january

susie save your love, allie x, mitski • fresh laundry, allie x • lost in paradise, ali, aklo • the name of the game, abba • 誰にも言わない (darenimo iwanai), hikaru utada • when it's cold i'd like to die, moby • a sadness runs through him, the hoosiers

february

the visitor, iu • blue & grey, bts • dread in my heart, mother mother • absolutamente nada, fresno • pearl diver, mitski • liquid smooth, mitski • once more to see you, mitski • i want you, mitski • forevermore, hikaru utada • first thing to go, hayley williams • hyd, hayley williams • don't call me, shinee

march

te procuro, anavitória • beep, the pussycat dolls • diga, parte 2, fresno • i want you, mitski • dose, jade baraldo • instant crush, daft punk • lament of orpheus, darren korb • Изумруд, manizha • ghost of york, as tall as lions • lilac, iu • coin, iu

april

new me, wjsn • kiss kiss, shinee • CØDE, shinee • spider, hoshi • astenia, fresno • infância, fresno • area, shinee • atlantis, shinee • come on mess me up, cub sport • if i get high, nothing but thieves • honey whiskey. nothing but thieves • Кладбище самолетов, valentin strykalo • why so serious? shinee • orgel, shinee • summer moved on, a-ha

may

melô de ilusão, duda beat • decisão de te amar, duda beat • meu coração, duda beat • dorothy, sulli • loop, the retuses • excuse me, nothing but thieves • cry for me, twice • cinema, cix • one last kiss, hikaru utada • easy, wjsn the black • dun dun dance, oh my girl • get better, nothing but thieves • next level, aespa • 夕凪, hikaru utada • break, kero kero bonito • sleepy, tei shi • shine on you, onew • here i am, taeyeon • love poem, iu

june

black sheep, brie larson version • nobody's home, avril lavigne • it's alright, it's ok, ashley tisdale • anti-romantic, txt • venus fly trap, marina • funeral, phoebe bridgers • dead, again, jadu heart

july

jealousy, jealousy, olivia rodrigo • me and my husband, mitski • fear of the water, syml • is there anybody here? the dear hunter • lipstick, willow • don't save me, willow • naïve, willow • because dreaming costs money, my dear, mitski • ultra som, pabllo vittar • 4ever, willow • my body's made of crushed little stars, mitski • la paura del buio, måneskin • for your love, måneskin

august

come into the water, mitski • ddd, exid • i love you, exid • i will, mitski • it's always sunny with you, {parentheses} • is there anybody here?, the dear hunter • fear of the water, syml • my heart, paramore • pool, paramore • afterlife, nothing but thieves • loop, the retuses • holiday party, weeekly • geyser, mitski • find me here, hayley williams

september

vênus em escorpião, gaby amarantos • amiúde, marina sena • arreda, gaby amarantos • stfu!, rina sawayama • fun tonight (pabllo vittar remix), lady gaga • not friends, loona • me toca, marina sena • good ones, charli xcx • just a lover, hayley williams • asystole, hayley williams • pure love, hayley williams • caught in the middle, paramore • come inside of my heart, iv of spades • bawat kaluluwa, iv of spades • fireworks, mitski • what's wrong, pvris

october

helium, key • swipe, itzy • working for the knife, mitski • eighteen (end of my world), key • not gonna get us, t.a.t.u. • the feels, twice • epilogue, iu • lilac, iu • wine, taeyeon • spark, taeyeon • here i am, taeyeon • lol, taeyeon • weekend, taeyeon • savage, aespa • aenergy, aespa • lucid dream, aespa • iconic, aespa • like a fire, shinee • talk too much, coin • good night, hikaru utada • palavras no corpo, gal costa • what the water gave me, florence + the machine • apollo, last dinosaurs • heat waves, glass animals • o peso do mundo, fresno • sono profundo, fresno • stonehenge, fresno • celebrating nothing, phantogram

november

essa coisa (acorda - trabalha - repete - ... fresno • casa assombrada, fresno • caminho não tem fim, fresno • leave my body, florence and the machine • lonely, palaye royale • dead hearts, stars • my own person, smoothboi ezra • disappear daily, ollie mn • alone in the universe, tei shi • dead, again, jadu heart • solitaire, marina • agora deixa, fresno • zero, last dinosaurs

jan 6 2021 ∞
nov 11 2021 +

i dont expect people to actually read this list but. just a warning that it might be really triggering and this is really personal! there is only negative stuff here.

january

    • i'm tired of not feeling in control of my own body. i'm tired of feeling numb and feeling my soul disconnected from my physical body. i'm tired of feeling distant from my emotions. i'm tired of not recognizing myself or the place i am in or, when it's worse, seeing other people's faces as a blur. i'm tired of living in memories and never actually thinking that i'm in the present (this one is so funny because i can't actually remember my memories but living in the present feels like i'm in a memory, if that makes sense).
    • i'm tired of not feeling in control in ot...
jan 6 2021 ∞
nov 11 2021 +

◎: reading / ౦: to read / ◉: finished / ↺: i want to read again!

MANGA

    • hiatus hunter x hunter — chapter 390
      • ↺ chapter 2
    • ◎ witch hat atelier — chapter 51
    • ◎ jujutsu kaisen — chapter 163
    • ◎ chainsaw man — chapter 79
    • ◎ vanitas no carte — chapter 8
    • ◎ tokyo revengers — chapter 60
    • ◎ our dreams at dusk — chapter 8
    • ◎ blue period — chapter 10
    • ◎ mob psycho 100 — chapter 21
    • ◎ boku no hero academia — chapter 309
    • ◎ fullmetal alchemist — chapter 107
    • ౦ banana fish
    • ౦ cardcaptor sakura
    • ౦ bungo stray dogs
sep 17 2020 ∞
nov 11 2021 +
jan 12 2021 ∞
oct 28 2021 +