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- must consciously avoid mirrors and reflecting surfaces, as I am physically repulsed by my appearance and posture.
- absence of motivation for anything.
- mother and father are too preoccupied with work and my siblings to concern themselves with my petty - but mentally painful - anguish.
- deteriorating relationship with friends; my feelings are constantly overlooked and ridiculed vociferously.
- obsessive urges to rearrange my work space and room.
- performing poorly at school; can't substitute my lack of intellect with a proficiency in arts or sports, either.
- inability to sleep at night due to despairing thoughts.
- my hypersensitivity to social interaction, and my pitiful efforts to interact with new people.
- sighting my corpulent physique and flat breasts whilst bathing; leaves a feeling of eternal inferiority.
- all achievements are overlooked by previous failures.
- beliefs of perpetual unhappiness which loom over me like a shadow, and remain there for days.
feb 18 2014 ∞
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