• The Human Centipede
• Deadpool
• Sleeping With Other People

• Taking pictures of my books
• Having hazelnut in my coffee
• Leisurely browsing my bookcase
  • Reorganizing my bookcase
• Updating my book-related Instagram
• The pink tinted light from my desk lamp
• The bus arriving just as I get to the bus stop
  • Same for the train
• Pet shops that keep pets in the window
• Going to the register and finding out that the item you're buying is on sale
• Hogwarts
• Good night texts and good morning texts from the guy I like
• Shooting and editing videos on my Canon Rebel

• Stayed in the dorms all 4 years
• Majored in Graphic Design, or stuck with my original Advertising major
• Participated in a study abroad program in Paris, Germany, or London
• Completed more advertising or marketing internships
• Completed a minor in Creative Writing
• Worked on building my self esteem instead of comparing myself to other girls
• Thought out my decision to switch career paths before jumping into it with both feet
• Joined a club or extracurricular activity
• Networked with professors and other students

• Pride and Prejudice (Austen)
• Before I Fall (Oliver)
• Fangirl (Rowell)
• Look at Me (Egan)
• A Thousand Splendid Suns (Hosseini)
• Something Wicked This Way Comes (Bradbury)
• American Gods (Geiman)
• ✔ Bird by Bird (Lamott)
• The Fault In Our Stars (Green)
• A Tree Grows In Brooklyn (Smith)
• I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings (Angelou)

• Books. Seriously.
• Dunkin Donuts lattes
• Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Lattes and Chai Lattes
• Designer clothes, lately. Need to stop.
• Coffee mugs
• Crafts supplies from Michael's
• Transportation
• Take-out food

• Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
• Fahrenheit 451 (Ray Bradbury)
• Main Street (Sinclair Lewis0
• Northanger Abbey (Jane Austen)
• Sense and Sensibility (Jane Austen)
• Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
• Anna Karenina (Leo Tolstoy)
• Madam Bovary (Gustav Flaubert)
• The Great Gatsby (F. Scott Fitzgerald)
• Heart of Darkness (Joseph Conrad)
• Les Miserables (Victor Hugo)
• Of Human Bondage (W. Somerset Maugham)
• Villette (Charlotte Bronte)
• Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)
• Emma (Jane Austen)
• Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
• The House of the Dead (Dostoevsky)
• The Sorrows of Young Werther (Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe)
• Alice In Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)
• Great Expectations (Charles Dickens)

• "Animal Impulses" - IAMX
• "Something's Gotten Hold of My Heart" - Marc Almond, Gene Pitney
• "Tom Sawyer" - Rush
• "Talk Dirty" - Jason Derulo
• "Lolita" - Lana Del Rey
• "Special Cases" - Massive Attack
• "Old and Wise" - Alan Parsons Project

• Watch a funny movie
• Call a friend, nana or my mother
• Write in my journal
• Dance
• Cry in a dark room
• Read the Amazon reviews for Haribo's sugar free gummy bears
• Go for a walk in the fresh air
• Take pictures of the world around me
• Read Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen
• Plan a trip

• ✔ Get my real estate salesperson license
• Get my driver's permit
  • And then my license
• ✔ Go on vacation
• Find an internship site for the fall
• Have illustration(s) published
• ✔ Go on a spontaneous LIRR adventure
• Move into my own apartment
• Save at least $2,000
• ✔ Get accepted to my grad program's honors society
• ✔ Read 10+ books for pleasure
• Visit Montauk and retrace the steps from Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind
• ✔ Get a promotion
• ✔ Make updated business cards
• Get my yoga teacher training certificate
• Renew my passport
• Go to dentist for a whitening
• Go to vein center

• Arabian House Mix 2013 (the youtube video has a picture of a desert and it's around 53 minutes)
• Facade by Disturbed
• Somebody Someone by Korn
• Radioactive by Imagine Dragons
• Bioactive by Sybreed
• Indestrucible by Disturbed

• "Haze" - Device ft. M Shadows
• "Fuck It" - Seether
• "Years of Isolation" - Last Amanda
• "My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark" - Fall Out Boy
• "Pass At Me" - Pitbull
• "Skyfall" - Adele
• "Thoughtless" - Korn
• "Two Princes" - Spin Doctors

[He is a young Bulgarian man with a heavy accent who likes talking about alcohol, cigarettes and adultery.]

• "Let's say I want to rape my neighbor's wife." - on adultery
• "You gonna be Spiderwoman scaling buildings to clean people's windows?" - on excess community service
• "..dreaming of being a rocket scientist but becoming a store clerk at Target instead." - on crushing childhood dreams
• "Guess what, we're all fighting together against rats and we're losing the fight." - on NYC being infested with rats
• "It was a smashing operation!" - on how his surgery went
• "You could be eating Polish people for breakfast!" - on Nazi Germany
• "I don't want my pleasure to be organized. I don't want it to be sequestered on a vessel in the middle of lake." - on organ...

• ✔ Finalize and submit applications for grad school
• Apply to Psi Chi
• Practicar mi espanol und mein Deutsch
• ✔ Apply for scholarships
• Get my own apartment
• Visit Montauk a la Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• Read at least 15 books
• ✔ Get accepted to graduate school
• ✔ Get a job with a salary
  • Or, if I'm in grad school full time, a job that pays at least $15 an hour
• Install pole for practing
• ✔ Buy an android phone
• ✔ Graduate undergrad!
• ✔ Maintain 3.8 GPA
• ✔ Go back to Atlantic City
• ✔ Have business cards made up
• ✔ Plan a trip for after graduation

• I am feeding Starbucks at least 40% of my bi-weekly paychecks. This is money that could be spent on grad school application fees.
• They are high in calories and I don't want to put on weight for the sake of a drink
• I get addicted to them quickly, buying 2 or 3 of them in a day. No bueno for the bank account or for maintaining belly flatness.
• My doctor told me to avoid caffeine as much as possible.
• The sugar makes me break out and I like having clear skin.
• What will I do when the fall season ends?

