• Second part of 2016 autobio.

November

• 1 | Went to therapy and english course | Discussed about names with Nick. He's calling me Leo from now on, you know, just to try it out, know how it sounds and feels | Was supposed to write today, at least one thousand words. NanoWrimo is here, after all. But I didn't. I still feel pretty guilty and ashamed, and kind of useless | However, I had fun, at least, talking and doing audiocalls with Lari... I love her and her voice. I love it when I make her laugh. I want to hug her and never let go. Also... she's probably right - I should stop self-loathing this much. I guess I'll try harder tomorrow, in writing, in being a better person. I can do it.
• 2 | The day started pretty poorly. Lari woke up to her sound of her cellphone crashing into the ground, I was sad because I thought I wouldn't talk to her for a while and for other things, like dysphoria and anxious fear | Then, things started getting better. She went to a musical festival from her cram school, where she had fun, and I was happy for her (despite worrying after not having heard from her past-midnight.). And I mANAGED TO WRITE A LOT, BITCHES | Also, worked out, did my homework and stuff.
• 3 | Didn't go to school because I couldn't keep my fucking mind shut and therefore was awake until 5am | Right after waking up, went straight to writing | After english course, intended to do more writing, but procrastinated. At least, had fun talking to the squad - the chat hasn't been this agitated, in a good way, in a while.
• 4 | Arrived home after school and had to go out again with mom; had my hair cut, my eyebrows done. Later, went to mom's doctor, where I stayed in the waiting room, writing, while she did her exams. | Then, could finally spend the rest of the day with Lari (had a minor DTR with her, but in a tranquil way. I'm still kind of apprehensive though). She had her phone repaired! She used her mother's yesterday | Also, found out about curso de editoração da USP and it really got my interest, since it involves almost everything that I would like for and as my future job. | Tomorrow is ENEM. Good luck to everyone facing it.
• 5 | Woke up at 11am to talk to Lari and wish her - and everyone else - luck before ENEM. Was kinda bummed the rest of the morning, but told some of my feelings off to my mom | Afterwards, should have gone straight to writing, but procrastinated (as always) and watched a really inspiring Documentary about Tomorrowland music festival | When the exam was over, she was ok, we cheered each other up | Went with my dad until the end of the world to leave my sister at her friend's party.
• 6 | Same thing as yesterday regarding waking up, but went back to sleep until 1h30 pm | Went out with my cousin to watch Doctor Strange | Lari was worn out, low-spirited after ENEM. She didn't feel like talking much; gave her space. Chatted with formigo a bit | Went to my grandma, where I wrote. When I came back home, she was better.
• 7 | Really good day, spent it with Lari. Talked to her in skype, played 2 rounds of BGO | Then, studied chemistry. Worked out. After 7h pm, did various audiocalls with her in skype. During it, we played another two rounds of bgo, chatted. (2x2. I defeated her greatly this time, twice.) She watched me draw with wacom.
• 8 | After school, finished studyng. Talked to Lari and drawed for more than one hour before going to therapy and, after, english course | As soon as I came home, did a 2h long audiocall with her again, played one round of bgo.
• 9 | After finishing homework, slept for one hour in the afternoon | Then, wrote! From 16h50 until 18h50 (excepting some minutes of distraction), when I was forced to go to church, where stayed reading and drawing | Once back home, wrote more, while chatting with Lari and Formigo. Achieved 1,8k. I'm proud.
• 10 | Didn't mention it yesterday, but I'm still shocked for Trump being elected. I mourn for all the LGBT+ rights that are gonna be slaughtered, for all americam women, poc, muslins, immigrants... Y'all, stay safe. | No energy when I came home. Mom lent me her phone for a bit, then I did homework and went straight to bed. Rested well, and had some crazy dreams | After english class, tried to cheer Lari up.
