[bitterness hinders growth!!! don't let your pride become an insurmountable obstacle.]

• apr 01. ok church reunion with helen and her frens? sweet. talking to her afterwards? sweeter! ; i am in love with creating universes in my own head. this is why reading is so important to kids.
• apr 02. jesus I had such a nice day today? I'm gonna list: listening to music with ana, GREAT lunch and dinner food (like wow!), taking care of my plants, good music, dodie, art!!!, project almost complete, writing for the hell of it, great nap!!!
• apr 03. I am honestly so glad I can distract myself during these troubling times!!!
• apr 04. played music for my plants today; I sang too!!! and danced, but not for them lol; spent some alone quality time today. my mom was sweet, I felt her close today. and oh!!! it was really chilly so it was a lazy saturday vibes mood. i had to go to the sun and I felt it tingle my skin ahhh.
• apr 05. had this sudden URGE to watch movies today so I downloaded nine. watched two tonight: lady bird (4 stars) and portrait of a lady on fire (fuckin g ALL the stars in the sky). needless to say, both an Experience.
• apr 06. tenderness all over the place today lads. mad about you & pride and prejudice. like >:(
• apr 07. what music does to my core nothing else can come close. and plants are the cutest.
• apr 08. feeling super thankful today!!! got tons of chocolate for easter and my heart is at ease.
• apr 09. went to helen's to hang out!!! laughed my ass off. i honestly love that she feels so loved around me wow.
• apr 10. just did nothing all day and then spent the whole night drooling over how funny and sweet and CUTE drew gooden is. also, fell in love with jenna marbles???? hello. and of course, found out my Turdus disperses lau seeds :")
• apr 11. I was singing along to worship tonight and I felt my heart do the sweetest tremble I've ever felt. so that was a good talk.
• apr 12. my niece, my brother and my sister in law came over today! i honestly fall in love with this kid every time i see her :( hugged my brother rly tight, hope he got the message.
• apr 13. i had a really productive morning today!!! also coffee, milk and cinnammon, that's fucking great. managed to do a lot of stuff for my project. i just rly miss going to the lab. finally the untamed flashback is OVER!!! now that doesn't mean everything's gonna be ok now, but at least ying already died. so!!!
• apr 14. worked on my project again today. it's good to have a lot of shit to do, but i honestly really miss going to uni. i hope this passes way sooner than expected. but i was really cozy today!!! bc of cold.
• apr 15. planted succulent leaves on passionfruit !!! and am in love with moon taeil. fight me pls
• apr 16. watched tons of untamed and i don't wanna finish it so soon!!!!
• apr 17. went out today, felt free a bit. my dad hasn't been staying home much, what with our car broken and stuff, so when he came home for dinner I honestly almost cried? i didn't even know I missed him that much!!! i'm crazy about this dumbass.
• apr 18. great things about today: haechan radio, mom and dad bickering over mints, hanging out with my mom, blue bird that visits jabuticaba tree has a name and one of them showered, forest entities (hozier, florence, aurora and lorde), chicken & black olives pizza, lemon cake!!!
• apr 19. went to my niece's bday party and it was so sweet! the first thing she did when she saw me was RUN into my arms!!! and her and my brother together reminded me of me and my dad. cute.
• apr 20. bujo art!!! and music. marisa tomei on seinfeld :")
• apr 21. I love the holiday mood. forgot how much i love goblin and every character in there?!! laughed with kurtis in his pod tonight. started studying animal physiology for real now, taking cute notes on onenote :") jamie xx music? you mean my entire life in his hands? dj hands sjdhdjksjd
• apr 22. i honestly LIVE for music that haunts me, like st jude by florence and the machine. rewatching goblin has been such a wild ride, and it's only been two days!!! laughing and crying, that's the mood. talking to renata about how our future home's gonna b like, that's the sweetest thing :( cannot wait!!!
• apr 23. I think I really find my own strength when I realize how thankful I can be. I can honestly be my best self when I'm thankful for everything I have and am. spent time with my dogs today, I love them too much. laughed with goblin, cried with goblin, got angry with goblin... and listened to very good music. see? what's not to be thankful about!!! and I also studied some REALLY cool plasma membrane physiology. and talked to my friends. I could spend a lifetime (not shin's lol) being thankful and it wouldn't be enough. thank you.
• apr 24. highlights of the day: donating blood with helen, my shiny angel; getting cozy in my mom's bed watched notting hill; taking a nap and waking up after the sunset; crying with goblin; talking about music with ana!!!; jenna and julian + dogs; had burgers for dinner + fries too!!!
• apr 25. feeling better today!!! highlights: my mom in love with our plants, finished goblin and cried so much, laughed my ass off with jenna and her tiny beautiful family, fell in love with the concept of cell membrane transportation and what it means to me, listened to some GOOD music, am slowly falling for yuta, danced and didn't care whether it looked nice or not and it made my mom laugh lol, bolt trying to sit down and almost falling over himself THE CUTIE!!!
• apr 26. I danced today too!!! i'm honestly being more honest lately and i'm actually loving it! ok today's highlights: picking up jabuticaba, spending time with my mom, drinking coffee because julien made dalgona too, watching the office, finally watched "yesterday" and now I can't get hey, Jude out of my head.
• apr 27. happy mom day!!! we ordered this wonderful cake and we had fun, just the three of us. highlights: i'm literally in love with my fern, I miss pressing leaves jfc, went out!!! for some groceries but still, felt cozy in my room. also, felt the need to READ!!!
• apr 28. collected plants to press and sow!!! tried to study but I think my love for plants is interfering. started a new drama, touch your heart, because I need my happy ending. got way too cozy in bed and had cake with strawberries on it, uuugh!!
• apr 29. WHO would've thought I'd be listening to john mayer huh? and loving every minute of it. touch your heart is so sweet I took a thousand screenshots tonight + me squealing and bidu scared of me. also!! looked at bidu today and this wave of love hit me and i almost cried, legit.
• apr 30. i can't remember much but I did listen to a lOT of music. also had fun with touch your heart. and yt videos, ofc.