I need to do a past life therapy! That stuff is spooky. And who knows, maybe it's all bullsh*it but I'd like to believe it isn't.

Kent

• Around 10 years ago my mum had a dream about me living in Kent, England. Now the weird thing is: my mum doesn't know anything about England, she didn't even know Kent existed - she said that she'd never heard of it before. Now...I don't know if she dreamed about the county or a Kent street. I did some research and for some reason I got chills when I read about the Old Kent Road in London.

Scotland

• What can I say? Ever since I read Outlander in 2014, Scotland keeps following me wherever I go. It just won't leave me alone. It's everywhere. I feel a deep connection to this place ...the Gaelic kingdom of Dál Riata / Glen Coe / Western Argyll and Bute / p...

J A N —

• lorne balfe — the compass points north
• fiona apple — container
• lorne balfe — the great flood
• fleet foxes — blue ridge mountains
• gregory alan isakov — liars

F E B —

• bon iver & st. vincent — roslyn
• phosphorescent — song for zula
• lost bayou ramblers — the bathtub
• angus & julia stone — heart beats slow (live acoustic)

J A N U A R Y —

• 05.01. 40 min. full body strength
• 08.01. 40 min. yoga
• 11.01. 45 min. arm & leg strength
• 12.01. 2:41 h walk
• 16.01. 30 min. abs
• 25.01. 3:27 h walk
• 27.01. 35 min. full body strength
• 30.01. 30 min. hiit cardio, 35 min. yoga

F E B R U A R Y —

• 01.02. 60 min. hiit/kickboxing

this list actually scares me. i never manage to really do stuff from these kind of lists because i'm anxious and lonely. lots of times i really want to do something and end up not doing anything because i don't want to do it alone, and i don't know anyone; almost all my friends live far away. it shouldn't be that hard - i could do stuff alone, i'm used to being alone, but sometimes it feels as if i just can't do some things alone, even small things. so. we'll see.

jan

places

• botanical garden
• westpark
• flower fields

people

• m
• j
• maybe j²
• s & his friend

stuff to do

• website/blog
• business cards
• second instagram account

oh, the places we will go (basically ALL the places) —

• Afghanistan
  • Pamir Mountains, Band-e-Amir, Hindukush, Mazar-e-Sharif, x, Badakhshan, Panjshir, Wakhan Corridor 1 2 3
• Australia
  • Sydney, Tasmania, Queensland, sail the Whitsundays, Uluru-Kata-Tjuta-NP/NT
• Belgium
  • Bruges, Gent
• Belize
  • Caye Caulker, Maya Mountains
• Benin
  • Ganvie
• Bhutan
• Botswana

"Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions." - Albert Einstein. | It's time for a new bucket list. I'm not going to seperate big and small dreams anymore. | This list is going to be endless.

TRAVEL & ADVENTURES

• Travel with Workaway.
• See wild alpacas in South America.
• See Nessie. Or at least Loch Ness.
• Travel for the rest of my life, see the world and turn my experiences into art.
• Travel to the Great Rift Valley/Cradle of Humankind in Kenya, Tanzania and/or Ethiopia. Maybe feel some kind of belonging.
• See a Capricornis crispus in the Japanese woodlands.
• Live in Japan for a while and get to know the Japanese and Shinto/Buddhist culture.
• Live in different places, at least for a few weeks or months, get to know the peop...

first: get rid of/sell some old stuff! i don't want to buy something i don't really need or already have.

• new glasses
• album for my project life
• wooden tray
• a cute camping mug 1
• glass teapot 1
• kodak portra 400
• website / blog
• a bento/lunch box 1
• a nice food bowl (wood/bamboo)
• less crap, more zero waste stuff

lost with purpose

• Snapshots of Afghanistan: Mazar-i-Sharif...
• 5 serious dangers of traveling in Pakist...
• Why the f*ck did we travel to Afghanista...
• Sunrise, sunset: a visit to the Kaluts, ...
• Please stop giving pens to children in I...
• The ultimate guide to backpacking in Ban...
• In photos: on the streets of India’s B...
• Paradise in Nongriat, where bridges come...

