- withering sense of inadequacy
- self-comparison to younger, more talented writers with endless publications
- self-comparison to peers with independent living situations & advanced levels of self-sufficiency
- seeing effusive & inordinately compassionate expressions of love between strangers on the internet
- seeing unsolicited & ineluctably sincere expressions of love between friends on the internet
- seeing careless & vehement expressions of hatred between strangers on the internet
- come to think of it, the entire vast & nauseating pageant of human indifference, pettiness, & cruelty
- loud & vicious arguments with family members over stupid shit
- interpersonal rejection, no matter how slight
- gnawing black void of feeling unloved or insufficiently loved
aug 19 2015 ∞
may 22 2016 +