- While I, as a normal person, has my own material wishlist, I realized that I don't really care much about luxuries
- I prefer cheap or mid-priced things than expensive, branded ones
- If there's no pressure to look better for my partner, I won't probably buy clothes bec it was never a priority. I would wish to keep only a few good clothes than collect a lot
- I prefer splurging on food
- I love my bed, being in bed and being unconscious. I wish I can do a lot of things to unwind but I always end up sleeping.
- This age makes me feel more depressed as I worry about parents' and loved ones' health. A lot of people my age are dealing with loss and the fear of the inevitable death has been bothering me almost everyday
- There is no perfect love, maybe. We accept someone and continuously accept them everyday despite their weaknesses. We accept the things that cannot be easily changed and we accept the expectations that cannot be turned into reality
- It is hard to gain real friends and difficult to find one. I am currently surrounded with colleagues who seem to either dislike me or find me uninteresting. Being not included in a group is both liberating and somewhat depressing.
- People are getting annoying. Situations become negative. As we age, we see more of life's chaos and how mankind ruins everything but small things will still make us feel that life is worth living-- like getting to pet stray cats or a rare random stranger's kindness
- Kindness do not always return to you. Kindness can result in pain and isolation. I try to be kind, still.
- I see the fine lines on my face. I see how much I aged. I feel my body aches. My skin is super dry and my white hairs are very much visible. I regret not taking care of myself early in life and I feel it's kind of late. I feel super ugly this year.
- I am disappointed with my financial status. At this age, I expect that I will be able to earn a lot. I am sad that I wasn't able to give my parents a very good life. Grateful still for my salary and job as it helps me to survive but being not rich is really hard. I wanted to be generous but it's hard to be generous while making sure that my wallet has money for me and my mother's needs. I want to be rich not to buy luxurious things. I want to be rich to help animals and my family and to help myself survive. Living is expensive but dying is also expensive so it's hard to be poor.
- We are never happy about pandemic because a lot of people died and suffered but I kind of miss the times when people kept their distance and transportations were not super full and certain places felt sacred. I never wish for another pandemic but I would admit that as an introvert, I long for quiet, non-chaotic places with people who can't squeeze you or manspread beside you. It's a different kind of comfort when Filipinos keep their distance which is really rare
- I miss being young and I felt I wasted my youth on shitty men and shitty 'friends'. I regret dating stupid men in college. I hate that I had friends who weren't real. It made me the way I am now-- avoiding friendly attachments unconsciously.
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