- 1 | forcefully hired into some kind of retail job but when i went in for the onboarding process, the woman who was to be my boss said i could take formal jp language college courses instead; walking out of a petrol station and getting my right hand stuck between the back of a pick up truck and an suv that crashed into it as it was pulling around the pumps
- 2 | went on a very long trip with m and after staying in a hotel, we were checking out the following day and the owner came by and said we had to be out within an hour or we'd get charged again and another man was waiting to use our room, but suddenly it seemed like no matter what all i packed i couldn't ever reduce the amount of remaining things we had to pack and i couldn't find m so i was panicking about getting out on time
- was phoned by my grandpa that he and my little brother had used an rv to travel to where we were which was extremely far from home and two parts in the rv engine had busted and they didn't manufacture replacement parts in the area so we had to end our trip and take them all the way home even though they'd just gotten there to spend time with the extended family
- m and i heading to where they were, we passed a house on the street that i've seen in a previous dream, but the front porch was now covered in dark netting that had giant yellow stitches over it, as if it had been intentionally abandoned since i dreamed of it last
- getting into a bus station to leave, talking with one of my dream aunts apologising for not actually getting to spend any time with her and being sad about having to leave before we ever really were there to begin with, parts of the tops of the escalators were broken and bizarrely pointing straight down vertically at the floor in one sheet-like section, but then were normal the rest of the way down, and both of them were moving upwards rather than one up escalator and one down, and she acted like that was completely normal like "that's fine, you'll just need to take the other one", then saw a third escalator that went along most of the floor and downward that had a family of little pug puppies going down
- 3 | remember basically nothing except it had something to do with needing help/helping someone
- 4 | remembered it perfectly well when i woke up but didn't write it down fast enough so i forgot the entire thing • from my nap: at my brother's birthday party probably in late middle school sometime and he was going into his bedroom with one of the neighbor kids we had out in the boonies, "squash", and was basically like ok everybody mind your business and don't come in y'all probably caught on by now, implying they were going to make out and i was trying to find my phone to message m & t like holy fuck did my brother just come out as bi/gay to his whole ass friend group deadass in the center of the room right now on his birthday?? and i was flipping the fuck out emotionally like my brother is bi my brother is bi this is the most dope thing EVER?!?!?!? WHAT IS GOING ON OMG, i was so excited, unanchored by threefifty, which is the song i had on repeat irl while sleeping, had been playing in the dream and the music stopped when he left the room, so i kept humming so it wouldn't be awkwardly silent
- later things changed and i went into his room and it was sometime after his death, and in the dream he had a shower kind of connected to his bedroom by a personal hallway and i found a receipt taped on the wall next to his shower he'd kept of us going to dinner together on his birthday a previous time because i could see the date on it and the 2 meals and recalled it within the dream, even though that never happened irl, and i was emotionally moved to fuck about it, found this bizarre christian pamphlet advising young boys on how to behave while sifting through some of his school papers in his closet, which is something i did irl at the time, but even in the dream although i could see pages of his handwriting i chose not to read it to respect his privacy
- trying to find a compatible gaming system for some game he wanted to play with 2 friends during the birthday party, the area looked really similar to steven's loft in su, but when i looked to the left it was like looking out the back of a station wagon rather than a house window
- i was trying to do some terraforming in acnh but it wasn't turning out the way i wanted, something about a cd player, singing at the bottom of a ramp at a boat dock
- instead of having a birthday cake everyone was having these orange creamcicle-type swirl ice pops he used to love as a kid irl
- 5 | walking around some kind of asian grocery store with one of my ex a, she found a t-shirt with a really great phrase on it that i loved in the dream but idr what it said, i put it on and was wearing it before purchasing it with the tags still on and everything, i was excited because they had a hot counter by the door like k's taiyaki just with hotdog buns instead, was talking to the owners about how awful it was to live in bfl, ny, we were unintentionally about to leave without paying for everything but the owners had been keeping a running tab for us somehow and gave us a huge discount at the end fsr
- tv show stages like drphil and ellen had all caught fire and my grandpa was there fsr, i was there with emergency services, receiving phone calls from some woman named "dane" who was trying to get a statement for worker's comp
