user image

"You are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin, standing trail for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins."

Jamie follows:
Elaine autobio (My Bucket List)
favorites (favorite girl and boy names)
people (Things I want to do with Ian Someday)
television (Seasons We Need to Purchase)
movies (Movies to see)
list icon
  • Jim and Pam Halpert (The Office)
  • Evan and Larissa Cook (Real life friendsies)
  • Jesse and Rebecca Katsopolis (Full House <3)
  • Tori Wardrip and Luke Boyd (Real life friendsies)
  • Derek and Meredith Shepherd (Grey's Anatomy)
  • Simba and Nala (The Lion King)
  • Matt Saracen and Julie Taylor (Friday Night Lights)
  • Edward Scissorhands and Kim (Edward Scissorhands)
  • Juno MacGuff and Paulie Bleeker (Juno)
  • Floyd and Betty Schanaman (My Grandparents <3)
  • Wall-E and Eve (Wall-E)
sep 13 2010 ∞
sep 13 2010 +
list icon
  • A walk in closet
  • A fenced in backyard.
  • It must be a house. (No more of this apartment shit.)
  • A dishwasher.
  • Plenty of storage space.
aug 13 2010 ∞
aug 18 2010 +

Pros :

  • If I'm there, that means I was accepted into the program, and that is awesome.
  • Graduating will mean a college degree and a more successful future.
  • It will be an opportunity to meet new people, and be in a new environment.
    • I'm over Billings.
  • Not being surrounded by people that I know, and fun things to do, will give me more time to focus on school work.
  • Evan and I have done the long distance thing before, and it only made our love stronger.
    • It's an opportunity to write each other letters, and do cute things for each other all the time.

Cons :

jun 26 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • I am extremely OCD about tangles in my hair. All I can think about when I'm in the wind is how badly I want to brush my hair.
    • This is the absolute worst thing about wind.
  • Because it makes dust and junk fly everywhere and it gets in your eyes and hurts sooo bad. Or dirt gets in your teeth and makes them gritty. Gross.
  • You usually have to walk with your head down and can't see where you're going.
  • Random garbage and things end up in your yard, or something that you left in your yard flys away.
    • Like those little plastic swimming pools, or inflatable things.
      • And lawn chairs. Or those umbrellas for y...
apr 6 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon

(She's my dog)

  • She knows our routine. Every morning when I get up, she comes in the kitchen with me while I make Evan breakfast. When I leave to take Evan to work, she goes back to bed. She knows that I will be right back home to come back to snuggle with her, and she's always extra snuggly in the morning.
  • She learns new tricks really fast. Her latest is shake, and it's soooo freaking cute when she shakes, I could give her treats and shake her paw all day long.
  • When I get home from work, she is always sleeping in the bed, and waits for me to come say hi. Her fur is always messed up on her face when she wakes up and it's freaking adorable, and funny.
  • She never barks at other dogs when I take her on walks.
  • She has only had a couple potty accidents...
apr 1 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • Get a second piercing in my right ear lobe to match the left.
  • Buy a new bumper for my car.
    • Tail light
  • Get this awesome tattoo.
    • But I don't know if I really want one, or where I would put it.
  • Buy the series box set of Friends.
  • Donate all of my old shirts that I never ever wear.
    • Throw away all of my old shoes that I never wear.
      • I just have a hard time getting rid of these things. I don't know why. (But I finally did it.)
  • Get a different hairstyle.
feb 13 2010 ∞
aug 14 2010 +

I can't decide who I dislike more than who, so these aren't necessarily in order. A.

  • You suck at your job 90% of the time.
  • Your butt chin is very unattractive, and it bothers me to even look at you.
  • You are soooooo freaking fake, it drives me crazy.

T.

  • You act like a 5 year old most of the time.
  • You need to take responsibility for your own acts.
  • You need to stop acting like you are the best thing that ever happened to the Olive Garden.
    • Honestly, we would be better off without you.
  • When I am expoing, you seriously need to ...
jan 11 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • Drink more water.
  • Take Luca on more walks.
  • Putting more money in my savings account.
  • Reading more of my books that I own and haven't read yet.
  • Keeping up with the laundry.
  • Sewing and making jewelry like I used to.
  • Exercising.
    • Mostly Wii Fit.
    • When the weather is nice, I will run outside again.
  • Saying nice things to Evan, in place of the sarcastic mean things.
    • He does it to me too. We're always joking, but it still isn't nice, or positive for our relationship.
  • Trying to brush luca on a daily basis.
jan 9 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +

Dear Larissa, thanks for letting me steal your idea. Greatest one ever. You're the coolest. <3