• 11 | Kind of roller-coaster day. In general, it was pretty good. It sucked just in the period of 14h-16h. Was stressed and received really bad news from mom that made me feel awful. | But Lari (cutie pie) cheered me up. We played clubpenguim because we were bored. Childhood feels | Then, went to the club and met Céci there. We ate at Domino's after it | Came home and dated her for the rest of the night~ | Also, AMIGO SECRETO DE FANFICAGEM with the squad
• 12 | Wrote until 3am | Woke up at 10h30am to visit the school I'm going to next year. I'm really fond of the building structure, and kind of liked its educational system... But it's going to be hard. Monitored classes, which means I have to pay attention all the time. More than 4 tests every monday. Simulado geral + simulado ENEM each 2 monthes. I feel like I'm going to adapt well, but, on the other hand, I'm kind of afraid... what if I don't have time for anything else anymore? | Once at home, read a bit and wrote basically all day, while talking to Lari. Indeed, FINALLY finished chapter 16 of MS <3 | Then, had to get dressed for Victoria's 15 years party. Really dysphoric and ennerving process, but Lari helped to cheer me up | The party was cool and awful at the same time. My night started with Isabela closing the car's door on my thumb. It still hurts. The dance apresentations were really beautiful. Chatted Victor and Gabriel almost during all the time I was there, they're nice and all. However, must have swallowed down the tears and felt excluded and painfully dysphoric all the time. Called dad to take me home at 1am instead of 3am.
• 13 | When came home, mom insisted until I told her what was wrong. Sighs. Also, found out I had hurted Lari's feeling saying something stupid (I was stressed and didn't think it'd affect her). She forgave me, but I had trouble forgiving myself. | After waking up, though, everything was ok again. She told me about a dream she had, in which I was. A really nice one | Talked to Rafael. He showed me some poetries of his (incredible ones), I showed 3 of mine. I was happy with his praises. Then, talked about the school I'm going to with him, since he has been studying there since 2014. It drove me really anxious and had me crying, but mom and Lari comforted me | Then, audiocalls with her. For hours. Drawed in the meantime. Then, we played something: inventing histories. I started, then she continued, then me again, so it goes on. The results were... disturbing. Also, my sister chipped in the conversation and annoyed the hell out of me while Lari laughed it off. | After my bath, we flirted. (orshouldisaysexted) A lot. Holly lot,,, | Well, basically, the only thing I did today was date her, and I regret nothing.
• 14 | No school today | Lari didn't go to cram school because it was cold and raining. Talked a bit with her, then she went to study | Finished writing my school task, a ridiculous self-biography. What a pity, I can't tell the truth about myself in it | Went to the shopping with mom and sister; met Céci there, but just for half an hour. Bought a new book (why does it have to be so expensive?), a new shirt from male session with a Hogwarts' blazon printed on it and two new jeans pants | For some reason, mood lowed down a lot when I was home. Felt dysphoric and lonely, because I barely have friends irl. It took some time until the feeling quit.
• 15 | No school again | Stayed up until 6h30am with Lari, flirting, talking, teasing | She woke up only at 4pm, then told me about another dream of her - the best one. I was 25, she, 27. I was an editorial director (!!), and she was a pyshologist researcher at USP. Basically, we were rich. We went to Nick and his girlfriend's party, in their freaking penthouse apartment. I hope this dream comes true | Told about it to Nick, we created a chat group plus our girlfriends | Watched 10 Things I Hate About You and loved it | That bdsm test | Should have finished a school work but didn't
• 16 | Back to school. After my classes and coming home, tried to write something, but it didn't work | Duda and Máyra came over here to make a group school task along with me. Everything was normal, then Duda started hearing voices, having crisis and acting weird. The reason: her mediumship. Then, a lot of tense things happened. However, I won't get into details, because 1) It was a scary experience I think I won't ever forget and 2) It shouldn't be spread to many people. Also, it's something surreal and sorta hard to believe even for me | Went to the church, where I read, then came home and talked to Lari. Happily, I was able to not overthink about what had happened.
• 17 | In the morning, at school, Duda acted weird again and, well, it was an extension of yesterday's happenings | Talked to Lari about what happened, she comforted me. Thanks god, Duda sent me a message that she sorted out her issues. I hope so | Then, had to go to therapy and to english course | When at home, audiocall with her, while trying to continue my school task. And who said I can't flirt on audio too? (Indeed, I can't. It was really awkward. What the hell was I thinking).
