clothes━

• cashmere sweater
  • light neutral - heather grey (theory)
  • dark neutral - navy (theory)
• cashmere turtleneck sweater
  • dark neutral - black
  • light neutral - charcoal grey
• basic tshirt
  • white (apc)
  • grey (atm collection)
  • black (theory)
  • navy (x2) (atm collection, theory)
• basic long sleeve shirt
  • white (theory)
  • dark grey (theory)
  • light grey
  • black (theory)

• avoid ironing - throw article in drier for 5 min then hang it up
• avoid static - crumple ball of aluminum foil and toss it in drier
• dry clean not necessary for most things, wash with very gentle soap/detergent
• plant based detergents are best
• stains: first spray with vinegar and water, then horse hair brush and bar of laundry soap
• only need 2 tbsp of soap/detergent
• spray bottle of vodka will remove odor from clothing
• lavender sachets will repel moths/bugs
• cold water + scrubbing for blood stains, then launder
• hot water + dish soap + scrubbing for oil stains
• goretex garments - wash with goretex detergent, spray with dwr treatment, low heat dry

• franklin falls
• wallace falls
• gold creek pond
• mount storm king
• marymere falls
• second beach
• palouse falls
• quartz mountain lookout trail
• nisqually vista
• artist point
• thunder knob trail
• riverside state park (bowl and pitcher loop)
• sol duc falls
• hurricane ridge
• kalaloch tree
• scenic hot springs
• rattlesnake ledge
• heather lake
• big four ice caves
• lake wenatchee state park

own (full bottles) ━

• tom ford soleil blanc
• tom ford soleil neige
• diptyque philosykos
• baccarat rouge 540 extrait
• byredo bal d'afrique
• jo malone wood sage and sea salt
• le labo another 13
• creed virgin island water
• frederic malle carnal flower
• ds&durga rockaway beach
• ds&durga debaser
• byredo gypsy water - to sell

to buy (full bottles)━

• mfk gentle fluidity silver - maybe?
• by kilian blue moon ginger dash
• ds&durga radio bombay - maybe?

tried━

• le labo noir 29 (6/10) - a bit powdery an...

values━

• health and fitness
• adventure, the outdoors and travel
• mutual respect and admiration
• growth

goals━

• a long term relationship - ultimately a marriage - with a long term investment: striving towards longevity and building a life together
• cultivating a "we" mentality, secure in the knowledge that my partner is "in it" with me for the long haul
• sharing life and the day to day with someone who is excited about and wants the same things as me
• mutual effort - both partners put in work to build the relationship and take initiative to do things for each other, make each other a priority

quotes━

• "the most important step a person can take is always the next one" → always the next step → mountain design + quote in blank space of design

designs━

• mountain range around forearm
• barbell

things to change/improve next PC build━

• use a liquid cooler - fan coolers are bulky and hard to clean
• get a more expensive motherboard with wifi and bluetooth
• get fully rgb ram for color changes - not stuck with one color
• use a base white color scheme for better rgb color compatibility
• spend more money on a graphics card and less on a cpu - no need to buy intel
  • get an amd cpu
• only use ssds - NO SPINNING DRIVES - hdd's very loud
• line case with led strips covered in diffuser - lighting will look better

switches to try━

• touch: get a massage, manicure or a haircut, give or get a hug, cuddle with a partner
• written word: read a book, go to the library or local bookstore, read fanfiction
• movement: take a walk, go for a bike ride, go to the gym
• nature: go on a hike, plan a backpacking trip
• creativity: write, edit photos
• order: declutter, organize, write to-do lists, make plans, research travel and photo locations
• support: talk to a friend or partner, write out thoughts
• nourishment: cook a meal, try out a new recipe, bake a sweet treat
• sound: listen to ambient music, throw on an upbeat playlist
• warmth: take a bath, light a candle, drink tea, wear warm and comfortable clothing, put on some socks, snuggle under the covers

tried━

• brandywine orbital motion
• olympia coffee big truck ***
• olympia coffee morning sun
• onyx coffee monarch *
• onyx coffee geometry

tried (decaf)━

• verve coffee vancouver swiss water decaf ***
• black and white coffee sugarcane decaf

to try━

• verve coffee bronson
• verve coffee sermon
• anchorhead leviathan
• olympia coffee the sweetheart
• onyx coffee eclipse
• black and white coffee the original
• black and white coffee the natural
• black and white coffee the classic

things i love (sex edition)━

• the adrenaline of kissing someone new
• when you're giving someone a blowjob and they firmly but not forcefully hold your hair to guide your head and set the pace
• when you're spooning and feel them get hard against you
• neck kisses
• edging someone until they're begging to fuck you
• a man with a bubble butt
• deep open mouthed french kissing
• filthy dirty talk
• while riding a guy and they guide your hips
• when a man is vocal
• muscular men
• a man softly moaning in pleasure
• being called a good girl (or a bad girl)
• deep, sexy morning voice
• being called a slut or a whore

