• First part of 2016 autobio.

January

• 17 | Received over 10 comments in Maybe Someday
• 26 | Finally updated Maybe Someday (chapter 14)

February

• 4 | Last day in Caldas Novas. It was a good trip.
• 7 | First time rpging with the squad <3
• 9 | Gained a really sweet rec of Doge in Maybe Someday (first one of the year!)
• 11 | First day at school
• 18 | Talked to my shrink about how my second week at school was way better than the first one and she told me I looked excited
• 26 | Rpged with Lari before english class | Bought Carry On, by Rainbow Rowell

March

• 2 | First time posting my art on tumblr
• 4 | Finished one of the best drawings I have made so far (Sugawara Koushi) and posted it on tumblr
• 6 | LDB page achieved 2,5k likes - which was really important to Lari, one of the people in charge of it, hence I was really happy for her
• 7 | Subscribed to Haikyuu Group Challenge
• 8 | Managed to plot three pages of Haikyuu Group Challenge and continued it the next day
• 11 | Started to rewatch Haikyuu | Wrote at the club | Finished playing episode 1 of Life is Strange at my cousin's | Joked around with the rpg/astrovôlei squad (aka SURUBA NA SHIRATORIZAWA)
• 13 | Achieved 2k of written words in Ethereal at 6am | Went to the rural zone of my city with a friend, where I managed to climb lots of trees, and stayed there from 1pm to 4pm | Stayed at her house afterwards until 6pm
• 14 | First class in Chemistry Lab | That amazing, jokey post in Haikyuu!! Group | Finished season 6 of HIMYM | Lari said she loved me after some while without doing so (I told you I was going to write it down here, babe)
• 15 | Finished/improved a drawing (Hybrid Yamaguchi Tadashi) and posted it on tumblr
• 16 | Had one of my worst panic attacks when I was alone at home | Day got better afterwards | Started writing a new fic in my school notebook
• 17 | Watched Haikyuu!! Stage Play and really loved it AND THEN CRIED WHILE WATCHING THE CURTAIN CALL
• 19 | Finished reading Pandora Hearts manga... and slowly died during the process... (I've never, ever cried this much before. I'll never be over it. Someone please send help.) | Screamed almost the entire 44 episode of Haikyuu
• 20 | Read Vanitas no Carte manga
• 23 | My mom found a lost dog in the streets, took it home and then found its owner <3 | A friend came over to do a school task together
• 24 | Started reading Haikyuu manga <3 | Céci and her family came to my house | Played Ib after 754345 monthes without doing so (I'm still in episode 2 help) | Downloaded Undertale
• 26 | Watched the last episode of Haikyuu season 2 *sobs* | Recovered all my lost files
• 27 | Watched Zootopia in the movies with my mom and sister | Lari called me "love" (it feels different in portuguese idk) for the first time and I almost died because of it *being gay 'cause yes*
• 28 | Finished my school task and was proud of it
• 29 | Got back my medicine
• 30 | Made up with my mom after a fight

April

• 1 | Went to the club with my mom and sister and talked about haikyuu to them (poor them) | Mom and I talked friendly (I was missing something like that with her) | Went to my cousin's and played with his kitten
• 2 | Started a new hq fanfic | Went to my friend's new house - it's huge
• 3 | Wrote at my grandma's
• 4 | Wrote at the mall and PIZZA
• 5 | Finally achieved 3k words in my new fic | Finished reading Shiratorizawa versus Karasuno game in the manga AND AAA I LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT IT SO MUCH
• 6 | Finished reading Haikyuu manga in the morning <3 | Talked to my one of my best friends after a long while and she told me some really crazy and cool stuff
• 7 | Went to my cousin's and played with his cat and dog and watched CARRETA FURACÃO VIDEOS DHAJDHAH
• 8 | Had an anxiety crisis at school. How nice. And humilliating | Day got better later on | Watched some anime | Wrote daisuga at the club
• 9 | Really nice day; went to the place of a dear friend I hadn't seen in a while and stayed there from 1:30pm to 6:30pm | Wrote at the club | Played Ib | Read Beautiful Mess (fic) until 4am
• 10 | Felt fidgety and lame and unwilling and edging another anxiety crisis | SOME RANDOM PERSON MESSAGED ME SOMETHING REALLY NICE ON TUMBLR AND THIS MADE MY DAY
• 11 | Finished playing Ib at 12am. The endings I got sucked and I want to cry | Talked to Lari until 2am | Finally finished that school task
• 12 | Posted another drawing on tumblr (Oikawa) | Started playing undertale
• 13 | RECEIVED AN ANONYMOUS ASK ON TUMBLR TELLING ME IM CUTE LIKE NO U R CUTE at 8am, which made my day | Finished writing the first chapter of Truce (fic)
• 14 | Played Undertale before my therapy and english class and after, too. It's so nice | Unfortunately, didn’t write anything
• 15 | Finished rewatching the first season of Haikyuu. I'm nostalgic | "Wrote" (more like tried to write) at the club, where I found a former friend. We didn't talk at all.
• 16 | Downloaded tons of musics, including some Doge had recommended to me | Went to the club, swimmed there and stuff | Ate like 500g of pasta at Extra (mall) in 10 minutes I was freaking hungry | Went to my cousin's | A new person added me on fb and talking to me - the one who messaged me on tumblr days before. She's really cool
• 17 | Gabs and I are getting closer again and I think that's cool. Not that we weren't close before but still | In compensation, Lari and I seem to be talking increasingly less, and this sucks. I am starting to think again that she is upset at me somehow. And when I did previously, I was right | Played Undertale at my grandma's | Freaked out over a school task but in the end, it wasn't nearly as difficult as I had originally thought. It was kind of fun to do, actually | So, uh. Dilma's impeachment's gone on with a lot of positive votes. Almost everyone's celebrating as if this is the end of corruption, but they're flatly wrong
• 18 | Today, Lari and I talked more than lately. That makes me happy. Guess what I said yesterday wasn't so correct, after all | Played Undertale for almost two hours. I managed to fight Undyne and win, after 54873487 failed attempts, but I forgot to do something important and this affects thorougly the ending of the game. Shit
• 19 | Started re-watching season 2 of Haikyuu. I broke my promise of doing it only after finishing Magi with my sis. Cool
• 20 | Started reading Clockwork Princess | Wrote that TsukkiYama angst scene out of nothing
• 21 | H o l i d a y | Went to the rural zone of my city again, with Céci. This time, we went to a fishing place. I read my book there and listened to music during the trajectory | Went to my cousin's. We played dodge ball. I'm nostalgic ‘cause this reminds me of my childhood | Had another waiver crisis when I arrived home (translation: I don't want to write, nor do I know how to write right now, but I have to) | Finally created a twitter account, yahoo | Lari and I talked almost the entire day, which we hadn't done in a while <3
• 22 | No class again yay | Stayed up the entire dawn. And morning. Literally. Gabs made me some company. I tried to sleep afterwards but gave up after 3 hours or so, yeah | Wrote a SemiShira oneshot for Kaus and posted it on tumblr, at 6am | First time posting a Haikyuu!! fanfic | First time posting something on archive of our own | Read more of Clockwork Princess book | Went to the club | I haven't slept for almost 40 hours but I'M STILL NOT SLEEPY AT ALL MY FUCKING INSOMNIA IS GONNA KILL ME. Anyone who's reading it, please make sure MCR is going to be played in my funeral.
• 23 | Woke up at 2pm | Rode my bike and walked with my dog | Céci and her family came over. I played Undertale while she just watched dshjfdsgfd | Stayed up until 4am~ Lari made me so company until 2am or so (I had missed it a lot) | The book I'm reading is giving me tons of feels, just saying | Also, twitter and Babs being a crazy hanissa (me x lari) shipper HJKFJFHDKS
• 24 | Watched Ant-Man movie | Plotted Ethereal at my grandma's | Gained a new book
• 25 | Re-read chapter 14 of Maybe Someday (the history I write) and now I’m longing for writing the next chapter asap | Wrote at the shopping's library (Saraiva) and gained a new book
• 27 | It's freezing and I'm loving it | Finished reading Clockwork Princess. (The ending was so fucking perfect but I'm still sad)
• 28 | Didn't go to school | Showed my drawings to my shrink and she praised me <3
• 29 | Received lots of messages wishing me happy birthday, and some presents, too | My grandma gave me a lot of money when I wasn't expecting this much at all | Lari wrote me some really lovely text that almost made me cry. Juh and Gabs (<3) wrote something, too | Went to a restaurant (kind of) to celebrate my birthday with Céci and my parent's friend (yes) | My dysphoria was kind of high (too many people using female pronouns when referring me), but it died away when I talked to Lari, Gabs and Doge
• 30 | Played Undertale at 2am | In the end, I achieved 20k of words written in April, but didn't manage to win on CampNanoWrimo. Also, I'm disheartened as fuck at all my histories. I could as well let go of them at once | Such a boring day, and it's mine, the most boring day of my liiiife | Wrote, walked with my dog, watched anime and went to my cousin's, but the day still kind of sucked on its own way

