CURRENT

  • never having achieved "enough" in my life
  • the relentless fuckin march of time lol
  • not being in control of my body
  • the dark? why tho lmao

SALIENT AT ONE POINT OR ANOTHER

abstract

  • existential
    • always returning to a default state of unhappiness w my life and self
    • never finding a meaningful career that can keep me genuinely happy over a long period of time
    • dying with too many regrets
    • uncertainty
    • lack of control
    • making unfixable mistakes
  • interpersonal
    • being trapped under someone else's will
    • conflict/hostility
    • social rejection
    • being negatively judged
    • being a burden on others
    • being abandoned by close friends
    • being unable to help someone who needs my help
    • hurting/offending others
    • being misunderstood
    • revealing weakness or vulnerability
    • seeing others' vulnerability
    • being humiliated
    • being ignored
    • being the center of attention
    • being infantilized
    • social interaction with people i don't know well
  • moral
    • cruelty and sadism
    • the possibility that i am secretly a bad person

physical

  • somatic
    • death
    • pain/suffering
    • germs/getting sick
    • getting cancer/schizophrenia/other serious illness
    • pregnancy
    • vomiting
    • having a severe allergy that i am unaware of
    • choking while alone
    • sudden loud noises
  • people
    • psychopaths
    • murderers
    • rapists
    • kidnappers
    • stalkers
    • scam artists
    • thieves
    • nihilists
    • any kind of extremist
    • angry people
    • doctors
    • strangers staring at you
    • strangers wanting to talk
  • situations
    • making/receiving phone calls
    • flying in planes
    • heights
    • climate change
    • leaving limbs hanging off the bed when i sleep
    • getting into a car accident
    • getting ticketed/pulled over
    • being the target of road rage
    • unexpected knocking at the door
    • seeing a person crying
    • going over long bridges
    • food being wasted
    • wasting money
  • creatures/things
    • most bugs
    • dogs without leashes
    • anything rotting/in a state of decay
    • monsters
    • violence
    • repetitive patterns of small holes
    • rust
    • mold
    • computer viruses
    • complicated paperwork
aug 9 2014 ∞
jan 5 2021 +