- 30: the correct answer was "redshift," but everyone got quiet when i answered, and even the professor, who looked like denny hamlin, asked if that was really the answer; someone told me to crochet a checkers set as a gift for someone (who?!)
- 28: benedict cumberbatch; one of the R.'s couldn't commit to marrying his fiancée, and kept going back and forth. at one time he had antennae.
- 27: which R. did i see, was it both? what pain and heartbreak, swiftly forgotten
- 23: swimming behind a large blue shark as it pushed a large white blob ahead of it, its food;
- 22: best friends in elementary school and high school both got suspended for something, i know one had a trial like thing and a big whiteboard was brought out with pictures and one was of a vagina, and the other had a big secret and she had sent me multiple emails explaining the situation but i was worried about getting somewhere and never had time to read them; an attempt at getting into an art school/gallery place in the mall, an i asked for an application and a woman gave me a flyer for a fall fair that was coming up. later, i was in the basement of my house arguing with my parents over christmas presents, and i left but it was a hotel lobby, and an old friend LP was there dancing with her boyfriend (she used to ballroom dance) and the woman was there and was saying that they also look at your actions outside of the gallery to judge if you’re worthy, and she said look at LP as an example. i said “i’m sorry i’m not perfect,” and tried to explain how hard i worked to get there but my words got caught in my throat, and i woke up in another dream, wearing a beige and white striped sweater, where i felt the heaviness of the rejection and was going to write about it on tumblr, but then woke up for real with the same heaviness.
- 20: sitting with oscar piastri, with my legs propped up on lando norris, watching a tv show (yeah, the f1 guys are my friends); idiot first boyfriend got his, i’m assuming royal wife, a white cat fursuit for valentines and they were dancing in the backyard, while i was trying to smoke weed through a comically large bowl that broke and eventually turned into a plastic bag we could easily dispose of
- 15: even though i already know there’s plans for a luffy balloon in the macy’s thanksgiving day parade, i was explaining it/going over blueprints anyway
- 14: an orgy, but everyone was paired up and it was in like a gym. i commented that everyone’s doing the same thing so it shouldn’t be that weird, but it’s something we do in private so it is. i don’t remember if i had a partner.
- 13: i only remember waking up as a beautiful black therapod with red and yellow markings spotted me as prey
- 12: luffy with a pokémon egg, having to be explained that he needs to wait for it to hatch
- 11: george russell wanted to hang out and “do blow jobs”
- 10: in some sort of theater, and i got really angry and threw a remote control and it hit this elderly woman who was lying in a bed who later turned out to be my grandma sitting next to me watching a movie;
- 08: my shitty first boyfriend married a royal and were up on a balcony hiding behind a black sheet before they dropped it and there he was waving and grinning with a mustache, showing him off to the world; cleaning up a friends house, concluded she hates me, i had to take bags of projects and yarn and gather up all this tangled yarn on the floor because no one else works with it; guy name phil coon snuggled up behind me and i shifted positions, crushing his testicles and he screamed and all the guys in the restaurant were writhing in sympathy
- 05: i was holding a physical copy of a british crochet magazine i bought yesterday (but digitally) and my mom commented that i got it very quickly to come from overseas, but i said i'd had it for 3 days and it was instant delivery;
- 04: color schemes such as tetradic, triadic, but maybe not cycladic
- 03: do i want to go see dave chappelle next thursday? first time seeing oldbff in present times; apparently i can't accept it when people don't love me, even in dreams;
- 02: a friend (A) telling me he loves to be around me but not for that long and then I get clingy when he leaves and it’s been 10 years and there’s no growth
- 01: do not let carlos sainz drink too much, he has a race tomorrow; mad competition(?) issues with memories of oldbff
oct 2 2023 ∞
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