- 24: i had a black ford 150 but i couldn't get in and it would just roll down the street with the door open; A with a lot of curly hair, singing a song making references to me, but i woke up before i could confirm;
- 20: aliens, always coming in dark, foreboding clouds; hanging out with A. but at the same time he is a child that needs his mother to help with pull-ups
- 18: j was here playing a gig, not at the usual place, and then he came to visit me at home. Mom came in and he had to hide in the closet. When my mom left I watched myself go into a large closet that was far away and look up and he fell down, guessing he was hiding. He was angry and said he shouldn’t have come to see an ugly, ungrateful girl and then he left; a in pink (celebrating a Valentine’s Day birthday?) and I avoided him but eventually went into the Basement and he was watching video games and holding a baseball bat, but then we lasted down together and he told me to move over and i moved backwards, away from him, but he said wrong way, and as I moved closer I woke up; an old friend mad at me for some reason that I point blank told her I didn’t understand but she shrugged and didn’t have a reason
- location: usual music place - a dark bar down an alley in the city, it’s titled M something. Sometimes they have concerts outdoors in front. Very small rooms and not much space to move.
- location: basement - down the stairs of some house, then a brown and red wooden winding narrow staircase, carpeted and wood paneled walls, bookcases with books? Records? Old brown leather furniture, a rocking chair, a small crt tv for video games, a door outside to the patio in the backyard. Always leads from a kitchen.
- 17: we got a new cat and named it pipton, but couldn't remember it; my mom would call her phone and leave herself voicemails instead of using the audio recording app;
- 15: the gang of kids returned, and walked down past my house, down my street, past all the houses. I wouldn’t have been able to see them, but the view kept changing, which I thought was really weird. The kids set off a bomb, a prank, then ran before loud explosions and purple smoke flowed into a big mushroom cloud over the italian’s house across the street. People started coming out of their houses, screaming and terrified, and i tried to yell it was just kids playing a prank and it was harmless but the loud noises drowned out my voice.
- 13: sure he loves you, he just loves her more
- 12: seems like A represents all the lost boys in my life; i think the aliens were scheduled to arrive? i remember keeping an eye on the sky that got darker and turned a glittery purple
- 11: A and a woman he liked but she wasn’t into him; later A and I got married but no rings were exchanged, but instead he had a boutonniere on that had my name on it and got ran to get me a hair clip that he was very excited to give him, and I remember looking in the mirror and seeing my reflection and it looking realistic, i didn’t have long hair nor was my face warped
- 08: found an ipod; was sitting at a desk and didn't know what to crochet, not even with the sparkle coral yarn
- 07: my parents and aunt and uncle exploded. i'm talking pink bits. i wouldn't look around the corner and down the stairs because i didn't want to see body parts and entrails. my cousins, the daughters of the aunt and uncle came in, and i warned them but they looked anyway and were shocked. later i saw my dad, so i guess it was only my mom?; my ex J. was wandering around, but i don't remember what he was doing..oh, was also fighting with my best friend in high school, but in a really passive-aggressive way, though posters and shoves;
- 05: saw the Vault again, but didn't go in;
- 04: i kept pulling out old ipads and iphones and none of them worked and i became overwhelmed at the thought i'd have to get them all repaired to get the photos;
- 03: i had a tiny pet buffalo that slowly shrank over the duration of the dream, and at the end it died because we couldn't find a sheep to feed it; i wrote down "showed om andnkidsbthebreye" and i have no idea what that means; i was sitting on a tarp on a beach, like there were people around sitting under umbrellas etc, but the sand was asphalt, and there was no water, and my ex was having sex with a friend (an acquaintance really) right next to me
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