May

• 1 | PLAYED 3 MATCHES OF BGO (Board Game Online) WITH DOGE AND LARI FROM 1AM TO 3AM AND IT MADE MY DAY DSHJFSDJFH I WON 1, LOST COMPLETELY THE OTHER AND ALMOST WON ANOTHER (BUT DOGE DIDNT LET ME). Aaaa it was so nice, my weekend was being so dull until then ;w; | Started reading Cake or Break | Wrote at my grandma's
• 2 | Didn't go to school because I was sick and couldn't sleep at night - I took a nap in the evening, though | Finally organized my school bag | Went to the shopping and bought more books and a magazine of pyschology, with the moneny grandma's given to me. I have finally completed Maze Runner colection, AND TODAY I BOUGHT A REALLY AMAZING EDITION OF JURASSIC PARK BOOK. I'M IN LOVE.
• 4 | Finished reading Cake or Break ;3;
• 5 | Started reading this very interesting magazine from ME
• 6 | Was feeling crappy (as always) but the channel bill wurtz on youtube cheered me up. Also, this video is genius. | Went to Céci's place. We watched Nigahiga videos sdhfjdsj | I'm being pretty useless today tbh | Talked about clubpenguim and other childhood online games in the group chat (yes) | We including are planning to create accounts as Haikyuu characters in Habbo and mess around in 22nd May HFHDSF | Created with Lari crossover headcanons - how it'd be like if my ocs met hers. It was so nice ;3;
• 7 | GABS' BIRTHDAAAAAY | Talked to a cousin (Gabi) about High School and Universities... I guess I'm going to her current school next year. I'm scared af, but guess I won't regret it later | Today I was feeling bold and sent 3 audios of me singing to the chat group HSJDHDJS | Went to my cousin's (Tonin q) and, later, to my grandma's. I played Undertale in both places yay
• 8 | Finished rewatching Haikyuu (season 2) at 5h20 am c': I'm looking forward to October so much | Finally wrote something for fuck sake (actually it was plotting but who cares) | Wrote at my grandma's
• 9 | Only had 3 periodes of class in school today, instead of 6. My school was full of smoke because some asshole put fire on the land in front of it. But it was worth it - it was like I didn't have class | I'm getting enthusiastic again about writing. I hope my motivation won't disappear as it always does
• 10 | Guess what? Unmotivation strikes again | Started reading Bane Chronicles and it's amazing
• 11 | Kind of boring day | I'm concerned about too many things at once, I want to do so many things at the same time, but hours pass faster and faster and the day is over in a blink of an eye and everything is spinning around and I just wish that I – and people who are dear to me – had a break | Talking to Lari cheered me up, though
• 12 | Ok, I'm officially worried about Gabs. I haven't talked to him since the weekend and that's weird. I wonder if something happened... | Ok, so I finally talked to him and apparently he's fine. I'm glad
• 13 | Didn't go to school | Played Undertale for almost 2 hours... I'm in the final battle, with Asgore. I don't want to fight him ;______; | Really productive day! Read, watched some anime and a movie and wrote
• 14 | Malec. Lots of Malec. This book is killing me (I love them so much ~sobs) | RLY NICE DAY | This post | THE RP WILL BE BACK SOON I'M SO HAPPY | Went to the club | Talked more about non-binary genders and trans issues with my mom. She isn't making any prejudiced remarks now. I'm happy. Not ready to come out just yet, but still happy.
• 15 | Finished Bane Chronicles, which now is one of my fav books | Agh. Bad news, crisis and anxiety.
• 16 | Started reading I, Robot | Went to the homeopathic doctor. He said he thinks I seem to be a lot better since the last appointment.
• 18 | Finished reading I, Robot | Kind of a meh day. I hate wasting my time in the church every fucking wednesday but my mom forces me to | Had to study insted of writing | One nice thing: at night, started reading this fanfic that it's impossible not to laugh at. It's amazing.
• 19 | Didn't go so well in my geography test, but whatever | I'm considering coming out to a person, but idk if he's reliable. I'd better not, I guess | I'm worried with Gabs. Again | Didn't write, zzzzzzz
• 20 | School was kind of nice today. There was a cultural break and a 5 years old (I repeat, _a freaking 5 years old_) was playing drums and performed Toxicity by SOAD and other songs. He made a hell of a solo too. I basically gaped at him the whole time | There was my cousin's (Carol) birthday party this night. It started out nicely, but I managed to become increasingly sad for some reason until I ended up weeping for a while in the bathroom. But I discovered this site and it kind of helped. Also, I talked to Lari and she let me unburden everything that was bottled up and this made me feel a lot better. Before I could realize, I was smiling again. Couldn't be more grateful for having her in my life.
• 21 | Finished reading national hot dad alliance is now calling at 3am. I'm sad it's over. I wish there was more of it | Played Undertale~ | Wrote at the club | Went to my cousin's (Antonio) and we played BGO with Lari (it was so nice)
• 22 | Went to the rural zone with Céci again | Watched a movie for school | Played Undertale
• 23 | Slept almost the whole evening | Bought TOA, a manga volume and a new magazine from ME <3
• 24 | Read TOA | Wrote a poetry, which I haven't done in ages | My cousin called me and said an aqcuaintance of hers is selling her wacom tablet for a friendly price and asked me if I was interested. I talked to mom and she agreed on buying it in June! I'm so excited to use it. I know it'll be kind of complicated at the beginning, but I'm willing to practice until I learn how to properly use it!
• 25 | Those terrible news about that collective rape in RJ made me sick for the rest of the day | Read some interesting articles about creativity and stuff and discussed it with Doge, to distract her and myself
• 26 | Finished reading TOA | My cousin from another city arrived | Drew, watched anime, blah blah blah
• 27 | Played Jogo da Vida with my cousins (Jota e Isa) AND LOST | One of my aunt's birthday party. I talked to my cousin (Gabi), but spent most of the time in my cellphone tbh, chatting with Lari and reading and on twitter and stuff
• 28 | Started reading Narnia Chronicles | Wrote a bit (new history idea!) | Party with my family at my grandma's. Played Detective with my cousins (Jota, Isa, Paulo and Gabi) and my sister but nobody won, heh | FINALLY learned how to play chess - Jota teached me... and I was greatly defeated twice
• 29 | My cousins travelled back to their cities | Read a bit | Hanissa is otp | I have played multiple chess matches against my computer now and have won ZERO. But I'm determined to get better, ok? Ok.
• 30 | Narnia IS AMAZING | Got a draw in a chess match, didn't lose for the first time yay
• 31 | Read less today in order to marathon Magi | My therapy was moved on for today and all. It was kinda nice

