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- "covering" things completely
- anxiety about having to use a different pen to usual
- bad numbers (mainly 8, sometimes 9, occasionally 7) & good numbers (4, 5)
- excessive list making (?)
- extreme anxiety about timings of public transport
- eye widening thing
- having to "tap back" people who touch me (not always any more, but always my brother)
- holding breath when walking past butchers or smokers in street
- if i plan to say something in conversation, but then the conversation strays from that topic, i feel pulled back or restrained by my unmade point until i say it or i consciously let it go
- (not always) eating foods in order
- not being able to touch certain items deemed "unclean" ex. blankets
- not being able to touch things after eating certain foods unless hands are thoroughly washed
- not letting myself do something until something else is complete
- particular invasive thoughts (ex. razored eyeballs, killing babies)
- pulling the skin back from my nails
- reassurance from s/o
- repeatedly checking to see if a dial is turned its fullest or a door is shut the tightest
- (sometimes) having to redo an entire sheet of work if i make a mistake
- specificity about timings (generally can only start/end activity every at .15, .30, .45, .0)
- tracing imaginary shapes wider & wider
- turning dials the "furthest" they can go
- tweezing out certain types of hairs
- volume on an even number
apr 26 2016 ∞
dec 26 2016 +
dec 26 2016 +