• 2016 writing diary: x
• 2017 everyday progress: x

January

• 1 | At the crack of the night, had some insights and ideas and wrote it down in my paper notebook. | Did some lists.
• 2-3 | nopeee. I SHOULD WRITE BUT CAN'T DISCIPLINE MYSELF TO DO IT. AGH.
• 4-5 | Autobio stuff.
• 6 | Trying to improve the plot for AS fanfic. It's too meh, so I decided to put some fantasy into it... some modern with au or stuff. I'm just afraid the person I took won't like it ):
• 7-8-9 | lists only
• 10 | PLOTTING TIME! Got hyped! Wrote 2 handwriting pages for a "script" of what will happen in the history first, then continued planning details in the computer and made more plot changes. Gotta finish this up as soon as possible.
• 11-12 | autobio stuff. aa.
• 13 | At the crack of night, in the middle of a crisis, wrote one handwriting paper.
• 14 | Sighs. Autobio.
• 15 | Wrote 1/2 of a handwriting page at morning | At night, continued plotting and showed it for Lari. She liked it.
• 16 | totally blank space
• 17 | Lists... Frankly, I feel tottaly useless. I have a fucking deadline and ain't making no progress. And even though I'm up to writing something, I feel like I coudn't care less. Fuck it.
• 18 | started a poetry.
• 19-20-21 | autobio, autobio, and nothing
• 22 | WRITING HYPE!! 1397 words. Finished the first part of AS fanfic's plot. Yay.
• 23 | if you guessed I wrote nothing today, you guessed right.
• 24 | Wrote down in my notebook some ideas for both chapter 17 of Maybe Someday and for AS Fanfic backstory.
• 25 | nops
• 26 | Passed the ideas of day 24 to pc. totalized only 222 words. sighs. shame.
• 27 | finally completed that fucking 750 words. autobio + some reviews answers.
• 28-29 | ugh, nothing
• 30 | autobio
• 31 | a poetry. started and managed to finish it in the same day. what a miracle.

February

• 1 | autobio
• 2 | none
• 3 | autobio again
• 4-5 | At night, had an idea for a new history so I can join second cycle of Zine! Plotteda lot in physical paper at night, then, when I woke up, kept going with it... Have already 2 handwriting pages of plot + some notes on computer. | Ok, the plot is basically ready, I just have to write the chapters daily from now on. After Zine is concluded, I'll create an extended version of this history. I don't want to waste one of my best ideas so far. | HELL YEAH I DID IT, POSTED THE FUCKING HISTORY HERE
• 6 | Noctívago's second chapter (100 words)
• 7 | Noctívago's third chapter (100 words)
• 8 | Noctívago's forth chapter (100 words) + some reviews
• 9 | Noctívago's fifth chapter (100 words) + some review answers + autobio
• 10 | Noctívago's sixth chapter (100 words) + some reviews
• 11 | Noctívago's seventh chapter (100 words) + autobio
• 12 | Noctívago's eighth chapter (100 words) + a lot of review answers
• 13 | Noctívago's ninth chapter (100 words) + autobio
• 14 | Noctívago's tenth chapter (100 words) + autobio
• 15 | Noctívago's eleventh chapter (100 words) + autobio
• 16 | Noctívago's twelfth chapter (100 words) + new poetry, unfinished
• 17-28 | Ok I've got no patience for this. Finished Noctívago, which ended up with 22 chapters in total. In these days, wrote mainly autobio things, too. And some reviews replies.

March

• 1 | Finally got my ass on a chair and resumed the plot for AS fanfic. I'm not even close to finish it, but ok.
• 2 | Autobio
• 5 | Started writing AS fanfic!! Realized it wouldn't be good to delay it much longer, doesn't matter if I have all the plot or not. I am a half planner, half pantser writer after all.
• 6 | Autobio | Continued the part I wrote yesterday.
• 9 | Autobio. I'm so useless I only write this shit.
• 10 | Wrote with Lari today! We even made a 20min sprint. Also, wrote down a random idea I had.
• 11-13 | Only autobio and drawing diary.
• 14 | Little comment on someone's oneshot.
• 18 | Guess. Yep, autobio. At least I don't forget to update it.
• 27 | For fuck sake... I spent all these days without writing. I feel awful tbh. I hope next month, with campnanowrimo, I can dedicate myself to writing more... school is consuming my time and patience so much.
• 28 | Finally updating this list. Lmao.