Books

• Isabella (Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen)
• Jane (Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte)
• Cheshire Cat (Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll)
• Alaska (Looking For Alaska by John Green)
• Gemma (Gemma by Meg Tilly)
• Esther (The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath)
• Hermione Granger (Harry Potter)
• Emma (One Day)
• George (Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?)

Movies

• Cecilia Lisbon (The Virgin Suicides)
• Buffalo Bill (The Silence of the Lambs)
• Catherine (Cruel Intentions)
• Mia (Fish Tank)
• Clementine (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

• Take a dump wherever I stood
• Douse myself in perfume to cover the stench
• Pass out from my corset being to tight
• Have relocated intestines from said corset
• Speak in a British accent, no matter where I was from
• Rent out my hair to a village of mice
• Have wonderful, billowing breasts that peak out from the neckline of my dress
• Barely be five feet tall
• Live in a beautiful home with a salon, parlour, and dungeon

• "What kinda foolishness is this?!" - some guy on looking at what came out of the printer
• "No offense, but this is the most boring fucking relationship I've ever been in." - a guy talking to his girlfriend
• "If I get stuck in this elevator, it's a wrap!" - a guy on the elevator 5 minutes after an earthquake
• "You're funny and we appreciate it, but let us go!" - a girl to our sociology professor, trying to make him let us out of class early
• "Nah, the manager isn't here at the moment, but you're speaking to Mr. Silky Smooth himself!" - my manager, speaking to a customer on the phone
• "What the FUCK?! DAMN that's an old ass train!" - a guy running to catch the train...unaware that it was the polar express train for tourists

• Renew passport
• ✔ Get at least a 3.5 GPA
• ✔ Get involved in psych research
• ✔ Save $300
• Join 6-week pole dancing workshop
• Study for GRE

• It's become my replacement addiction, since I can't drink coffee anymore
• I can buy it at the Starbucks right next to my job and not be late for work in the mornings
  • Although Dunkin Donuts makes them just as delicious, at half the price!
• The pepper in the Chai gives it a zing
• The foamy milk is fun to drink
• It's warm in the winter
• And cold in the summer
• It tastes like Christmas
• There's just enough caffeine in it to wake me up, without being too much
• It's tea, so it's healthy
• I can buy it almost anywhere, since Stabucks is on every street corner and Barnes N Noble

• Fish Tank
• American Beauty
• Requiem for a Dream
• Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind
• Cinderella
• Alice In Wonderland (animated version)
• Lost Highway
• Taxi Driver
• Silence of the Lambs
• 500 Days of Summer
• A Streetcar Named Desire
• Black Swan
• The Godfather
• American Psycho
• Pulp Fiction
• Lost In Translation

• Drinking room temperature water that's acquired a metallic flavor.
• Realizing that you're slipping back into old patterns
• A room where the air is still. Uncirculating.
• Computer wires strewn across the floor.
• Fighting with the person you live with and retreating to your separate rooms.
• When it's midday, too late for hope and too early for bed.
• Abusing a song so as it just becomes noise.
• When your lung capacity feels slightly less than normal. You're on the brink of taking in that deep breath, but your lungs stop short.
• An empty mailbox
• Visiting the same websites over and over again, and nothing new has happened.
• Your stomach is satisfied, but you want t...

• Write essays for Microeconomics final
• ✔ Do Microeconomics homework
• ✔ Go to a museum
• ✔ Make up Spanish homework
• ✔ Visit family
• ✔ Create a video
• Submit my writing to magazines
• ✔ Work on Global Marketing project
• ✔ Apply for jobs
• ✔ Finish up Logistics project
• ✔ Read a book
• Have a margarita
• ✔ Get a manicure and pedicure
• Do extra credit for Philosophy
  • (didn't have enough time)
• Work on Import/Export Regulations project
• Sell some books on Cash4Books
  • (decided to wait until the semester is ov...

• Cheaper groceries
• Most of my friends are just a short walk away
• Relaxing subway rides (I'm probably one of the only people from the city who kind of enjoys the subway)
• Better chance of saving money
• I can have people over whenever I'd like
• More closet space
• Bigger bed
• More room to dance

• "California Dreaming" - Beach Boys
• "Watch Them Roll" - Sean Paul
• "Aerials" - System of a Down
• "Love etc" - Pet Shop Boys
• "Alone and Forsaken" - Social Distortion
• "Heal Me" - Fates Warning
• "I Need A Doctor" - Eminem, Dr. Dre, Skylar Grey

• Obsessing over guys
• Biting my nails when they're not polished
• Procrastinating
• Feeling inadequate
• Comparing myself to other people
• Living in fear
• Buying so many notebooks
• Doing laundry late at night when I'm exhausted
• Losing sight of who I am
• Drinking so much coffee
• Letting other people control my emotions
• Working myself to the ground, even when I'm sick
• Starting a book, then putting it aside to start another one
• Spending my paychecks without making a budget
• Daydreaming

• Augusta, Gone (Martha Tod Dudman)
• Why Men Marry Bitches (Sherry Argov)
• Hello Kitty Must Die (Angela S. Choi)
• The Virgin and the Gipsy (D.H. Lawrence)
• The Sabotage Cafe (Joshua Furst)
• Gemma (Meg Tilly)
• Cat on a Hot Tin Roof (Tennessee Williams)
• How Startbucks Saved My Life (Michael Gates Gill)
• The Virgin Suicides (Jeffrey Eugenides)
• The Buddha and the Borderline (Kiera Van Gelder)
• How It Ends (Laura Wiess)
• Angela's Ashes (Frank McCourt)
• Election (Tom Perrotta)
• Little Children (Tom Perrotta)
• Chasing Windmills (Catherine Ryan Hyde)
• My Sister's Keeper (Jodi Picoult)
• Patriotism (Yukio Mishima)