• 18 | 4 months together <3 | We're reaaally sappy today | First thing after meal: wrote a 1,3k words text. Then, as a reward, allowed myself to sleep for a bit more than one hour. After waking up, more writing, until achieving my goal | Talked to Lari until the hour of getting dressed for Cecília's prom party. Same thing as last week, felt really dysphoric during the process. Lari tried to comfort me, and I love her for it | The party hall was outstandingly beautiful. Céci's friends are really nice, but, at the beginning, felt displaced, ugly, dysphoric... Mom noticed I was crying and talked to me. I said how I wasn't really living and how I hated to pretend someone I'm not.
• 19 | Stayed in the party until 2h30am. Barely ate something. After that conversation, felt somewhat better - and was able to have fun. I even danced with them, and chatted | My uncle's birthday at my grandma's house. Talked to Gabi and Carol and the last's boyfriend about a lot of subjects: from school, cram school and Carol's architecture university to old family/childhood cases. | Lari was out during the day, talked to her just a bit. Procrastinated in tumblr (edited my theme!) and twitter, then FINALLY finished that freaking school task. I'm free now | Watched a movie with family.
• 20 | Anger and frustration problems raised at dawn, my shitty internet connection affecting my mood more than it should. Later, felt awful about myself, had a crisis culminating in dangerous intrusive thoughts about my self-worth. However, was able to cry out for help instead of coping with it by myself. Lari comforted me | Woke up, received the bad news that our family is low on money and, therefore, no trip to SP in January. Was really low for some time, then Lari cheered me up | Then again, felt bad because of jealousy problems, wrote more texts... meh | At night, mood was better, thankfully.
• 21 | Didn't go to school because slept poorly and felt sick at dawn | Boring day. Spent the entire afternoon-evening at doctor, which drove me REALLY anxious and mood-killed | Coming home, had to study. I need to write BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW I WANT TO GIVE UP ON THIS SHIT
• 22 | Answered reviews before english class | When at home, studied for math | I can't recall anything else.
• 23 | Lari didn't go to cram school today. Slept after school, woke up and wrote a bit while talking to her | After church, made an audiocall with her while drawing with wacom | Also, Gi talked to me after a while. I've missed her, Gabs and my other friends... I hope we can hang out together soon.
• 24 | Didn't go to school, fuck it. Woke up at 12am, studied, did homework, then went to english course | Downloaded Mad Father and started playing it.
• 25 | Everything went wrong at school. Two of my friends and also group mates were sick, and I couldn't do the task seminary all by myself. Ok, left it for Monday. Then found out the two of them would receive medical operation on that day and I'd end up doing it on my own anyway. Spanish's task seminary was also postponed for next week. Besides all that, felt really low and was rude to Lari on an impulse. Shame on me. The good thing was three lovely sophomore girls saw me crying at the school's gate and went talk to me and try to comfort me, and I knew two of them | My way to cheer myself up and stop being a weeping baby was to play Undertale. It improved my mood a lot!! There was still so much I didn't know in its plot | Then, Lari and I were normal again. We chatted and I tried to comfort her and quell her anxiety, but I don't think that worked... | Went to the club. There was a really good band performing there - I loved their repertory and singed/sorta danced along.
• 26 | Went to sleep at 4am after some tense convo with Lari. Both of us weren't ok, so it didn't go this smooth. Wrote about it to regurgitate those feelings | Lari didn't appear until 7pm, because she wanted to spend some time alone. However, I didn't know that for sure before, so I kept overthiking and worrying and coming up with all possibilites - that I had messed up, that there was something wrong, etc. Spent the day being my anxious and pathetic self. Tried to distract myself by reading and studying. Doge put up with my drama -- I had to spill my insecurities to someone. Chatted a bit with Formigo, too | Then had a conversation with mom. I'm so glad to have her - she's undertanding, caring, supportive... | Went to my cousin's but he wasn't there. Spent the whole time there playing with his new kitten - it's so small and fragile and aa. Lari and I were ok, then she said she needed to talk to me but didn't want to hurt my feelings and I was like "that's how it's going to end isn't it" but THANKS GOD I WAS WRONG,,, we had a healthy conversation, nothing more nor less. | Teacher sorted out abour our task. Won't have to do it alone.