adventures of lil nicki

• That one time I decided to travel to Yem...
• A Guide to Tajikistan's Fann Mountains
• Photos from the Wakhan Corridor, Afghani...
• Two dames went on vacation to Afghanista...
• A Beginner's Guide to Central Asia: Disc...
• Mazar-e-Sharif in Photos
• Across Tajikistan in 80 photos
• Two weeks in Uzbekistan

uncharted backpacker

stories that inspire me to write

movies —

• beasts of the southern wild
• inside llewyn davis
• nymphomaniac
• moonrise kingdom
• arrival
• the reader
• interstellar
• pan's labyrinth
• my neighbor totoro
• another earth
• gone girl
• the tree of life
• captain fantastic
• life of pi
• spirited away
• mad max: fury road

movies: horror & weird —

• Diptych Dials
• Sundials
• Lunulae
  • crescent moon shaped amulets and talismans from ancient Rome
• Astrolabe
  • an instrument used by astronomers and navigators

vegan friendly restaurants & cafés

• emmi's kitchen
• wanderlust cafe & yoga
• prinz myshkin
• bodhi
• max pett
• iss dich glücklich
• wagners juicery
• kansha
• poké bay
• tushita teehaus
• lost weekend
• blitz
• gratitude
• ignaz (again)
• vegelangelo
• bellevue
• l'amar
• my indigo
• bite delite
• shami

• project life
  • 2017
  • 2018
  • 2019
• brainstorm:
  • panoramic page protectors
  • instax pics/instax page protectors

because i need to learn to love myself. inspired by bru

• you are open and charismatic. - c
• woah, your skin is so soft. - j & s
• your skin is so soft, it's almost too soft. - f
• you are beautiful. - random dude in the s-bahn
• you are so interesting one wants to know more about you. - s
• your name is lovely. - neve mcintosh *_*
• i think she broke up with him because she's in love with you. - n. (which turned out to be true. not a compliment but it was really good for my ego)
• your boobs look so fake. - mum (lol thank)
• nice hair! looks like autumn! - random dude at the garden center
• lovely hair colour! - random woman on the street
• your body is beautiful. - b.
• you are very beautiful. - random dude in budapest
• you are so pretty. and your eyes are so so beautiful, really. - g. being the CUTEST.

what i've been doing since I was a child —

• seperating & recycling waste
• being vegetarian (now vegan)
• buying books secondhand (mostly)
• using a tote instead of disgusting plastic bags
• using a wooden hairbrush

personal progress —

• stopped buying make-up remover (plastic!) and started using coconot oil (glass!) instead
• started using coconot oil for EVERYTHING - as body lotion, for my hair, lips and nails
• stopped buying ~ most ~ veggies/fruits in plastic (my goal is to ~ completely ~ stop buying them when they're in packaging)
• started using a bamboo toothbrush
• stopped buying foundation when the packag...

munich —

• john milton - das verlorene paradies
• joe dispenza
  • evolve your brain
  • becoming supernatural
  • du bist das placebo
• craig thompson - habibi
• brian vaughan - saga vol. 7
• yeonmi park - in order to live
• stefan limmer - schamanische seelenreisen
• shaun tan - the arrival
• shaun tan - tales from the inner city
• j. bowman - the outsiders
• tala mohajeri - die wildnis in dir
• frank berzbach - die kunst, ein kreatives leben zu führen
• ayobami adebayo - stay with me
• neil shubin - your inner fish
• kim thuy - vi

• Listography is becoming my personal diary but I love it.

January.

• Meditating in bed. Being one with the darkness. Then watching the stars through my skylight. Seeing them so clearly, I couldn't stop saying "fuck". Almost crying. Seeing the Cassiopeia constellation, directly above me, watching me. Thanking her. Whispering "namaste", I don't know why. Thinking "How cool would it be to see a shooting star". Seeing a shooting star exactly one second later. Life is magic.
• Obessions of the moment:
  • the first season of His Dark Materials.
    • I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS SHOW. I don't know why but I'm so fucking drawn to this world and I can't believe I never ...edition which had been on my wishlist for years....

rewatches in italics, favs in blod, star rating in brackets.