• You stop at a red light and it completely shuts down
• Your seat belt is so loose you could wrap it around your waist 3 times
• It’s a group effort to buckle your seat belt in the first place
• You shut the door and the entire car moves
• You have to punch the radio to get it to change stations
• The smoke makes an entrance before the car does
• Nobody farts, because the windows don’t open
• The bird shit on the window is older than you are
• You have to leave ten minutes early… just to give the engine a chance to start up
• You shut off the car and the radio is still blasting

• The Girl in the Flammable Skirt (Aimee Bender)
• The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
• Eclipse (Stephenie Meyer)
• The Last Lecture (Randy Pausch)
• Eat, Pray, Love (Elizabeth Gilbert)
• The Secret (Rhonda Byrne)
• Alice In Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)
• A Creative Companion (SARK)
• The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
• Why Men Love Bitches (Sherry Argov)
• Willful Creatures (Aimee Bender)
• Hairstyles of the Damned (Joe Meno)
• The Bell Jar (Sylvia Plath)

• Sleeping over my grandma's house and having a late night snack of apples dipped in applesauce
• Watching Riverdance on VHS and trying to imitate the moves
• Playing "Spice Girls" with my friends and arguing over who would be which Spice Girl
• Going on ski trips with my dad
• My obsession with Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen movies and books
• Going on a week-long vacation to Jamaica with my dad
• Eating popcorn and cheese for lunch every day in Mexico
• Watching Luz Claritas on TV in Spanish
• Watching the Korean channel on TV every night with dinner
• Getting ice cream from the Mr Softee truck after school
• Then switching to Good Humor because they...

• BUGS! Especially anything supersized with a million legs. (The better to attack you with, my dear!)
• Finding a roach crawling in my food...or any bug for that matter.
• Walking around alone in the dark. Especially now that I saw "Silence of the Lambs"
• Wide, bulging eyes that stare at me intensely
• Having the spit that's accumulated in the corners of someone's mouth fly off and land on me. Even worse if it lands in MY mouth!
• Smashed kneecaps
• Drinking sour milk. It happened once, it's not pretty.
• Crossing paths with a possum.
• Having a squirrel jump out of a tree and land on me.
• Walking in on someone who hanged themself...

• Scandals with socks
• Women who wear pencil skirt suits with sneakers
• Croc shoes
• Long denim skirts
• Sweatpants with the elastic at the bottom
• Orange tans
• People who follow every single trend all at once
• Harem pants
• High waisted underwear that makes your crotch look a mile long
• Wearing a million colors that don't compliment each other at all
• Mom jeans with a front butt
• Baggy skinny jeans
• The guys who wear the baggy pants belted around their balls
• Camel toe / moose knuckle
• Guys in belly shirts

• The Rocky Horror poster on my wall looks like a creepy monster face, in the dark
• Black shadows appear out of nowhere
• There are corners intruders can hide in without being seen
• Things fall for no reason
• Bugs that weren't there the night before are there by morning
• Meaning they're lurking at night
• They say you eat at least 7 spiders while sleeping in a lifetime
• And my house is no stranger to spiders
• Strange creaking sounds can be heard in the dead silence
• Everything is pitch black
• Yet moving shadows can still be seen through this complete darkness
• And everything living in the house is in bed by this point
• So what the fuck is moving?!

• Rammstein
• Novakill
• Metallica
• Led Zeppelin
• Skillet
• Marilyn Manson
• In This Moment
• Avenged Sevenfold
• System of a Down
• Flogging Molly
• Evanescence
• Within Temptation
• Mozart
• Belly dance music
• Beethoven

USA

• New York
• Florida (Tampa, Orlando, New Port Richey)
• Washington, D.C.
• Delaware
• Maryland (Baltimore)
• Hawaii (Maui)
• New Jersey
• Pennsylvania

International

• Jamaica
• Mexico
• France
• Spain
• Liechtenstein
• Germany
• Switzerland
• Austria

• Dad and co. have a home and enjoyable lifestyle here.
• I feel like I'm able to regain perspective and inner calmness when I visit
• Can buy books for dirt cheap prices at thrift shops and Books a Million
• I always leave with a tan
• Pretty beaches, lots of family-run businesses, and fewer people per square foot
• Much less crowded than back home
• I can walk leisurely down the street with a cup of coffee without feeling rushed or like I'm being knocked around

• Paranormal Activity: The Marked Ones
• Adventureland
• Prozac Nation
• The Interview
• Fifty Shades of Grey
• Big Hero 6
• Sorority Boys
• Furious 7
• Weird Science
• Walk of Shame
• Horrible Bosses
• Jurassic World
• Sex Drive
• Wild
• Scarface
• Spy
• Amadeus
• A Deadly Adoption
• Locke
• Minions
• Train Wreck

• Focus on earning money through real estate
• Open and market my Etsy shop
• Create new crafts
• Remember the "we" versus "you vs. me" mentality in my relationships
• Make videos for my YouTube channel
• Become more well-read by reading more books
• Become more knowledgeable by reading the news and listening to podcasts and programs

• Laptop
• NaNoWriMo.org account
• Story outline
• Flash Drive
• Coffee
• Healthy snacks
• Books on surrounding shelves for motivation
• Music
• Notebook (bring wherever I go)
• Pens and highlighters
• Water
• Blanket
• Comfy pajamas

• YouTube Channel
• ✔ BlogSpot Blog
• ✔ Etsy Shop - boxes & wallets
• NaNoWriMo
• Book/Writing Twitter

