self-indulgent and self-referential.

• good morning, show me the place where he inserted the blade / or praise the lord, burn my house / i get lost, i freak out / you come home and hold me tight / as if it never happened at all / where is your light? am i home? / i will try not to keep you too long
• i feel soon / i will sink into you / there's still blood in your hair / i've got the bruise of the year / you have weak wrists, but i'll keep you
• my baby never fret none / about what my hands and my body done / when my time comes around / lay me gently in the cold dark earth / no grave could hold my body down / i'll crawl home to her
• i draw a line in my life / singing this is the new way i behave now / telling you things you don't need to know / letting you know i trust you so much / i draw a line in my skin / i'm pinning down inchoate meaning / do i double down because i'm stubborn?
• i always wondered why it takes / 15 stitches and a soft parody / to make my eyes be like deceit / believe the sting proves heart to me / you'll sleep for hours to keep away / then sink the teeth and bat your eyes
• if i get too close, and i'm not how you hoped / forgive my northern attitude, i was raised on little light
• i've been playing dead my whole life / and i get this feeling whenever i feel good / it'll be the last time
• i love a good place to hide in plain sight / i swear i'm not angry, that's just my face / a copycat killer with a chemical cut / either i'm careless or i wanna get caught / i can't open my mouth and forget how to talk / even if i could, wouldn't know where to start / wouldn't know when to stop
• what i wouldn't give to be in church this sunday / listening to the choir, so heartfelt, all singing / god loves you, but not enough to save you / so good luck taking care of yourself / and i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines / and god i've tried, but i think it's about time i put a fight
• whatever's wrong with me / i will take it to bed / i give in so easy / it has always been this way / in the morning, i will mar myself again / shame is sharp, and my skin gives so easy / only god knows, only god would believe / that i was an angel, but they made me leave
• i'll lay on the floor / touch me til i vomit / i'm not scared of god, i'm scared he was gone all along
• don't feel bad for the suicidal cats, gotta kill themselves nine times before they get right / hell yes, i'm a nervous wreck / hell yes, the drugs just make me reset / knock once for the father, twice for the son, three times for the holy ghost / your eyes are blocking my starlight / i'm the last of my kind, and that's all that should matter to you
• you sit there and sulk, sit there and bawl / you're so pretty when you're on your knees / god rest your soul, when the loving comes, and we're already gone / just like your dad, you'll never change / each times it comes, it eats me alive / i try to behave, but it eats me alive
• say what you want, but say it like you mean it with your fists for once / head full of whiskey but i always deliver, jesus, if you're listening, let me handle my liquor / i do it for my daddy and i do it for dale, i do what i want and, damn, i'm doing it well for me
• you said you like the bags under my eyes / only feel a thing when you're dragging with the knife / guess i miss you, though / hands 'round my neck, heavenly unfold / you're rotting on the inside / looking in the mirror, gazing back with vacant eyes / wounds weeping, bruised, you think you feel alive?
• jesus christ, that's a pretty face / the kind you'd find on someone that could save / jesus christ, i'm not scared to die / i'm a little bit scared of what comes after / i know you're coming in the night like a thief / but i've had some time alone to hone my lying technique
• have you ever wanted to disappear? / i'm stray dog sick / give me a pen, but don't let the doctor in, i want to blow off steam / you know me, i like being all alone, and keeping you all alone / and my ego's in a sling
• you may feel no purpose nor a point for existing / it's all just conjecture and gloom / and there may not be meaning, so find one and seize it / do not waste yourself on this roof / feel your breath course frankly below / and see life as a worthy opponent / today, of all days, see / how the most dangerous thing is to love / how you will heal and you'll rise above
• i'm becoming less defined as days go by / fading away / and well, you might say / i'm losing focus / kind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how i see myself / sometimes i think i can see right through myself
• never give you my feelings / fuck with you from a distance / some put it on the devil when they fall short / i put it on my ego, lord of all lords / i love when you count me out / my name is in your mouth
• tripping eyes and flooded lungs / northern downpour sends its love
• i sat in the quiet imagining you heard the same sound despite how loud your mind always was / collapsing into your scent like the moments you'd come in late / with the night's chill still clinging to the leather jacket she used to latch onto / like one day she might not be able to feel you beneath it / the thing is, there's no bridge for bypassing crucifixion
• see, the sea wants to take me / the knife wants to slit me / do you think you can help me?
• scumbag fuck, but i swear that he's not / he's so good to me and to nobody else / so you should watch yourself
• tapping out / in my head i see bright lights / taking hits for you / because i want to feel like i'm supposed to / and i'll break for you, baby / because you make it feel so good
• make your heart stop if i give you too much attention
• she turns me on / she makes me real / i have to apologize for the way i feel / peel off our skin, we're gonna burn what we were to the ground / fuck in the fire and we'll spread all the ashes around / i wanna kill away the rest of what's left, and i do
• lay your hand across my face / time we lost, that's all my fault / please don't be long, because i want your love / life is too short, but i will live for you, my selfless love