- 6 | looking out the window over m's dresser and there was snow on the ground and i heard m saying from walking out the door like "there's waist deep snow out here!! you could Jump in it!!! and i was like holy shit what?? and it turns out the entire window on the right and part of the left, the screens had ripped entirely away from damage from the intense snow, and i was panicking but by then m was already gone, our landlord's cousin (whom ive never seen irl) was outside and had shoveled some around the house and i was talking to her through our gaping window like hi ?? what are we supposed to do about this?? and her cousin was bizarrely some white woman with light brown wavy hair and i was so perplexed (because my landlords are middle eastern), and she was like tbh asking a third party to fix it and paying for it yourself is easier and i was like girl there is no Way wtf, and i went outside and i think i was going to find m at work to talk about it and when i came outside she had no less than 8 (eight) longboi dogs and one of them had kept trying to come in the window when i was still in the house because there was no screen, i was like having to use my whole body to prevent her giant ass dog from crawling through the window down into our house and it was so funny but also so stressful because she wasn't doing a single thing to try and prevent him, none of them were on leashes
- that crob got an update and that for the cookies skill they all got magical girl transformations during the run and i tried lilacs and it was super beautiful but SO confusing and the screen became absolute chaos and was virtually unplayable
- trying to visit some of my extended family with my mother and grandpa and we were at some grocery store parking lot road, like the space for cars right outside walmarts doors, and they were riding this giant ass wooden sled on pavement and the two parts that curve underneath that slide on the snow were printed to look like realistic bacon
- doing some kind of fundraiser outside my aunt's house but i both don't remember what we were selling and fsr vanitas was there just kind of loitering on his phone??
- 7 | forgot the entire dream i had before going back to sleep when i woke up way too early this morning • crob was going to be down for like 3 weeks because of some kind of global event that Everyone is interested in somehow like the world cup, except it was a season of some tv show and crob servers were hosting it fsr, but they made this game that looked like a 2d casino roulette board you could swipe left-right to get to more of until you finished the circle, and in it you were supposed to try to figure out which order to put 5 of each of the cookies magic candy ingredients and if you did it right it would upgrade their candy by the time they were back up after the global tv show something or other, but there were absolutely no hints or clues for what order they were supposed to be in and the ingredients were all identical so id been sitting there trying to do amber sugars on pc somehow, and dragging and dropping the ingredients into the slots but id just been thinking like wow this makes No sense, classic crob, the mc ingredients were circular like the candies actually are in the game but rather than the little item featured on top like a a little hat, it was a totally smooth orb with the cookies main color and a shimmery print of their combi bonus treasure overlayed fsr
- trying to take care of m when sick and had been asked to do something about changing the blankets on the bed and after i did, m said the "temperature's a 15 out of 10" and i had no idea what that meant, trying to fit all of our drinking draws back into a pen holder fsr that was sitting on top of a synthesizer-piano we had in the dream by the desk we used to have irl
- 8 | crob guild runs were weird and had boosts like the breakout random challenge & like those mario maker edits that have way too many items and such, soda cookie accidentally used vampire's pet, then tried blue lily, catching fire blast jellies in bonus time was bizarre
- going to a shopping mall with m so we could get winter boots and one of the shops was like the manufacturer's warehouse place but so exclusive they only let one person in at a time, it looked like the queue for an amusement park ride, extremely high ceiling and aisles were maze-like, i got mad because m was trying to show me how the shoe-lace holes were very sturdy and durable and aggressively pulled it to demonstrate, making it extremely lose and essentially ruining the purpose, which made me really mad
- looking in the food court for somewhere to sit and all the tables were organized like loose leaf streetcar seating, some of them level and some of them raised, some karaoke thing was going on and these girls kept asking me to sing but i was too shy but the girl who chose to sing instead was absolutely godawful so i sang quietly from my table and i sounded a lot better than i thought i would so it made me happy, dearest by 浜崎あゆみ
- area of the food court looked like eataly but the deli areas were all baked goods, it was an hour that everything in the mall should have been closed so it was mostly empty and dark in that area and very eerie