• "Watch Out" - Alex Gaudino
• "The Noise Inside My Head" - Assemblage 23
• "The Sensualist" - Marc Almond
• "Swagger Jagger" - Chery Lloyd
• "Fire In the Head" - The Tea Party
• "Thrown Away" - Vast
• "Over To You Now" - Britney Spears
• "Temple of Love" - Sisters of Mercy

• Friends with Benefits
• The Nanny Diaries
• Man of Steel
• Identity Thief
• The Room
• Ghostbusters
• The Safety of Objects
• The Wolf of Wall Street
• Revolutionary Road
• Little Manhattan
• Gone Girl
• Ferris Bueller's Day Off
• The Piano
• Mean Streets
• Bad Santa

• ✔ Bachelor's degree
• ✔ Real Estate Salesperson license
• Yoga Teacher certification
• EMT certification
• Driver's License
• CPR certification
• M.S.Ed
• MFA

• "Hurt" - Nine Inch Nails
• "Anybody Listening" - Queensryche
• "Say You Will" - Kanye West
• "Here In My Room" - Incubus
• "A World Apart" - Fates Warning
• "Falling Inside The Black" - Skillet
• "Post Blue" - Placebo
• "Here Without You" - 3 Doors Down
• "My Immortal" - Evanescence
• "Live To Tell" - Madonna
• "Love Song" - 311 (cover version)
• "It's a Fine Day" - Miss Jane
• "So Damn Beautiful" - Polaroid
• "Live With Me" - Massive Attack

• Alice in Wonderland (Lewis Carroll)
• The Virgin Suicides (Jeffrey Eugenides)
• Angela's Ashes (Frank McCourt)
• Girl With the Flammable Skirt (Aimee Bender)
• The Bell Jar (Sylvia Plath)
• Nineteen Minutes (Jodi Picoult)
• Looking For Alaska (John Green)
• Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
• One Day (David Nicholls)
• Long Hard Road Out of Hell (Marilyn Manson)
• Gemma (Meg Tilly)
• Gone Girl (Gillian Flynn)
• Fahrenheit 451 (Ray Bradbury)
• Sheila Levine is Dead and Living in New York (Gail Parent)

• Valentine's Day
• All The Real Girls
• Exploding Girl
• Heathers
• Bad Teacher
• Rosemary's Baby
• Love and Other Drugs
• Bridesmaids
• Gone
• Me and You and Everyone We Know
• Morning Glory
• My Best Friend's Girl
• Somersault
• The Art of Getting By
• Like Crazy
• American Psycho
• Blue Valentine
• Pulp Fiction
• Crazy/Beautiful
• Martha Marcy May Marlene
• White House Down

• Perception
• Forsenic and Experimental Psychology Research Seminar
• Counseling Psychology
• Classical Literature
• Math for Social Sciences (blech)
• Intro to Philosophy
• Peer Counseling practicum

• "Prepare for the Fight" - The Lovemakers
• "Brianstorm" - Arctic Monkeys
• "Baila Maria" - Alabina
• "Up and Down" - Britney Spears
• "Give A Little More" - Maroon 5
• "Hey Baby" - Pitbull and T-Pain
• "Good Feeling" - Flo Rida
• "Laid" - James
• "Living Dead Girl" - Rob Zombie
• "Love etc" - Pet Shop Boys
• "Somebody to Love Me" - Mark Ronson ft. Boy George
• "Someday Love Will Find You" - Journey
• "Touch the Sky" - Sean Paul
• "Breakout" - Sean Paul
• "A Matter of Trust" - Billy Joel
• "Is There Something I Should Know" - Duran Duran

• "Angel" by Massive Attack
• "Rev 22" by The Puscifier
• "Capricorn" by 30 Seconds to Mars
• "Cantara" by Dead Can Dance
• "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenfold
• "Hey Baby" by Pitbull and T. Pain
• "Sakrifice" by Novakill
• "Crookers" by Royal T and Roisin Murphy
• "Living Dead Girl" by Rob Zombie
• "Dragula" by Rob Zombie
• "I Dreamt of You" by Dulce Sky
• "Closer" by Kings of Leon

Pleasure

• Undiscovered Gyrl (Allison Burnett)
• Looking for Alaska (John Green)
• The Average American Male (Chad Kultgen)
• I Don't Care About Your Band (Julie Klausner)
• Wintergirls (Laurie Halse Anderson)
• Miles From Ordinary (Carol Lynch Williams)
• Unsweetined (Jodie Sweetin)
• No One Belongs Here More Than You (Miranda July)
• One Day (David Nicholls)

School

• Theories of Personality [text book, read it straight through]
• Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte [although I am enjoying it]
• Roxana by Daniel DeFoe [parts of it]

• "Brianstorm" - Arctic Monkeys
• "Bringing On The Heartbreak" - Def Leppard
• "Dancing In The Dark (Benzi and DStar Remix)" - Dev
• "Face Down" - Emigrate
• "Thursday" - Morphine
• "Cave" - Celebrity
• "Niemand" - Oomph
• Running Two - from Lola Rennt

Stop

• Getting lost in my thoughts
• ✔ Speaking in a sweet little voice at work
• Clamming up around hot guys
• ✔ Kicking myself, mentally, over stupid things
• ✔ Putting off homework until the last minute
• Making impulse purchases
• Assuming that every guy who approaches me is a weirdo

Start

• ✔ Asserting myself
• ✔ Smiling more
• Calling my friends back in a timely fashion
• Saving my money
• ✔ Socializing more
• Accepting more social invites
• Trusting people more

• My old best friend and her mom
• The girl who nobody liked
• That big smelly guy who really needs to wear deodorant (and somehow always ends up next to me or in front of me)
• That angry-looking man who talks loud on his cell phone and is always getting on at different stops
• A girl from my first college who recognized me from the halls
• An acquaintance from high school who I talk to on the bus more than I did in school
• A girl from high school who used to dress conservatively, have long brown hair, and stick to the people she was close to. Now she wears neon dresses, has bleach blonde hair, and talks to everyone she recognizes.
• A businessman with a smirk who reads Chuck Palahniuk