J A N U A R Y —

• The Affair — S3 (2017) (2)
• The Affair — S4 (2018) (3.5)
• Luther — S1 (2010) (5)
• Luther — S2 (2011) (4)
• Luther — S3 (2013) (3.5)
• Luther — S4 (2015) (4)
• Luther — S5 (2019) (4.5)
• The Planets (BBC) (2019) (5)
• The Shack (2017) (2)

F E B R U A R Y —

• Bodyguard — S1 (2018) (3)
• Fleabag — S1 (2016) (4)
• Fleabag — S2 (2019) (4.5)
• Midsommar (2019) (4)

• Scotland
  • Edinburgh (Beltane Festival in April?), Glen Coe, Glen Nevis, Isle of Skye
• Berchtesgaden NP
  • Königssee, Obersee, Hintersee, Zauberwald, Ramsau, Jenner, Kehlstein
• Salzburg day trip
• Jordan
  • Amman, Wadi Mujib, Wadi Rum, Petra
• BaWü
  • 7 Day Trips to Take from Stuttgart
  • Winnenden, Esslingen, Tübingen, Schwäbisch Hall, Backnang. Discover some of my roots.
• Hohe Tauern NP
• Slovenia

idea by the wonderful venus. strong opinions or: what i believe in. now, my opinions can be weird sometimes and i'm really not trying to offend anyone. i'm also finding it hard to use the right words sometimes so i'm sorry if it comes to misconceptions. and: i use the word "god" quite often even though i don't mean a christian/religious god - i use it because it's just a word everyone understands. so when i say "god" i actually mean something like a irreligious lifeforce/energy/source.

r e l i g i o n vs. s c i e n c e —

• The meaning of life and "God" is something that lies beyond the human mind, and it's something we can't comprehend. It's so much deeper and bigger than the human mind can imagine, and what people call religion (it doesn't matter which one) is just the tiniest tip of the iceberg. The human imagination can't grasp it because we ..._supposed_ to grasp it.

goals —

• travel
  • travel to at least one new country
  • travel to a new continent
  • travel with friends/lovely people
• read 52 books (5/52)
• get rid of 100 things (books, clothes, etc) (8/100)
• meet b. again.
• meet s. again.
• do yoga. meditate. heal. heal. heal.
• make art make art make art
• make friends make friends make friends
• become a professional photographer
• WORK WORK WORK
• finally GET LAID AGAIN JFC
• work on my life list
• practice spanish
  • well, start from the beginning. sigh.

series —

• marco polo
• the haunting of hill house
• black mirror
• the umbrella academy
• salem
• masters of sex
• the originals
• the affair ✔
• what we do in the shadows
• lucifer
• hilda
• the prisoner
• sex education
• our planet
• tin star
• fleabag ✔
• fingersmith
• breaking bad (partly rewatch)
• walking the americas

for work —

sometimes i don't feel like my mental illness is an illness. sometimes it feels more like a spiritual gift i can't explain. i have another list for this "illness" but on this one i wanna focus on the good or more spiritual side of it. this is more of a brainstorm that's gonna be deleted later on.

currently...

• feeling
  • timeless. maybe that's why i'm not afraid of death AT ALL. if anything, i sometimes can't wait to experience death. (what i'm more afraid of is dying before fulfilling my life purpose.) when my grandma died i didn't really mourn because i felt in my heart that she was okay, that she was still alive, even after her "death".
  • a deep connection to space.
  • alien. as if earth isn't my true home. feeling homesick all the time, even when i'm "home". feeling like an alien, some peo...

brands that test on animals or support animal cruelty

• astor
• avon
• benefit
• bobbi brown
• chanel
• clinique
• dior
• dolce & gabbana
• dove
• durex
• essie
• estee lauder
• garnier
• giorgio armani
• guerlain
• guhl
• head & shoulders
• kiehl's
• l'occitane

(aka languages I wish I could speak)

• hawaiian
• swahili
• isizulu
• afrikaans
• japanese
• gaelic (scottish & irish)
• tibetan
• arabic
• nepali
• hindi
• balinese
• indonesian
• vietnamese
• sanskrit
• bengali
• urdu
• persian/farsi
• welsh
• māori
• hebrew

photography.

• Emilie Ristevski
• Karl Shakur
• Kamila Kansy
• Benjamin Hardman
• Dylan Furst
• James Lloyd Cole

places

• hohe tauern national park | east tyrol
• berchtesgaden national park | bavaria

mountains —

• switzerland
  • augstmatthorn
  • monte generoso
  • pilatus, lucerne
  • brienzer rothorn
• bavaria
  • herzogstand (again)
  • hochfelln
  • jenner
  • jochberg
  • wallberg
  • wank
  • archenkanzel
  • herzogstand - heimgarten gratwanderung