- spending time with my cousins in their pool and upset no one would swim with me, bizarrely the pool was right outside my grandmother's front door on the left side of the house, trying to et out of a car with too many bags and was insisting i could do it alone but this kind girl kept trying to help me, when i came inside i think i got mad about a mini fridge being left open, the area looked kind of like the cafeteria from ehlth
- going to a bus station and the down escalator was broken and i had the cart so i used the elevator instead but we lifted like zero gravity until the elevator car got to the lower floor and gently landed, which was surreal
- something about 2 young boys in the mall, i was trying to help their father figure out something about their behavior, and i took the older one i think and took him aside and talked to him and did something to make him calm down and cooperate, feel like it was swinging him in my arms or something like that gentle parenting mom
- something to do with cats but remember zero other details about that part
- 9 | staying with some people for whatever reason and this older man took an interest in me because i like science and geology and he was trying to get into a relationship with me of some kind but i couldn't tell what he wanted from me, he was very creepy and i felt really pressured, in hindsight reminds me of j's dad, rob l, and mtc, he kept following me around the enormous house and trying to show me things to impress me and nothing i did would get him to leave me alone, then after some days i think, he tried to get into a relationship with some woman in front of me seemingly to make me jealous, which did not work, i felt kind of brain washed after being there long enough and started to think it might be fine to have him as a sugar daddy but he was way too weird and i was anxious about his sexual interest, i was trying to do subtle things out of spite to get him to lose interest
- i had been trying to get my phone to charge for ages but for some reason it was data that needed charging somehow, not battery, but nothing was working and i found the woman of the house and she said that the man of the house wouldn't pay for "2 similar services", which she didn't elaborate clearly on, so phone data wasn't available fsr, so i'd been spending days there trapped and stressed out trying to figure out why my phone wasn't charging so i could safely leave for nothing because it was never available in the first place, i saw on google that for some ungodly reason the source of the data charging was in some restaurant in new hampshire
- i found a woman who cleaned for the house i think and was asking her about the guy and why he was so weird and we entered a "dearie, marry the mole" thumbelina situation, something about tiger lily cookie?
- something about replacing all the toothbrushes in their bathroom with cheap dollar store ones out of spite, shopping at the dollar store for a new dish brush and my uncle was there for whatever reason trying to talk to me about the guy
- shopping at a store like wgms, something about a huge tower of chocolate pringles on an endcap, oceans of other things i dont remember clearly
- 10 | remembered when i woke up but once again didn't write it down fast enough and forgot it all
- 11 | woke up a few different times and don't remember most of any of them, but one part was this kind of combination of rapunzel & kida in this bizarre white one piece dress/bathing suit thing with jewels on it standing in calf-deep water somewhere, kind of seemed like the bottom of a castle like an entry to the moat or something
- 2ne1 doing a cover of this strange combination of dope/fantastic baby and Killing It, one of the members had a bright green-teal shimmery high ponytail
- doing laundry in an unfamiliar laundromat with some judgmental friends who weren't really my friends, washing machines were slightly angled so they looked like those candy jars/cereal bins you use with scoops, accidentally tried to get my laundry and opened some guys washer instead and we he was like woah now, i laughed and said sorry, then moved to mine and opened the door wider so we could both get out our laundry at the same time, he was nice about it, one of the machines wasnt taking my coins so i ended up having to open the top of the coin dispenser and place my lush-bath-bomb-looking detergent chunk into the coin slot instead ??? and my "friends" were making me feel stupid about it
- 12 | didnt write it down fast enough & forgot again
- 13 | night time in a city, cheesecake cookie in the fancy party costume jumping up the side of this big building on top of a cliff the way riku/sora jumped up the cliff during that scene with nort towards the end
- on the deck around the top of the cliff where the building started, working with someone and they were sick, i'd brought a change of clothes for them if they got cold and it included these bizarre black boyshort underwear that taped together in the middle along the crotch seam almost magnetically
- sitting at the back of a bus, being bad at a job
- trying to cross the street at an intersection to wait for a bus to come so i could get on really quick and ask someone for a popcorn flavoring packet to eat by itself, and then immediately get off before the bus left again, i got one and it was the texture of koolaid powder and pink