  • "And an orange or a grapefruit. We don't know. (Pause) It's an orange. I smell it." -Larissa
  • "Hey, this is tasty. Tasty when you are wastey." Erin
  • "It smells like a diaper on a date in here." Mark
    • "Alright alcohol." Larissa
    • "What are you trying to boss it around for?" Me
  • "When we stand up, we will probably be drunk. Wanna stand up?" Larissa
  • "I just recently learned it is hard to chew when you are drunk." Evan C.
  • "Edward Falldown." Lady at Dillards
  • "I feel like I'm going to shoot my pants." Tim
dec 11 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • I don't like loose hangers being all over the place between our clothes in the closet. They all have to be at the back, together.
  • When I set alarms, I check them at least ten times before I can fall asleep. I will literally be laying down with my eyes closed, after already checking my alarms like five times, and I will get up and re-check, just to make sure it's set to the right time, A.M., etc. The thought of not waking up when I have to freaks me out.
  • I despise the sound of doorbells and knocking on the door. I wish there was another way for people to let me know they are there. For some reason, these sounds freak me out.
  • I obsessive compulsively brush my hair. I have a hairbrush in my bathroom, bedroom, purse, car, and coat pocket. Tangles in my hair drive me crazy, and I brush it a...
dec 27 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon

Every asterisk is someone new.

  • You are sooo adorable right now, napping on the couch. You mean everything to me. You don't know how badly I want to marry you.
  • You are making the wrong decision, and we wish we could get that through your pretty little head.
  • The sound of your voice is worse than a car wreck. You are a rude, mean, ignorant person and I don't like being around you.
  • I admire you, and I'm proud of everything you are, and you are the most amazing father to your children. They couldn't be more lucky.
  • I regret all the tears I cried over you, asshole.
  • You're the best, and I can't imagine what my life would be like if you would never have come into it. I loooove you.
dec 8 2009 ∞
aug 14 2010 +
list icon
  • If I were a month, I'd be...April.
  • If I were a day of the week, I'd be...Thursday.
  • If I were a time of day, I'd be...Sunset.
  • If I were a planet, I'd be...Neptune.
  • If I were a sea animal, I'd be...a Starfish.
  • If I were a direction, I'd be...Left.
  • If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be...a Bookcase.
  • If I were a historical figure, I'd be...Frankenstein. (I know, he doesn't really count, but I <3 him.)
  • If I were a liquid, I'd be...Rain.
  • If I were a gemstone, I'd be...Amethyst.
  • If I were a tree, I'd be...a Weeping Willow.
  • If I were a tool, I'd be...a Soldering Iron.
  • If I were a flower, I'd be a...Calla Lily...
dec 23 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • Chapstick
  • My movie ticket stubs. (I have one from basically every single movie I've been to since I started going to movies in the theatre.)
  • Bread bag clips
  • Clear barrel blue ink Bic pens that I have made run out of ink. (I have about 10 of them. Trust me, it's cool.)
  • State spoons
  • Anything remotely sentimental
  • Books
  • Foreign Currency (just bills, no coins)
  • Pictures on Jones Soda boxes
  • All of the state quarters, and all of the new, weird quarters that are coming out.
    • Just one of each.
  • Over sized novelty plastic drink glasses from Vegas.
oct 14 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • Really really want to move into a new house RIGHT NOW .
  • Really want to organize all of my photos and get them into albums and out of their gigantic pile in a box under my bad.
  • Really want to start blogging, but for some reason, I just can't start. I don't know why.
    • atthisvolumeee.blogspot.com
  • Really want to go shopping for fall clothes because I loveeeeeeee fall clothes.
    • Can't afford to do so, though.
  • Really want to buy a nice camera and drive all around town and take pictures of all of the beauty out there.
  • Really want to go snowboarding more than once or twice this winter.
  • Really want to get good grades in my classes this semester.
sep 14 2010 ∞
sep 15 2010 +
list icon
  • Don't Know Why -Come Away With Me
  • Chasing Pirates -The Fall
  • Humble Me -Feels Like Home
  • The Prettiest Thing -Feels Like Home
  • Heart of Mine -New York City
  • The Nearness of You -Come Away With Me
  • Waiting -The Fall
  • Those Sweet Words -Feels Like Home
  • Turn Me On -Come Away With Me
  • Don't Miss You At All -Feels Like Home
  • You've Ruined Me -The Fall
  • Shoot the Moon -Come Away With Me
  • Strange Transmissions -New York City
  • I Wouldn't Need You -The Fall
  • Be Here to Love Me -Feels Like Home
  • December -The Fall
  • Back to Manhattan -The Fall
  • Come Away With Me -Come Away With Me
sep 10 2010 ∞
sep 10 2010 +
list icon

