[ instead of only listing the good things about my days, i will list the bad things of the day also. it is a way to me to see that there are ways to be happy (even if just for a little while) in days that things seems to be falling apart ]

— October

• 01 - 31 ◉ feeling guilty, diana's situtation, laura and I are not talking with each other in the last week of the month.

— September

• 30 ◉ math class
• 29 ◉ going home early due to sadness and dizziness // anxious due to the wait for the response
• 26-28 ◉ i stopped talking to a lot of friends and some of them are mad at me
• 24 ◉ the talk about A
• 22/23 ◉ feeling sad and wanting to go away and stop talking to everyone
• 7 - 17 ◉ ten weird day with euphoric, sad and strange moments. summary: diana does like me, but knows how abusive was our almost relationship and decided to finish it; gabriel may be in a abusive relationship with his current 'girlfriend'; i am with a horrible mental and physical health and i did go to a doctor and was hospitalized for one night; i fought with my parents a lot; a lot of anxiety and bad thoughts
• 6 ◉ she pretended she did nothing
• 5 ◉ she broke my heart
• 1 ◉ anxiety attack

— August

• 30 ◉ A tried to contact me again
• 29 ◉ mess of feelings + fighting with di again
• 27 ◉ anxiety
• 23 ◉ diana was stupid with gabriel
• 22 ◉ dinner & miguel
• 18 ◉ two men in a car catcalled me and my friends // he had a panic attack (but i helped him calm down)
• 15 ◉ i was a bad person with ana // i fought with di about going out with her and her friends because i don't feel comfortable and she seems to not understand it
• 11 ◉ the day was awful (lau and fê)
• 6 ◉ feeling anxious about being around a lot of people
• 5 ◉ enzo ruined everything and now i am fucking mad with him // feeling anxious and distressed because of what enzo told gabriel's girlfriend
• 4 ◉ feeling lonely and stupid // biology grades

— June

• 28 ◉ having a little fight with my parents // diana acting in the same way she acts with me (sweet and lovable) but with fernanda // gabriel was occupied so i couldn't talk to him // feeling ignored by everyone and anxious about everything // crying a lot and not sleeping at all
• 26 ◉ the whole marina joyce thing (i was scared af and i took a long time to finally fall sleep)
• 25 ◉ A forced ana to kiss her // i had a discussion with di
• 23 ◉ missing talking to gabriel because he knows how to calm me down // feeling insecure and afraid and anxious and stupid and lost // wanting a hug so bad but no one can see it
• 21 ◉ feeling insecure about diana
• 15 ◉ overthinking about diana and i again // crying to sleep :(
• 14 ◉ nightmare again // feeling insecure about being alone in the park // overthink about diana and her possible wish to give up on me because our relationship would be "impossible"
• 13 ◉ nightmare // dinner
• 11 ◉ feeling like shit and wanting to come back home
• 5 ◉ V texted me telling me about how A was

— June

• 28 ◉ anxiety during biology class (arghh!!)
• 24 ◉ philosophy and geography grade // the large amount of the dislikes on youtube #proudtobe video
• 23 ◉ not being a nice person to ana even though i was only trying to help // physics test // 'fighting' with diana // not being able to talk with gabriel and giovanni and laugh about stupid jokes with them during break because it fucking calms me down