April

• 1 | Revised and wrote a tiny bit of AS while I was in the club. Completed the rest of the daily goal writing my autobio.
• 2 | Plus 776 words in AS fanfic <3
• 3 | AAAA I almost can't believe I started chapter 17 of Maybe Someday! I'M HYPED, I had great ideas for it. It'll be fun to write. Decided to write it simultaneously as AS fanfic; let's see if it works.
• 4 | As today is Tuesday, gave myself the right to rest. Just wrote my autobio, totalizing 353 words.
• 5 | Made progress in Maybe Someday chapter! Also wrote down some ideas in the plot document | At night, wasn't feeling that well. Made a 100 words text to spit my feelings out. | More than 1,1k made today!
• 6 | Oh, no. Didn't write as much as I wanted. Procrastinated and sleepiness got the best of me... At least, still some progress in the chapter. I'm ahead of my month goal stats, even. | Completed this list + autobio. | By the way, I've been listening to lots of great music while writing these days. It's really inspirational. Registered some of my favorite in a list
• 7 | I wasn't even going to write anything, because my parents took my computer. But I was still uncomformed, so decided to give it a shot and write on my cellphone. Surprisingly, it worked a lot better than I expected! I guess it doens't allow many distractions, so the writing has a better flow... It felt really natural to write on it. Guess I'll try to do it it more times.
• 8 | Ok, this time, my writing was pretty stuck. I'm not with that hype for maybe someday chapter anymore... Actually I'm starting to think it's pretty boring. Sighs. Well, I'll just keep writing, and later I see if I should change some things and all.
• 9 | Aaaand I was pretty tempted to not write at all, but fortunately I forced myself and got 660 words. Uhu. It's kinda hard to not be harsh on myself... I really want to have my 20000 words by the end of the month, and I won't be able to write in 20, 21 and 22 of April, so I need to make up for the future loss.
• 10 | I don't know what I should write. Help. Should I focus on MS or AS AAAAA | Autobio saves me a lot sometimes. Almost can't believe I was able to reach 750 words today, lmao.
• 11 | Too tired and sleepy to write. With my brain feeling like melting, wrote a small, poetical text about... sleep? It isn't what it sounds it is, though.
• 12 | Haha, as always, left writing for later... Really later. Wrote from 2am to 3h30am or so, in the cellphone. Some things in MS chapter and plot. Despite the hour, REACHED MY 1K GOAL FOR TODAY, HOHO
• 13 | Hm... just autobio today. 400 words or so.
• 14 | As I needed to do a History Task and write my daily goal, decided to do my research and not use the typical ctrl+c, ctrl+v. Intead, wrote the things I learned about the different roman legends with my own words. Honestly, it got a lot better like this, lmao.
• 15 | First day of the month I write nothing. Also, decided to lower my goal from 20k to 18k... To be honest, I don't regret it. Quantity is not the same as quality, and I'm not having too much time this month either (specially because in a few days, I'll spend 72 hours away, so.) I don't want to wear myself out, nor to get tired of writing, which is supposed to be a pleasurable thing. Taking so harsh on myself is kinda driving me breathless, so I'd better stop.
• 16 | Finished my History Task. yay! It was an interesting thing to do.
• 17 | Wrote a text for my sunshine, as a gift for tomorrow, our 9 months together date. The first part was in english, then I made a second, conclusive part in portuguese. I was emotive enough to cry. It was from the bottom of my heart, so I hope she'll like it.
• 19 | Subscribed noctívago to Lari's project and had to made an advertising for the history. | Autobio.
• 21 | First day of the retirement... and I already feel so homesick and dysphoric and missing her and him so much. Had to write about my feelings to shake it off. 0,8 page, I guess.
• 24 | Honestly, I feel very tired... Decided I won't martirize myself to reach a goal, but without indulging myself too much. I'll try to write more, but won't censure myself if I don't. I'm only human, after all. If I write above 10k-12k every month, I'm already doing great. But what matters is the content written, not how many words I typed. Trying to take it easier on me, again.
• 27 | So yeah, fuck goals. I don't plan to spend my weekend writing, thank you. Not in my birthday eve. But I wrote some words for autobio today - dude, the size of my autobio this year is huge. rly.
• 29 | just more autobio things, nothing much. my birthday today.