Need:

  • Favorite jeans
  • Cute shoes
  • Pajammies
  • Toothbrush
  • Driver's License
  • Makeup (Not completely necessary, but you might want it)
  • Party face

Things that she doesn't need:

  • Money
  • Sleepiness
  • Evan
  • A shirt. This will be provided at the time of our arrival.
jun 28 2010 ∞
jun 28 2010 +
list icon

Seriously. I try sooooo many different mascaras, and still haven't found one that I really really like. Larissa says I should try Clinique, so that will be my next buy. I don't know exactly what I want for my lashes, but I know I haven't found it.

  • Maybelline Define a Lash
  • Maybelline Full 'N Soft
  • Maybelline Great Lash
  • Maybelline Lash Stiletto
  • Maybelline Colossal Volum' Express
  • Maybelline The Falsies
  • Cover Girl Exact Eyelights
  • Cover Girl Lash Exact
  • Cover Girl Lash Blast
  • L'Oreal Double Extend
  • Rimmel London Sexy Curves
  • Rimmel London Glam'Eyes
  • Hard Candy Lash Call
  • No.7 Lash 360
apr 7 2010 ∞
aug 14 2010 +
list icon

I like to cross things off. =] April 5th-12th. I'm awesome.

  • Deposit paycheck.
    • Pay MDU bill.
    • Pay Capital One.
  • Go to MSU-B and talk to financial aid.
  • Dishes!
  • Get materials for Bridal Shower invites.
    • Get envelopes addressed and ready.
  • Talk to Off the Leaf.
    • Their loss!
  • Make appointment to get eyebrows waxed ASAP.
  • Clean out car.
    • Vaccuum inside, and windex inside of windows.
  • Take Luca to Petsmart.
apr 4 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • Holden Caulfield
    • However, I might accidentally fall in love with him. The Catcher in the Rye really is one of the best books of all time. It makes me mad that a lot of girls say this to be trendy, but I say this because it's true. Anyway, Holden is so stinkin' cool.
      • "Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."
  • The Cast of The Office
    • Really, I would love to just spend a day in the office. That would probably be the time of my life. I love every single character in the show. They are all so different, and all so awesome for so many different reasons.
  • Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower
feb 13 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon

I don't know why I always take the same way home. 80% of the time, there is a train. However, when there isn't a train, it's a super fast route.

  • I send random texts to my friends.
  • Balance my checkbook.
  • Make lists of things that I need to buy in my little notebook that I keep in my purse.
  • When Evan's with me, we make kissy time.
  • I scan through the radio stations.
  • Organize my CD's that Evan puts back out of order.
  • Look at the pictures in my phone, even though I look at them all the time.
  • Read quotes in my notepad in my phone, even though I have read them one million times.
  • Look at all the people in the cars around me and try to decide whether or not they are in a hurry to get to where they need...
jan 11 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • When Evan takes his socks off inside out.
    • He also does this with his shirt.
  • When servers don't check back until after you've finished your food.
  • The fact that Evan basically never takes Luca out to potty in the middle of the night.
  • My neighbors chain their dog up to their railing and the chain isn't even long enough for the poor dog to make it to the yard. It poops and pees all over the sidewalk right by their stairs, then they walk in it. Disgusting. Take care of your dog!
  • When the toothpaste tube gets messy.
    • When Evan doesn't put the lid back on the toothpaste.
  • When I stub my toe, or hit my knee on the...
jan 9 2010 ∞
aug 14 2010 +
list icon
  • "'Cause if I can't make myself feel better, how am I supposed to expect anyone else to give a shit." If Winter Ends
  • "You are new with a promise of a love you will probably never find, and touch that you can really feel. The brokenness inside as hope and less collide." Touch
  • "Let's sail away to where the water goes- some open, endless space." Tereza and Thomas
  • "So please forgive what I have done. No, you can't stay mad at the setting sun. 'Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually, there is nothing left to do but sleep." No Lies, Just Love
  • "And these clocks keep unwinding and completely ignore everything that we hate or adore. Once the page of a calendar is turned it's no more, so tell me then what was it for?" A Scale, a Mirror, and Those Indifferent Clocks
  • "Does he kiss your eyelids in the morning..._The Calendar Hung Itself_
jan 8 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • "Dude. I wish they had a sign up telling us when they card. Haha"-Larissa
  • "Yeah we are. I'm feeding him water and I said there's no alcohol and he said bull shit! You lie!"-Larissa
  • "No Evan would have punched me. I did take a break from my reading to stand up and nodd approvingly."-Larissa
  • "They plawyed it...Pjayed it."-Jessica (Nice try...drunk.) hahah. =)
  • "Oh yeah. Evan told me I won a million dollars and to call back to receive it in minus give or take approximately point five minutes I believe were his exact words."-Brandon
  • "Puked as I was callin you. How's Vegas?"-Natalia
  • "Miss kitty found the squirmel!!!"-Crystal
  • "I will be slow and they will remove me. The hair net and beard guard will mess up...
nov 11 2009 ∞
sep 13 2010 +
list icon
  • Bungee Jump
  • Skydive
  • Purposely kill an animal
  • Dye my hair
  • Learn to like tomatoes
  • Get the hatred out of my heart that I have for Creep
  • Contemplate suicide
  • Pierce my tongue
  • Swim in deep water and not be afraid
    • Hopefully I can get over that one someday
  • Have an abortion
  • Be in an airplane and not imagine what it would be like if it crashed
  • Eat bloody steak
    • Order my steak anything other than well. I ate a piece of bloody steak. It was okay, but the idea grosses me out. Ew.
dec 29 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • Mr. Clean
    • My first fish. He was an algae eater. I don't know how he died, but I remember my dad trying to feed him green beans to make him better. I loved that ugly guy.
  • Babbs
    • She was a homing pigeon. We had a huge coop in our backyard, and about 25 pigeons, but she was my personal bird. She had feathered feet, and a feathered crown, and was peach and white colored. She was beautiful, and so sweet, and would sit on my shoulder while I walked around outside. She got eaten by a police man's dalmation that ransacked the cage and killed almost all of our birds. =( That was the end of that.
  • Blanco
nov 11 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon

