hand washing tracker... i'm still here...

janeiro

• 01/01: 78
• 02/01: 80

it started pretty good :-)

• 03/01: 150

logo de manha uma aranha se pendurou no meu braço e a caixa do pirakids vazou e ai tive que limpar o chao. and then it all started to feel wrong

• 04/01: 154

:-/

• 05/01: ~ 140
• 06/01: ~ 140
• 07/01: 158
• 08/01: 118

could be better. i didnt control myself that well and i wasnt even triggered.

• 09/01: 182

ok so i got super triggered. it was bad. i get triggered simply by thinking about the possibility of getting rabies i cant do this anymoreeeeeeeee. meu cachorro eh vacinado ele ta em casa nao vai mais pra rua sozinho e msm assim eu fui fazer carinho nele encostei numa parte do pelo dele q tava molhada provavelmente de baba por causa do calor ou de agua misturada com baba qnd ele foi beber. e fiquei me sentindo contaminada por uma possibilidade IMPOSSIVEL de acontecer. eu praticamente tomei banho so com a mao esquerda. EU SOU DESTRA. tive dificuldade de usar a mao direita mesmo depois de lavar com sabonete inumeras vezes e espirrar alcool varias vezes tb. eu fico pensando q se um dia eu realmente contaminar a minha mao com algo eu vou ter vontade de arrancar a parte contaminada de mim. eu sei que nao tem a menor possibilidade disso ter me infectado com NADA mas eu ja sei que vou passar o resto do dia evitando o maximo possivel usar a palma da mao direita pra algo. hoje meio que eh um caminho sem volta ja. tomara que amanha eu consiga me sentir limpa.

• 10/01: 160
• 11/01: 88
• 12/01: 136
• 13/01: 156
• 14/01: 178
• 15/01: 212

bad. terrible even

• 16/01: 144

passei pomada na alergia do braço = got triggered

• 17/01: ~ 232

bad day

• 18/01: 230
• 19/01: ~ 214

bad when it couldn't be bad because my hands are sun-burned (is that a word?). so by constantly washing them i have bruised them once again. but i couldn't stop. bad bad bad bad bad. i just can't wait to shower again tomorrow.

• 20/01: 326

dropped a lot of stuff on the floor today. also touched my feet on the floor accidently more than once = got easily triggered. baaaaaad day i cant stand myself. bad till the end. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

• 21/01: ~ 160
• 22/01: ~ 142
• 23/01: 126
• 24/01: 130
• 25/01: 112

i consider 80 before bed a good day at this point

• 26/01: ~ 160
• 27/01: 138

tive que colocar a rodinha da cadeira que caiu = free trigger :D

• 28/01: 138

also bad

• 29/01: ~ 140

before going to sleep i got frustrated to the point of crying. i got so anxious.

• 30/01: 150

yesterday i got a little triggered so today i woke up a little on edge. i'm tired of this.

• 31/01: 182

february

• 01/02: 160

i get triggered daily now :-/

• 02/02: 92

at the end of the day i could control myself better with the new soap. i only washed my hands 4 times before bed which is honestly the ideal for me.

• 03/02: ~ 82

got a liiiiittle bothered

• 04/02: 102

bad day

• 05/02: 104

the day started well but then i dropped something on the floor (so it wasnt a bad day but it could be better). ok so i intended to only wash my hands 4/6 times before bed but then something bothered me and i couldnt stop thinking about it so i ended up washing my hands 34 times before bed. it couldve been a good day.

• 06/02: 90

could also have been better

• 07/02: 126

not good

• 08/02: 92
• 09/02: 174

ok it started as a :/ day and then it turned out to be a really bad day

• 10/02: 254

limpei o quarto hardcore (so faltou o armario). kinda bad because of it. pqp vey

• 11/02: ~ 158

bad day

• 12/02: 176

also bad. and it got worse because i used the alcohol spray bottle that my dad used yesterday after he went out with the dog and a stray dog tried to attack our dog so the collar of our dog hurt my dad's leg when he moved to attack back... i dont even know where this is going the stray dog didnt bite or scratch my dad but im sooooo paranoid about rabies and the fact that he used the spray bottle after this makes me uneasy. i know the stray dog didnt touch him and he probably wasnt sick but this makes me insane. and the fact that i had to use the spray alcohol bottle today after it has been touched after all that just makes me insane. i cant stop thinking about an impossible possibility. so i used the spray bottle and washed my hands 20 times after that and went to fill my water cup so now i think i may have contamined my cup too even though i did wash my hands that many times before. my godddddddddddddddd this is insane i know it doesnt make sense but my brain is a big "WHAT IF?????". i will probably only calm down tomorrow.