June

• 1 | Didn't work out (which I use to do every Monday and Wednesday), didn't read as much as I wanted, didn't finish Magi as I had originally intended, but at least wrote a bit | Slept almost two hors in the evening | Finally told Lari about a part of Truce's plot. Since she liked it (I was afraid she wouldn't), I'm a lot less insecure.
• 2 | Studied Geography and History | Finished watching the first season of Magi
• 3 | Watched a movie with fam | Studied Physics | Played Undertale
• 4 | Watch an anime movie at 3am | Read a little and tried to write (utter failure) | Went to my cousin's (cara do farol), played with his dog. Played a bit of Undertale and started replaying Ib there, too | Studied History for more than a hour (the subject is so nice)
• 5 | I decided to take a break on reading Narnia in order to re-read my magazine about nazism and great wars | OK SO I went to sleep only at 6:30 am because I spent the daylight talking to Roana sdhjsdhjf it was the first time I talked to her like that and stuff. she had asked me about my original history then I got pumped and couldn't stop talking and we went on blabbering (in the grop chat) for hours | Aaand my mom woke me up at 12am so we could eat at a restaurant with Céci and her parents | And after meal we went to the shopping and I bought some really nice clothes (I am a flannel and jeans shirts trash). It was really nice ;w;
• 7 | Missed school today | Studied History | Studied Chemistry while listening to Troye Sivan <3 | Practiced drawing and stuff | Talk about drawing, I'M GAINING MY WACOM TOMORROW, COULDN'T BE MORE EXCITED ;w; | Also, worried about Doge. And Lari. And there are things bothering me.
• 8 | Went to the movies with sis and mom | Didn't gain my wacom cuz the girl who is selling me it couldn't met me, but tomorrom it's for sure.
• 9 | IM SO HAPPY BECAUSE THIS WACOM TABLET AA SDJJSGH IM GETTING USED TO IT FASTER THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD, ITS ALSO SO SIMPLER THAN I EXPECTED AND DDSFDSG
• 10 | Used my wacom a lot today <3 I can't wait until I'm good at using it... I have a lot to improve though. Like, my anatomy still sucks and stuff.
• 11 | Didn't do anything I intended to – didn't marathon magi, nor finished Narnia, nor wrote... | BUT I still managed to draw a bit | I stayed out for more than 3 hours. First, my mom forced me to go to my cousin's June party. After, I went to her and Antonio's house | Later, Céci and her parents visited my house and we ate June party's food | It wasn't a productive day, but was nice anyway.
• 12 | Drew at 3am and in the afternoon | I felt anxious literally the entire day. My chest hurted and I felt the need to throw out (but didn't). I was feeling guilty as well because I didn't anything productive nor started my school task and stuff. Ugh.
• 13 | Didn't sleep well at night | FINALLY finished Reading Narnia. The end was so beautiful and touching :') | I got a fucking cold. My throat ache - and the start of an earche - is killing me.
• 14 | Didn't sleep well at night²²² | Didn't go to school nor to my english class because of my cold | Studied Chemistry.
• 16 | Showed my poetries to my shrink today | I'm feeling really anxious these last days. Meh.
• 17 | Had to go with my mom to some places (meh) and read my magazine | Didn't finish Magi, even if there are only 2 episodes left. Ugh. | Went to the club's June Party... It sucked, but at least I got to eat yummy things and play with fire -q | I realized I'm a person with little to no friend (few exceptions) and I really don't know nor have initiative to socialize :D And dysphoria striked so hard today, I wished I could rip my skin off :D And I had some really disturbing thoughts :D And cried at the club and then at home :D And the earphone I gained yesterday is now broken :D What a nice day, isn't it | I love Kitchen Sink (music) so much.
• 18 | Finally finished watching Magi's second season! | Guess I finished playing Undertale... got the Neutral Ending, I'm almost sure. I'm sad ;_; Now it's time for doing the other routes and other endings. | Went to the June Party of my friend's school. It was nice 'cause I got to meet Gi and Ísis but I felt kinda dysphoric çwç
• 19 | Stayed up until 6am | That conversation with Lari and with Ro | Went to the movies with Duda~ it was really nice and all. We watched a horror movie but fortunately I still got to sleep normally at night lmao
• 20 | Finally worked out a bit! I haven't done it for weeks and was starting to lose motivation... I hope I will be able to keep it up throughout the entire year :')
• 21 | OK SO MY LAST TEST WAS POSTPONED TO DAY 14TH JULY AND THAT MEANS MY HOLIDAYS WILL START ONLY A WEEK LATER THAN IT ORIGINALLY WOULD LIKE ????? I'M REALLY MAD AND I WON'T PUT UP WITH IT OK
• 23 | Got started with duolingo and now I'm having French lessons yaaay
• 24 | Made a lot of progress in duolingo! I'm so excited I'm getting to learn French ;w; | Duda came over and we did a school task | My cousin made a surprise visit. I'm so proud of her (she passed on vest <3).
• 25 | Started re-playing Undertale | June Party at my neighborhood | Went to my cousin's | Started watching HIMYM season 7 | Stayed up all night with Lari and Doge while writing.
• 26 | Wrote at my grandma's.
• 27 | Went to the doctor | Finally worked out a bit | Played Questions&Answer with Lari sz
• 28 | Went to the mall with mom and sis.
• 29 | Finished watching Boku no Hero Academia.
• 30 | Finished watching Bungou Stray Dogs.

