• i used to look up at the night sky in wonder and i used to dream the dreams of a boy. i used to imagine that i was a superhero, who could save the world. and in an intro to one of our early albums, there is a line that says, “my heart stopped when i was maybe nine or ten.” looking back, i think that’s when i began to worry about what other people thought of me and started seeing myself through their eyes. i stopped looking up at the night skies, the stars. i stopped daydreaming. instead, i just tried to jam myself into the molds that other people made. soon, i began to shut out my own voice and started to listen to the voices of others. no one called out my name and neither did i. my heart stopped and my eyes closed shut. so, like this, i, we, all lost our names. we became like ghosts. but i had one sanctuary and that was music. there was a small voice inside of me that said, “wake up man, and listen to yourself.” but it took me a long time to hear music calling my real name. even after making the decision to join bts, there were a lot of hurdles. some people might not believe it but most people thought we were hopeless. and sometimes, i just wanted to quit. but i think i was very lucky that i didn’t give it all up. and i’m sure that i and we will keep stumbling and falling.(…) and maybe i made a mistake yesterday but yesterday’s me is still me. today, i am who i am with all of my faults and my mistakes. tomorrow i might be a tiny bit wiser and that would be me too. these faults and mistakes are what i am, making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. i have come to love myself for who i am, for who i was and for who i hope to become.
dec 30 2018 ∞
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