[even here, a season is coming. where new things will fall in place and you will see the process of it all was surely worth the wait.]

• aug 01. I cannot BELIEVE I just wrote august in here. time isn't real ladies! / making art & praying makes me feel so free. thank you jesus for this one! and that matthew versicle is just the sweetest thing. maybe I am the light of the world! / listening to great music early in the morning. it's the "summer bummer" playlist ! / skyped with carine tonight and it was so funny lmfao / the nap I took today was SO good!!! loved it.
• aug 02. ana made me a weheartit collection??? it's the sweetest thing in the world ahhh :") / i LOVE my job wow! even though I feel like shit sometimes, I know better things are coming my way! / so I'm in love with this kurtis dude! my dude, my guy lol sjdhdjksjdhd he's really sweet. and crazy funny!!! / spent time with mom & iza! love our tiny family moments. i live for those! / ok not to brag but I looked really cute today??? i think it's bc I got my period lol
• aug 03. had açaí!!! / watched seinfeld & seinfeld himself with fred armisen, michael richards & aziz just chatting with some coffee and these cool ass cars! / wrote two whole pages on the discussion today. it only took me my entire saturday . but it'll be worth it!!!
• aug 04. watched the fab5 go through the emotional rollercoaster that was tammye. i cried and felt so welcome. jesus loves lgbt ppl!!! / ana is such a wonderful listener and an even better friend. she's literally an angel!!?? / i went to the cottage today and every second around nature is like "how come plants are so beautiful? how come they look so tall? are they ok is there enough water around the roots? are the leaves capable to perform a successful photosynthesis process rn as we speak?" legit! / god is good and he is incredibly WONDERFUL in every conceivable way!!! jesus held my hand through the whole thing girl! he's with me as we speak!!! i am loved, cherished, cared for, protected, happy and ALIVE because of him. jesus you make my heart tremble!!! you hung every star in the sky and still calls me by name!!! you're the master of the universe and you still hold my hand at night while I'm crying. i love you.
• aug 05. god is still very good!!!! my soul finds peace with your presence lord :") / I talked and joked and shit today! also my project IS going places!!! / watching queer eye ahhhh and friends while doing some work hehehe. the seinfeld's handicap spot episode is so funny. it never ages!!! / listening to kurtis talk is so soothing. thank u king ! his podcasts are really relaxing and he can talk about chicken nuggets for an hour and a HALF and I'd love to listen to it :") his podcasts are very different from his vids and I think they're a lot better, even though I LOVE his editing djdjjd anyways I am WHIPPED!
• aug 06. I'm VERY thankful for my friends. i don't say it much but I really am. people used to put up with me in the past. today, I try to be better. / god I love watching seinfeld . WHY is it so good!!! / ice cream pie again but with more ppl jdhdhds / I felt really cute and vintage today jdhdhds ALSO my hair looked pretty nice :") / my succulent opened up the flower button!!!! it's the CUTEST the stamens are all dark ahhhh the flower does look like a chandelier! I'd love to see what the fruit looks like.. hmmm
• aug 07. took a nap this afternoon and ended up having the most wonderful hug in the world. alan hugged me soosososo tight I though I was gonna BREAK! i miss him still >:( wish things could've been different between us . / talking to my dad about fish!!!! alien species :") / finding out SO many shit about lauraceae. bitches kill leukemia and melanoma cells??? and they're rly cute too. / i was worried, so worried. god told me not to fret!!! he's doing his thing as we speak :")
• aug 08. my ass felt phenomenal today wow!!! / alan mssgd me???? that was WEIRD but I'm so happy :( we already made plans and I miss him so much! / i kinda like doing laundry lol / slept in a CLEAN BED with a clean room and a clean body and hair!!!! deserved it.
• aug 09. God's love means everything to me. anything else is just a headache for me to deal with tbh!!! / having those!!!!moments with friends is the best one. and talking about plants of course!!! / ran into vitor, isa, anna so many ppl today wow. i love them.
• aug 10. my niece came to see me!!! i almost cried watching her laugh, eat, smile!!! she's an angel and I'm so happy I got to see her. she reminds me of myself, with the screaming and the ice cream lmfao. / started watching gilmore girls and I'm already in love. / praying makes me feel so happy and free!!! thank you, lord :")
• aug 11. having the body of Christ every sunday is a wonderful, heart fulfilling experience!!! thank you for that, Lord!!! / i for sick tonight so my dad drove me to the hospital, and on the way there I was all >:( so he tuned in my favorite radio station :") / I love my loreleis!!!! everything about them is entertaining, thanks women.
• aug 12. jesus jesus!!!!! you make my heart jump out of my chest!!!! i love you :( / seeing old friends!!!! i love hugs!!!! and talking!!!!! / jesus music :") / I also love the gilmore gals so much!!!! :")
• aug 13. I've been having my ups and downs today, but I'm only gonna list the ups of course;;; 1) watched lu's presentation on his masters pre project!!!, 2) had a very nice nap, 3) watched kurtis vids!!!, 4) looked cute!!! ; that's pretty much it.
• aug 14. ok my ASS!!!! looked PHENOMENAL today. and I mean it, trust me. also my eyes were looking pretty cute today. and my whole face. well, I'm cute as hell so maybe that's why. / love loving!!! the kinda love that makes me want to explode so I can share it with the world :") / spent time with carine! love doing that too. / i think I finally finished my project, yay! / vitor read this article about this girl living in a cottage for her uni project or something (beautiful simple life) and he said it reminded him of me :") / for the first time in my life, I listened to mom's prayer audio in the morning. i love how trying new things are so exciting! / tae's winter is coming album is so sweet. kinda wish it was christmas (+ that it snowed here).