July

• 1 | Suffering from the holy shit campnanowrimo is here and i have procrastinated the whole day syndrome | Watched HIMYM | Went to my cousin's.
• 2 | I'm still really motivated for learning French. 9 days streak on Duolingo! | Drew with wacom while listening to classic music | Went to Pistachios with Céci <3
• 3 | Talked to my aunt... She told me histories of her life. It was fullfilling | Went to my neighbourhood's park. There is a waterfall there that lights my heart | Played Undertale | Didn't write and felt guilty about it | Anxiety never made me felt more sick than today. Headache, urge to throw up, nausea, chest pain... Had a crisis when coming home after visiting my grandmother.
• 4 | Couldn't sleep at night; therefore, didn't go to school | I love and hate french at the same time lmao | I love Maze Runner and Bungou Stray Dogs manga so much.
• 6 | Went to the movies with mom and sis | Bought a new book | Dysphoria strikes again.
• 7 | Last english class before vacation /o/
• 8 | Ok, technically I still have classes next week, but I suppose I'm going only to the test day, Thursday. So I guess I'm on vacation, except for the fact that I have to study for the exam | Finished reading the first book of Maze Runner | My grandma's bday party. 95 yo <3
• 9 | Drew with wacom from 4am to 6am instead of writing | June Party at my school. Met Céci and Ísis there, but meh.
• 10 | Lari helped me reviewing chapter 15 of MS through the entire daylight and gave me the most amazing comment ever after I posted it on Nyah. I love her so much it hurts | Wrote at my grandma's | Drew a bit (on paper now)
• 11 | Woke up earlier than expected, at 10am | Teached my sister how to play in Neopets. I lent my account to hrt lmao | Studied.
• 12 | Studied | Finally worked out a bit | Talked to Aoi! They're so nice and helped me about some trans issues... I got to unberden tons of things that were bothering me.
• 13 | Studied math and physics while listening to 5sos | Went to the mall with fam and my cousin, Gabi, and bought a new book (Alice)
• 14 | Official last day of school. Guess I went good on my final test | Dinner (PIZZAAAA) at my grandma's.
• 15 | Finally got my motivation back for learning French | Drew with my wacom | Went to the club with fam.
• 16 | Awful day. My cousins came over and well, can't help feeling really off and dysphoric around them. | Drew with my wacom a bit, but all I did sucked | I'm kind of upset with Lari, even though I wish I wasn't — she didn't seem to care much when I talked about how anxious and shitty I've felt the entire day. Guess I shouldn't blame her. Not even I can stand this lame piece of shit I am after all | I've been thinking about distancing myself... Not accessing facebook or twitter and deleting messenger for a while. | Went to my mom's grandma (or smth like that) birthday | Ok, NEVERMIND, I'm fine again... Got over my meltdown later. Fuck everything, I deleted messenger but I'll install it back idc I hate myself but I'm gonna pretend everything is ok yay
• 17 | I wasn't able to sleep at all this night. Like, I tried, but my mind was racing for tons of reasons. I hate havinh insomnia and anxiety | Talked about that thing with Doge and it helped me come up with a resolution | Lari and I are just fine. I told why I was upset and that was enough to make me feel better. Don't mind yesterday's drama, I get stupid thoughts when I'm sad | Finished reading Alice | Struggled to finish Mayoiga but was able to | Watched a rly sweet movie | IVE GOT THE HOMESTUCK HYPE | Tried to do that, but couldn't. I had no moral support (doge and ro were off) I'm a weakling hsjahs
• 18 | Learning time! At 2-3am, discussed about the current issues of Europe and Syria and ISIS with Lari, and I did some really useful researches about the last topic. I read an amazing article about what it takes to create a jihadist. (But next time I want to debate about anarcho-capitalism çwç) | Watched the first episode of Voltron with my sis AND IT'S FUCKING GREAT | Went to a walk with dad and my dog | So yea. Finally had that conversation with Lari. Right, it was rather difficult but I knew everything'd be fine in the end — and it did. Now we're officially in an open relationship — she agreed that we could give it a shot, and I'm really glad and happy.
• 19 | I'm a loser in love | and I don't remember what the hell I did wtf prob just watched Voltron and read Homestuck and was a potato bag all day long
• 20 | Tried to dance this hiphop choreography. Failed | Went to the movies with fam at 10pm.
• 21 | I've been sleeping just after dawn all these days | Dentist | Drew with wacom for hours long.
• 22 | Lu (cousin) came over. She told me a online game I used to play when I was younger and went off the air in 2012, pandanda, is back and I was like OMG IT CAN'T BE but it was true. We played but in the end I came to the conclusion it's far as nice as I used to think | Went to my cousin's (tonin q) and he forced me to watch Stranger Things... which is SUPER nice.
• 23 | Walked with my dad and my dog | FINISHED VOLRON I NEED SEASON 2 NOW AAA | Started re-reading the second book of Maze Runner
• 24 | Went to Céci's house, had salmon and fondue. She keeps telling me to watch Teen Wolf help
• 25 | Insominia striked all night again, but I managed to sleep from 13pm to 16pm | Dad gave me a motorcycle ride along the neighbourhood | Went to the shopping with Gi and FINALLY tried out clothes from the male session. And I felt great - I only wish I had a binder to make my chess flatter. And money.
• 26 | I RECEIVED A REC IN MAYBE SOMEDAY I'M SCREAMING AND CRYING AND I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY AND IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL | Went to the shopping with mom, my sis and my cousins (Antonio and his sister). I and he went to an Egyptian exhibition there or smth, pretty cool | Then he came over and we played pandanda lmao pretty useless but it was fun | Also, that treta with @
• 27 | First, dentist, then, club, and after, cinema. And.... I CAME OUT TO MY MOM. Well, kinda. I guess It was more like a confirmation of her suspicions, but I got to tell her how I feel like. And, despite some undesirable comments of her, it went a lot better than expected. I was overemotional but she seemed to understand pretty well... Even though she thinks I'm confused. Well, I guess that's not entirely wrong, either | Movies with Céci. Ice Age 5. The film is kinda borng, but it was nice.
• 28 | Stranger Things | Went to my cousin's and after went to Praia Club with mom and sis | Was gong to write but talked to Aoi instead <3
• 29 | NEW HAIRCUT! I was bold enough to order a really short one and I don't regret it at all! I'll just take some time to get used to it | French~ | Finished a digital drawing | Jota arrived.
• 30 | Finished Stranger Things at 3am | Family reunion for a meal at my grandma's. I'm relieved I didn't receive any negative comments about my hair - only compliments | I was feeling really low and trying to write when my cousin, Gabi, literally appeared out of the blue to have a talk. It was great, though, and had me cheered up. She told me about her issues and I told her mine - indeed, I even was bold enough to confess I'm trans to her. She took it easy and I had nothing to worry about. Also, she showed me some really cool (and bizarre) music videos.
• 31 | Had a really nice time madrugating with Lari, as always. Love you, babe. A lot | Another family reunion. The food was 10/10 | Played chess and other board games with Jota and my sister | Finally read and reviewd ODGAE's chapter 18, and it worked to cheer Lari up.

