• pink and/or orange common garden peonies
• wisteria trees
• forget-me-nots
• lily-of-the-valley
• snowdrops
• waterlilies
• lilac lilacs
• persian buttercups
• plumeria

• afterpeople
• arcadia
• attention goodshop customers
• blizzard in vermont
• candle cove
• killswitch
• leon czolgosz
• minor corrections
• mysterious amateur hallway
• ruby quest (not really a creepypasta, but one of the few bits of fiction that has succeeded in actually creeping me out.)
• stalking ancestor
• stranger danger
• the disappearance of ashley, kansas
• the houseboat
• the tape/the woman in the oven
• x-ray glasses

• beeswax
• buddy
• bumblebee
• cherry
• cottage
• dearest
• doodlebug
• flicker
• forests
• fresh
• friend (when used as an addressing word, like 'dude', 'bro', 'dear')
• frolic
• gamboling
• gently
• hi
• home
• honey
• jimmies (instead of 'sprinkles')
• loaf (as in bread, rather than the verb)
• nifty

• relax in the bathtub with a bath bomb and/or bubblebath.
  • if that's not appealing enough, take a long, super-hot shower. use nice-smelling and moisturising bodywash.
• watch one of your sillier or self-indulgent movies.
• bake cookies.
  • eat some while they're warm.
• put on your ipod and take a walk. (ideally in the early morning, with hoodie weather.)
  • play zombies, run! if you need to expel some energy.
• light some candles.
• draw, but with coloured pencils or crayons.
• organise or re-organise something. (your ...

(outdated 30 yo me reflections, over a decade on)

• get my driver's license
• and a job, before school
• see les mis on broadway-
• chop all my hair off
• have non-commissioned fanart created for the railverse (2023 eta: lmfao)
• eat at voodoo doughnuts
• get some friendship/hemp bracelets and wear them 24/7
• see a show on broadway-
  • (i'm going to see newsies and droog in march!!)
• go urban exploring with a few friends and a camera
• take a lengthy roadtrip
• do more things for the needy (collect/make food for the hungry, donate to more charities, donate books and/or toys to shelt...

• absently
• adoration
• adorn
• adventuresome
• albeit
• alcove
• amaranth
• amidst
• anachronism
• apothecary
• apt
• archaic
• assemblage
• assuage
• asunder
• aubergine
• banter
• beastly
• befuddle
• beguile
• behemoth

• first edition copy of peter and wendy from 1911, purchased with two quarters
• my stuffed orca whale
• a brown-spotted conch shell
• tiny wood box with coins from the 'tooth faerie'
• prepare the preparations insert signed by ludo
• handmade hoodie for the amanda palmer concert signed by ms. afp and mr. steven themselves
• a photoalbum compiled as a child
• my bottle of feathers
• yellow duck umbrella from chinatown (nyc)
• smiles from strangers
• yellow submarine merch from christmas one year
• tickets from concerts
  • the movie ticket for the first harry pott...

• dead butterflies on the ground
• bitter wind in the dark
• alone in wide open spaces at night
• heartache endings
• keys without a lock
• too many feathers scattered on the ground (dead birds)
• wilting flowers in vases
• old books with ripped pages
• red noses and eyes after crying
• that moment of realisation after waking up from a beautiful dream
• stuck piano keys
• overwhelming loneliness late into the night
• broken pocketwatches
• family i've never met, young and smiling, in black and white photographs
• reaching the end of a particularly good series
• rotting pumpkins after halloween

• fog in the early morning
• thunderstorms
• grey skies heavy with the promise of rain
• special songs
• good books
• exquisite cottages
• new sketchbooks
• fresh art supplies
• getting lost with friends
• letters
• skulls
• moonlight
• clear skies during the night
• contentedness
• moss between toes
• raindrops on a tin roof
• finding feathers
• hugs
• bruises
• baking while home alone

• defunctland: disney channel's theme: a history myster...
• jacob geller: the decade-long quest for shadow of colo...
• many a true nerd: fallout 3 is better than you think
• hbomberguy: vaccines and autism: a measured response..., speedrunning is awesome, and here's why, outsiders: how to adapt h.p. lovecraft i..., roblox_oof.mp3, halcyon dreams: the legacy of dragon's l...
• jenny nicholson: the last bronycon: a fandom autopsy, where's buzzy? the great animatronic cap...
• power pak: myhouse.wad - inside doom's most terrify...

