name as another kid in the apartment complex and getting dubbed the "other" one
- inevitably being shamed for the year and a half i had braces
- my "best friend" getting mad at me in middle school and telling me she hated me "more than the guy who r*ped her", when i hadn't even known that about her beforehand at all. what a way to find out
- my "best friend" in middle/high school constantly interrupting me to tell me she didn't care what i was talking about until i would shut up
- my "best friend" in middle/high school leaving comments on my artwork saying it wasn't good enough to be posted as full on artwork and should have been in my scraps
- my "best friend" in middle/high school saying that i was really good at drawing hair so it was a shame everything else i drew was terrible
- my cousin telling me when i was in my last year of elementary school that it was absolutely disgusting i wasn't wearing a bra yet despite that i very barely qualified as having a developed enough chest to even warrant a training bra
- my first online girlfriend and i made a mutual promise that i'd stop eating meat if she'd stop self-harming, because she was a very passionate vegetarian, and after a while eventually she said she had never stopped self-harming even though i did stop eating meat for her for a good 3 months to the severe aggravation of everyone around me, and when i asked why she never told me, she said "because the knife is closer than you are"
- my grandpa telling me i laugh too much/too loudly
- on halloween one year a boy in the apartment complex pranked me by using one of the fake blood capsules you bite for vampiric make-up effect, i thought he was really bleeding and i was extremely worried, i ran inside immediately to grab paper towels to try and help him and when i came back outside he was laughing his ass off and calling me every single variety of stupid he could think of for actually believing the blood was real
- one of my "friends" once told me something like a fun fact which i confirmed i was aware of and she looked me and sarcastically laughed and said "that's not true, i made it up just to see if you would agree with me"
- sitting in gbf's room with a mutual friend in high school and them spontaneously having a conversation about how absolutely disgusting and revolting it is for people who use menstrual pads to just wrap them up in the plastic and not do basically everything humanly possible to make sure they're completely invisible in the trashcan so no one has to be forced to perceive that anyone is menstruating, knowing full well i was the only one in the room menstruating at the time, and i was the one they were calling disgusting
- some girls in middle school awkwardly swaggering up to a friend and i minding our own business while making the alien v with their hands and saying "we come in peace"
- walking across the apartment complex while some kids were playing with the lawn hose in their back yard and an older kid threatened to spray me with the hose and i begged him not to because my shirt was white and he did it anyway, laughing all the while, humiliating me in front of a group of children i had no choice but to keep seeing every day
dec 3 2022 ∞
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