August

• 1 | As usual, can't take her off my mind | Last day of my vacation. I die slow. I'm sad because I wasn't a lot productive these days, but I guess it was worth it. I had fun, at least. But why does everything pass so fast, ugh | French | Went to the doctor, which occupied almost all my evening | I want to finish this book I'm reading soon but zzzzzzzz
• 2 | Back to school. Back to hell | Lari being a cutie soon in the morning, because of the photos I sent her dhhfsdhd I love her. So. Fucking. Much. | Tried to take a nap in the evening, kept trying but did't work | Wrote a bit.
• 3 | Downloaded tons of music | Finally finished re-reading the second book of Maze Runner | Suffered when went to have a skin cleansing | POKEMON GO IS OUT IN BRAZIL but the app isn't working for me (: | Really sad sad sad therefore I'm going to bed earlier fuck this
• 4 | Still can't play Pokemon Go. Fuck you, GPS signal | Started Anne Frank's Diary | GODS, I overtalked in my therapy session today. There was just so much to say... | My cousin's birthday in a pizza house. | IT WORKED, CAUGHT MY FIRST POKEMON YAY
• 5 | Worked out a bit | Went to my cousin's, but, later, he said some mean things to me and I don't want too look at his face for a while. I felt like shit tbh. Idec if he meant to do this or not.
• 6 | Wrote, read, and stuff like this | Went to Céci's new condominium to eat from foodtrucks and try to hunt pokemon (didn't work) | Also, concerned about Lari.
• 7 | Read and started that school task, meh | Talked to Lari and she seems better <3 | Wrote at my grandma's | Anxiety strikes back and I've been feeling awful about lots of things
• 8 | Didn't go to school. Felt better | Doctor's appointment | Went through 6 pokestops when mom was driving
• 9 | Face cleansing return | Worked out.
• 10 | Finished reading Anne Frank's diary and it's so sad.
• 11 | Therapy was nice today | New teacher of my english course, I will miss the old one ;w; | Caught nine pokémons in Extra supermarket yay | Finished HIMYM season 7
• 12 | Started reading the third book of Maze Runner | Slept a lot | Studied | Went to the club to catch pokémon but my 3g failed and the game didn't load. At least I ate yummy food q
• 13 | Meal at my grandma's to celebrate both my dad's birthday and fathers' day in antecipation. Céci came over | WENT TO THE SHOPPING WITH CÉCI AND CAUGHT! 57! POKÉMONS! 2 GROWLITHES IN ONE DAY! AA | Also, that conversation with Lari. Got to tell her some of my insecurities. I feel like I got rid of a weight in my chest| Still doing that school task
• 14 | I need to stop fantasizing and losing sleep thinking of her.... | Read a bit | Studied French | Wrote at my grandma's
• 15 | No school today | Read, continued my school task (while listening to music and talking to Lari), worked out and FINALLY drawed something this month (with wacom)
• 16 | Didn't go to school | Finished my school task at night | Finished one sheet of (digital) anatomy practice
• 17 | Finished Maze Runner's third book | Took a nap, did my homework and wrote a bit before being forced to go to church.
• 18 | One month together <3 | Kept my mood up throughout all day! <3 | Digital drawing and that AMAZING musical perfomance (from 8:30pm to 10pm) in Teatro Rondom Pacheco.
• 19 | Drawed (digitally), read a bit, worked out, talked to ppl, was going to write but got too sleepy
• 20 | Read a bit | I was forced to go to ADUFU and to join the recreation and it was kinda fun but meh | Created that chat on tt with me, Lari, Ro and Noah | Later, Gabi's birthday party. Talked to her about life and stuff, watched a volleybal olympic game and played Perfil with cousins.
• 21 | Went to sleep at 5am, but wasn't able to until 9am. Then, woke up at 3pm | Stayed chatting/flirting with Lari almost all afternoon/evening | Met Céci at Extra Supermaket, where we ate pasta and hunted for pokemons.
• 22 | Intended to watch some episodes; didn't | Slept | Tried to write but meh | Read a twoshot.
• 23 | Worked out | Nice day on english course; I was the one teaching this time (teacher asked me to) and I went well | Studied for History | Wrote that text
• 24 | My mom's birthday! <3 | Completed Ângelo's character card in hiveword and started Camilo's.
• 25 | Started the day pretty badly, but it got better later on. Lari cheered me up | Cried in therapy | I LOST A PSYDUCK BECAUSE OF A FUCKING ZUBAT | Lari wasn't workaholic today (thx god) and helped me with my story's plot. (Ilysm)
• 26 | Read and slept basically all afternoon | Studied French | I was forced to go to club. After that talk, I'd rather go nowhere. Well, not like I had a choice; tried to distract myself with PKG and surprisingly met Ana there. The band playing was also pretty cool. But meh | Talked to Gabs | Haven't felt this miserable in a while.
• 27 | Really really nice day! Started pretty badly, but then it all was ok | Read a bit | Studied a lot of french, before and after going out, including dirty talk (sorry world) | Went to the club. Hunted for some pokemons, swimmed and all | Then, went to my cousin's. I guess I forgave him for hurting me. Once a fool, always a fool | Also, PokémonGo | And, wow. Flirted a lot with Lari. Like, a lot. Gods. I love it. And her. So much. Also, lots of sugar. Idk what got into us today. Not that I'm complaining. I'm not. At all.
• 28 | Madrugated with Lari and Gabs (even though he was offline 90% of the time) | Stayed up until 6am, then lost sleep at 9am, then went back to sleep at 10am and woke up at idk 2pm? | Lari being a cutie as always | That crazy kink thread Di posted on twitter | Studied French while talking to her | Worked out.
• 29 | Finished the fourth book of Maze Runner in school | Studied one lesson of French | Slept a bit | Talked to Lari and, wow. Where are we going with all this flirting. Dude. (I regret nothing) | Searched some things for Zine's fic and finally started writing it. I'm feeling pressured because of the deadline though :')
• 30 | Tried to take a nap afternoon but didn't work | Was feeling a bit down after my english class, but Lari cheered me up <3 Stayed talking to her while doing homework, then drew for a good while with my wacom and then... wow. dude. it's more than fucking flirting help I need a cold shower
• 31 | Lari wasn't ok today, so I was kinda worried. Distracted myself studying french and when my cousin (Antonio) came over. He and I stayed on computer doing lots of nothings like playing slitherio (ikr). But I managed to draw with wacom a bit. | But after he went home my mind was a bitch again had some disturbing thoughts felt like crying etc and then Lari told me her day was rly bad too so yea