• "Let Me Move Like A Freak" - Alexandra Stan
• "E.T." - Katy Perry
• "Beggin" - Madcon
• "Perfect Symmetry" - Little Boots
• "Moon Theory" - Miami Horror
• "On The Floor" - Jennifer Lopez
• "Give Me Everything" - Pitbull
• "Kickstart" - JLS

[From first to most recent. Age when I saw them in parentheses]

• Britney Spears (9)
• Destiny's Child (9)
• Christina Aguilera (10)
• Cartel (17)
• Locksley (17)
• In This Moment (18, twice)
• Flogging Molly (18, 19 and 21)
• Combichrist (19)
• Rammstein (19)
• Il Nino (20)
• Marilyn Manson (23)

Winter

• Cozy nights snuggled under a blanket
• Hot chocolate
• It's darker earlier
• Boots and tights
• My birthday!
• Movie night weather
• Cuddling

Spring

• Goodbye, winter coat!
• Less clothing
• Walking is enjoyable again
• The promise of summer is in the horizon
• Outdoorsy plans with friends

Summer

• Beach time
• Long drives with the windows down
• No school, freedom!
• The days last forever

• "Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain
• "If you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner." - James Fray
• "Every woman is a rebel, and usually in wild revolt against herself." - Oscar Wilde
• "Somewhere, someone is looking for exactly what you have to offer." - Louise Hay
• "He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words." - Elbert Hubbard
• "Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." - Mahatma Gandhi
• "Life, what is it but a dream?" - Lewis Carroll (poem: A Boat)
• "In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugl...

• Huge windows overlooking the city
• My own personal library, organized in bookshelves
• A bar filled with champagne, whiskey, and beer
• A big, soft chair to sink into
• Dim lighting in the living room
• A pole in my bedroom
• Spaceous closets
• High ceilings
• A spare, empty room with mirrored walls for dancing

• "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenfold
• "Wish I Had An Angel" by Nightwish
• "Breakout" by Sean Paul
• "Extraordinary Girl" by Green Day
• "Blue Royale" by Combichrist
• "Haifisch" by Rammstein
• "Hold On" by All That Remains
• "The High Road" by Broken Bells

• The Big Lebowski
• Poison Ivy
• Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• Showgirls
• Beautiful Girls
• The Pick-Up Artist
• An Education
• Sleeping With The Enemy
• Beauty and the Briefcase
• The Hot Chick
• Black Swan
• The Life Before Her Eyes
• Just Go With It
• Chloe
• The Virgin Suicides
• The Babysitters
• Fish Tank
• White Oleander
• Triple Dog
• Freakonomics
• Modified

• Read 25 books
• ✔ Watch 25 movies
• ✔ Submit poems to magazines
• Create a budget and stick to it (only a few impulses allowed!)
• Save $500
• ✔ Laugh more
• ✔ Create a music video with my video camera
• Get away for a weekend
• Get my second tattoo
• Get my permit
• ✔ Transfer colleges
• ✔ Get a new job
• Take more pole dancing classes
• Write an article for my school's newspaper

• "Prepare for the Fight" - The Lovemakers
• "Comatose" - Skillet
• "Come Out and Play" - The Offspring
• "Demonizer" - Novakill
• "Mind Riot" - Soundgarden
• "Shake That Ass" - The Lovemakers
• "One More Night" - Amber
• "Jenny's Theme" - Folk Implosion
• "Big Long Now" - Nirvana
• "You're Unbelievable" - EMF

• The tapioca bubbles are fun to sip through the big, colorful straws
• Taro milk tea is delicious!
• Passion fruit is my second favorite
• It mixes well with a chocolatey crepe (which some bubble tea places also make)
• I used to think the bubbles were bugs, but I was proven wrong
• Some places put tons of bubbles in the tea
• It's fun to punch the straw through the vacuum lid
• It's relaxing to sip bubble tea while reading a good book
• Some places do sales promotion, such as "Buy 5 bubble teas, get 1 free"
• Bubble tea cafes are nice places to hang out in with friends
• It's fun to have contests with friends to see who can finish their bubbles first (or who can make theirs last the longest)

Girls

• Roxxy
• Bridgette
• Lindsey
• Simone
• Devon
• Adrienne
• Andromeda
• Jordan
• Sabina
• Maxazria
• Stefani

Boys

• James
• Adrien
• Isaiah
• Jesse
• Jeordie
• Gabriel
• Sascha

• Amy Lee
• Evan Rachel Wood
• Megan Fox
• Angelina Jolie
• Zooey Deschanel
• Gwen Stefani
• Amanda Seyfried
• Emma Watson
• Natalie Portman

• Cats (Zipper, Milo, Velcro)
• Dogs (Jack, Spike)
• Ferrets (Wieky, Zeb)
• Bird (I forgot its name)
• Druzilla the Fish
• Bloop the Fish
• Some spider I found on my wall and kept in a plastic container with little holes punched in the lid. One day the spider escaped, never to be seen again.
• Hermit crabs (Peanut butter, Jelly)
• Water frogs (Jumpy, Sticky)
• Celestial-Eyed Fish (Jimmy)
• Gold fish (Eric)

• Iced Coffee
• Fage yogurt with honey
• Maple Brown Sugar oatmeal
• Bubble tea
• Cold Stone's Birthday Cake Remix
• Applebee's appetizer tray
• Sushi
• Chicken nuggets
• Sizzler's salad bar
• Cream spinach
• Peas
• Pineapple
• Whips yogurt
• Fruit salad
• Pasta with extra cheese
• Hot chocolate
• Rice Crispie Treats
• Chai Tea Lattes