May

• 1 | Subscribed to Zine's third phase. I don't even know if I'll be able to write a continuation for Devotos in it, because it depends on the theme I get, but got hyped with the idea. I miss my ocs.
• 2 | autobiooo
• 6 | just autobio again, lol. At least, now I have an easy way to do it: I write down the "highlights" of the day in my cellphone notes so, in case I procrastinate to complete autobio, I don't forget about them. Someday, I'll contabilize these notes, too.
• 7 | The zine sortition is out! The theme I got was the song "no light, no light" of Florence and The Machine. It's a music I love, and a great thing to write about - I even made an interpretation of its lyrics (and I intend to watch her video to inspire myself, more) to help me through the outline of the fic (that can't have more than 5k words). The only unfortunate thing is that I can't apply this song to the characters or plot of Devotos, so nope, no chance of making a continuation of it.
• 8 | 2 days written in autobio. im postponing the rest. help.
• 9 | meh, autobio
• 10 | a poetry I started out of nothing + a poetry (actually, uma cantiga de escárnio) I had written for school
• 14 | Woke up with a writing hype!! Focused on Maybe Someday, and in character development + plotting the 17 chapter. I'm excited with my creation, uhu | You see, so I don't forget what I did in the days I delay to complete in autobio, I started to often write down the details of them in my phone, almost like a draft. Today, I contabilized all those notes, and wow, so many words. | Also started a new scene (disconnected) for ms chapter and continued it at night.
• 15 | Finally started writing about those days in the retirement in autobio. Not done yet, though.
• 18 | Wrote a lil more of that MS scene.
• 19 | Tried to plot for zine's fic, but didn't progress much.
• 20 | Same thing as yesterdar. Ugh. My deadline is approaching and I didnt even start properly writing...
• 22 | Meh. Just a bit of drawing diary.
• 24 | Plotting for the darkest sounds (I love this title I came up with), developing my characters by creating/continuing their paperlists.
• 25 | Came up with 2 more original prompts, wrote a quick summary about them and added them to my list.
• 27 | Total random poetry (??). Just a writing exercise, I guess.
• 28 | FINALLY STARTED THE DARKEST SOUNDS and managed to write 1k in it! Yay! I feel good.
• 29 | Just autobio.
• 30 | More autobio. There are so many days missing. Send help. Thanks god I wrote down before what I did in each one.
• 31 | Struggled to write something to reach my 12k goal, because I was so close to it, but couldn't find in myself the will to write. That's ok though. Won't force myself to do what I don't want to just for the sake of quantity.

June

• 1 | Feels. I was really upset today, almost felt like crumbling. First, wrote a personal text. Then, started a angsty poetry that kinda translated what I felt in a more painful way. The only perks of being sad is being able to write things like this.
• 2 | autobio
• 3 | Added one more paragraph to the angsty poetry (for the title, I chose "seesaw"). Then, finally continued The Darkest Sounds with a scene.
• 4 | Wrote a lot today! Sum of autobio things, some notes and scenes for The Darkest Sounds.
• 5 | More things for The Darkest Sounds. 50% of it was draft plotting of future scenes.
• 10 | Fragments of different things that totalized my daily goal. Autobio + a random prompt + a piece of a scene for tds + even a slight continuation for ms chapter.
• 11 | Autobio only
• 12 | Some days in autobio + important scenes for the darkest sounds. I'm hyped. And I feel connected to my MC in a deep level. Nice thing.
• 13 | Personal text of desabafo. | Also, contabilized some old, previous notes for autobio drafts that I hadn't taken into count yet, totalizing 2k words.
• 15 | Writed more for The Darkest Sounds!! I'm getting closer to the end and I'm approaching my word limit of 5k!! Oh god!! Am I able to conclude it with fewer words than that?! Maybe?? No?? AAAAAAAAAA
• 16 | I FINISHED IT. I'm done. Almost can't believe I concluded another fanfic. Writing the darkest sounds was a new and welcome experience for me... and wow it's the first straight-couple-centered history I write in a while lmao. I hope it's good...
• 19 | A good amount of words. Source? Yeah, just autobio. Shame (?)
• 22 | More autobio. I think if it's really ok to count it in my writing goal but... it's still written by me, right? Still a way to train.
• 24 | kinda disappointing to say this but yep, autobio again
• 25 | autobio :( now im starting to be ashamed of myself. I like doing an autobio but I should write something more productive? Like, an actual story. Fiction. Not my life.
• 26 | FINALLY something useful was written. One, an analisis of a poetry to school. Second, a prompt. And third, managed to write a bit for AS fic!
• 30 | Just autobio again.

