• I look awesome. That's not me being conceited, it's just fact.
• I'll try to be the Clapton Davis of school this year
• That will never happen
• I'll have way more fun being the Riley Jones of my school anyways. You know, like I always do. It's fun being a pistol that no one pays any mind to, and that's not even sarcasm.
• I hope my new backpack comes in on Monday, because schools starts on Tuesday...
• I should finish my written portion of the summer reading assignment tomorrow
• I'm glad they actually switched me to Fish instead of Adams, though I will be sad that I don't have a class with Hannah
• I'm going to be so lost in this new school. But hey, so will everyone else.
• I'm mad, they probably won't give me a parking pass this year.

• In Myrtle Beach, under a dock while sitting with some guy on a skim board.
• At the movies (the movie "Red" to be exact), with Hannah sitting right next to me..though I was oblivious and couldn't care less about how awkward that must have been for her at the time.
• In the hallway of the top floor of the Hilton in Destin, Florida. We weren't even staying on that floor. We just stopped there, for whatever reason.
• Let's not go there.
• In my driveway, the night before leaving for the beach.

• my voice. it's too deep for a female's.
• my social anxiety
• my past
• my hotheadedness
• my ability to seem really snobby
• my lack of drive in school
• my constant want for change
• how hard I find it to be to find things to put on this list. I should really have a lot more things to say than I do.
• my inability to make my mom happy and proud
• how I don't know how to express my anger once to I get to a certain point, so I get violent
• how I rant too much
• how no matter how much I tell myself that I'm really skinny and no matter how much I actually believe it, there's always the thought in the back of my mind that I should start working out 24/7 again.

• SHANNYN SOSSAMON
• Emma Watson
• Helena Bonham Carter
• Shanley Caswell
• Mila Kunis
• Emma Stone
• Dakota Fanning
• Anne Hathaway
• Marilyn Monroe
• Rachael Taylor
• Emilie De Raven
• Carey Mulligan
• Miranda Kerr
• Malin Akerman
• Isla Fisher
• Dia Frampton
• Elizabeth Gillies
• Gwen Stefani

• that one semi-formal party that I went to with the boyfriend I had for the longest time. We looked spiffy, I must say.
• Running home right before curfew and giggling hysterically with the boyfriend I had that lived down the street
• making music together
• hanging out in the sound room
• sitting by the water at the lake and admiring the scenery
• taking pictures in photobooths
• going and looking at all his grandparent's old stuff in their storage bulding, sitting on the antique motorcycles, and wearing the leather jackets and helmets
• watching childrens movies together
• going on walks around Westchester
• going to the pool and trying to teach me to swim
• ice skating and walking around downtown Greenville with Hannah and Gage

• replace this text with your list
• begin each item with an asterisk

Before I make this list, I want to clarify that I'm a virgin. Okay. They're just sexy songs, you could say.

• "Pull On My Hair" - Bright Eyes
• "Lover I Don't Have to Love" - Bright Eyes
• "Twist" - I am Kloot
• "Shaking" - Sugarcult
• "Do It Again" - Stroke 9
• "Hunger for the Great Light" - Dave Matthews Band
• "Caress Me Down" - Sublime
• "Polite Dance Song" - The Bird and the Bee
• "Erotic Love" - Cam
• "Afternoon Delight" - Starland Vocal Band
• "Let's Get It On" - Marvin Gaye
• "Candy Licker" - Marvin Sease
• any filthy dubstep song
• "So Right" - Dave Matthews Band

• that girl who decided there would be some decency in making a comment about my family's past of alcohol and suicide attempts on the internet
• that guy who used me for 2 years, used to hit me, destroyed my confidence and trust, made me believe that I couldn't make it without him, told everyone in his grade that we had sex (false), also told everyone in his grade that I was a psycho whore who cheated on him (also false), then sent me down a 3 month downwards spiral of depression
• that other guy who left me for another girl, only to beg me for nudes a year and a half later
• that OTHER guy who told people all over Ohio that he had sex with me, even though he didn't
• that girl at school who called me fat for reasons unknown