• Photographer
• Fashion / Costume designer
• Cello player
• Photojournalist who travels all over the world.
• The lady in charge
• Flight attendant
• Makeup artist
• Writer of many books
• Bartender by moonrise
• Forensic Psychologist

• #Girlboss (Sophia Amurosa)

• ✔ Book-related Instagram
• Open Etsy shop (boxes, notebooks, jars, duct tape wallets, greeting cards)
• YouTube Channel (possibly)
• ✔ Book and writing blog
• Write script for "Flashbacks" story
  • Illustrate or hire illustrator to draw the graphics
  • Bind and complete the story
  • Submit for publication?
• Compile poems for chapbook
• ✔ Write a one act play
• ✔ Make gigs on Fiverr

• ✔ Move out of my mother’s apartment
  • ✔ …and into my own home
• Set up my Etsy shop
  • Make a sale on Etsy
• ✔ Renew my passport
• ✔ Go on vacation
• Participate in NaNoWriMo
• ✔ Read 10+ books for pleasure
• ✔ Watch 15+ movies I haven’t seen before
• ✔ Sell unwanted items (eBay, flea markets, Buffalo exchange, Powell's, etc)
• ✔ Get a promotion and/or pay increase
• ✔ Go to a concert
• ✔ Get re-accepted to crafts entrepreneurship program
  • Attend and complete program
• Make smarter choices in relationships
• ✔ Get dental cleaning

• ✔ Buy bookcase
  • ✔ Assemble bookcase
  • ✔ Organize books in bookcase
• ✔ Create bookish Instagram
• Read the Harry Potter series
• Stop purchasing books at full price. Buy from Amazon, eBay, thrift shops.
• Rent BookTube recommendations from the library before buying them
• ✔ Get rid of unwanted, unused journals
• Write outline for a book
  • Work on writing said book
• Read 5+ classics by year's end
• Read all of Jane Austen's books
  • ✔ Northanger Abbey
• Create a Book Tube channel on YouTube
• ✔ Donate (more) unwanted books
• ✔ Create and work on Goodreads account

• Register for Yoga Teacher Training Class
• ✔ Go to Hawaii
• ✔ Take fall semester off from graduate school
• ✔ Go to Atlantic City
• ✔ Go to the beach
• ✔ Read 4 books
• Visit N.M. for fishbowls
• ✔ Go on a spontaneous adventure
• ✔ Dance, dance dance!
• ✔ Watch the sun set from the beach
• ✔ Create Flickr account for photography

• Katytastic
• polandbananasBOOKS
• Ariel Bissett
• justkissmyfrog
• padfootandprongs07
• Little Book Owl
• Novella Zoo
• readbyzoe
• climbthestacks

• A journal or diary
• Dream journal
• Gratitude journal
• Poems, written by myself or others
• Observations of people, places and things around me
• Record of recipes
• Copy for advertisements
• To-do lists
• A bucket list notebook
• Ideas for projects
• A novel, memoir or short stories
• Illustrations, doodles, drawings
• Confessions and secrets
• Record of accomplishments
• Book reviews and books to read (same for movies)
• Notes on topic of study (i.e. - research on different psychological theories)
• Drawing comic strips
• A travel journal

• Blankets (Craig Thompson)
• The Elements of Counseling (Scott Meier)
• Paper Towns (John Green)
• Sheila Levine is Dead and Living in New York (Gail Parent)
• Eleanor and Park (Rainbow Rowell)
• Gone Girl (Gillian Flynn)
• Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man (Steve Harvey)
• Fahrenheit 451 (Ray Bradbury)
• Shoplifter (Michael Cho)
• Bird by Bird (Anne Lamott)

• "Peculiar People" - Mutemath
• "Doctor Online" - Zeromancer
• "Doppelganger I Love You" - Zeromancer
• "The Night" - Disturbed
• "Bad Boy" - Cascada
• Rachmaninov's Piano Concierto 3
• "Criminal" - Disturbed
• "Cupola" - Zeromancer
• "Save the Last Dance For Me" - Michael Buble

• Portland, Oregon
• Seattle, Washington
• Dublin, Ireland
• Russian Tea Room
• Cipriani's NY on New Year's Eve
• Boston, Mass.
• Redlands, California
• Goa, India
• Virginia Beach
• Berlin, Germany
• Catskills
• Northern Lights
• A vast sky full of stars
• Red Light District, Amsterdam
• The Montauk diner in Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

• Drink green tea
• Write a story or poem or rant in my notebook
• Listen to music
• Snap a rubber band against my wrist
• Dig my nails into my skin
• Write "coffee is bad for you" on the front of my school books
• Remember that coffee = pimples and bumps, in my case
• Overanalyze my addiction for drinking coffee in Freudian terms (stuck in the oral stage).
• Do sun salutations, if the situation permits
• Do a one minute mindfulness exercise
• Squeeze a stress ball
• Keep a Dunkin Donuts cup and drink water, tea, etc. out of it instead of coffee

• Cringe (edited by Sarah Brown)
• Subwayland (Randy Kennedy)
• Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf? (Edward Albee)
• How to Tell If Your Cat Is Plotting to Kill You (Matthew Inman)
• Living Dead Girl (Elizabeth Scott)
• Outliers (Malcolm Gladwell)

• "Girl I Love You" by Massive Attack
• "Romantic Dreams" by Deftones
• "Move Shake Drop" by DJ Laz
• "My Own Summer" by Deftones
• "Is There Something I Should Know" by Duran Duran
• "Closer" by Kings of Leon
• "One In A Million" by Bosson
• "Touch the Sky" by Sean Paul
• "What Do You Want From Me" by Adam Lambert

• ✔ Take GRE [Oct 27]
• Take GRE Psychology subject test [register for Nov 10]
• ✔ Request 9 transcripts from previous undergrad school [$90]
• ✔ Request 8 transcripts from current undergrad school [$56]
• ✔ Personal Statements
• ✔ Professor recommendations
  • ✔ J
  • ✔ S
  • ✔ B
• ✔ Save up for application fees [$375]
• ✔ Finalize Curriculum Vitae
• ✔ Fill out financial aid forms
• ✔ Pay application fees
• ✔ Submit!