July

• 1 | A tiny answer to a comment in an oneshot of mine
• 2 | Finally posted the darkest sounds in Nyah! So I wrote the disclaimer, my personal notes and, with a little help from nat, the history's sinopsis.
• 9 | Phew, I've been a whole week without writing anything. Today, I just pasted some stuff I had written for my autobio in order to countabilize it
• 10 | Was going to write for AS fic, but instead, wrote down some ideas I had for Noah's character development, from my history I left aside for a while, Atemporal! Aaaa I missed it. The idea for this story is already 2 years old and I did so little progress with it :c
• 12 | updating a piece of this dream diary
• 13 | I managed to write for AS fanfic today! I'm kinda proud I'm finally moving with this story
• 15 | Wow i'm pretty stupid, because, even though I have one hundred unfinished projects, I started another one in the middle of the night. In english! It's a semishira fanfic I just out of a sudden had a whim to write. I don't even have a plot. It just feels good to write in english... feels natural.
• 17 | autobio
• 18 | just a review for a fanfic i read
• 19 | Today was productive! I was pretty hyped. Tried to plot some things in physical sheets, but it was too slow for me; plotted some things for worldbuilding and development of my witch!au (which I'm using in as fanfic). And even, wrote a small piece for that semishira fic, which I decided to name "attractive"
• 20 | I hadn't written for Paradoxo in a long time now. But I couldn't help it today, was too frustrated and with full of useless resentments so I had to write a personal text about it, to take a weight off of my chest. It's a painful text, and it's not truthful to reality, but to my most negative feelings. No one can see it. It's full of thorns.
• 21 | AA i wrote so much today! Im proud. Got really hyped with my semishira fic and wrote over 1k in it. It feels do good to write in english aaa!! And I did most of it between 1h30am to 3am, I guess, in my cellhpne.
• 23 | Some days in autobio + another part in AS fic. I finished the beginning of the beginning. Uhu!
• 25 | started translating a semishira fic i wrote in portuguese last year to english
• 27 | drawing diary
• 28 | MORE THINGS IN SEMISHIRA FIC AAAA + autobio!!
• 31 | Added to the wordcount all the rest of autobio things I had written through the days. And it's a lot.