• 27 | Today's the day. Had trouble to sleep, but woke up at 10h30am to wish her luck and chat with her before FUVEST. | Went to my cousin's (Lu) house to have our mid-day meal there. Watched first episode of 3% there too | At home, watched one more episode and waited for Lari to come. Gladly, she was ok - at least way better than she was after ENEM | Went to Pistachios, met Céci there. Still haven't come out to her. Sighs. Lari also started being really anxious but I couldn't help much ç_ç happily she got better eventually.
• 28 | My portuguese teacher got expelled from school... she has to stay away for medical reasons too. Therefore, tomorrow is her last day with us. She cried during class and we gave a huge group hug in her. I'll miss her. | After my nap, INSTALLED WII AND PLAYED IT. AA. I'VE MISSED IT | Audiocall with Lari featuring her sister, during one hour | More Wii instead of studying. Ops.
• 29 | Our class mates organized a farewell mini-party to our leaving teacher. She cried again | Went to therapy right after school, managed to tell my psychologist everything that has bugging me these couple of weeks. My mom went to pick me up but then her car wouldn't ignite, so we spent at leats one hour there, waiting for my dad. At least ate at the café on the second floor | After english course, played Wii, flirted with Lari and studied. | Also, she showed me what he had written for me in the beginning of 2016 — IT'S SO LOVELY — and I sent her the letter I've written her in february — and she loved it. The fluffy went on for hours. It was really sugary.
• 30 | After school, spent almost 3 hours sleeping | My mom told me the news - I'm the only student at the whole school to receive an integral scholarship. No monthly payments for me. To be honest, I'm kinda sick of the place — I've been there all my life — and I liked the other school I was intending to go... but my current one has been going under some system improvements and my parents are really low on money, so guess it's better for me to stay. | Went to the movies with mom and sister to watch Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them. It's REALLY good

December

• 1 | Multidisciplinary test at school | Finished reading Calamity... I already miss it. Really. It's such a good history | Slept for a couple of hours | After english course, my mom took me to extra and we bought Mario Galaxy for wii. The issue is that the controller apparently stopped working. That killed my mood | Played Undertale for more than 2 hours. I did it. I finished the True Pacifist Route. And cried a lot, mainly in the end of Asriel's battle. Those credits, too...
• 2 | My last day at school | At 4pm, went to Gi's house. We talked a lot, she has an enormous, 2 meters teddy bear named Clóvis Gilberto Geraldo Terceiro. I kept over it, hugging, almost the entire time. No wonder why I was sneezing all the time afterwards. Also, Gi sent a cute audio message to Lari | Then, went to ADUFU. Met Céci there. There was wifi there, so I could chat with Lari a bit too. We also made "new friends": two girls there with interests and likes in common to us. They were really loud, thought. Too energetic for me to follow. Still nice to meet them. Also, had really good conversations with Céci... I feel more like coming out to her now.
• 3 | Slept really late, talking (and probably flirting) with Lari | She spent the day out with her family | I spent HOURS studying french. I missed it so much. Hadn't done it for over a month | Then, went to my cousin's "birthday". They had eaten all the food already, left almost nothing for me. Also, hadn't seen Tony in a while. His kitten pissed on my leg btw.
• 4 | Don't quite remember if I slept late or no | Hm, I know I watched 2 episoded of 3%. Studied a bit of French before it too | Worked out just late at night, hadn't done that in a while too | My mood dropped because of dysphoria and low on self-esteem issues™ but Lari cheered me up.
• 5 | Woke up at 11am to study a bit. At 1h30pm, went to my school to take my replacing exam (I had lost the spanish one.) When I said I was going to register my enrollment to the school's manager, she was really happy. Perks of being a model student. | Lari was really low because of her computer. She kind of disappeared for the rest of the day. In the beginning, I was ok, watched 4 45-50min episodes in a row, finished watching 3%. Then that bad feeling hit me again and had me almost crumbling. I overflowed using my dad's punching bad, throwing fists for hours. Then, had my bath. After all of this, finally heard of her again.
• 6 | Studied french before english course | After having my written exam, mom took us to the new shopping in the center of the city. We ate pastry. Then we went to a store with the collection of NO.6 mangas until volume 5 and 3 volumes of its original novel. I bought the first one, started reading it and it's great. Shall download in pdf the other ones | Was kind of low when I came home... kinda with a "I'm losing all my friends" mindset. Lari cheered me up. When my network connection failed and I disappeared, she was really worried. I'm glad I have her, at least.