• Read 5+ books
  • Wintergirls (Laurie Halse Anderson)
  • Miles From Ordinary (Carol Lynch Williams)
  • Unsweetined (Jodie Sweetin)
  • No One Belongs Here More Than You (Miranda July)
• Take a hip hop dance class
• ✔ Successfully do a chopper inversion in pole class
• Go to the beach and/or the pool
• Take the GREs
• Write a draft of my personal statement for grad school
• E-mail professors for recommendations
  • ✔ J
  • S
  • B
  • W (?)

• "Freud's theory wasn't scientific...and he didn't give a shit."
• "Don't kiss my ass! My ass has been kissed so much it has psoriasis." - on suck ups
• "So God takes a shit on the church and destroys it." - summing up Jung's 'forbidden thought' in a nutshell
• "If you told Skinner he'd be in a theories of personality book, he'd roll over in his grave a hundred times. He'd look like a dynamo spinning round and round in his coffin."
• "You Asian kids, if you don't become doctors or mathematicians, your parents are lighting candles for the dead."
• "You think you're bored now? This is pornography compared to the next chapter!" - preparing us for the chapter on Eysenck and Cattell
• "You just wanna sit there and giggle like...

• Become a member of Psi Chi
• ✔ Take the GRE
• Apply to graduate schools
• Renew passport
• ✔ Take a pole dancing workshop
• ✔ Do yoga again during winter break
• Read 20+ books
• Cook/bake something
• Fill up my Eiffel Tower journal
• Study abroad during the summer (?)
• ✔ Get my books organized in my room
• Work in a bookstore again
• ✔ Maintain my 3.8+ GPA
• Get my name published in psych research
• ✔ Write a short story
• ✔ Mosh
• Get business cards made up
• ✔ Find a cafe/coffee shop with chamber-esque atmosphere
• ✔ Sell something I don't want anymore
• Get a 10-minute massage for $10

Research Methods of Psychology

• "Why aren't women fighting to participate in this study? Women should be like 'Hey, I wanna get violated too!' Wait, that didn't come out right." - on equality in research studies

History

• "They refused our kind offering of freedom...which we offered at gunpoint."
• "Habeus Copus. It's about Hay being a Corpus."
• "St. Petersburg is often called the Venice of the North. Although I don't think Venice has ever been called the St. Petersburg of the South."
• "You have to go interview hillbillies - excuse me, 'Peoples of the Soil."

Psych and Law

• "Think about it. Eating the body and bloo...

Songs that feel bittersweet.

• "Closing Time" - Semisonic
• "Hallelujah" - Rammstein
• "It's a Fine Day" - Miss Jane
• "What Have You Done" - Within Temptation
• "Baila Maria" - Alabina
• "Heaven" - DJ Sammy
• "Life Is A Lemon" - Meat Loaf
• "Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime" - Beck
• "Suite Sister Mary" - Queensryche
• "Haifisch" - Rammstein
• "A World Apart" - Fates Warning
• "California Dreaming" - Bobby Womack
• "Guilty" - Barbara Streisand and Barry Gibb

• Till Lindemann (Rammstein)
• James Hetfield
• Jeffrey Dean Morgan
• Gerard Butler
• Twiggy Ramirez
• Oscar Wilde
• Channing Tatum
• Johnny Depp
• Marlon Brando (circa A Streetcar Named Desire)
• Topher Grace
• Jason Segel

• ✔ Get a job
• ✔ Write in my diary several times a week
• ✔ Read at least 5 books
  • The Virgin Suicides (Jeffrey Eugenides)
  • The Buddha and the Borderline (Kiera Van Gelder)
  • How It Ends (Laura Wiess)
  • Angela's Ashes (Frank McCourt)
  • Election (Tom Perrotta)
  • Little Children (Tom Perrotta)
  • Chasing Windmills (Catherine Ryan Hyde)
  • My Sister's Keeper (Jodi Picoult)
• ✔ Take pictures of adventures
• Take a belly dancing class
• Take a pole dancing class
• ✔ Go to the beach
• Maintain a sense of inner peace
• Save up at least $300
• Apartment hunt, and plan to move out
• ✔ Buy a new planner

My Favorite Songs. Ever.

• "High Road" by Broken Bells
• "Bat Country" by Avenged Sevenfold
• "Hold On" by All That Remains
• "California Dreaming" by Beastie Boys
• "Hallelujah" by Rammstein
• "A World Apart" by Fates Warning
• "Suite Sister Mary" by Queensryche
• "Breakout" by Sean Paul
• "A Matter of Trust" by Billy Joel
• "What Have You Done" by Within Temptation
• "Endless Days and Nights" by In This Moment
• "Alone and Forsaken" by Social Distortion
• "Unforgettable" by Last Amanda
• "Jenny's Theme" by Folk Implosion
• "Prepare For The Fight" - The Lovemakers

• Sleeping in
• Drinking coffee out of a pretty mug
• Dancing to Sean Paul songs
• Taking off in an airplane
• Walking in the city at night
• Warm evenings
• Cuddling by a fireplace
• Getting positive feedback for my writing
• Looking through old pictures
• Speeding down the highway with my best friend
• Going on photography adventures
• Writing in my journal
• A cabinet full of different flavors of tea
• Discovering a new song and listening to it on repeat for hours
• That drunken blur when life feels infinite
• Being in a dark room with the dim glow of a burning candle

• Dunking Donuts right across the street, for my late night ice cream/coffee runs.
• A laundry room that's open 24/7
• Beautiful view of the city from my window
• No curfew, no rules, no need to answer to anyone but myself
• No mother around to throw my things out
• Using my windowsill as a bookshelf
• Peace and quiet
• Hummus and pita bread for dinner
• Being 5 minutes walking distance from school
• Being in the middle of all the fun
• Crying in peace. No questions asked.

