- college friends told me that i'm not modern because i don't 'want to have sex like a man.'
- feeling like i have nothing to offer because im lousy in bed.
- female friends have left me alone because i wasn't 'fucking like them'
- getting what i want sexually is one long, arduous negociation that i lose
- i keep expecting sex to be like this ultra enlightening pseudo religious experience and it's like nah
- i often feel like i'm bad at sex, based on feedback
- i'd rather be doing other things, like sleep or getting my hair done instead of sex, and i feel bad about that.
- my first serious crush (i was around 14) publically stated he was rejecting me because i wasn't white and i didn't put out.
- previous people who i've had sexual contact with later on told me that they felt a great amount of shame, embarrassment and pity over the contact-- that if it wasn't me, it would've been a positive experience.
- they often bring up first, bc they can't know me without knowing i'm sexually available.
jul 13 2017 ∞
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