September

• 1 | I've cried a lot in therapy these days | Didn't talk to Lari until after my english class and I felt stupid bc I was already missing her??? and then I talked to her and wrote a bit owo Don't remember if I flirted with her or no. But probably yes. What a flirty couple
• 2 | Thought I wasn't talking to Lari until 6h45pm but in the end she hadn't run out of 3g THX GOD | Started reading Orange's manga | Went to a doctor appointment | That awful post on fb filled with transphobic comments that really affected me somehow. Anxiety crisis and everything. But Lari managed to cheer me up | That "guess who" game on SBLAN (DAMN YOU GABRIEL) and Lari telling me I am cute when I get jealous (FUCK OFF OK) and, wow. Flirting. A lot. Morelikesextingactuallysorrymomihavesinnedagain | Studied French.
• 3 | Wrote a bit, but meh | Studied French a bit too, I guess | Talked to Lari, then went to my cousin's. A lot of dad jokes. Did lots of nothings | Then watched a sad movie with mom.
• 4 | Madrugated with Lari. She was kinda down, but I got to cheer her up with more, uh, "flirting" (heh) | My family and I met with Céci and her parent at a restaurant at 13am, then we went to the club but she couldn't swim so I was kinda lonely. Also, pokemon go and stuff | I was going to write but Lari's guilty too since we ""flirted"" a lot again. I regret nothing though.
• 5 | That dream she had dgdfg | Drawed, tried to sleep | More ""flirting"" (hell) | Worked out, studied french. Wrote. This kind of stuff.
• 6 | WHAT THE HELL GOT INTO ME TODAY and she kept turning me down. goddammit | I'm not even going to enter in detais of how I was like today. Shameful. And lots of flirtings. Including the best one until now | Organized some prints in dropbox and finished it the other day.
• 7 | No school today | Finished organizing my dropbox folder | Spent the day talking to Lari, studying french (13 days strike on duolingo!), doing hw and other lots of nothings | The day was nice but then that happened to her and I got worried
• 8 | Hmm, slept before therapy, then english course... Lari's day was awful, still because of it, but I tried to cheer her up later.
• 9 | Apparently, things have sorted out | Read last chapter of Orange manga | I don't know why, but my mood wasn't really ok today. Dysphoria, anxiety... all that stuff | Slept, worked out, did hw | And wrote a little bit, but still kinda melancholic
• 10 | Happily, wrote more during dawn. Almost finishing my history! | Mood is still low. Also, no more medicine... getting ready for loads of anxiety coming | Insecure because of jealousy or jealous because of insecurity? | I've been feeling so distressed with my body lately. I hate it. But I'm still confused about what to do about it | 3 days with no flirting, btw. Uhul? | Went to the club at 7pm and met Céci there, then went to my cousin's. I wish he would stop using his computer a bit so we could chat.
• 11 | 17 days strike on duolingo! | Until 4am, played bgo and flirted with Lari (bc I won the game) | HELL YEA I FINISHED WRITING ZINE'S PROJECT now I need to review it and come up with a title and a sinopsis for it | Kinda meh day, watched a movie for school, BUT THEN I PLAYED UNDERTALE AND AA IVE MISSED IT. ALSO I'M FINALLY FRIENDS WITH UNDYNE. I LOVE HER.
• 12 | Made one of my best digital drawings so far and posted it on fb | Worked out | Started doing that school task aaaa lemme die
• 13 | Didn't go to school, woke up at 2pm | Played Undertale and studied French before english course | Afterwards, stayed drawing instead of continuing my school task.
• 14 | 20 days streak on duolingo | I increasingly hate being forced to go to church | Meh day, but chatting with Lari kind of cheered me up a bit | Studied.
• 15 | I'm really upset. That school excursion was canceled and I was looking forward to it | More flirtings almost the entire week, I guess. (I love it) | I feel guilty for not doing my school things, but I'm afraid I'm not capable enough.
• 16 | Forgot to study french, but fuck it | I think I went well in all my 3 tests | ISIS' BIRTHDAY PARTY! <3 IT WAS SO NICE. I was missing her and I met Karen there too, who I hadn't seen since last year ;; Also, her friends are hella cool. I felt comfortable socializing with them, nice thing. We stayed in her house for a bit, then went to a rented one with a swimming pool, sauna and barbecue | There's a thing, though. I felt guilty having fun because 2 important people to me were down today, but I couldn't talk to them as much as I wanted... I really felt Lari's disappointment at what had happened and çwç
• 17 | Kind of a pajama party. Spent the dawn swimming (_with clothes on_), chatting and being forced to dance (yea) | Had almost no sleep because of a fricking rooster. We went to bed at 4h30am, got up at 10am. Straight to swimming pool. I sunburned my shoulders. The food was really good too. | I was back to my house only after 4pm, finally took a bath and a nap. That house didn't have wifi, and I missed Lari a lot. Talked to her only after 8pm but then she told me about her day and we chatted basically all night long <3
• 18 | Two months together <3 | Lari and I were HELLA FLIRTY since yesterday night and wow I'm surprised to realize it feels even better in portuguese. Like, I printed it all. 69 screenshots. Dude. | Céci's birthday~ We went to the shopping and I went in this crazy terror simulator. But it wasn't as scary as I had predicted.
• 19 | Finally finished my Philosophy task. Gods. Talked to Lari and Gabs meanwhile <3 | OH AND I'm starting to be less ashamed of my voice and stuff... sent some audios singing Mamonas Assassinas to Lari dfhjghsd
• 20 | Started my Art task for school. I don't remember anything else about this day lmao
• 21 | Day got better later on! I worked out a bit and studied french - then Lari woke up, we chatted and exchanged pictures to each other and dhfjshjfds aaa ALSO I finally changed my profile picture in facebook and I didn't expect it to have that many likes and stuff ( /)w(\)
• 22 | Cultural interval at school and they exposed my drawings and people praised me and ;w; I don't deserve this much credit aa ( /)w(\) Lari told me she talked about me to her friends in cramp schools and dsjfjfsd idk I'm so happy or the things she related to me | Was kinda low and upset because of that proposal of HS reformulation in Brazil and stuff, but then I talked to her and got better. Also, finally finished my school art task.
• 23 | The day started awfully. Had an anxiety crisis in school (but fortunately I recovered from it fast) and I noticed Lari was hurt. At least everything went well in my school seminar | Then, slept for almost 2 hours in the afternoon, then my mom forced me to go out with her to buy a dress... oh well | When I came back home, though, talked to Lari and <3 we're so sappy but I don't even care HJHDSGDS My day got better since then: my mom, my sister and I went to the mall and mom bought male clothes for me without hesitating. I felt really good in them. After this, we watched a program about differences (regarding sexuality and gender identity) in TV - my father joined us in the middle of it. And I'm really happy: my parents are more open-minded than I had originally thought. They are starting to learn, to understand. They're acceptive. I'm glad. I don't have so much to fear, after all.
• 24 | Stayed basically all day using computer and talking to/flirting with Lari | Solved some computer problems that were napping at me for almost 2 hours | Then, played Undertale | Went to my cousin's and when I got home, Lari started to revise my history but had to stop because her internet was failing.
• 25 | Kinda dull day, but I managed to cheer Lari a bit and stuff. She finished revising/reading my history and I'm glad she liked it
• 26 | Slept later than I should, at almost 2am, 'cause I was talking about future and universities with Lari | Finished QQ Sweeper | Was really stressed because of a group school work, which I had vowed not to freak out over, but I did anyway. Cried and stuff, but then decided to not give a fuck and go take a nap | After waking up, day was nice; talked to Lari and worked out.
• 27 | First time using male clothes + improvised binder in public where there are people I know. Went to therapy and english course with them. Despite being hesitant and afraid, everything went ok — no judging looks nor puzzled expressions nor people staring. And I felt a lot more like myself. I want to do it more times.
• 28 | Finally named and posted Zine's fic! I hope people will read and like it
• 29 | Finally finished that school work, and I'm glad everything went ok. I shouldn't worry so much and rely more on others. I'm glad of their help | Also, FINALLY ended Kabaneri anime and started HIMYM season 8.
• 30 | Barely slept all night, fell asleep when sun was rising and had to get up early. Had some crazy dreams. Kept trying to sleep in the afternoon, but wasn't able to | Worked out and drawed with wacom a bit. Also, I need to study french | Watched HIMYM