• "Ruthless"- Something Corporate
• "Rescued" - Jack's Mannequin, if you're reasonable and sad about it.
• "The Way (Pretty Girl)- Sugarcult
• "The Brillian Dance" - Dashboard Confessional
• "Stay or Leave"- Dave Matthews Band
• "Daniel"- Dia Frampton
• "Bored of Your Love"- Meg & Dia
• "Breakin Up"- G. Love
• "7 Things"- Miley Cyrus, JUDGE ME AND I'LL KILL YOU.
• "Ur So Gay"- Katy Perry. Again, I WILL kill you.
• Most things by Taking Back Sunday

• Dailygrace
• Mattg124
• livelavalive, but only on the videos where he has Kyle with him. Otherwise, not so much.
• Deefizzy. He's just adorable.
• Communitychannel
• swiftkaratechop
• epicmealtime, because I'm a douche.
• lazypillow
• marblehornets
• doki66

• let him take me on that fancy date
• get all dolled up for that date
• make fun of everyone else in the restaurant on that date, as he said.
• tailgate with my family
• let him take me to the Clemson-Georgia Tech game, even if I'm not that big of a sports fan.
• Go to downtown greenville, maybe
• let him kiss me, probably
• play him a song or two on guitar
• try my hardest not to get too attached
• open my birthday present from him
• remember to act super happy and surprised about the present
• thank him for the present, a lot
• take lots and lots and lots and lots of pictures with him and of him, yeah!
• dance with him so he doesn't throw a hissy fit
• let him see our tiny, back water town.

• you taught me everything that I am today. About independence, originality, respect, making your own decisions about religion, being a complete jerk to everyone, charm and charisma, fighting, music, all of that. I sometimes question how proud of me you actually are, but you always manage to buddy up with me anyways.
• you are basically the same person as me, but not at all. We act exactly the same, that is. I have a little bit more respect for "weird" people than you do. And I'm a little bit more "psycho" than you are, as you like to put it. And I'm a little more laid back, you're a little more driven. You're a little bit more of the general definition of pretty, I'm a little more musically inclined and quirky. I could go on and on, but it all adds up. It doesn't matter. You're still my sister. I still see the strange, hyper active version o...

• JOSH HUTCHERSON
• Jim Sturgess
• James Van Der Beek
• Nicholas Hoult
• Jake Gyllenhaal, but only in the "Donnie Darko" years
• Bo Burnham
• Christian Bale, BUT ONLY AT PATRICK BATEMAN. I'm starting to realize that I have a pattern. I keep naming attractive men, and then saying that I only like them when they play an insane character.
• Charlie Day
• Paul Rudd
• Mark Wahlberg
• Norman Reedus, for sure.
• Tom Delonge
• Sam Huntington
• Brad Pitt, BUT ONLY IN "FIGHT CLUB".
• John O'Callaghan
• Gregory Peck

• naked women
• dinosaurs (that fear still remains)
• Hubba Hubba the hobo
• drowning (still remaining)
• my aunt
• scary movies
• scary Halloween costumes
• large animatronic creatures (again, still remaining)
• when my dad put a hotdog weenie up to his bellybutton

• how you never cared what others thought
• your chinese voice
• how you talked to much whenever you said goodnight
• your dancing
• your ability to convince me to dance with you
• your love of buying me things, no matter how much I refused to let you
• your lady getter hat
• your cop stories
• your inability to tell that I liked you
• our conversations about paranormal experiences, scary movies, and haunted houses
• your stupid Texan lingo: "that's wuts uuuup", "just kickin' it.", "that's what I'M saying.", "I'll kill you.", "I feel you", "EXACTLY!", "I understand!". All of these things were said way too much, but I somehow loved them.
• Our discussions about how weird our frien...

