[time is your biggest asset. it's precious in its own growing scarcity.]

• jun 01. first driving class today, i have no idea how ppl do this shit, it's too much!!! but hey, it's fun at least. i think pretty odd. means more to me than i thought?
• jun 02. laughed sososo much with waikiki and had a very nice nap tonight. today, like every other, I'm very thankful for my friends and family's support through my shit.
• jun 03. got sick!!!
• jun 04. listening to music will always be my favorite kind of therapy. watched so many waikiki episodes tonight, I couldn't stop laughing???!?!?
• jun 05. laughed so much I thought I was gonna faint, the earliest morning show is the funniest shit. arcade fire's her ost is brilliant, as is yo la tengo's music. the sun came out today, a bit shy.
• jun 06. happy fullsun day!!! i like it when music mirrors my moods.
• jun 07. music, joe pera talks with you, laughter in waikiki and cake.
• jun 08. did really well on my driving class tonight! did the parallel parking and shit. had my fun with waikiki and music too. feeling happy I get to move on and excited for what's to come.
• jun 09. even though i am angry for no reason whatsoever (I think it's my period) today was a good day. jenna and her favorite tiktoks, looking pretty and tiny victories, such as waking up at 9am and dirigir na porra da colombo!!! I'm really happy I get to enjoy podcasts, they keep me sane. like kurtis making jokes for 50mins straight or jenna talking to julien about some shit idek what it is for an hour. I miss girl in space tho!!!
• jun 10. the tim robinson show is funny as shit and i missed portlandia so i came back?!? oh and uh, im doing very okay in my driving lessons!!!
• jun 11. I had this dream where grandma was taking care of me at home. she baked this AMAZING cake with blueberries!!! and told me she is always looking out for me. it was SO fun seeing helen today, I honestly miss her all the time?? she makes me feel so comfortable I love her so much. we had ice cream and açaí and a NICE TALK!!!
• jun 12. i asked god to show me love and had this dream where me and my dad fell off this cliff from the car, the only thing he cared about was getting to me and saving me... he would scream sososo loud but underwater you can't hear shit right? I could hear him. that made me feel safe even THOUGH i knew i was dying.
• jun 13. helen came over for lunch today!!! lazy saturday feels as usual.
• jun 14. this is INSANE and I'd never realized it before, but every day I love my dad a little bit more. laughed my ass off with the office tonight with iza.
• jun 15. kurtis' episode 100 was so fun and I'm a little bit in love with jenna now, oops!!! finally i watched skam fr s4, imane's season!!!
• jun 16. finished my driving lessons!!! did really good today, very proud and somewhat relieved. watched skam fr s5, arthur's season!!!
• jun 17. I love my mom's company!!! just being with her makes me feel so safe. softest shit in the entire world: two mimir.
• jun 18. i love my after cleaning naps!!!
• jun 19. nothing much today. gonna miss aunt amelia :(
• jun 20. it makes me crazy happy and GLAD my mom has my dad to help her through rough times. and that we are this big, huge family that can help each other through everything.
• jun 21. went to floresta to check out the lot, had lunch at riverside ("também, dois pratos" lmfao he's the cutest!!!!). everything there is SO pretty, I'm actually very excited. got two small espada de são jorge to plant!!! I'm the most thankful bitch today and that's because of my dad, I don't think I could ever love anyone as much as I love him. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful person as my father holy shit. i also cried with j&j and cried laughing with workaholics. and "I'm your empress of" is in my top 10 albums in 2020.
• jun 22. the photograph (2020) is the sweetest movie of the year!!! took care of my plants today and they look so cute, all growing new leaves. my crassulaceae are all flowering too!!!
• jun 23. i gotta be the most thankful for my friends and my family. also plants, that's therapy. watched andy samberg and rashida jones being really raw and honest with each other after a divorce and i would like to curl up and cry. my mom got us espetinhos de marshmallow today!!! and i bought açaí because honestly? deserved it.
• jun 24. my plants are looking so pretty lately!!! I love spending time with them. tonight I had that tingling like feeling when I watched this atlantic forest doc and it made me realize how much i love nature and that i was literally born to love and HELP it thrive!!! makes me happy to know that, even tho money might be fucking TIGHT and literally scarce (lmfao???), i still get to do what I love and follow my calling.
• jun 25. i had such a fun day (after cleaning, ofc)!!! music and tv kept me company. ana too! watched a movie (loveless, 2019) and danced for 20mins to cool songs.
• jun 26. it rained a lot today so i did nothing and took a nap. oh! and i watched tons of stuff, like workaholics, joe pera, pride and prejudice (1995) and movies, like sing street and paddington!!! the latter means a great deal to me now, what a sweet movie.
• jun 27. taeyeon is literally the love of my entire life, I've never loved anyone like I love her. watched the whole pride and prejudice miniseries (1995) and i almost cried; colin and jennifer, that was spectacular. had fun trying to build my bujo on onenote! laughed at my dad's silly jokes is everything to me. another penpal letter arrived today :")
• jun 28. my dad taking pics of the jabuticaba fruits, that was so sweet. i can't explain what it is (it's love) but seventeen makes me feel so alive it's crazy!!! also, been missing cheollie for a while, hope he's doing great!!! my baby.
• jun 29. the sun came out for real today!!! my plants thrive after rain + sunshine. saw the cutest hummingbird, its beak was red :") watched the cafe com botânica lectures and they were pretty fun. talked to helen, thank god she seems to be recovering. had fun with my mom today too. and my digital bujo is coming up so pretty! listened to bubblegum twice and wjsn music, thank you for everything, queens. and most importantly, started rewatching pride and prejudice (1995) because it brings me so much peace!!! it's so faithful to the book too :")
• jun 30. july is not so shy of june anymore. bought a vase for my snake plant :") saw so many worms today I felt so welcome. watched p&p again because why the fuck NOT!!!