October

• 1 | Was kinda moody because mom forced me to go groom my hair to a wedding party and when I came back at home, had to wear me up for it. I felt really uncomfortable and dysphoric using that dress, and ugly, comparing to my cousins. The cerimony was beautiful and everything, the food was good. Spent almost all of it using my cellphone to chat with Lari. Then I was forced to dance and, nicely, had some fun.
• 2 | Went home only after 2am. The night was better than I had thought it'd be! <3 And I received the good news that I'll probably go to SP in december or january. AAA Can't wait to see Lari and to know the city. | Reunion at my grandma's. The meat was really good | Read a manga and watched HIMYM.
• 3 | Didn't sleep after school 'cause had to do a school task due tomorrow with my group on facebook | Talked to Lari all day, because she didn't go to cram school today. Really fun, aaa. I was more confident with my voice today for some reason and sent audios to Gabs, then I and Lari made a audiocall... which lasted 4min! A record! Even though 70% of it was me laughing out of nervosism and awkwardness than everything | Studied French, started reading a book and worked out today. Kind of productive.
• 4 | Slept after 1:30am because of flirtings with Lari (ik it's more than mere flirting but let's pretend we do not sin) | Was late to therapy so I didn't have time to say all I wanted | Studied french and did another audio call with Lari <3 Still rly akwkard, but I was calmer this time.
• 5 | Slept late again for reasons are we going too far with these flirtings cause Idts | Didn't go to school and watched 3 eps of HIMYM after waking up at 1pm | Was really, really dysphoric and melancholic all day, but at least my low mood made me write some poetry (even though it's not really good) | Had a totally pointless rage crisis, but it passed and day got better thanks to her | Also, Jess called me to chat a bit after a long time <3
• 6 | Another totally pointless rage crisis. My anxiety deceives and makes me interpret things wrongly | Didn't go to english course and slept for more than one hour | Really unproductive day but who cares | Making dreamy plans with Lari for the future feels so nice <3 <3
• 7 | Slept for like more than two hours at approximatedly 4pm | Talked to Lari, read and worked out. Relatively good day, if I exclude that conversation with mom.
• 8 | Went to the club with family, swimmed. Also, fuck pokemon go. I'm pissed off with this game | Later, went to my cousin's. Talked to Lari only at night. Watched HIMYM there (aaaa that episode) | Lorena's birthday, a friend who I hadn't heard from in a while. We finally chatted a bit.
• 9 | Stayed at home almost all day, can't remember what I did | Went to my grandma's, met Luísa there, she told me I forgot to go to the orphanage with church (I wish I had gone). Played Undertale there too and reread what I have written in Maybe Someday's chapter | Also, talked to Aoi after a long time.
• 10 | There was basically nothing at school. Like, almost 4 vacant times. My teacher played a really boring movie. Drawed and read basically all class | Read a bit at home, chatted more with Aoi, waited until Lari finished studying to talk to her while studying French | Flirtings
• 11 | Didn't go to school | Spent basically the entire day reading and finished Children of Eden | Then, worked out, talked to Lari and visited Sunnyhome after a whole year without doing so (I still feel like I'm a bother there, though) | Was really low afterwards, but Lari cheered me up.
• 12 | Started reading Calamity | Drawed with wacom but the result is shitty | Bored and low almost all day. Been feeling like giving up on writing because I don't have great ideas etc etc | Later, though, went to the mall with mom and sister and bought another shirt from male session. Then went to my grandma's, where I stayed reading | When I came back home, toyed with my sister with play dough. Old but gold | Then talked to Lari again.
• 13 | Read Calamity from 2h30am to 4am | Wrote for some hours, watched one episode of anime, talked to Lari... I don't remember the rest.
• 14 | Good day, rainy mood. Had meal at my grandma's, mom was out doing a medical examination | Cousin (Carol) came over and recommended me a particular teacher for drawing. Maybe I'm gonna try it out someday | Read, worked out, watched HIMYM, barely talked to Lari today | Watched a movie with fam.
• 15 | Was willing to write, but didn't | Stayed reading and talking to Lari basically all day | Went to my cousin's, watched him play Dark Souls while talking to him and to Lari.
• 16 | Didn't stayed up as late as I wanted, sadly. | Right after waking up, went to the mall with family to meet Céci's and her parents there. Had lunch, bought a book and watched a sciense exposure in the shopping hall. After, stayed at her condominion for a while. Went back home at 6pm. | Starting to feel anxious for my science fair on Saturday... it's totally gonna suck. | Three hours later, went to my grandma's, where I read and wrote a bit.
• 17 | Didn't go to school in order to sleep, but was barely able to do it. Thinking a lot of her | Recovered the subjects I had missed in school | Read a bit of Calamity | Procrastinated a lot, and talked to Lari. A week with no flirtigs finally ended.