• my taste in music
• the way I dressed in my skateboarding phase
• the way I dress now
• being too deep and serious for my own good
• hanging out with special ed kids
• choosing not to drink anymore
• being obsessed with films and literature
• referring to people as "cats"
• saying "you've got to love the way another cat swings"
• playing too many video games
• being on the internet too much
• getting extremely angry
• being rude to people
• falling, several times
• my voice and accent
• the mole at the top of my head
• having used to of thought that babies came out of your butthole

• Tigger
• Clemson football player
• dinosaur
• cowgirl
• Freddy Krueger
• vampire
• Puss In Boots
• Scooby Doo
• Rat
• Goth
• witch

• "Fox and the Hound"
• "Oliver and Company"
• "One Day"
• "The Lovely Bones"
• the trailer for the new Gatsby, but that's another story.
• "My Sister's Keeper", but that was only once. Normally, that wouldn't even make me cry. Took me 6 tries to cry at that movie.

• I was a ridiculous little gymnast for 7 years
• Been playing guitar for 6 years (current)
• singing (current)
• writing (current)
• I played tennis for a while
• I played golf and hated it, but loved having something to do with my dad that made him proud of me
• skateboarding, back in 4th and 5th grade
• film making (current)
• kickboxing (current
• I bike some

• Parker It's funny because I have no idea why I dated this guy. He's a meat head, and he always have been. And my motto was always that friends don't friends date Pickens boys. That went down the drain, now didn't it? He was my cousin's buddy. He broke up with me over text after 2 weeks, needless to say. For an older girl who he had no chance with. Three years have passed, and the kid is still trying to get me back. I just think it's fun to lead him on.
• Josh: This guy, oh. THIS GUY. He broke up with me twice. The first because he thought I was cheating on him, which I wasn't. Kid was psycho. Not saying that I'm not, but he's psycho in a way that just bothers me. He cried to much, but yet..he was mean as a snake. He broke up with me the second time..because...well, he thought I was cheating on him again. Which, I had...

• Grey Street- dmb, literally describes me perfectly. this song IS me..in lyrics.
• Swim- Jack's Mannequin, got me through depression
• Pretty Girl (The Way)- Sugarcult, been in THAT TYPE of relationship with THAT TYPE of guy.
• Ruthless- Something Corporate, really anyone who has been through a bad break up after a real love can connect to this song.
• Hurt- Johnny Cash, describes how I view myself half of the time.
• Heaven Here- Dashboard Confessional, unknown.
• Nothingman- Pearl Jam
• Crack the Shutters- Pearl Jam, unknown
• Baby Come On- +44, always reminds me of my past.
• Hammers and Strings- Jack's Mannequin
• Rescued- Jack's Mannequin, reminds me of ...

• a catty ginger who has the ability to make anyone feel like a piece of crap, whether it be with her raging glares or her tall and skinny figure that pisses people off.
• A cute, sociopathic Texan who has ridiculous talent in all sports, has a scarily good Chinese impersonation, and who is almost too good at talking crap to people.
• A rich girl who can probably hack anyone's account on any website and who could ruin someone's life with one little click on the internet. Also talented in buying too much soap, getting herself into trouble, playing video games, and scooping ice cream.
• A strange little buggar who could tell you every line of every "Doctor Who" episode, educate you extremely well on Greek mythology or time travel, or annoy the everliving piss out of you. Depends on how he...

• fripp trip one- my whole family stayed in the same house, I watched Will pick up 8 girls in one night, my dad twisted Clark into a human pretzel and made his mouth touch his anus, Carley almost murdered Todd, Carley ran away, and we got eaten alive by sand fleas.
• myrtle beach with Brittany- I began my ongoing game of getting guys at the beach, Philip and I became best buddies, I met some guy who was skimboarding, I kissed that guy under the dock which happened to be my first kiss. okay.
• fripp trip two- annabelle and cameron came, we saw people partying and scrumping through a window, Will got pulled over for having too many people on his golf cart, I got sunburned for basically the first time in my life.
• Destin with Hannah- Hannah got fried, I got black, games with Philip and Kaycee ev...