August

• 2 | one draft sheet of poetry in school
• 5 | autobio + transported that poetry to computer
• 9 | aaaa finally wrote something for MS today!! started another disconnected scene, that will be part of this chapter tho, and it flowed so well <3 listened to some microrwave/white noises meanwhile. hope ill keep pumped up to keep writing it!
• 11 | today i did something really nice! I decided to create a list in google docs for every original character is birthed from my mind. In there, I'll separate them from histories (and also account those who don't belong to a specific history, originated from random drawings and all) and characterize them with their distinctive attributes or random quirks/tastes/curiosities. I spent a lot of time adding information to some of them. It's a good way to know them better and to keep ablaze my will to write their lives on. | Oh, and today, also plotted for my collab with Nat! I wrote down some alternative ideas I had and did some character developing. I still need to discuss these plans with her, though | subscribed to my first delipa, minilipa!
• 12 | just autobio. wordcount was plenty though.
• 13 | small excert from art diary
• 14 | today was really cool! I created another character from a drawing I made and whom I decided to attribute identity/personality to. She's an alien from a planet I made up, Koldeen. It's so cool to start random worldbuilding like this?? | another cool thing: instead of writing the things I should, I started to scroll down my old writing episodes from evernote and out of nowhere continued a disconnected scene from maybe someday in gray's first person pov?? and i kept writing it until late, like 3am. i was kinda inspired and missing to write in that furore feeling.
• 15 | i discussed with nat about our collab today! told her some insightful ideas i had and she added it with hers and we started planning new things! it turns out things took a turn to a more dark thing, involving themes like death and masochism. im excited about how this story will end up like.
• 18 | oh, today i started writing for minilipa! i decided to do an shirabu drabbel and to give it a shot to writing narratively in english and I'm enjoying the experinence. hope i have the opportunity to do it again soon.
• 19 | finished the story for minilipa!! even though its not even 1k words, it took me almost all afternoon to do it but it was really nice aaa i wanna write in english again soon. now i just have to name it, create a synopsis and post it in ao3!
• 20 | was feeling sad and weepy and that motivated me to write blue verses and start a sonnet. also, made some reviews for lari's story
• 21 | POSTED MY FIRST ENGLISH FANFIC, IN AO3! it took me a good while to proofread it and to write the notes and synopsis but i finally did it!! | AND MAND i got so happy when i saw one of my favorite writers in ao3 left a comment in my work!! answered her review all happy aa
• 22 | tried to write a scene in school but meh | one more review reply + autobio + added more information to that characters list! it was about gray's past. its nice to develop it further.
• 25 | wrote down 4 prompts I have created these couple days and developed some of it. its nice to have these random ideas and exercise my creativity. | countabilized almost all of the autobio from this month, and man, it was a lot of words.
• 26 | autobio
• 27 | an excert from FICO work + wrote more for MS! it wasn't the same amount of words i wrote of it some days ago, but its still good progress anyway! gotta keep writing
• 28 | was planning to write more, but just continued the scene of ms i started yesterday
• 31 | just a random small piece because i wanted to write something in english but i had no ideas so i cut it off

September

• 3 | small excert of sad poetry
• 6 | drawing diary
• 13 | autobio and the beginning of a happy and hearty poetry about love. I didn't have much time to write these days because I travelled, but at least I'm spending a lot of lovey time with Lari and that inspires me.
• 15 | countabilized more of my autobio notes
• 17 | autobio again... at least it still passed 1k words
• 18 | board diary of my school task
• 20 | editting of the writing task of that school project
• 21/24 | more things for my school task. ugh. i miss actually writing a history
• 27 | finally! fucking! finished! my school task and its board diary aaaaaaa it was a handful of work but im done
• 28 | decided to take a break from my daily rush and just sit for one hour and wrote a calming poetry.

October

• 1 | just countabilized autobio notes, from day 16 to 27 of september.
• 4 | Today, I wrote for real! Finished an excert of my literature task. Then, wrote MS chapter!! I missed how naturally writing felt, and I finally felt it again today. I also wrote in that document I have for my character's profiles and I added more stuff to it. hell yea char development
• 5 | just more texts for my literature task
• 7 | wrote more of MS in a really spontaneous way! i mean, i had 1h before i went out and i managed to write in that fraction of time. I wrote a nice scene of Tyler and Gray being cute with each other i'm kinda proud of
• 11 | wrote more of ms chapter, but i didnt do much progress in it. instead, I answered a lot of comments I received from a new reader that really motivated me! I even had motivation to reply to a review from january 2016 (ik, im a shame)
• 14 | countabilized more autobio words (it always totalized more than 1k, often around 2k), from september 28th to october 7th
• 15 | i was planning to have a day off just to write, but i procrastinated a lot and kept getting distracted. in the end, i wasnt productive at all, and just wrote a small amount of words in ms
• 26 | i haven't written all these days, because i got too distracted with school and with games. also, there was my trip to vist lari, that made me excited for days and was the greatest experience ive ever had | took count of autobio notes, from day 8 to 15, and answered a comment in MS