• 7 | Started the day with a good mood, then it crumbled because I'm really unstable lmao Thought about how clingy and lonely I actually am, had negative exaggerated thoughts like ~nobody needs me im worthless blablabla~, all the same stuff. Guess I've had a regression this month, kinda afraid I'll have more depressing thoughts | Mom took me to the physiotherapist with me listening to sad music and weeping quietly on the way | After this, my day got better. Talked to her and to Formigo. Lari and I were going to watch a movie together but it didn't happen | Started watching Steven Universe <3
• 8 | A guy who had wrote texts as comments in one of my fb posts started randomly talking to me. Had the first wrong impression of him, but let's see | Woke up at 2pm, chatted with Lari a bit and then went to work out. Used father's puncing bad again. It's really pleasant but my wrist hurt | BANANA CAKE AFTER BRUNCH. MY FAVORITE. | Lari has been dealing with LDB problems again... aa it's so unfair çwç | Took my oral test and made my essay at english course, it was easier than I expected. Didn't have to be nervous about it <3 | After it, drawed with wacom and then had an audiocall with Lari <3 I was also wondering if I could do one with Gabs, too
• 9 | Finished no.6's novel first book | Went to the hairdresser with mom, then again to the physiotherapist to get another version of my orthopedic insole | My dog had surgery to remove tumors from her womb and teats and to castrate. Everything went ok, but she's still tense and looking so sad... Also puked 2 times today ): | Got home, chatted with Lari. Mood got better | Then, like any preparation for every party I go to and have to wear a dress and make-up, felt REALLY dysphoric and down, but conversation with her helped to cheer me up | Cousin's 15 year party sucked, although I was happy with her. Wasn't able to socialize, felt awful about myself and looking at all the boys there and craving to be like them. At least, found a girl whom I small-talked to for a while.
• 10 | After feeling down and crying quietly through almost the whole party and after the main part of the cerimony, the retrospective and the waltz, we went home at 2h30am | Restless night. Slept only at 7am, after brief chat with her, and woke up only at 3pm | Unproductive but really nice day. After Lari had to go, talked to Formigo and to that guy from before, asked him some questions about his views to get some things clear. I understood his point. He's a nice guy, after all. | Also, flirted with Lari a lot | Went to Céci's house. Talked about several things. She lent me a book. And... I FINALLY came out as trans to her. And everything went ok, I don' even know why I was so afraid. She even said that "I know you, I already realized that". I was lost but happy and I gave her a super bear hug.
• 11 | Read a bit, re-watched one of my favorite movies | Concerned with my dog. She still isn't getting well, always throwing up and hasn't eaten since friday. Talked to my cousin (Gabi) about it, and she came over, bringing some food she had cooked for her dogs, but Nina (my dog) didn't want it either. It was a battle to give her her medicine and it ended up being spat out. My cousin and I also chatted a bit aftwerwards, she told me about her life and her crush | Barely spoke to Lari today, which kinda spoiled my mood. But talked to Doge!! We played wordchain | I miss Gabs, btw. We're still talking but it's not the same as before. Sighs.
• 12 | Lari came back at 2am and we spent a while talking | Woke up at 3pm. Ops | Studied a lot of french today | Our squad is planning to create another rp! This time, a crossover with Haikyuu and Harry Potter: Hogwarts AU, featuring a new great idea Di had. | Worked out | Lari realized I was kinda low and stayed with me, instead of watching more episodes of htgawm
• 13 | Lari started proofreading Maybe Someday's chapter, we talked in google doc's chat and I helped her while studied more french. After that, we flirted | Went to therapy | She finished the chapter's revision and I was really exultant because she said she loved it (and it is one of my best written chapters) and I finally got to post it, proudly | Watched Steven Universe with my sister later.
• 14 | Stayed awake with her until 4am | Read. Planning to finish this book at once | Studied french | FINALLY drawed something, spent more than three hours on it, while listening to music | Lari's prom today. Chatted more with her at night.
• 15 | Watched some episodes of Steven Universe with my sister | Started reading a new book, that I borrowed from Céci, and it's really good | Audiocall with Lari during two hours <3 We played two matches of BGO (and I won both, MWAHAHA) while teasing each other, then watched together two episodes of Neon Genesis Evangelion, laughing a lot and scoffing Shinji because he's an otario. I love her voice.
