[even here, a season is coming. where new things will fall in place and you will see the process of it all was surely worth the wait.]

• jun 01. that feeling when you finish a math exercise and you feel like you could climb mountains with those numbers... cold weather, tea and suck it and see. that was kinda perfect.
• jun 02. I love love. it's something so pure and raw and sweet. i love loving.
• jun 03. 97 in genetics.. 77 in parasito.. today was just the weirdest! i cannot BELIEVE it's finally coming back to me!!! all the effort I put into these tests... they're becoming results!!!! i would tell you I'm the happiest bitch alive but you know that :"). and I laughed so much! listened to such good music!! had great talks!!! looked pretty!!! watched things!!!
• jun 04. today class was FUN! and not fun by laughing but fun by learning! genetics and histology just got waaaay more interesting for me. but I also laughed my ass off today! it was fun my stomach hurt lmfao. had lunch at carine's with prof and camila!! it was intense but FUN! and yummy. and!!! the bat's night!!! with mom!!! it was sooo sweet and so incheresting!?? bats are wayyy too cool for us and they deserve the world :") to sum up the day really well, I feel pretty tonight. hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow.
• jun 05. today was a wild ride! but lunch was awesome!!??? i was kinda lonely, but I didn't wanna see anyone. I'm happy i'm learning a lot about lauraceae. i love that bitch!
• jun 06. today's biochem was the most interesting class I've ever had on the subject. we talked about thermodynamics laws. one of them, the second one, tells us that entropy tends to rise. so how do we, as complex thermodynamic systems and very much organized ones, live by this law? the answer was perfect and I cannot put into words because I am not a biochemist. but it was BEAUTIFUL. and learned a bit more of coevolution with plants and arthropods! didn't know nectar was also placed in leaf??? and that it was a sign of coevolution!?? beautiful. we also saw an Ocotea essential oil gland! that was a big moment for me tbh. and spent time with my family!!! the ones I care the most about. god I'm glad I have wonderful people around me. :")
• jun 07. my hair looks so big and pretty!!! HAPPY i decided to cut it. laughed a lot and went on this tiny field trip looking for arthropods!!! cool. I'm happy i'm happy. cool!!!
• jun 08. still very much obsessed with my hair!!! and bought myself a pair of mom jeans that looks SO good on me!!! VERY much in love with myself. i keep finding out things about myself every single day wow.
• jun 09. listening to svt's latest albums gets me so inspired!!! i love my new jeans :"). and I love my mom too, so much!!!
• jun 10. apparently bolt was spreading orchid seeds all over our backyard?? my favorite little dispersor??? | i just felt so productive after my head stopped hurting!!! | spent time with ca and lu and it was fun!!! i love my two seniors so much. | had soup with mom and iza,, it was cute :") | worked on my project and payed attention to class! today was a good day.
• jun 11. I had no idea it would be so tiring and hard. but you know what, it's what makes it worth it. everything!!! I'm talking about uni, friends, life, family, surviving! I'm in love with my accomplishments. i've worked so hard for them... they mean the world to me. no one can take that away from me!!! anyways this is because I realized I might pass calc 1.???!! all of this rollercoaster ride listening to hell to the liars!!! talk about EMOTIONAL!!!
• jun 12. happy valentine's day to my eternal girlfriend:::myself!!! | saw a bunch of fungi this morning and almost cried! they're so pretty ahhhh. working on my project! it feels SO good to work on something important...,,, .. I looked cute today! my mom jeans, my carlton shirt and black belt ! oh and space buns omg. lara asking me for fashion opinion hmmm.. isa showing me a dog video..,, hmm wlw let's fucking go I guess? hey I had great food today!!!! 9 bucks but it was GOOD.
• jun 13. I keep learning these new biochem things and they keep blowing my mind!!! watched mad about you because I miss them so much,,, I also LOVED our plant class today! OH we got cotton candy and I bought strawberry bombom ,! a dream come true tbh. had fun with mika and vitor!!! we just went around taking pics omg, . ALSO!!! i love it when people come to me. everyone wants to talk to me :") and uh. hugged lara this morning. hmm , what to do with that info tho?,
• jun 14. i love mad about you SO MUCH. everything about it brings me joy :"). today I spent time with myself and by myself. listened to a lot of music and cleaned a lot! then the rest I took was needed and deserved.
