january

susie save your love, allie x, mitski • fresh laundry, allie x • lost in paradise, ali, aklo • the name of the game, abba • 誰にも言わない (darenimo iwanai), hikaru utada • when it's cold i'd like to die, moby • a sadness runs through him, the hoosiers

february

the visitor, iu • blue & grey, bts • dread in my heart, mother mother • absolutamente nada, fresno • pearl diver, mitski • liquid smooth, mitski • once more to see you, mitski • i want you, mitski • forevermore, hikaru utada • first thing to go, hayley williams • hyd, hayley williams • don't call me, shinee

march

te procuro, anavitória • beep, the pussycat dolls • diga, parte 2, fresno • i want you, mitski • dose, jade baraldo • instant crush, daft punk • lament of orpheus, darren korb • Изумруд, manizha • ghost of york, as tall as lions • lilac, iu • coin, iu

april

new me, wjsn • kiss kiss, shinee • CØDE, shinee • spider, hoshi • astenia, fresno • infância, fresno • area, shinee • atlantis, shinee • come on mess me up, cub sport • if i get high, nothing but thieves • honey whiskey. nothing but thieves • Кладбище самолетов, valentin strykalo • why so serious? shinee • orgel, shinee • summer moved on, a-ha

may

melô de ilusão, duda beat • decisão de te amar, duda beat • meu coração, duda beat

i dont expect people to actually read this list but. just a warning that it might be really triggering

january

• i'm tired of not feeling in control of my own body. i'm tired of feeling numb and feeling my soul disconnected from my physical body. i'm tired of feeling distant from my emotions. i'm tired of not recognizing myself or the place i am in or, when it's worse, seeing other people's faces as a blur. i'm tired of living in memories and never actually thinking that i'm in the present (this one is so funny because i can't actually remember my memories but living in the present feels like i'm in a memory, if that makes sense).
• i'm tired of not feeling in control in other ways too. when i can't stop washing my hands and checking things and counting,...

◎: reading / ౦: to read / ◉: finished / ↺: i want to read again!

MANGA

• ◎ hiatus hunter x hunter — chapter 390
  • ↺ chapter 2
• ◎ boku no hero academia — chapter 296
• ◎ fullmetal alchemist — chapter 107
• ◎ mob psycho 100 — chapter 21
• ◎ jujutsu kaisen — chapter 134
• ◎ chainsaw man — chapter 79
• ౦ banana fish
• ౦ cardcaptor sakura
• ౦ bungo stray dogs
• ◎ on hold noragami — chapter 27
• ◉ haikyuu!!
• ◉ kimetsu no yaiba
  • ↺ ch 90

music

the book of us: entropy by day6 • sua alegria foi cancelada by fresno • the collection "story op.2" by jonghyun • the collection "story op.1" by jonghyun • mono. by rm • we by exid • willow by willow • the 1st by willow • be the cowboy by mitski • hatsukoi by hikaru utada

cartoons

avatar the last airbender • over the garden wall • adventure time • gravity falls

animes/mangas

haikyuu!! • cardcaptor sakura • kimetsu no yaiba • mob psycho 100 • fullmetal alchemist • jujutsu kaisen

tv shows

mr robot • age of youth • when the weather is fine

movies

scooby-doo 2 monsters unleashed • howl's moving castle • spirited away • portrait of a lady on fire • liz and the blue bird • doukyuusei