• 16 | Stayed up talking to Lari and to Gabs (I've missed him,,,)| Did lots of nothings after waking up. Played a bit of Mad Father, and was going to play more, but that shit had a lot of creepy jumpscares that scared the fuck out of me and made me shriek dishonorably so I gave up. Also chatted with Lari and Aoi | Went to the Praia Clube with mom and sis and met Céci. We chatted but she didn't want to swim with me. Damn her. | Came back home and had a philosophical conversation with Formigo. He asked me what were my concepts about freedom, true self and death, then we debated. It was nice to have a deep talk like that | Something had happened to her, but she didn't tell me. We chatted a bit, but both of us weren't feeling much like it - she was low and I was apathetic.
• 17 | Talked a bit with Rafael. He still reads Maybe Someday! Slept after 4h30am, because I was too engrossed in reading that book | Woke up at 3pm. My mood lowed down because I've been an anxious bubbly mess this month, wrote my feelings down while crying, then she cheered me up a bit | Read | Went to my grandpa's, but my cousin wasn't there. So I spent the time playing with Kiko (the super agitated dog) and Grafite (the super agitated kitten, that left scars on my arms) and going "awww" with the new-born cats. | Read more when arrived home
• 18 | 5 months together <3 | She didn't spend much time with me for she went out with her parents, though | Worked out a bit | Went to my grandma's and finally finished that book
• 19 | Opened up about my feelings to her at the crack of dawn. She comforted me and quelled some of my insecurities. I won't be left out. I won't be all lonely. It's going to be ok | After waking up, kept chatting with Lari. Audiocall with her soon afterwards, we played a round of BGO with Diandra, Lilice and some strangers | Mom took me to the shopping center. Ate at Habbib's. Stayed in the library for some while | After coming home, watched some videos of BTS (LARI FORCED ME jk) to cheer me up. It was fun.
• 20 | Lari being a cutie before we went to sleep, telling me I'm perfect, complimenting my voice... it always makes me happy when she says this kind of thing. | Went to therapy at 2pm. After my mom picked me up, she took me to eat ice-cream. Nice. | Started an audiocall with Lari but her mom came home earlier, so didn't resume. She got accepted into Mackenzie!! AAA I'm so happy for her and proud of her aaa *cheering* | Watched a good part of Haikyuu's season 3. I've missed it. I think I may get the hype again AAAA | Chatted with Formigo | Lari told me something bad happened and went to sleep early. I hope everything is ok.
• 21 | Woke up, read a bit, then watched a movie I was intending to for a long time | My sister's godmother came over with her friend. She brought some homemade sweets and my mom made cake. Ate and chat with them, then retracted myself at my bedroom again | Studied French for hours! 16 unities or so to finish course in duolingo. Made 300XP | Finally spoke a bit with Lari. She reassured me that she wasn't mad at me, explained last night events and stuff.
• 22 | Barely slept at night. Mind was racing. Got up at midday, when gave up on trying to sleep. Read one chapter of No.6's third book | Went to the club with family. The day was so freaking hot that I didn't even choose to stay at home. Swimmed and talked more about trans issues to mom... | Came home. My cousins have arrived. Had dinner at my grandmother's, along with dad's family. Talked to Isadora (cousin) about academic and professional future.
• 23 | Hadn't talked much to Lari last day, then I felt I was bothering her and had one of my classical low-on-self-esteem-crisis™ but it passed rather quickly because of her solace | After waking up, played Super Mario Run for a while, just to eventually realize only the first world is free. The rest costs USD9,99. FFS. | Drawed a lot!! Until 7pm. Also chatted a bit with some people meanwhile | Party at grandmother's. Gabi told more about her crush (rs), then... BINGO NIGHT. Unfortunately, didn't get the present I wanted - my cousin took the library gift card first. But me and my sister got the game Jenga and a 2000 pieces Star Wars puzzle. Yay.
• 24 | One of the best *you know what* sessions with her, from midnight until 2h30am. | Played Jenga with JP, sister, and with Gu. Talked about games with Carol and her boyfriend, still at the crack of the night. | Went to sleep at 6am | Woke up at 4pm, spent the day reading and making lists... | Christmas eve party time. Didn't feel as dysphoric as usual, which is good. Lari also madee me feel good about myself. At first, the "party" was really monotonous, but nice anyway. Then my cousin (Lu) came over and we chatted a bit.