• aug 15. ohh bitch. today was just, the sweetest!!! so I'm gonna list a few things: hanging out with allan, getting the warmest hug I've had in a while and having açaí with him + leticia and the crew came over with her niece and it was sweet!!! she's lovely + watching queer eye and hanging out with my cuties + plants ! + doing my nails, taking care of myself and doing nothing all afternoon + actually revising in the morning tho. gonna nail this test, watch me! + thanking christ for everything that happened today. really, I'm so thankful :(
• aug 16. today was supposed to be such a good day!!! i set it up, I was happy in the morning, just literally shining. really, it all went great in the morning! talked to carine, told her how beautiful she looked!!! she literally looked like LIGHT!!! and I looked so pretty too!!! felt really confident in my own body!!! some shit happened. I'm still okay. watched seinfeld and kurtis videos, I'll be fine dude.
• aug 17. really felt LOVED tonight. wow!!! spending time with my friends ahhhh and time flew!!!!
• aug 18. god I missed studying djdjjd kinda weird to go back to class after sooo long ! and I really miss everyone wow / god I LOVE birds I just really. love them so much!
• aug 19. just laughing my ass off!!!! i missed everyone so much ,, and the fooood!!! and ofc, biology :")
• aug 20. i honestly loved today??? the company, the food (the açaí ummm!!!) and nature. / love ana silvia wow! i really understand what she says, it's not just void in the middle of the afternoon lmfao. also love bones now apparently? / started describing e. paniculata! shit's hard. let's get through it!! / helen bought me a beijinho :( / felt soosososo pretty!!!
• aug 21. went flower watching (lol) with carine during lunch!!! i wasn't feeling too good today, she kinda brought me back. we had this deep convo, we hugged so hard I didn't want to let go of her. + spent time with helen & vitor!!!! laughed my ass off too. + kinda figuring out this new method of studying... + talked so much with cris today!!! missed her hour long voice messages hehehe + felt really pretty!!! amongst pretty flowers :') + long day. figuring some stuff out. I'll be okay.
• aug 22. happy leticia day!!! + laughed so much today, I thought I was gonna pass out or something + had FUN!!! by myself & with everyone. i felt really loved today. + good food!!! good company!!!! good music!!! and good timing!!!! + happy sta rita day too, wished I was at church, but classes were too important !
• aug 23. I spent time with different people today!!! it was nice. / had weird classes but they turned out fine in the end. / came home early!!!! like 8pm or something :")
• aug 24. the beeeees kissing my flowers :") and my bird eating papaya :") / got up kinda early and had fruit for breakfast!!! / had a nice time with my family today. / my mom talking to my dad about old times!!! i love these tiny moments.
• aug 25. watched gilmore girls and these two episodes are the best ones so far!!! rory & dean, lorelei & luke, emily & richard!!! so sweet :")
• aug 26. today helen told me she prays about me and has this thing written about me. I'm eager to know what it is about. + parasito test was good!!! i was doubting my answer and then my prof was like *thumbs up emoji* !!! so cute!!! + laughing sososo much with my friends!!! love them all wow + I'm really tired but I'm thankful. thank u jesus for everything you've ever gave me a chance to have. i love you!!! and I'm really thankful for nature too. got really soft this morning thinking and reading about animal and plant diversity. this is why I do what I do!!! :")
• aug 27. finished my report!!! HAPPY!!! + god I just. love plants so fucking much!!! how is this possible??? no idea!!! + and I love watching gg too :")
• aug 28. it is true that if you're able to show yourself as you are and wish, the right people will come to u. i truly, truly love my friends. and I'm glad I get to have those people as my friends. + plants are the most wonderful little things in the world!!! they are so cute I wanna !!!! cry!!!!! + uh hello. viruses?;? we have viral dna in our own.... how insane is that. what about the fact that consciousness might have something to do with those genes??? insane!!!! + felt pretty today :") and very much LOVED!!!!
• aug 29. everything willow smith sings sounds like heaven, how the fuck??? + went to the dentist with an emergency appointment and they were so sweet and kind??? and they definitely fixed my tooth + I looked SO CUTE today?!? and nature too. gave the birds some water and papaya. our jabuticaba tree is like. thriving!!!
• aug 30. ok I like living in silence, I like "adjusting to clarity" and I love my own company. but my friends? dude, it's worth it. spent like a lot of time with them today, shared a bunch of moments with them, specially the one where I found out I passed calc :") AND microbio!!! + so I don't even have to say it but it feels SURREAL that I passed with NO exam whatsoever!!! i am honestly so happy. + went to eat açaí with helen after class bc I was soosososo THRILLED (still am) about passing. even zoo class was fun bc of that alone. + helen is the sweetest soul that could ever cross my path. thank u jesus :( + my night Bible reading was psalms 138, thanking god for his infinite love :(
• aug 31. so, august is over huh? and it wasn't even that long! + today it rained, really heavy. felt like home. i stood in my mom's window, singing pisces by juniel. it was a nice moment. + can't even begin to tell you how in love with lorelei I am. + studied for 4h+ and felt pretty productive!!!