• jun 15. I didn't do much today but the little I did was worth it! watched silly mad about you episodes, listened to great music, spent time with my mom and dogs! and plants!!! studied maths and zoology!!! and I'm not so tired, so I'm thankful for that!!!
• jun 16. wasteland, baby! is the greatest hug I've ever received. i mean it. | watched sooo many things today and I'm sososo glad I got to REST and take time for myself,! i deserved this break. | did the composting thing this morning? felt like a grandma omg. | went to pick up saint antonio cake with dad this morning and it took us a whole HOUR and more!!! worth it tho, found the medalhinha!!!
• jun 17. I honestly laughed SO MUCH today? went for ice cream with mika her bf and vitor!!! it was fun and the ice cream was great :") | had fun gossipping with carine lol. | ppl who care about me :(
• jun 18. i honestly love being taken care of... it's everything to me. | having tea at the lab and just doing my things!!!! i love that place omg. | had fun today ngl!! I'm happy i'm trying and going for it. spent time with everyone, even my dad!! showing me the ripary vegetation :") and my mom and my sis... also teaching my sis some stuff about nucleic acids,!!! PROUD of her.
• jun 19. felt pretty cute today! | this morning (no class) I spent time with my dogs and nature!!! felt rly close and connected with nature... | math isn't so hard? god I love these realizations!???
• jun 20. feeling hyper aware of myself. but today was good because of : eleonora and edoardo. tudo pra mim.
• jun 21. saw the international space station gliding through the sky like a dancing star!!! unique moment, I've never felt that way before in my life.
• jun 22. got to visit rita today!!! i feel SO welcomed in her arms :( | spent time with my family and talked about the old days. hmmm... | watching skam season three will always be a hard time for me. it's too good!!
• jun 23. maybe I love my dogs more than anything in the world? and my mom? and my sis? and my dad? and my friends? god I love the people around me!!!
• jun 24. having strawberry with dulce de lette!!! | me? wearing lipstick? it's hotter than you'd think!!!
• jun 25. I felt so pretty and capable today, wow. adriana told me she likes my space buns! and I've been told people tend to like my company!!! i am SO excited to work properly with lauraceae :")
• jun 26. iiii love doing plant shit in the lab!!!! | I'm in love with my friends :") | I took this GREAT nap omg. today was rly chill I think
• jun 27. lauraceans... you have my entire heart. and my friends too, they mean so much to me! working is great, loving the phase I'm going through right now.
• jun 28. omg interviewing old ppls at the inga park this morning? and I loved the ride there. ppl who make you feel good and happy to be alive are the kinda ppl you should look for to be in ur life. you're going places with them. | ok bih! traveling by bus is some COOL SHIT!!! really loved it. but you already know traveling is my kinda thing, so no surprise here.
• jun 29. oh my god aparecida is BEAUTIFUL!!! really a saint town, I absolutely loved every bit of the decoration, not only at the basilica, but the churches and sanctuaries around too!!! i felt every word at the mass, with my entire heart. everything felt holy. every feeling felt surreal. used to think Jesus was too good to be real, today I know how real he is and even greater than I thought he was. Jesus I love you!!!! | traveling feels! listening to "truth is a beautiful thing" by london grammar and just going around São Paulo cities... it was really sweet. and spending time with my parents!!! meeting people from ALL over the country!!! and so many lookalikes pls!!! and the açaí fjfjfjdjsjs EVERYTHING!!!
• jun 30. just going around, traveling (next to our town tho lol) listening to father of the bride? everything to me. this record means so much to me already it's insane! | signed this globoplay thing because there's mad about you in it! and I have this 700$ limit omfg. | felt HAPPY today and GLAD!!! and also finished sana's season, or skam. it was BEAUTIFUL and I'm gonna miss sana a lot :(