☼ — I don't usually remember my dreams in a daily basis, but I want to change it. So let's try.

• Start date: 5th January

January

• 5 | Barely slept at night (ill, vomiting a lot, bellyache), but had some disconnected dreams of me doing stuff of my routine (like talking to Lari.) I often dream of stuff like that. | Slept for almost three hours in the afternoon. Dreamt of some crazy stuff... I don't recall it very well, but I saved some people kept as hostages in an institution or smth like that. I could change forms. It was savage. I don't know why but it made me think of a place (rehabilitation institution?) of NO.6 novel. Nice.
• 7 | Had three mixed dreams at night. 1- Didnt like it because it involved family + I was dressed as a girl ughhh but there was a swimming pool at my grandma's and I fell into it?? ok. 2- IDK WHAT WAS GOING ON there were creatures in it?? like a videogame where you have to throw bombs and run away? i think i saw minions in it 3- oh, dirty dream, she knows it. wont get in details.
• 8 | Had three different dreams again, but now I just remember some scrambled scenes from one: me running to catch a guy, who was holding a remote control for something, then immobalizing him on the ground. I said some things to change his mind for not doing a bad thing, but I don't remember what. Then I standed up and let him go and some people appeared and started applauding for some reason. I guess we were in my main school hall.
• 11 | Nightmare. Hanged up in a rope, that were actually made of my eeriest thoughts, choking; then the rope broke and I fell into an abyss. I heard someone cry my name (I think I know who) | Other dream. Don't remember much, but I think my parents were looking for a new house to live in, for some reason.
• 12 | Another nightmare. It didn't make sense, because I felt I was in multiple places and being multiple people at the same time, but I know I was scared. There were blood and deaths and some curse - like my house and other people's home were haunted or something and tragedies would happen all the time...
• 13 | Weird dream. It was like I was inside a movie. My life was totally different. At first, I had a male body and could be myself - I even went to a LGBT+ party, met guys who were attracted to me. I think I was 17 yo and didn't live in Brazil. And then, the dream changed, and life went back to how it is rn - my parents treating me as a who they think I am. Sighs.
• 17 | Dreamt I adopted my cousin's fours kittens, plus two labrador puppies AND A BABY GOAT. SO CUTE. We played with them at home. <3
• 18 | Apocalypse dream. The clouds were all grayish, but not in a normal way - it looked like they were made of smoke. Some of them were even black, like coal - and some of them were closer to the ground. The news were all about it - and about an upcoming, giant tornado and storm that had been wandering throughout the world. (I wonder if Life is Strange had some influence on that dream.) I remember chatting with Lari in the dream, telling how afraid I was, and how I wanted to be with her. She was also scared. After, I talked to mom - which was pregnant??? - and told her we should move to avoid danger; but we couldn't. Tears were shed. I guess the only good aspect of this dream was that everyone - even my parents - acknowledged me as a man; maybe I was cisgender in it. And the relief when I woke up and realized the whole "world about to end" thing wasn't real.
• 19 | The only thing I can remember from today's dream is that I was playing Stardew Valley with Lari and Doge. ok.
• 21 | Dreamed my neighbour's (in case, my cousin's) house then mine were assalted while we were there, by guys with weapons. Kinda traumatizing. Why am I having so many nightmares these days?
• 23 | Several dreams. Can remember just one of them, with Lari. Lots of kissing in an elevator.

February

• 1 | Dreamed I was in the shopping center with Isa, her boyfriend and, for some reason, Rafael. Suddenly, the dream changed, I was by myself and wearing things I hate. I became all nervous because I remembered Lari had travelled to my city and would probably meet me there. And all I could think about was how dysphoric I was and didn't want her to see me like that.... Then I received a message from her telling me we should meet next day lmao. oh the relief.
• 5 | Crazy dream. I was a little kid, same age as my sister, and we both were in an amusement park mingled together with a zoo or something. Detail: it was inside an airship. There were other people I know with me, but I don't recall it very well. When I lost myself and didn't follow the schedule and the other children, the managers tried to kick me out of the place - BUT IT WASN'T EVEN LOCATED IN THE GROUND. So they were trying to punish me by me disobedience... by killing me? If this ain't crazy I know nothing
• 17 | Three different dreams at night. 1- Lari was in it. It was awkward, I just remember some things, like taking my shirt off and being really embarrassed and insecure about my body | 2- Oh, right, I dreamed about the history I'm writing (noctívago) but with... different aspects. Instead of being a caring vampire, Suga was slaughthering humans and Daichi was in shock. Really OOC, huh. | 3- I kind of dreamed of Stardew Valley, but with a part that doesn't exist in the game?? Like it was a new quest from a new character or something....
• 23 | I've dreamt I fell asleep and forgot to say good night to Lari and then I woke up in the middle of the night to apologize. What the heck.
• 26 | Had 3 dreams today, but for now, I just remember some things of 2. Dreamed I watched 2 episodes of the walking dead, then what I had seen starting to become real... And there was someting mixed with Stardew Valley. Also dreamed I was going to travel to Caldas Novas again but we missed the flight BUT WHO TRAVELS TO CALDAS NOVAS FROM UBERLANDIA BY PLANE? What the fuck.

March

• 1 | Dreamed there was a snake at school. It kept biting students and the coordinators were doing nothing about it ("it's not poisonous"). I got stuck in the restroom because the snake was outside the door, and I couldn't cross it.
• 17 | crazy dream. I was at Antônio's house, and we found a hidden entrance in his backyard wall. We walked through it, in a large tunnel, which finished in a giant hall brimming with people around a stage?? And there was a show?? I even met my family there, along with Cecília! What the fuck. We also found a luxurious spa in an adjacent hall.
• 20 | Dreamed I was in college, doing a degree in languages. Is it a sign of what I should choose for my future?

April

• 1 | Two dreams. The first one, nightmare. I dreamed I had a dream (yep, I didn't miswrite it) that my front gate was open. I woke up and, feeling it was a sort of vision or something, decided to check it or tell my mother. However, when I was walking past the dark living room, I heard steps and, before I could react, a stranger covered my mouth from behind and immobilized me. | The second one was pretty wtf. Temer went to our city and made a speech??? and everyone was saying FORA TEMER?? and then his wife (I don't even know her name) said something and everybody found her nice. she distributed cookies for people. LIKE WTF DUDE.
• 7 | Ok, this dream was super mixed up. I was in the place where I take my english course, with the other three students... But instead of our english teacher, Todd, my sociology teacher from school was teaching about Philosophy?? Explaining the views of philosophers like Kant and Rousseau?? Ok
• 9 | Dreamed I was in London in the Victorian Age with my mother and we bought two piggies from an old merchandiser. Random af.
• 22 | Had a crazy dream. I had broken into someone's house to recover something, and I was doing some shit to hide and climb things (like a fucking spider-man). Then, they caught me and I had to run for somewhere safe and SUDDENLY ALL PEOPLE FROM THE RETIREMENT WERE IN THE DREAM TOO. Like. wtf.

May

• 4 | Lari was in my bed. First, we were just being innocent and telling stories to each other, then she told me to kiss her, and, of course, I did. Things escalated pretty quickly. My sis almost caught us.
• 6 | Dreamed I was Max, from Life is Strange. Even the graphics were alike the game's. I was in a weird version of that fucked up nightmare she had in Episode 5, there were a lot of trains and I was walking towards them, then someone grabbed my arm and stopped me from being run over by one. I woke up then.