remember

• that you are NEVER alone, and there is ALWAYS someone who cares, even if they don't know you
• a lot of people love to help and are willing to try
• animals exist
  • and they're pretty good at cuddling
  • so are some humans
• there are alternatives to self harm
• books are good if you need an escape
• this sadness isn't going to last forever
• you are loved
• there are so many beautiful things in the world

obligatory 'don't ask' (actually, you can, if you want)

• liquid charcoal
• 2 fried frog legs
• sea snail
• 2 worms
• $3 in coins
• sand
• dirt
• paper

• septum
• cartilage (ears)
• second regular (ears)
• right nostril again
• left bottom lip
• chest dermal(where a necklace pendant would land)
• a couple other dermals

under construction

• breaking bad 5.1
• doctor who 2 episodes behind
• lost 2.18
• sherlock caught up
• six feet under 2.5
• supernatural caught up
• the walking dead 3.2
• warehouse 13 caught up

inspired by this list.

• A is for: Aida & Andrew
• B is for: Bronte & Briar
• C is for: Chloe & Cade
• D is for: Dracen & Declan
• E is for: Emilia & Ezra
• F is for: & Finn
• G is for: Grace & Gage
• H is for: Hana &
• I is for: Italia & Isaac
• J is for: Juliette & Josh
• K is for: Kayleigh &
• L is for: Lucianna & Levi
• M is for: Mia & Madden
• N is for: Nora & Noah
• O is for: Olivia &
• P is for: & Peter
• Q is for: &
• R is for: Ryenn &
• S is for: Sofie & Samson
• T is for: & Trey

• baby girl
• cupcake
• little duck
• little one
• pretty baby
• snuggles
  • snugglebutt
• spud
• chuckles

My body does not make me who I am, so don't judge me for it. I just want it to work again, so I can live a life I can be proud of. So much research...

tidbits:

• 5' 7 1/4"
• big in all the right places and a lot of the wrong ones
• big green eyes, that like to turn bird poo colored occasionally (they're freckled with dark brown and ringed with blue often)

quirks:

• synesthesia

issues:

• anxiety disorder
• attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)

• a
• adam - hebrew; man of the earth
• adrian - latin; person from hadria (northern italy)
• alestair - scottish gaelic; protector of men
• alexander - greek; protector of mankind
• andrew - greek; brave
  • b
• benedict - latin; to bless
• benjamin - hebrew; son of my right hand (hah)
• blade - celtic; glory
• briar - greek; strong
  • c
• cade - english; sturdy
• caleb - hebrew; courageous
• chad - celtic; warrior

because i've put it on this list.

• a
• brave
• contaminated man
• dark shadows
• e
• f
• grandma's boy
• horsemen, the
• intruders
• j
• k
• l
• m
• n
• o
• parental guidance
• q
• r
• senseless
• this is 40

• twitter
• tumblr
• gaiaonline
• livejournal
• goodreads
• last.fm
• youtube

• My goal in life is to make others happy. I just have yet to figure out what kind of career I want to accomplish that (though I have plenty of ideas).
• I want to stretch my ears a little bit.
• I want a ton more tattoos.
• I’m socially anxious and awkward but try my hardest to talk to people anyway.
• I try really hard and fuck up a lot anyway.
• I have abandonment issues because... well, I've been abandoned.
• I can be quite a mess, but I've gotten a lot better at putting myself back together.
• I'm really emotional & sensitive. It's a blessing & a curse.
• My heart has been broken a lot so I have trouble truly trusting people. Usually when I start to trust someone, they screw me over.

besides the obvious.

• the taste of beer.
• the texture of pineapple
• cranberry juice
• milk that's anything but fat free
• most meats
• spiders
• realiTV

when people/people that...

• say "maybe" a lot when asked yes or no questions
• tell me to be quiet
• don't know the difference between your/you're, and to/too
• are republican/conservative
• smack their lips while eating
• are famous for no reason/even though they're talentless
• think modeling takes talent/is a good idea/is not harmful/are models

as in, products that are called by their popular brand names even though they're not necessarily the same thing. i've been wanting to make this list for a while, but was reminded by this.

• band-aid - bandage
• jello - gelatin snack
• kleenex - tissue
• midol - period problem pill
• play doh - well, play dough xD or, dough that you play with
• purell - hand sanitizer
• sharpie - permanent marker
• tupperware - plastic cookware
• vaseline - petroleum jelly
• xerox - photo copy
• ziplock - plastic bags
• scotch tape - adhesive tape
• q-tips - cotton swabs
• neosporin - antibiotic ointment

under construction.

• enneagram : type 4, hypersensitivity.
• meyers-briggs : INFP, introverted intuitive feeling perceiving.
• zodiac : pisces/monkey.

new

• fiat 500
• hyundai accent
• kia rio
• kia soul
• nissan cube
• nissan versa
• scion iQ
• scion xD
• toyota yaris

used

• toyota camry
• toyota corolla

for a child. ongoing. can be mixed&matched.

• aida grace - italian/latin ; happy/charm
• aida lucianna - italian/latin ; happy/light
• aida kayley - italian/gaelic ; happy/lovely
• autumn grace - latin ; fall season/charm
• chloe grace - greek/latin ; blooming/charm
• emilia/emily grace - latin ; to strive/charm
• italia grace - italian/latin ; italy/charm
• kayley grace - gaelic/latin ; lovely/charm
• lucianna grace - italian/latin ; light/charm
• maddox brooklyn - english/american ; good/ny borough
• matilda/millie grace - english/latin ; st...

• a
• adaline; addi, ada - english; noble
• adelaide; german; of noble kin
• adisyn; addi - english; child of adam
• aida - italian; happy
• ainslei - scottish gaelic; one's own meadow
• alyssa - greek; wise
• allyson - old english; nobility
• alyra - old english; wise counselor
• ashten - english; ash town
• aubrey - english; noble ruler
• augustine, august - english; great, worthy of respect
• aurora; rori, rora, aura - latin; goddess of the dawn
• autumn - latin; fall season
• avalyn; ava - english; beautiful bird
• avery - english; elf ruler
• aydin - irish; little fire

• books
• chanel no. 5 (grandma)
• coffee
• cold nights (they have a scent okay)
• jean naté (grandma)
• ocean air
• petrichor (the smell in the air of dirt when it rains)
• pizza
• pumpkin pie
• sunblock
• vanilla

rewatched / saw in theaters *

• late december 2012
• this is 40 *
  • january 2013
• intruders
• the horsemen
• senseless
• the time-traveler's wife
• hysteria
• atm
• dan in real life
• the 40-year-old virgin
• grandma's boy
• ted
  • february
• wanderlust
• the switch

• it doesn't have to make total sense, it just has to be plausible. and sometimes, it doesn't even have to be plausible.
• write whatever's in your head. keep writing. you can always edit it later.
• listen to music that makes you think about your plot more.
• FOOD. EAT. probably not the best idea but when i can't think of anything it's good to have something to munch on. bananas are good for this reason.

• drink tea
• read
• crochet
• meditate
• take a shower
• or a bath
• sleep
• write things down
• make lists
• eat a healthy snack

• a*teens
  • amit paul
  • dhani lennevald
  • marie serneholt
  • sara lumholdt
• adam snyder (pro football player, my cousin's best friend)
• charlotte diamond (musician)
• chez starbuck (actor)
• chris burney (musician, bowling for soup)
• christian hebel (musician)
• elisa gabrielli (actress)
• frank warren (postsecret)
• good charlotte (2/5)
  • dean butterworth
  • paul thomas
• greg kihn (musician)
• gregg rolie (musician)