• a painfree way to engage with the romantic side of me
  • a reason to get excited
  • a way to experience intimacy
  • a way to indulge in fantasies
  • a way to make my mundane experiences exciting
  • i associate sex with unpleasant experiences
  • i see someone else as appealing so i can feel appealing
  • it allows me to hold onto my past
  • it doesn't interfere with the rest of my life
  • the fantasy feels much safer than the reality
  • wishful thinking about the life i could've been
jul 28 2017 ∞
aug 4 2017 +