• "The Ballad of Ricky Bobby"
• "I love You Man"
• "21 Jump Street"
• "Step Brothers"
• "Old School"
• "Easy A" because you don't see very many good comedies with a female lead. Because girls suck at being funny.
• "Not Another Teen Movie"
• "Anchorman"
• "Scott Pilgrim vs. the World"
• "Knocked Up"
• "Pineapple Express"
• "Hall Pass"
• "Horrible Bosses"

• I'm a pistol. Very hotheaded. Shouldn't be , but can you do.
• My past.. isn't something that I like to talk about. And I figure that it makes me who I am today, and I don't like that.
• I'm all about having respect towards mostly everyone.
• The words "retard" and "retarded" make me extremely uncomfortable.
• I'm very serious and I can think very deeply about things, if given the chance to show it. People at school mostly only see the comical side of me. It isn't a fake side of me, it just isn't all of me.
• I'm too confident. I have a problem with telling myself that I'm better looking than I actually am.
• Regardless of what I see of myself on the outside, I don't see myself as a beautiful person on the inside.
• I'm reminded of my mistakes everyday, and...

• woke up to my mom angrily asking me if I could be pregnant
• sat in bed for a while to annoy my mom
• ate a chicken biscuit that had been heated for too long in the microwave
• sat down in a chair
• fell asleep in that chair
• lied to my mom about falling asleep in the chair
• helped mom bring groceries in
• got on tumblr for too long
• got on instagram for too long
• got on facebook for too long
• got on tumblr for too long, once more
• started water to wash my hair in
• got a phone call from my grandma while I was washing my hair
• felt guilty for ignoring that phone call and for never returning it
• tried to read
• got distracted by my ipod

• I think I'm a sociopath
• narrating what I'm doing
• One day... one day
• Poop
• there's always the thought at the back of my head...and it's just an image of myself sitting in a chair, blankly staring into space.
• I'm tired of people reminding me about my mistakes every day
• I really like how my love life is here lately. I like having a guy who I don't have to see often, who doesn't complicate everything by putting a label on us. I like being able to go out and be single, but still have this guy who is there for me and who is staying single for me. The excitement of really really liking someone, but not having to try and love them.
• I bet this school year will be different
• I bet this school year will be the same a...

• sarcastic, rude sense of humor
• doesn't get offended easily
• ability to take me talking crap to them, and the ability to dish crap right back to me.
• respect towards "weird" people
• love for disabled people
• a beard is always nice
• a love for flannel is also nice, but you can't have everything.
• wit
• good taste in music and films
• isn't afraid of what people think of them
• tends to do pointless things, for the fun of it
• shares the sociopathic trait with me
• doesn't hate puppies. BECAUSE WHO HATES PUPPIES? demons. demons hate puppies.
• ability to be boyishly cute
• ability to turn into a devilishly allurin...

• "Rules of Attraction"- all of Sean Bateman's sex scenes where he gets the very evil look on his face. you know what I'm talking about.
• "21"- freaking Kate Bosworth offering Jim Sturgess a lap dance.
• "Skins"- Nicholas Hoult and Janet Montgomery
• "40 Days and 40 Nights"- something about Shannyn Sossamon and flower petals, I don't know.
• "Love and Other Drugs"- that first love scene.
• "Fight Club"- when he starts having his so-called dreams about Helena Bonham Carter
• "The Messengers 2"- Norman Reedus somewhat raping his wife? I shouldn't even put that on this list, but hey.
• "Detention"- Josh Hutcherson making out with Spencer Locke, shut up.

• Keaton, but that's just. okay.
• Josh Hutcherson, but who wouldn't?
• That guy who plays Tony on Skins
• Helena Bonham Carter, and I have no earthly idea as to why.
• John O'Callaghan
• Norman Reedus
• James Van Der Beek, but only in character of Sean Bateman
• Jim Sturgess
• A lumberjack
• Sam Huntington