• 13/02: 150
• 14/02: 122

i think the new soap doesnt make me feel as clean as the last one. probably because this one has a thinner texture or something

• 15/02: 134

bad

• 16/02: 130

before taking a shower i only washed my hands 12 times but it was because i avoided going to the bathroom. which is not exactly good. but i was controlling myself a little. then after the shower the shower curtain DIDNT touch my feet but almost did bc it was close to them so i got a little triggered. them i had to use the alcohol spray bottle on my feet and considering my enormous note days before i got triggered again for the same reason. but it could be worse. then it got worse because my mom was doing the hair of a lady that wanted to use the bathroom and even though my mom always cleans the toilet after i keep thinking about how she probably used my liquid soap to wash her hands and how she probably used my towel to dry her hands because my towel is the closest one to the sink and the door. i know this shouldnt bother me but just the fact that an unknown person is using my things makes my skin itch. i want to change my towel. i want to crawl out of my skin. 42 times before bed.

• 17/02: 142

i keep thinking about rabies ughhhhhhhhhhh

• 18/02: 194

40 before showering / 96 only after showering. bad bad bad. the day after of a bad day so it was kinda doomed. its really bad today.

• 19/02: 70

surprisingly good? i wasnt expecting that especially since i didnt take my meds today

• 20/02: 184

why was it worse the day i took my meds

• 21/02: ~ 128

bad bc yesterday i found a rat in my room so the entire process was already bad at 3 am. like i couldnt even sleep with my feet under the duvet. i slept with BOTH of them out. i never even did that in my whole life.

• 22/02: ~ 74

n sei pq o sabonete deixou minha pele pegajosa do nada eu tava usando ele ja e tava normal

• 23/02: 104

it was a good day but then i cleaned something on the floor and got triggered

• 24/02: ~ 114

to sem sabonete liquido e tendo que me virar com mil restinhos aqui em casa e ai ja tava chateada com o fato de ser pobre e ainda derrubei a escova de cabelo no chao. ai eu chorei de tao gatilhada

• 25/02: 54

to a ponto de um colapso sentindo o gatilho vindo ficando ansiosa E NAO TENDO SABONETE. toda hora tenho calafrio eu quero arrancar minha pele fora quero me afogar em desinfetante

• 26/02: 70
• 27/02: 74
• 28/02: 70

ser pobre e ficar com medo do sabonete acabar dnv meio que ta me curando

• 29/02: 94

bad before bed

março

• 01/03: 104

got triggered today

• 02/03: 234

got triggered bc i woke up and there was a lot of water on my floor. that we dont know how got in here. but it was like a lake. and then my parents had to move every furniture on my room so i got really triggered. a doomed day.

• 03/03: 142

bad

• 04/03: ~ 136

not the worst but still a bad day. update: it turned out to be bad. of course i would spiral.

• 05/03: ~ 134
• 06/03: ~ 148

not only i went out but i got triggered bc i dropped some chocolate on the kitchen floor and had to catch it. i didnt even catch it by hand (i used a paper towel)... also the chocolate that touched the floor touched my feet so i also cleaned my feet at the sink so i had the urge to wash my hands even more after the sequence chocolate of the floor > my foot > my hands

• 07/03: ~ 112
• 08/03: ~ 216

got a little triggered bc i found those thin brown lines around my nails again and tried taking it out. idk what is this but it seems like a germ of some sort. also cut my toe nails. also touched the trashcan in my room that i only throw paper and hair and finger nails & never organic stuff like food etc but i still get triggerd when i touch it bc i remember the covid times in which i used to throw tissues there. it has been washed so many times after that time already and i still think about it. also felt the need to wash my feet again in the shower bc i touched the floor. ugh