• loud and/or wet chewing sounds
• finger licking
• repetitive tongue clicking while talking
• silverware against ceramic or glass dishes
• leaky faucets
• repetitive sniffling or throat clearing
• the buzzing sound that occurs when somebody's listening to indistinguishable audio in another room
• tree branches scraping against a window
• nail clipping
• powder crunching against itself (like baking soda crumbles)
• like at least 70% of every asmr video

• the tag i use for poetry on tumblr is 'delicious words'
  • (i use that since i want to take those words and swallow them whole, cradle them in my gut so that every time i breathe i can feel them move.)

(i dislike myself so profoundly that i figure i may as well make this, so i can look at it when questions like 'what do you like about yourself?' make me pause.)

• i find the colour of my eyes to be pretty (hazel, a ring of brown around the pupil with the rest a dusty green colour).
• i think my freckles are cute.
• i'm fairly intelligent; i read harry potter in first grade, took a few college classes while in high school, have an above-average iq, and got a 1990 the first time i took my sats, while only attending school online and not taking any preparatory classes.
  • (i considered taking the sats again and aiming for an ivy league score (2000+) but was so constantly anxious at the time that i didn't bother.)

• trinket boxes
  • jewelry boxes
    • ALL OF THE BOXES
• vintage signs
• earrings
  • tardis
  • feathers
• candles
  • wood-wicks!
• rainbow mugs
• roll-on perfumes
• ALL OF THE TRINKETS
  • tiny figurines and little wooden toys
• plants
  • succulents

• button colours
• clover honey
• from where once was
• honey butter
• hot cereal
• mountain laurel
• 'once again to zelda' (f. scott fitzgerald's dedication to her in the great gatsby )
• '[...]or there and back again' (second part of the full title of the hobbit )
• pudding cup
  • what's up, puddin' cup?
• soft drinks
• sun shower
• 'the woods are lovely, dark, and deep' ( stopping by woods on a snowy evening , robert frost)
• wood wick

• citrus fruit, especially oranges and clementines
• old books
• woodsmoke
• ripe peaches
• clean rain (petrichor) (i specify 'clean' as there's a type of rain that sort of smells like... worms and mildew? it's kind of hard to describe.)
• earthy forests
• fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies or brownies
• graphite (when it signifies working on an art project)
• gasoline
• coffee
• clean sheets fresh from the laundry
• indian restaurants
• fragant jasmine rice
• the spice sections at grocery stores
• corn flour

• rocks from the backyard or creek beds
  • pretty, polished stones from gift shops
• feathers
• candles
• dice
• beanie babies
• sprinkles
• video games
• books
  • cookbooks
  • art books
    • especially from pixar movies
• notebooks and sketchbooks (mostly empty)
• seashells
• nail polishes
• dvds and blu rays
• crinoids
• lip balms and lotions

• listen: there's a hell of a good universe next door; let's go e.e. cummings, pity this busy monster, manunkind
• everybody has a secret world inside of them. all of the people of the world, i mean everybody. no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. not just one world. hundreds of them. thousands maybe. neil gaiman, the sandman
• i have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night. sarah williams, the old astronomer
• well, you'll remember me a little. i'll be a story in your head. but that's okay: we're all stories, in the end. just make it a good one, eh? 'cause it was, you know. it was the best. the daft old man who stole a magic box and ran away. eleventh doctor, doctor who
• the way i see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. the good thi... eleventh doctor, doctor who

• sun-baked dirt roads with the sky stretching out ahead
• ducking underwater at night; surfacing and looking up at the stars
• that exact moment at a concert where the band comes out on stage and they launch into the first song.
• back roads at night with a car full of friends and an excellent playlist
• grey skies that hold the promise of rain
• cold fingers and toes under a comforter on a winter morning
• the exact moment when a song strikes just right
• forests that smell like damp and woods and moss and dirt
• decorating cupcakes late at night right before going to sleep
• sore muscles and tired to the bone, knowing you can sleep as long as you want
• a thick layer of snow, unblemished in the...