Non-Alcoholic

  • Sprite
  • Liptons Lemon Iced Tea
  • Iced Caramel Macchiato (City Brew)
  • Peach Smoothie (City Brew)
  • Chocolate Milk
  • Water with Lemon (but NEVER at a restaurant)
  • Pepsi
  • Peach lemonade
  • Cran-Apple Juice

Alcoholic

  • Vodka Lemonade
  • Appletini
  • Cosmopolitan
  • Wild Punch (B. Dub Dub)
  • Electric Limonade (B. Dub Dub)
  • Sex on the Beach..with a blankie
  • Fuzzy Navel
  • Wildberry Bellini (Olive Garden)
nov 13 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • The Perks of Being a Wallflower
  • The Catcher in the Rye
  • The Burn Journals
  • Love in the Present Tense
  • The Five People you Meet in Heaven
  • The Glass Castle
  • Frankenstein
  • Invisible Monsters
  • Lullaby
  • Grab on to me Tightly as if I Knew the Way
  • I Know You're Out There
  • You Remind Me of Me
  • The Road
oct 17 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +

So, my sister wants me to start scrapbooking with her. I have a few reasons why I don't want to get into scrapbooking, but even more reasons why I do. Everyone suggests starting with recent events and not going back in time.

  • A cute lovey page with all the cutest pictures of me and Evan
  • Luca bear from puppy to current
  • Baby Julian
  • Caleb & Isaac
  • Our future new home in December
  • Baby Emma
  • Christmas 2010
sep 13 2010 ∞
sep 13 2010 +
list icon
  • Alpine Vanilla with Reeses, Whoppers, and Heath candy topping.
  • Mountain Blackberry mixed with Alpine Vanilla topped with Heath.
  • Dulce de Leche with Whoppers and White Chocolate Chips.
  • Original Tart Frozen Yogurt with fresh Blackberries, Boysenberries, and Blueberries.
aug 13 2010 ∞
sep 20 2010 +
list icon
  • It doesn't feel like home.
    • I was so sick of living in Pryor that we didn't take the time to look around. This place was available and ready and approved us, so we jumped into it.
    • I am definitely moving out in November when our lease is up.
  • The sprayer on the kitchen sink has basically no pressure and is useless.
  • The bedroom closet is not nearly big enough.
  • There isn't enough storage space.
    • Most of our things are being stored in Evan's parent's camper in Pryor because there is nowhere to put anything here. You know, all those things that you need, but aren't necessities.
  • No dishwasher.
  • No AC.
apr 20 2010 ∞
aug 18 2010 +

Funny how life works like this.