• 09/03: 206

bad

• 10/03: ~ 160

also bad but less triggering than yesterday

• 11/03: ~ 130

fui pro centro do rio. it got bad after i got home. i immediately went to shower but then after i felt the need to wash my feet again THREE times. first one bc i touched something with my feet second one bc i touched the door third one which i used soap again and almost got myself entirely wet to wash them bc i touched the little table (?) my computer is on. idk how to say tabua in english . e eu nao sei o nome desse suporte em portugues

• 12/03: 108
• 13/03: 98
• 14/03: 112
• 15/03: ~ 242

terrible day. bathroom related trigger

• 16/03: ~ 180
• 17/03: ~ 190

its been bad

• 18/03: ~ 198

bad bad bad

• 19/03: 124

it ended terribly

• 20/03: 148
• 21/03: ~ 134
• 22/03: 152
• 23/03: 152
• 24/03: ~ 172

bad since last night

• 25/03: 140
• 26/03: ~ 148

bad bad bad im already triggered

• 27/03: 148
• 28/03: 152

terrible terrible day that started triggering

• 29/03: 134
• 30/03: 138
• 31/03: 142

hj ta tao ruim q so enxuguei a mao na roupa e nao na toalha pq ela ta me deixando triggered por alguns motivos (1. ta muito molhada ja pq nao secou do tempo frio que fez 2. ta suja e nao tem outra lavada pra substituir 3. ontem de noite vi uma pocinha de agua cinza embaixo dela.. nao sei o que eh isso e nao descobri ate agr. qnd acordei essa poça tava seca e eu ainda nao sei o que eh. ta me incomodando isso estar diretamente embaixo da minha toalha.)

abril

• 01/04: ~ 122

got triggered at the end of the day

• 02/04: 74
• 03/04: 98

it was ok but then i left the house

• 04/04: 142

bad

• 05/04: 146
• 06/04: ~ 230

got REALLY triggered after my shower bc i dropped my comb on the floor. in a place really close to where some time ago i found a mouse in my room. i know my room has been cleaned REPEATEDLY after that but i still remember it so i still get triggered. this particular place in my room might trigger me until next year.

• 07/04: 284

it started really bad bc i had to clean the wheels of my computer chair. didnt even clean them enough (i couldnt put the wheels that had fallen and just gave up). theres 2 wheels on the floor and i have to put them eventually but not today. today im already too triggered. a doomed day that awaits another doomed day. update outra rodinha caiu e ai eu fui e tentei botar de novo (consegui a principio) mas qnd fui limpar a rodinha la fora uma mosca varejeira posou no meu pe por milesimos de segundos. mas essa foi a ultima pa de terra q faltava e eu fui logo tomar banho pq nao aguentava mais me sentir contaminada. demorei pra poha no banho e provavelmente so vou me sentir limpa amanha. e a rodinha caiu de novo quando sai do banho :) mas nao vou mais mexer com isso hoje nem a pau. dia terrivel terrivellllll

• 08/04: ~ 142
• 09/04: ~ 152
• 10/04: ~ 102
• 11/04: ~ 122
• 12/04: ~ 98
• 13/04: 112
• 14/04: 124

it's kinda bad on instinct

• 15/04: 94
• 16/04: ~ 168

o ar condicionado alagou o quarto de novo e eu limpei sozinha. botei a mao em pano de chao pra escorrer o pano. gastei metade de um rolo de papel toalha limpando a mao pq eu tava num lugar no quarto bloqueada pela cama pra ir lavar a mao toda hora.

• 17/04: 174
• 18/04: ~ 150
• 19/04: 100
• 20/04: 92
• 21/04: 104
• 22/04: 128
• 23/04: 114
• 24/04: 152
• 25/04: 222

really bad but i was already prepared for tht bc yesterday night 3 wheels of my computer chair fell again. putting them again is so challenging for me because they are dirtyyyyy. anyway, i woke up and changed them but they are broken i think bc they dont stay in place anymore. so they are still falling. but it every time i touch them i wash my hands like 50 times after this will be insane. so i just let them on the floor. im tired. i need gloves for this kind of stuff. idk what to do.

