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  • "a far sea moves in my ear." — from 'ariel'
  • "god, i overflow with the vitality and ecstasy of being alive!"
  • "i am possessive about time alone."
  • "i am pretty much disgusted with human behavior most of the time."
  • "i have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. or i can go mad by ricocheting in between."
  • "i think i’m in love with missing you more than i’m in love with you."
  • "i took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart: i am, i am, i am."
  • "it is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere."
  • "please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. there are times when i will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand."
  • "please, i want so badly for the good things to happen."
  • "somehow i have a special place in my heart for the ocean. i like the way the water changes from one mood to another – from high waves on dark, stormy days, to tranquil ripples on sunny days."
  • "the mists are part of the ancient paraphernalia – souls, rolled in the doom-noise of the sea." from 'finisterre'
  • "what horrifies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age."
  • "something in me wants more. i can't rest."
  • "well, i tried drowning, but that didn't work; somehow the urge to life, mere physical life, is damn strong, and i felt that i could swim forever straight out into the sea and sun and never be able to swallow more than a gulp or two of water and swim on. The body is amazingly stubborn when it comes to sacrificing itself to the annihilating directions of the mind."
  • "i do think that it is hard for me to share myself with everyone. my introspection and queer thoughts always make me feel no one will understand – except someone i love. when i love someone, i make myself increasingly vulnerable to them – and give them the power to hurt me by letting them know my sensitive spots."
  • "if i lived by the sea i would never be really sad. i get an immense sense of eternity and peace from the ocean. i can lose myself in staring at it hour after hour."
may 27 2021 ∞
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