• 25 | Good time with the squad in the group chat! They keep calling me pãozinho and it's cute. I love them. With Lari, too <3 Wished happy xmas to most of my close friends. After Lu went home, I went to my grandma's house. My younger cousin made me join a Nerf competition with him. Then I stayed with him, Isa and Teca, talking and playing in the cellphone. I downloaded Hay Day, shame. | Chatted with her before going to sleep at 5am or so | Spent the day playing hay day (yeah, i know, shame) and reading... Then went to my cousin's (Antonio). I made him watch 2 episodes of Steven Universe (though he almost didn't pay attention at it) and he made start watching Star Wars Episode IV. | Lari went to sleep at 9pm because she was really tired. Talked to Gabs.
• 26 | Marathoned Steven Universe with sis until 3am. Then read for some while. Went to sleep at 6am. | Probably spent the day procrastinating. I know I drawed for some while | Went out with Isa, Luísa, sister and Lara, to the movies. The movie was a cute thing, I had fun | Once at home, drawed a bit more and admired some pixel art on tumblr.
• 27 | Read no.6 at the crack of night then finished it after waking up | Went to the club with Cecília. I borrowed a new book from her and finally made her swim with me. Also, sis was mad at me but I managed to cheer her up by making funny grimmaces >:D Also played a bit of pokemon go after months without doing so. | Chatted with Lari and with a new person, Dominique. I hope we talk to each other more from now on.
• 28 | HER BIRTHDAY! <3 | Marathoned Steven Universe with sister, 18 episodes in a row. We finished the first season. Feels start to raise. Save our poor souls. I'm made of love, and it's stronger than you. | Made a 1k text teeming with my feelings for her for Lari's birthday... She said she loved it. I don't think it beats Formigo's powerpoint appreciation though — she showed some parts of it to me and I LMAOed.
• 29 | Spent talking with her and went to sleep at 5am | Didn't sleep well at night. Mind was racing and overflowing with negative thoughts and I was an anxious, restless zombie by the time I gave up on trying to sleep | However, put my favorites musics to play — twenty one pilots — and finally cleaned and tidied up my school stuff and bag, deciding what to throw up an what to keep. It made me feel better | Finished watching Star Wars Episode IV | My cousin and neighbour invited me and my sister over. I had a really good time and stayed there from 5h30pm to 11pm. We chatted a lot, played Super Banco Imobiliário for a long while (didn't finish it but I won), ordered pizza (half calabresa, half alho) then played Just Dance. Had to take another bath afterwards.
• 30 | Started solving a Star Wars 2000 pieces puzzle. At first, sister tried to help me, then left it all for me. Dude, it'll take a lot of time until I'm done with it, but I felt proud of myself for being able to mount some parts on my own. Took a break from it at around 3h30am | At 4h10 am, Lari appeared again. I was really glad that she seemed better (she had been down throughout the day and not much aproachable), and she said me some sweet words (that she loves me and is grateful for me). It made everything better. | As soon as I woke up, my dad was raging and making a fuss because of what I post in my facebook, and threatening to take my computer from me. Overhead his conversation with mom and my uncle. He also yelled at me. Gladly, mom took my side and helped me | This made me frustrated and sad and hopeless, but Lari cheered me up. I love her. | Studied a little of french. Wanna finish duolingo's course until the end of vacation | Went to Barollo (italy restaurant found in the shopping center) with my family and Cecília's family. After having our meal, we both went pokémon-hunting (because it's still nice sometimes)
• 31 | Read 19 days. Finally, I am updated with the chapters | Played a bit of Hay Day | Kinda worked out. Actually just danced 3-4 musics | The squad chat being totally lovely, as always, in the evening and at night, at the turn of the year, making declarations and thanking for the presence of all - I love them so much, I hope I'll stay with them throughout all 2017. | Spent new year's eve party at Luísa's. Read a bit of Tamen de Gushi there, then socialized with her friend, Mel (homonym!) and with Tainá... | Then, midnight. Already 2017. Time to do a new list for a new autobio, huh?