• 18 | Three months together ❤️ | Really good day. Slept poorly, but for a good cause — had an history idea in the middle of the night and wrote it down. Plotted it after trying to take a nap and before English course. | I'm really glad I have Lari's friends approval JSKFJH They were making a fuss because of hanissa again and I think that's beautiful. | After my English course, mom and I went to Unitri — a fascinating particular university from here — to get tickets for a course. About transgender issues. She's so interested in them and I'm so happy. I wish I could join in too, but I've got an appointment at the date. Furthermore, I loved the campus and there was a really cute dog there that I caressed | Then we picked my sister up at her friend's party | Worked out | Finally managed to talk to Lari since 4pm, but she seemed kind of listless | Also, searched and found 100 amazing pictures for FICO's panel.
• 19 | After school, stayed basically all afternoon studying and doing my homework | Didn't take a nap, unlike usually | Then parents forced me to go to church, where I stayed drawing. A girl there treated me with male pronouns once, and, despite it being clearly unintentional, I was really happy | Talked to Lari afterwards, but we didn't do the audiocall I was looking forward to because she was busy. | Mood dropped heavily because of anxiety and hardcore dysphoria and it basically spoiled my day.
• 20 | Nice day at school, we had class upstairs (the other room was cleaning) | Slept after school and overtalked in my therapy session. My stress ball bursted out ;_; it lasted only 2 days | Good day at english course~ | At home, plotted a bit and talked to Lari.
• 21 | When I came home, we were without eletricity and it only returned at 4h30pm. Used that time to sleep | After waking up, studied for FICO's apresentation and for an examinations grants I'd take saturday. Did this while talking to Lari - her friend, Formigo, surprisingly called me to chat. He's pretty nice.
• 22 | Woke up at 7am, zombie-like, to go do that exam - and almost arrived late for it. I think I went partially well, but I didn't like the school. Religious stuff almost all over the place. Hell no. Also, mom said that, if I study there next year, I'll need to be all day in it on Thursdays and Tuesdays. Well, then the realization that next year will probably suck a lot striked me, and hard. Had an anxiety crisis, basically. All my fears targetted me at once. Then went home, talked about my feelings with Gabs, and went straight to bed, just waking up at 1h30pm | Once my mood was better, studied a bit more for FICO and watched HIMYM | Went to school at 4pm, when my shift in the apresentation starts. The panel with the photos I helped to search and select was great and I did a good job there, I guess. Was tiring, but fun. | When at home, finally did an audiocall with Lari featuring my sister dfhjh really nice one | Then, went to pistachious, to celebrate my sister's birthday in celebration. Céci was there. Lari told formigo about my pronouns and he was really understanding about it. | So, basically, I didn't stop all day.
• 23 | Spent the night awake with Lari until 5am. Studied french during this and after I woke up | Grandma (from dad's family) gave me ice-cream. | At night, we went to our grandma's to celebrate my sis' birthday. Watched HIMYM there.
• 24 | Didn't take a nap after school. Finished season 8 of HIMYM (aaaaa) and studied lots of french. | Hadn't talked to Lari until 7pm, because she slept in almost all day and was without internet connection. Then, wow. Spent more than 3 FREAKING HOURS talking to her in an audiocall - from 7h45pm to, like, 11h30pm. I love her voice so much. And it made me feel better about mine too. No dysphoria. We did it while we studied. I played a bit of undertale and drawed meanwhile, too. Ahh. Such a good day.
• 25 | Didn't take a nap after school again. Instead, studied french and did my homework. Lari and I did an audiocall again, meanwhile. I think I'm addicted to her voice | Then, worked out and went to english cass | Afterwards, more audiocalls with her while doing basically nothing. Boredom strikes again.
• 27 | My school canceled class for High School and my grade students so we had the opportunity to go to "Vem pra UFU", an event taking plance in my city's federal uni. It was really cool, I hadn't wandered in the campus ever before. Visited the stands of several courses; unfortunately, not including engineering areas, which my friend claimed to be the best ones. | Didn't have therapy, went to my english course, did lots of nothing afterwards.
• 28 | Was stupid enough to forget I had a test and miss school. Now I'll have to pay for a replacement test, which is dated for 5th december. Ugh. | Was planning to write, but defered it all day and when I finally started doing it, my parents forced me to go out with them. At least I had fun, meeting Céci in the club and eating an enormous hamburguer afterwards.
• 29 | Woke up at 8am to go to another examinations grants, this one for Gabarito school, which was crowded. I had little chance to be selected since the begginning, but I went poorly on the test, for my own disappointment | Audiocall with Lari after waking up from nap. She talked to my mother HFJDFHJ it was fun to hear | Halloween party at Céci's condominium. I did good on my zombie makeup, I guess. I loved the decoration and the food there.
• 30 | Spent the day at home, doing nothing, chatting, reading, blah.
• 31 | Did homework and slept in the afternoon | With mom, took my sister trick-or-treating. Two streets of my zone were huddled, with foodtrucks and people everywhere. The other ones' houses weren't participating much. Some had really cool halloween ornaments. Met Ana there, who made me some company and small-talk. Had churros! and got a good amount of candies. | Lari was sad today, but she eventually got better and we talked until 1am as usual.