• skiing
• building computers
• building keyboards
• backpacking
• coding
• hiking
• photography
• powerlifting
• travel
• reading
• climbing
• dancing

practice doing things alone━

• climbing
• skiing
• go see a movie
• go out to eat at a sit down restaurant
• sit and work in a coffee shop

• clean architecture
• designing data intensive applications
• design patterns: elements of reusable object-oriented software
• refactoring: improving the design of existing code
• code complete
• the pragmatic programmer
• clean code
• the mythical man month
• building secure and reliable systems
• designing distributed systems
• peopleware
• an elegant puzzle: systems of engineering management
• the software engineer's guidebook

• learning to moderate my emotions and express them in a healthy way
• practicing patience and persistence even when it is hard
• communicating my needs and boundaries in a healthy but insistent way and acknowledging their importance instead of writing them off or sweeping them under the rug
• forcing myself outside of my comfort zone even when it feels really scary
• finding balance and not letting a single hobby or identity consume my life so when it's taken away i can still function and be happy and healthy
• learning not to make any big decision or take any big action when tired, hungry, stressed, or emotional
• acknowledging my part in a conflict while also pointing out the other party's behavior that caused me harm
• recognizing and accepting my own feelings...

• find me way out there, there's no road that will lead us back; when you follow the strange trails, they will take you who knows where
  • way out there, lord huron
• look at the sky, i'm still here, i'll be alive next year
  • look at the sky, porter robinson
• but i won't spend time resenting the way things are
  • sweet time, porter robinson
• i've been bad but i'm gonna get better
  • semi pro, hippo campus

albums━

• american football (lp3), american football
• good nature, turnover
• landmark, hippo campus
• bless the self, geotic
• strange trails, lord huron
• vertigo, eden
• nurture, porter robinson
• blood harmony, finneas

songs━

• change irreversible, turnover
• humblest pleasures, turnover
• tuesday, hippo campus
• simple season, hippo campus
• sweet time, porter robinson
• look at the sky, porter robinson
• 3 types, kennedy
• let's fall in love for the night, finneas
• don't wanna, haim

japan━

• kyoto
• shinjuku
• mt fuji + fujinomiya
• tokyo
• lake biwa

iceland━

• drive the ring road
• seljalandsfoss
• haifoss
• golden circle - thingvellir national park, the great geysir and strokkur geysir, gullfoss waterfall
• heimaey stave church
• reynisfjara black sand beach
• stokksnes
• stuðlagil canyon
• blue lagoon
• jokulsarlon
• diamond beach

• read a book
• take a bath
• light a candle
• go to the gym
• listen to calming music
• moisturize my body and feet
• pick up 5 things around my apartment
• meditate
• do breathing exercises
• cuddle under a warm blanket
• journal
• go out in nature
• decorate bullet journal
• play a video game
• spray on a nice perfume
• buy myself something nice
• make a cup of tea
• go for a walk

• snake plant
• peace lilly
• philodendron
• dracaena
• spider plant
• kentia palm

health━

• laser hair removal
• couples therapy
• gum grafts

household━

• bidet

camera━

• 70-200 f/2.8
• 15-35 f/2.8
• peak design tripod

outdoor━

• arcteryx atom lt

fashion━

• wool coat
• blazer
• purse
• new glasses (prescription)

• go swimming
• go to the movies (7/8/21 with rahul, izzy, andrew)
• go to a drive in movie theater with a date
• go clubbing
• go wine tasting (2/10/22 with madison)
• go to a climbing gym (5/29/21 with daniel)
• karaoke (1/20/23 with carlos, jeff, el)
• see a musical (7/15/22)
• go to a library
• travel - to iceland, to australia and new zealand, to japan, to everywhere
• have a picnic
• go dancing
• get a massage
• get a mani/pedi
• hug all my friends
• road trips with friends
• go ice skating

• chicken noodle bake
• teriyaki bowls
• japanese yellow curry
• beef stew
• pulled pork sandwiches
• sloppy joes
• chicken parmesan
• chicken pesto
• meat loaf
• steak fajitas
• beef stroganoff
• chili
• swedish meatballs
• enchiladas (with red sauce)
• taco mac
• chicken noodle soup
• mapo tofu (sauce - one part fish sauce one part brown sugar two parts soy)
• tortilla soup
• spinach alfredo
• chorizo and eggs

recipes—

• mushroom risotto
• souvlaki
• thai coconut red curry
• paella
• jambalaya
• chicken korma
• nikujaga
• vietnamese style baked chicken
• thai chicken satay
• keema matar