[i've made good friends with the sun and the rain. i've played with the land and the sea. and i hope when they gather at the end of the day, each one speaks kindly of me.]

• dez 01. holy shit it's december!!! came to porto rico today, it's so pretty here. got a few insects too!!! i am Scared but Curious.
• dez 02. um. riding a boat is the single most interesting thing I've ever done. also, I cried bc of ivinhema river and parana river today. damn that was an emotional moment!!!
• dez 03. I saw a nectandra angustifolia and a nectandra hihua today!!!! and a lot of other beautiful stuff. thank u jesus!!!
• dez 04. today I felt even more thankful!!??!? the scenery was literally mesmerizing, I took a bunch of pics bc I was excited!!! :D . had chocolate cake and read a bit, got to talk to mom and I miss my dad
• dez 05. the forest trilha and the ponto 1 one!!! the most beautiful Forests I've ever been to. truly mesmerizing. also I found out I got a 97/100 score on biochem and a 46/50 in genetics :")
• dez 06. how is the river so fucking big!!!! the big and the beautiful!!! also I'm going home tomorrow ladies!!!
• dez 07. coming home to my life was sweet. a sweet moment.
• dez 08. i can't lie to u, I love my study marathons. i really do have fun while studying sometimes. i think it's pretty neat!!!
• dez 09. went to uni this morning!!! it's been soooo long. it was raining and my mood was down, but when I saw helen oh my god!!! she's literally SUNSHINE??? i missed her so much, I hugged her so tight!!! didn't wanna let go :( I wish I could take the anxiousness out of her, just pull it out of her!!!! i would wear it so she could be happy :(
• dez 10. ok small happinesses: vitor & thay are dating!!! genetics making my heart melt!!! having everyone together and telling them how much i love themmm!!! me looking cute today.
• dez 11. saw the most beautiful rainbow today?!?! and laughed so much I thought I was gonna die!!?? thought about plants and life as a whole today. felt overwhelmed.
• dez 12. teacher experience day?!?! i kinda liked it, ngl. and I laughed so much today too. me and Helen we're in sync. and I felt proud of myself today. i've been going through so much shit, yet I still stand!!!
• dec 13. spending time with the girls and jr!!! that's what life is all about lately!!! love love love them!!! great lunch, great food, great naps!!! love it.
• dec 14. allan all wanting to know how my trip was, how I felt, kissing me everywhere, hugging me real tight, telling me not to goooo pls. i might be falling for him.
• dec 15. in amelie the dude messing with his wife's laurels!!! that made my night.
• dec 16. im still in awe from dec 14 and the touch still lingers. everyone is excited, idk what to do!!!
• dec 17. prof ana silvia seemed to like my presentation!!! and my friends care about me a lot :(. been thinking. it's weird to be someone, I know myself as me, not as someone people talk to, care about, worry about, who people love etc. it's weird!!! uh, watched only you before going to bed tonight. ladies, it's soft time.
• dec 18. having açaí with helen!!!is the most fun!!!i've had all weeek!!! she's the sunshine and açaí was rly good lol.
• dec 19. laughing with jr plucks the anxiety away from my lungs. how can he carry so much light inside him? also. harry styles. the entire album, the lights up mv. dude??
• dec 20. last day, last revision, last hugs :") + had so much fun in my cozy bed after coming home!!! tea and popcorn + tgp :")
• dec 21. my mom got me a samambaia :") I spent the entire day watching stuff and having good food. and listening to music. I'm loving my vacation days?!?!? also, it rained and it was Cozy™
• dec 22. love my rita!!! and to wonder how mary felt the day the angel told her about our savior... how she felt raising the lord our savior?!? pls... the play tonight was adorable, the angels all around mary !!!
• dec 23. bought cute stuff and went on a date !
• dec 24. it's xmas eve and it's still a boring holiday in my opinion!!! but I get to stay home this year, won't complain!!!
• dec 25. and baby jesus is borrnnn!!! and he lives forever!!! it's a sweet thought, to think about baby jesus being born, mary sososo happy and excited and relieved!!! can't imagine joseph's happiness when he first heard the kid cry. must have been joyful all over the place!!!
• dec 26. cris came over!!! missed her like crazy. I'm proud of myself for actually studying today too, I'm getting inspiration from all over the place lately. it's resting. watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind today, got me feeling all kinds of love all at once. i wanna fall in love too.
• dec 27 & 28. I was too sick to care about anything else. I hope I recover.
• dec 29. you know that poetry gut wrenching feeling? yeah! that's what life is about. also ana figured love out tonight, I'm so proud. and I realized I am the fruit of love, my parents think of me as gold. rain looks so pretty falling on the leaves... when water touches the soil after so long, bacteria let release this "rain smell" people love so much. i find that cute. another cute thing! jaca is called jackfruit. how crazy!
• dec 30. finally 2019 is ending girls. let's get these uneven numbers OUT of my face!!! today I love plants more than ever. thank you for everything, kind ladies.
• dec 31. it is here!!! finally. good things are coming next year, let's root for each other!!! :")