- 14 | buying a stained glass mandala coloring book but they were all extremely small and in one giant grid and there were lots of repeats and i was mad, trying to get m_ to talk to me but seemed really irritated and half ignoring me and i was really stressed out
- trying to get gh to eat some of the giant carrots in the fridge that had been chopped into large chunks and wrapped in damp paper towels individually
- 15 | forgot most of it but one part was walking around in this semi-open field around some train tracks and someone was telling me about a history event where this woman was put to death in the area we were standing for some kind of crime and the death sentence was carried out in 3 stages, an initial killing of some kind that i dont remember the method of, then being subjected to a firing squad for 5 minutes and 13 seconds, and finally being set on fire, and i had an enormous meltdown from being able to see those events fold out in front of me visually because of our macro vision and got extremely upset about the overkill
- 16 | forgot most of it but one part was taking orders from some woman, some kind of extremely stressful high stakes situation like maybe a supernatural contagion, looking one direction through the lower level of this 2 story cheap hotel building with hundreds of people on both levels for something, coming back to her standing on the stairs and her telling me to trade places with the person i was working with and check the other direction
- 17 | on twt as a website except the layout was trungl's search page layout, so like pint board format, and i came across this tweet from some popular russ artist that was a video exactly 5 minutes long, i specifically remember looking at "5:00" at the bottom corner, and when i played it it started as a regular video of some guy in the passenger seat of a car facing someone in the back seat almost doing a skit like a tktk, talking about this animation he'd done that was going to be featured in the video after he stopped introducing it, but the video had like this bizarre gorgeous rainbow watercolor painting filter over it as he was moving, like those snpcht filters that make you look like an animal and just follows your movement, and the animation itself was this really incredible csm thing, and when i saw the RT/like amts my eyes almost shot out of my skull because it had over 12 MILLION rts, and i was messaging t to show it to him like wtf this is the most rts of anything ive ever seen ???? but in the time that i was talking to him about it it ended up getting into whatever you call it when there's 5 sets of 3 numbers followed by the 6 zeros, like xxx,xxx,xxx,xxx,xxx,000,000, and i was trying to remember what that number was called like quintillion ?? ?? and both of us were just absolutely baffled to death about it, we were counting up like okay theres billion, trillion, quadrillion, oh my god what other numbers are UP THERE what is this even CALLED
- was watching some woman and her friend walk all around her house up and down stairs and all in bedrooms with a matte white tuba-like instrument that was normally used by police trying to get inspiration for something
- a cute chunky boy with messy dark brown hair, in love with him somehow even though he was a stranger, maybe he'd offered us something or had made eye contact at some point, sitting nearby while he was at a table writing in a notebook, was really quiet and gentle but he ended up leaving wherever we were and we never saw him again and felt really sad about it, associated him with maple scent/flavor in the dream fsr
- 18 | forgot most of it but a bit i remember is trying to eat an instant cup noodle that was labeled honey lemon tea but when you peeled off that layer of the packaging it actually said spicy pad thai underneath and i couldn't figure out why on earth that would be a thing
- trying to get to-go sushi from some restaurant in a hotel lobby
- these 2 boys looking for a cineplex plaza that was incidentally right behind where i was standing on the sidewalk but it was actually part of this enormous shopping mall thing that was going to take them like 20+ minutes to walk to
- 19 | going with some boy on this really really long car ride in the pitch dark on a 2 road highway that went on seemingly forever at this bizarrely high altitude, ended up at a kind of edge-of-the-world place with a single convenience store that was open at the dead end of the street and a single closed grocery store to our right that had absolutely no lights on, had this kind of deserted recently-post-apocalyptic energy, snow or white dust from mass destruction all over, it was hard to tell which
- some tv show/anime about these few boys who turned into kind of sea creature magical boys with really bright colors and had specifically precure-like attacks
- anime of these 3 brothers who looked extremely similar to one another, short brown hair, all wearing plaid paperboy caps and getting ready to leave home to some kind of social event/group date, the youngest was our favourite and was a cc in the dream
- 20 | forgot all of it
- 21 | forgot most of it, hovering in the air trying to pick from a drawer on this enormous 5-sided wooden tower that had small drawers on every side with photos on the outside, maybe memories of something inside?
