[though uncertain where i'm going, i believe i'm good to go because i have lived each day like i loved each day and that's a love i want you to know.]

• oct 01. omg girls. it's october!!! + spent some quality time with my babies & my plants. getting through it! + had churros again bc why not lmfao. and have been enjoying the sun, the sunshine and the sun streaks. love spring!
• oct 02. I know I sound dumb as fuck but mateus saying hi to me today? cute as SHIT!!! i really am in love with this dude wtf. + i know I complain a lot but I'm very happy this is my life. I'm just going through some shit right now, I know it'll be better before I realize it's going away. i like that about the changing yourself concept, that you can't even see it happening you just wake up and REALIZE it might've happened. it's sweet.
• oct 03. had ice cream cake with helen!spent a lot of time with her, she makes me feel very loved :( + listened to a bunch of new music today, Renata's recs!!! + saw this light rose ipe!!! + realized maybe I wanna switch to macrofitas?? + bio's palco livre!!! +a good biochem class. didn't know the glyoxysome plant thingy existed!!! cute. + helen brought me another peach :")
• oct 04. I love insects :") +my friends!!! felt loved by many today. and taken care of!!! + had great food throughout the day :")
• oct 05. it's insane to me that birds and plants are real. and nature is the most beautiful part of this world. i love it!!!??? i also love food, candy & ice cream are very good for the soul. i felt pretty today!!! slept great tonight.
• oct 06. jesusss I love you!!! + missed iasip and tgp sososo bad, loved watching those today :") + today it rained allll day I love love love it!!! had watermelon again and lunch was wonderful !
• oct 07. had churros brigadeiro today!!! + really love spending time with helen. we laughed so much today wow!!! + today it rained again :")
• oct 08. ok pretty sure I've met jr before in my past life(ves?)??? + today I laughed my ass off with helen & luis. god I love those twoooo!!!! + listening to hozier...,, hmmm remember when we'd sing .. + today I felt, important. Noticed. Aware.
• oct 09. hannah reid & andrew hozier have the most beautiful and distinct voices to me. they're heaven like!!! i cannot BELIEVE i get to listen to those two and just!!! LIVE!!! they're incredible, thank god i found them.
• oct 10. today was my eaic performance, everyone came and even my parents!!! it was WEIRD but it was COOL!!! I'm really happy people care enough about me, specially helen. wasn't expecting her to almost cry when she saw me standing next to my poster. my dad all talkative about plants !!! the evaluator liked it!!! so that was great. then went to allan's for dinner & we watched thor ragnarok! I'm just very thankful for today. jesus lead the way so I could find mine. thank you.
• oct 11. girls. today was tiring!!! but productive. managed to study & work on my project??? and had great food too. and didn't ride the bus in the heat I'm so happy.
• oct 12. happy aparecida day!!! our lady aparecida :") felt close to Her today. happy. + taeyeon, hozier, mi zauner, thank you... the music you make makes me want to LIVE.
• oct 13. glad to have studied a lot today!!! even tho it was hot, the heat didn't stop me.
• oct 14. I was eager to read my bible plans tonight only to find out "God loves me so so much! i am enough for him" and almost scream from happiness. God I love you!!! + hey plants make me feel more alive. thank u green cuties ! + my friends GOD I love spending time with helen and vitor :")
• oct 15. dude no matter WHAT i know I'll be safe because God's holding both my hands to guide me, to protect me, to light my way, to help me and to love me endlessly!!! He loves me and wants to be with me, by my side, at all times!!! + LOVE spending time with letc and her bf!!! and aunt lourdes is the BEST god I love that woman!!!
• oct 16. it's fresh!!! not scolding hot :") + worked with liquens today wow it was fun ngl. and fungi too!!!!!! + laughed so much today too. and talked!!! to different ppl too!!! idk today was a nice one! my skin is beautiful :")
• oct 17. saw let on my way to uni this morning, we planned to catch the same bus :") + today's biochem class was so fucking cool!!! our prof is literally the best man in the world. everyone else go home lol + did the biscuit thing !!! it was fun and it turned out cute.
• oct 18. it's my birthday and I got a bunch of bday gifts??!? helen, my mom, mika :") really glad to have my friends around me. also got to eat japanese food for dinner!!! and zoo class was great :")
• oct 19. i love isak valtersen!!!! + my hair looked so pretty today wow. + felt free today. idk what it was. I'm 21 now btw. lol
• oct 20. in love with Pretty. Odd. by patd!!! + watched silicon valley on hbo on tv?!? they're coming back too. oct 27 it's all set :") I miss those dumbasses!!! + felt loved today.
• oct 21. listening to bne and remembering meeting renata on tumblr as playyingods. god i'm in love with fob and patd. today it rained. i thought about joe pera a lot. had milk and crackers. carine bought me chocolate cake and gave me an illustration as a bday gift, I cried. felt relieved a lot of times.
• oct 22. ok this morning!!! i didn't go to uni, stayed in bed all morning just contemplating. then got up for breakfast and it was so sweeeet the birds chirping and plants dude!!! them!!! then went to uni after lunch and spend a lot of time with the ppl I love. very thankful.
• oct 23. lol I dreamt about anders??? he piggy hugged me and asked me to marry him?? then asked carine the same thing right after he did me first. lmfao. + donated blood today!!! felt thankful.
• oct 24. happy iza day!!! + you know when you look at ur friends and you realize that maybe you're the luckiest person alive? how I felt today. + the weather was sooo good, even tho it was hot ! + feeling confident for tomorrow's immuno test. hope I do well!
• oct 25. uhm I love insects??? + laughed so much today I thought I was gonna explode lmfao. + had great food with great company!!!
• oct 26. damn I look cute when I put an effort!!! + i love thinking about weddings and when will it be my turn!??!!? ofc it's only one face I see when I picture myself getting married, lmfao a joke.
• oct 27. watched silicon valley premiere s6 on tv!!! it was fun, I love jared. ended up watching mrs fletcher too?!? + i love p!atd!!! tudo pra mim.
• oct 28. listening to pitch perfect's soundtrack!!! that took me BACK!!! 2015 was a good year + laughed so much I thought I was gonna die, jfc. + it's chilly!!!! and I miss jared lol.
• oct 29. helen brought me lunchhh :") + I love taking naps and waking up hungrier for studying!!!
• oct 30. I'm really happy to have such wonderful friends, wow.
• oct 31. it's halloweeennnn!!! cute. happy for the life I'm living. really thankful.