• Pole dancing
• German
• How to make my own clothing
• Arabic
• Belly dancing
• How to study effectively
• To play the cello
• Sign language
• How to bake cookies
• Gymnastics

This is a reminder to myself that my life is filled with more adventure than I think.

• Been In Love
• Visited Germany
• Been drunk
• Got accepted to college
• Got my nose pierced
• Held a part-time job
• Met a celebrity
• Got my belly pierced
• Rode the Staten Island Ferry
• Went to the Village Parade on Halloween
• Saw Rammstein live (one of the best nights of my life)
• Got a psychic reading
• Sent a secret to Post Secret
• Started doing yoga
• Learned how to pole dance
• Sent a message in a bottle
• Started belly dancing classes

• ✔ Travel to Paris
• ✔ Get my nose pierced
• ✔ Be a published writer
• Study abroad
• ✔ Get my belly pierced
• Go on a road trip
• ✔ Go to a Rammstein concert
• ✔ Do yoga
• ✔ Write to a soldier at war
• Move out for good
• ✔ Keep a journal
• ✔ Write a letter on a dollar bill and then spend it
• ✔ Send a message in a bottle
• ✔ Play Fur Elise on the piano
• Learn German
• Do a split
• ✔ Travel to Germany
• ✔ Learn how to pole dance
• ✔ Have a collection of books
• Learn how to play the cello

• My drive to succeed at anything I put my mind to
• My fashion sense
• I am a bit eccentric. And I love it.
• I can take 21 credits, work almost 30 hours a week, take a dance class, succeed at all three, and still find time to pursue my own interests
• I am incredibly silly and fun to be around
• Yet I can also be serious when I need to be
• My spontaneity and sense of adventure
• My creative sense
• I am a very passionate person
• My keen perception and insight
• I am a caring and loyal friend
• I am proud of my writing skills and my ability to express emotion
• I love my passion for books
• My never ending desire to learn and explo...

• A brain surgeon
• Police woman
• Fire woman
• A backup dancer for Britney Spears
• The 6th Spice Girl
• The star of Riverdance
• In a Mary Kate and Ashley movie

• Shows up on time
• Calls when he says he will
• Chooses honesty over excuses and lies
• Has a sense of adventure
• Has a passion for something
• Is down to earth (NO arrogance or cockiness, thank you!)
• Likes to talk, but also appreciates silence every now and then
• Isn't into drugs or heavy drinking
• Has respect for women
• Is a bit of a family man
• Respects that I'm an independent person
• Enjoys cooking meals
• Is loyal to those he loves!
• Smiles and laughs often
• Gives big, warm hugs
• Appreciates my style
• Makes 3am ice cream runs with me
• Would enjoy spontaneously packing a bag and going away for the weekend with me

• My bed
• My dorm
• A hotel room in the city
• College library
• At my desk when I worked as a secretary
• At my desk in several classes
• On top of my toy box
• My grandma's bed
• My bed in my dad's old house
• A really big hotel in Heidelburg, Germany
• An even bigger hotel in Lucerne, Switzerland
• A tiny little attic-sized room with a crappy shower in Rothenburg, Germany
• A tour bus
• A cab
• Laying on my boyfriend's lap on the train
• On the floor of my living room
• My friend's living room floor

• "Alone with everybody" - Charles Bukowski
• "Get drunk" - Charles Baudelaire
• "Mad Girl's Love Song" - Sylvia Plath
• "A Boat" - Lewis Carroll
• "Love Me Not" - John Wilbye
• "Warning" - Jenny Joseph
• "Where We Belong, A Duet" - Maya Angelou
• "The Thirteens (White)" - Maya Angelou
• "One Inch Tall" - Shel Silverstein
• "Do Not Go Gently Into That Good Night" - Dylan Thomas
• "Friends Within the Darkness" - Charles Bukowski

• Mini rubber duck
• Irish duck sticker that says "Get lucky" inside a four-leaf clover
• Extensive list of things to do before I die
• List of 100 things I'm happy about
• Swiss army knife that I bought in Switzerland
• My own self-made first aid kit
• A plastic baggie of keepsakes
• A book of stamps, since I can never seem to find a stamp when I need one
• A change purse with a rock inside
• A plastic cyclopse that I got from the gumball machine

• Jeffree Star (met him at his tent at Warped Tour)
• Flogging Molly (met them before a show)
• John Cena (met him while he was doing an autograph signing)
• In This Moment (met them after a show)
• Rocky Horror Picture Show Transylvanians from the movie (met them at a Rocky Horror convention
• Queer Eye For The Straight Guy (Fab 5!) (they were filming in my neighborhood and I met them outside their van)
• Leighton Meester (passed her by on the street)
• Anne Hathaway (rang her up at my job)
• Edward Norton (rang him up at my job)
• Elizabeth Reaser (rang her up at my job.)
• Tori Spelling (met her when she did a signing at my job)
• Gabriel Macht (accidentally walked onto a film shoot and walked right in front of him)
• Sigourney Weaver (literally bumped into her in the street)
• Michael Caine (the cashier next to me rang him up at work)

• Pretty boxes and containers
• Feng Shui
• Iced Coffee
• Newspaper print
• Browsing bookstores for hours
• Dim lighting
• Poems
• Making lists
• People watching
• Thrift stores
• Wigs
• Hello Kitty
• Ornate journals
• Wearing lots of big metal rings and bands on every finger, with long polished nails
• Young Adult fiction
• Glittery nail polish