- dealing with the macro ocean problems that happen in my dreams sometimes, being rescued by some people in a yellow car along the shore but going back into what was apparently my 2 storey house i couldnt stop being nervous that the water was still rising and our house was going to get swept away but my partner in the dream wasnt listening to me about it and i was really stressed
- 22 | forgot all of it
- 23 | forgot all of it
- 24 | forgot all of it
- 25 | forgot all of it
- 26 | forgot all of it
- 27 | forgot almost all of it, something about lando and being bald
- 28 | forgot all of it
- 29 | trying to take a bus to get somewhere and was sitting on it for the longest time but as soon as it started to leave the station i realized i was on the wrong bus, going to yörk something or other
- trying to console ll that i have other friends and we're allowed to do things at the same time as a group and i can do things with her separately another time and she needs to specify when she doesnt want other people around and her being really pissed off at me about it, going to some kind of concert?
- being inside animal crossing game and it was like the mario maker where impossible things were possible and i was really baffled by what was going on, came to a glowing opalescent chirithy looking villager named aster i think, a tiger, but couldnt recruit it to my village fsr and i was really sad about it, some of the other villagers were trying to explain why but i didnt get it
- talking to jsh about some kind of sxual relationship these 2 people were having behind his back, like one of them was supposed to be his partner but he was sleeping with some woman in a station wagon car and there was some bizarre logistics to the relationship somehow?? idr clearly
- something food related, and something that had the very ominous consuming dread/fear i have in apocalyptic type dreams, but dont remember the details
- 30 | waiting for a bus for what seemed like a hundred years, one finally came and it was supposed to be some kind of bizarre direct bus, the 52, from the street corner wherever i was, to a bus station, but apparently the station was in the next state or something, and it wasnt direct after all, and i couldnt recognize any of the stop names, it was like they were mostly consonants, and i was panicking
- some stress about my grandpa and him ageing/dying and his alcohol addiction
- something involving my stepdad being abusive
- several different smaller dreams, all of them at night, walking by a sea harbor/marina, mckey was there, passing a convenience store and going into an aquarium gift shop, looking for a gift for my brother when he was still in grade school, looked like the kids section of chapters, oddly dim and maybe they were about to close
- org xiii stuff, through this huge apartment complex, some kind of open house like elementary schools have, going into this house of this man with his child, they were playing some game in the living room, almost like trick or treating, confused why i was there bc i was too old
- "aeleus is tallest, then dilan.." going to put lit candles on top of something like a housekeeping cart
- xion was blond and even younger, maybe 11-12, ends up getting killed, this one guy was the source of everything, palpable evil, after lots of other things like pinning her to some lockers and kind of strangling her, stabbed her in the right eye with a pair of golden scissors and she died, i dont think we saw his face so it was like mom or luxu or something??
- axel was possessed by something most of the time, he was meeting someone on a jetski on the dock in the harbor and they were going to look for her, a piece of our pink-purple laundry folder floating on the water giving them some kind of clue that she was in the water somewhere?, he was in extreme denial that he hadnt contributed to her death and they were going to find her and he was having a lot of trouble coming back to his senses and i was trying to get to him to tell him it was too late and it was emotionally excruciating to watch him still trying to find her and forcing a smile and his eyes looked so exhausted with extreme dark circles and it really broke my heart to watch
- some kind of insect issues, i think some kind of bee swarm over a corpse, just seemed like hours and hours of so much violence and death and fear
- 31 | having lived in ny and going back to fl for a visit with my grandpa & my little brother, maybe late middle school age, deciding to stay there so i could be with him and support him through high school, having the emotional dilemma of being back home but really missing the food
- something about the treasure ship restaurant, being under the bridge at the marina
- some kind of bizarre black and pink very long thin fish that looked very evil inside a cooler
- trying to take a picture of this couple sitting in a wheelbarrow but the light kept changing unnaturally actively as if having a hue slider/level corrector was actively being moved over reality itself
- trying to decide on what to eat in some food court in this half deserted mall that was trying to close
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