- sailing in the ocean with my brother in the middle of a rainstorm. the water being black, looking over to my brother and seeing an expression of mild terror on his face.
- trekking through 3 feet of snow to watch the sunset over the prairies with my grandparents' farm dogs following after me.
- writing poetry while in the cherry tree by my childhood home with the pink petals falling around me. a perfect view of the dining room, the warm light inside.
- sharing half a joint with a guy at a local metal / punk concert and talking about music and life in general under the streetlight.
- going out to the fields with my dad and him always putting that one light cream cowboy hat on me even though it was too big for me. sitting on the edge of the truck bed.
- my criminology professor giving me the first perfect score he had given on a paper in "30 years of teaching."
- c, my law professor - our first conversation in his office, "you're bright and a great conversationalist." song recommendations. giving him a bottle of chianti and one of my paintings after finals. bookstores, cafes. "come on, let me get you something, london fog?"
- that one time my mom took to me the circus and a clown put himself in an oven and pretended to cook himself to cinders and i started crying (LMFAO. i need you to understand that in my child mind i had just watched a man die in front of me)
- playfighting with my brother as kids.
- skipping stones on the ocean with t during our graduation trip. "you going to backpack around europe or something during your gap year?" "how pretentious do you think i am? actually, don't answer that."
- getting stranded over a coral reef with my dad while snorkelling in hawaii, surviving with just a few scrapes.
- going to dennys at 3 am after a successful run of shows when i was in stage crew.
- bale jumping with my brothers and my cousins at the farm.
- dictating poetry while sitting in the grass with my mom while she wrote it down for me because i couldn't yet.
- snarking with c during band practice, also him shaking off his instrument and flinging spit on my sheet music. gross, man.
- shaving my head in freshman year and my mom's first reaction besides from shock being "you look like a monk."
- a stranger coming up to me while i was drawing on campus, silently watching me for a long time before shyly saying "nice drawings" and hurrying away before i could say thank you.
- my first time doing edibles / my first bad trip / my friends being very sweet and giving me juice and stuff.
- visiting my hometown, meeting up with s, going to the museum and walking to 7-11 to buy a bunch of candy lol.
- rapping all in the family at a halloween party back and forth with ev while we were both extremely drunk off apple vodka (i was a vampire).
- saying goodbye to a, him crying uncontrollably and holding onto me like his life depended on it.
- spraining my wrist while snowboarding and getting taken down the rest of the slope on a snowmobile.
- being will graham for halloween, going out with evie & p, expecting no one to recognize me and actually getting recognized by 2 people who were super sweet and said i "make a great will graham."
- watching interlagos 2024 with my dad and brother losing our minds.
- getting hissed at by a pack of raccoons with ev after she came to pick me up.
- late summer with bear - night walks, stargazing by the lagoon, him carrying me through puddles when it was raining, smoking in the gazebo, in his bed underneath him listening to change.
- seeing deftones for my 21st birthday and headbanging to around the fur. ♡♡♡
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