November

• 1 | Man, I can't believe it's November already. I'm not partaking in nanowrimo this year - I don't think the pressure will do any good to me, specially at the eve of the end of the semester. I'm brimming with tasks and tests this month. So, no, thanks. However, I'm still willing to write as much as I can! Maybe surpass the other months wordcounts. | Today, I just countabilized some written notes about 3 days of october in autobio.
• 2 | Completed autobio with the days I spent in são paulo... saudades intensify. I miss Lari so much
• 3 | wrote around 800 words for Maybe Someday chapter! then, more autobio
• 6 | more words for maybe someday chapter! I almost can't believe I got my hype for this story back.
• 10 | writing and drawing diaries. also, more words for MS chapter 17! It took me 2 hours to write only 300 words since i was distracted, but then, instead of being angry and frustrated at myself, i decided to concentrate and managed to make 800 words! that proves i need to have more focus.
• 13 | autobio. completed october month
• 15 | Wrote down three prompt ideas i had a month ago. Also, more MS! Made progress in the chapter (i already had that scene outlines in my drafts notebook for a long time so it was easy; after it, writing flowed smoothly, in spite of my lack of time) and also plotted a bit, writing texts for character development.
• 16 | yesterday i had written some character development of Gray and Tyler in my cellphone notes, but in a dialogue strutcture. It's actually a great way to build ideas and get them going with each one's personality. Countabilized it today. Also, autobio
• 20 | More MS! Started writing the part in which Gray's friends handle the gifts for his birthday. Best one so far. Plus, more autobio
• 22 | some listography and continued MS! Lana's gift is the best.
• 23 | takin' easy today. just more autobio.
• 24 | besides drawing diary, made more progress in MS! WROTE THE FINAL PART OF IT, in which Tyler gives his gift. At first I would write more, but then I found a perfect way to finish the chapter. So, it's done. I FINISHED CHAPTER 17. And i had fucking started it in April, but did most of its progress in these 2 last months. Chapter 18 will be like a part 2, a direct continuation. I look forward to start writing it asap; I already have some parts ahead done/drafted and I don't plan on publishing chapter 17 before the 18th is ready.
• 25 | plotted a bit! organizing some information for chapter 18 of ms. plus, autobio.
• 26 | 5 days streak in 750words! :D | wrote some information for biology task, a comment for a fanfic I'm reading and more autobio
• 29 | 2k of autobio, almost completing november month. also, i achieved my goal! i'll rest a bit tomorrow but i'll try to keep this pace in december (maybe with a decrease in goal, tho. i also wanna enjoy my vacation.)

December

• 1 | writing diary, everyday progress list and autobio
• 5 | a to-do list for my vacation of december/january.
• 12 | almost 12k of autobio
• 15 | drawing diary and autobio
• 17 | from 1am to almost 4am, proofread MS chapter 17! read through it and added some things. it made me excited to post it and write the next chapter soon :3
• 18 | wrote the initial and final notes of MS chapter 17 so I could post it in nyah!fanfiction as soon as possible
• 19 | ok, so, today I used that site I found in october, hemmingwayapp.com to edit some things of chapter 17 of Maybe Someday, which took me a good amount of time. Then, almost killed myself formatting every paragraph of the chapter so it looked fine in Nyah design. Finally posted it! | Then, at night, added more notes for socialspirit and posted there too! | Funny thing: to cheer Lari up, I started a random continuation of Nahn and Irali's history (my characters who are, respectively, an ant and a bee). Then I decided to create a docs for them, and scrolled back to January and July to copy the former histories of them I told Lari and pasted in the document, organizing it eventually. And, ofc, countabilized all of it.
• 20 | Autobio, editions in my index list, and then some details added in my OCs docs :3
• 23 | OK SO I HAD THIS RANDOM DISCONNECTED IDEA of Gray and Tyler in a party some time into future, when they're both already in college. I had this idea in the middle of the night, wrote it down in my cellphone; then, when I woke up, I started to develop it. Decided to write in english to practice narration in this language :3 | TEXTÃO DE ANIVERSÁRIO PRO FORMIGO!! HE LOVED IT
• 27 | ok so yesterday night I started continuing that disconnected scene of MS in english in my phone and it flowed rly well but i stopped it midway bc i wasnt enjoying it much. so i countabilizied it today
• 29 | a bunch of autobio, from day 19 to day 26.
• 30 | Completing lists to give a closure to this year. Wrote a list of goals (for life, tho, not just 2018) and completed this list
• 31 | Autobio of the last days of the year and some final adjustments in lists. 2017 was a good year for me. May 2018 be even better!