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- my anxiousness overcoming my desire to go out
- feeling ugly in everything I wear
- when my hair just will not go 'right'
- last minute things
- when I get so worked up over something I feel physically ill
- headaches after crying
- the fact that I feel fat when I am still on the lower side of my healthy BMI weight range
- the way my mother keeps bringing up that I've put on weight, insinuating that it's a bad thing when it should be good since I'm finally in the healthy weight range after years of being underweight.
- missing so many opportunities
- because I feel like there is no point in doing something
- or that it will not work
- my constant thought that I have no reason to be here
- when I think about my future, and all I see is blank
- people harassing me about why I don't have a boyfriend
- "are you a lesbian?"
- when my parents think that telling me to "be happy" will make me just that
- not having a best friend
- or basically any one close enough to talk to properly
- having a grown body and technically being an 'adult' when I'm still a child
- having all these new responsibilities, feeling overwhelmed
- when I put a lot of effort and time into making dinner and nobody sits down with me to eat it - they just take it to their room
- when nobody thanks me for it too
- people thinking I'm 'crazy' for preferring fall/winter over summer
- "it's un-australian"
- people just generally not being able to understand or relate
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