• jan.
• 06/01 : industry – s01
• 07/01 : school trip ♥
• 13/01 : girls – s06
• 16/01 : reset

bold = utt

• (&team) — nicholas, yudai, harua
• (ateez) — wooyoung, seonghwa
• (bonedo) — riwoo
• (cix) — hyunsuk
• (nct) — xiaojun, taeyong, chenle
• (onf) — e-tion
• (ooo) — junji
• (svt) — hoshi, lee chan
• (tan) — jaejun
• (xdh) — jungsu
• (zb1) — gunwook, ricky
• cho seungyoun (woodz)

• watching
  • many bls…
• reading
  • extravagant abjection by darieck scott
  • les damnés de la terre by frantz fanon
• listening
  • white devil, black metal by leviathan

• jan.
• 12/01 : euphoria, alpha drive one
• 14/01 : wishlist, nct wish
• 16/01 : the sin : vanish, enhypen
• 16/01 : xiu mutha fuckin’ xiu: vol. 1, xiu xiu
• 19/01 : reverxe, exo
• 23/01 : the core, xg
• 30/01 : i used to go to this bar, joyce manor
  • feb.
• 06/02 : liturgy of death, mayhem
• 13/02 : wuthering heights, charli xcx
• 27/02 : highway to heavenly, heavenly
• 27/02 : marathon, maria bc
  • mar.
• ??/03 : mácula, clau aniz
• 13/03 : play me, kim gordon
• 20/03 : bts

• ἀλήθεια or alētheia. truth, reality.
• ἀνάκλισις or anáklisis. ‘to lean on’. of, relating to, or characterized by strong emotional dependence on another person, exemplified by the behaviour of an infant at the mother’s breast; choice of an object of libidinal attachment on the basis of a resemblance to early childhood protective and parental figures.
• anodyne. not likely to provoke dissent or offense; inoffensive, often deliberately so. a painkilling drug or medicine.
• ἀφάνισις or aphánisis. disappearance (of sexual desire); the fear of losing whatever it is that makes life ‘life’.
• atavistic. relating to or characterized by reversion to something ancient or ancestral.
• bildung. cultivation, refinement, education, culture; formation, creation.
• catachresis. a misuse of a word; an application of a term to something which it does not prope...

• japanese indie 90s
• 80s video store horror
• avant-garde underground
• nu metal horror
• the chaos is female
• ghosts of japan
• afropessimist cinema
• a canon of slow cinema

anti-blackness, black feminism, afro-pessimism

• daniel c. barber, nonrelation and metarelation
• patrice d. douglass, whither the queer history of slavery?
• saidiya hartman, venus in two acts
• zakiyyah i. jackson, losing manhood: animality and plasticity in the (neo)slave narrative
• axelle karera, blackness and the pitfalls of anthropocene ethics
• david s. marriott, on racial fetishism
• david s. marriott, on revolutionary suicide
• david s. marriott, the crisis of truth
• tyrone s. palmer, otherwise than blackness: feeling, world, sublimation
• jared sexton, people-of-color-blindness: notes on the afterlife of slavery
• jared sexton, afro-pessimism: the unclear word
• jared sexton, affirmation in the dark: racial slavery and philosophical pessimism