  • I never knew what gluten intolerence was until my friend, Bailey, told me she can't have gluten because it makes fluid build up in her kness. Now it seems like everyone and their neighbor is gluten free. Has it always been this way?
  • Tori introduced me to the song Animal by Miike Snow (amazing) and now I hear this song everywhere and on everything.
  • I saw Twilight in the theater without knowing anything about it, and never hearing of it previously. After seeing it, I realized that Twilight was actually a national phenomenon.
  • I went to Vegas for my 21st birthday, and now it seems like everyoneeee is going/has gone to Vegas since then. Maybe a lot of people were going before, but I never noticed!
  • When I found out that I needed to get my ...
apr 5 2010 ∞
jun 28 2010 +
list icon
  • The Con -The Con
  • And Darling -If It Was You
  • Back In Your Head -The Con
  • Not Tonight -If It Was You
  • Someday -Sainthood
  • So Jealous -So Jealous
  • Call if Off -The Con
  • You Wouldn't Like Me -So Jealous
  • Relief Next to Me -The Con
  • Where Does the Good Go? -So Jealous
  • I Know I Know I Know -So Jealous
  • Fix You Up -So Jealous
  • North Shore -Sainthood
  • I Won't Be Left -So Jealous
  • Underwater -If It Was You
  • Wake Up Exhausted -So Jealous
  • You Went Away -The Con
mar 6 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • American Eagle
    • AE.com
  • Target
  • Shiloh 14
  • TJ Maxx
  • Amazon.com
  • Hastings
  • Famous Footwear
  • World Market
  • Borders
  • Costco
  • The Game Chest (At the mall in Dallas)
  • Hooligans
feb 13 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • When I had just gotten my learner's permit, I was backing my brother's car out of the driveway. I accidently ran over a huge rock that was keeping the mailbox up, and tore off part of the bumper. Oops.
  • In 9th grade, I was sitting in the middle of the front seat in my friend's Tarus. We were pulling out of our school's parking lot, and BAM, she hit a lady riding her bicycle. The windshield caved in on us, and that lady's face was jacked up. Scariest accident ever. The lady ended up having to get reconstructive facial surgery, but she is okay.
  • Shortly after that accident, I was with the same friends in the same car, and we got rear ended while crusin' 24th street. I was wearing my seatbelt, but it didn't lock, and I hit my head on the dashboard. I sat in the back of an ambulance for a long time, but I never went to the hospital. I had hyperextended whiplash, and that guy's insurance paid for me to go to th..._My mom made me stop hanging out with thos..._
dec 29 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • Going back to sleep after I drop Evan off at work.
  • Less eating so many sweets.
    • I have a major sweet tooth, and it's really good at contributing to my butt and love handles.
  • Less snacking on junk food.
    • This also makes a nice contribution.
  • Less being lazy.
  • Drinking less pop.
  • Less procrastination.
  • Less spending money on fast food/going out to eat when I could make dinner at home.
jan 9 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • People who specifically post a questionnaire bulletin, not because they want to do it for fun or entertainment, but beacuse they want to use it as a vent to complain about their relationship issues.
    • That's immature and annoying.
  • Girls that put their orientation as Bi because that is some sort of cool trend?
  • The "MySpace" pursed lip pictures and mirror pictures.
  • Girls that take pictures of their bodies, like lifting their shirt up or wearing a bikini, specifically for their MySpace album.
  • The phrase "Pc4Pc"
  • I'm sentimentally attached to my MySpace acccount...otherwise I would delete it, but I just can't.
jan 26 2010 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • Hancock Dr.
  • Rimrock Rd.
  • Harvard Ave.
  • Howard Ave.
  • Governors Blvd.
  • Pryor Loop Road
  • Miles Ave.
dec 29 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
  • Tomatoes
    • Spaghetti Sauce
    • Pizza Sauce
    • Lasagna
    • Ketchup
      • Occasionally eat it with fries, but that's rare.
    • Fresh Tomatoes
    • V8
    • Tomato Soup
  • Mushrooms
  • Bacon
    • Unless it's super crispy and by itself. I refuse to eat anything that has bacon in it or on it.
  • Olives
    • I eat them by themselves, but not on or i...
nov 15 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +
list icon
  • Things that annoy me.
    • When people don't put the lids back on the soup all the way.
    • Cheese graters left on the counter instead of on the shelf. Don't be lazy, servers. Trays left out are even worse...unless it's clean and has a full cheese grater on it, and is ready in my line of 3 when i'm expoing.
    • When they don't throw away the little cup after putting the ginger snap crumbs on the cheesecake, or the chocolate pieces on the gelato. The garbage can is right there!
    • When servers go out of their way to pull a chair up when I'm cashing them out. I'm incredibly fast at it, so is it really necessary to sit down for those 2 seconds?
    • When servers tell me I need to pull a soup. Don't tell me how and when to do my jo...
nov 10 2009 ∞
jun 26 2010 +