• really excited about finding a new, good pill caddy
• really excited about getting my covid booster and flu shot
• really excited about a new grocery store opening up nearby shortly after moving into my house
• view tik tok with vague bewilderment
• often crack like pop rocks when getting out of bed
• am seriously considering creating a Themed Bathroom
• unironically bought practical socks as christmas gifts for family
• ate a new snack and my immediate first thought was 'holy shit this would be a great salad topping'
• realized i now thought of 18/19 year olds as kids

• the princess bride
• rise of the guardians
• kiki's delivery service
• back to the future (primarily 1 and 2, but 3 is fine in a pinch)
• bill & ted's excellent adventure and bogus journey
• spirited away
• tokyo godfathers
• mamma mia!
• lilo & stitch
• howl's moving castle
• star trek 2009
• tangled
• monty python and the holy grail
• newsies

• succulents
  • (just as pretty as flowers, but not as hard to care for)
• leave-in shampoo
• body lotion/butter
• worn, over-sized sleeping shirts
• ice cream
• soft blankets
• doodles and notes from friends and family
• upbeat, happy music
  • the katamari damacy soundtrack
• cartoons and animated movies
  • adventure time
  • gravity falls
• nice-smelling candles or air freshener
• purring kitties and panting puppies

• i have fallen in love with words just about as much as i have fallen over my own feet
  • (this is a lot of times)

• book series
  • artemis fowl
  • cardcaptor sakura
  • harry potter (2023 eta: sigh...)
  • the series of unfortunate events
    • especially lemony snicket's unauthorised autobiography
• calvin & hobbes collections
  • as well as foxtrot, garfield, life in hell (groening), the far side, and amphigorey
• capture the flag (star trek the next generation: starfleet academy #4)
• cloudy with a chance of meatballs
  • pickles over pittsburgh
• gus was a friendly ghost
• holes

boyish

• aidan
• benjamin
• brendon
• elijah
• gabriel
  • gabe
• klaus
• matthias
• maxwell
• micah
• nathaniel
• nicholas
• oliver
• otto
• samuel
• simon
• theo(dore)
  • teddy

it contains little things that i found whilst cleaning my room, all in a box around two inches tall. it was part of an bug collecting kit i had, made for inspecting insects (with a magnifying glass in the lid and air holes). its contents:

• a (comparatively) large chunk of amethyst (my birth stone)
• a clear marble with a blue stripe down the middle
• two metal buttons from old clothes
  • one shaped like a flower
  • a rounded one with an intricate design on the top
• a teeny tiny bivalve shell
• an aluminum die
• a small, deeply dark blue-coloured stone
• a guitar pick i lifted from a show when it was thrown into the audience
• a wooden beetle from an old, broken toy b...

• i'm walking down the sidewalk, with a destination but without a hurry and pandora's playing me this fantastic new song. it's raining and even above the music i can hear the wind above and scattering leaves on the ground, but the trees are keeping me dry and secluded.
• floating on my back in her pool, voices and music mixed but muffled by the water-- staring at the leaves and the stars above while the lights around cast a soft glow on absolutely everything.
• i'm taking a walk, ill-advised but i wanted to, watching from the bus as the wind whipped branches into a frenzy-- i'm walking down the road, the leaves are dancing and i can hear the wind, feel it even in my bones and i'm laughing, laughing so hard, feeling so light, and the wind steals it all away and i can't even care.
• sitting quietly in the back of the car as...

• anteaters
• axolotls
• bats
  • honduran white
  • pipistrelle
• bears
  • black
  • giant panda
  • sun
• birds
  • crows and ravens
  • falcons
  • hawks
  • owls
    • barn
  • puffins
  • songbirds

• i'm not religious, but i used to pray every night for almost two years, sometimes to the portrait of the grandmother and grandfather i never met at the end of the hallway.
• i have a soft spot for really obnoxious pop music. and rom-coms (sometimes).
• i'm a hufflepuff (but a huffleclaw at heart).
• i have a very specific way of eating pretty much everything. there's a lot of eating things towards the middle and picking things apart with my hands.
• i'm the type of person who, once finding something they like at a restaurant, will proceed to order that thing over and over again. that, plus having a social phobia, makes being as adventuresome as i'd like to be rather problematic, but i try in my own little ways.
• i enjoy plotting out music videos in my h...