• 26/04: ~ 154

also kinda bad

• 27/04: 134
• 28/04: 170

mexi na rodinha da cadeira do pc (o pesadelo nao acabou)

• 29/04: 148
• 30/04: 94

maio

• 01/05: 98
• 02/05: 108
• 03/05: 90
• 04/05: 104
• 05/05: 96
• 06/05: 134
• 07/05: 110
• 08/05: 118
• 09/05: 174

:/

• 10/05: ~ 92
• 11/05: ~ 180

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• 12/05: ~ 124
• 13/05: 94
• 14/05: 104
• 15/05: 132
• 16/05: 92
• 17/05: ~ 76
• 18/05: 108
• 19/05: 172

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• 20/05: 112

:/

• 21/05: 126
• 22/05: 122
• 23/05: ~ 144

:/

• 24/05: 139

its been bad

• 25/05: 112
• 26/05: 92
• 27/05: 100
• 28/05: 90
• 29/05: 124

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• 30/05: 80
• 31/05: 82

junho

• 01/06: 98
• 02/06: 96

it was a really good day (like i only washed my hands 44 times until 7pm) but then i got triggered bc i touched my dad's phone and bc i think my mom touched my hands and she has this habit of biting her fingers. i'm so upset rn bc it was a REALLY good day. 44 times after showering ??? i dont even remember the last time this happened. and now im triggered.

• 03/06: 150
• 04/06: 96
• 05/06: 146
• 06/06: ~ 128
• 07/06: 122
• 08/06: 172

bad day. got triggered because of the two spiders in my room yesterday

• 09/06: 174

baaaaaad. ok meio q o dia JA começou ruim nesse quesito e eu ainda fui na casa dos outros bebi cafe no copo da casa dos outros & ainda envolveu um bebe e 5 gatos . sooo

• 10/06: 174

pqp.

• 11/06: ~ 104
• 12/06: 82
• 13/06: 98
• 14/06: ~ 106
• 15/06: 90
• 16/06: ~ 80
• 17/06: ~ 100
• 18/06: ~ 94
• 19/06: ~ 98

it was ok then i got kinda triggered

• 20/06: ~ 110
• 21/06: ~ 186

i got triggered. then i went to shower and touched my foot on something. got more triggered. then i dropped the soap bar on the floor. got REALLY triggered. had to restart all my shower steps. i felt so frustrated. i even washed my hair again bc i was afraid it would have touched the wall when i dropped down to catch the soap. raspei o sabao inteiro pra tirar a parte q possivelmnte tocou no chao. foi um dos piores banhos da vida so perde pra aqueles q eu tava transtornada no auge e ficava 2 horas tomando banho. pelo amor de deus. tem dias q da vontade de se matar por uns dias e depois voltar.

• 22/06: 116

bad

• 23/06: ~ 146

bad when it really shouldnt be because my hands are getting bad again and this sucks

• 24/06: 96
• 25/06: 126
• 26/06: 128
• 27/06: 154

bad. and i have only a little of hand soap left

• 28/06: ~ 142

aagghhhhh . cat piss triggered me. i bought an earring on the train and the little bag had a weird smell that my mom concluded to be cat piss. and i touched it. so i got really triggered and afraid that i was going to get some disease (its the rabies ghost all over again and i dont even know if piss can transmit rabies. i think it cant. leptospirose might be better .)

• 29/06: ~ 114

bad day after bad day

• 30/06: 80

julho

• 01/07: ~ 124

aghhh got triggered bc i dropped and had to pick up somethng on the bathroom floor

• 02/07: 96
• 03/07: ~ 82
• 04/07: 160

terrible day but had a good reason for that trigger . a traumatizing reason actually

• 05/07: 94
• 06/07: 92
• 07/07: 118

spider web on the shower triggered me a little

• 08/07: 90
• 09/07: 124

got triggered. first i dropped my body soap on the shower floor and i didnt pick it up. i was ending my shower and just didnt want to go through that. ta nao sei se consigo escrever essa esquizofrenia em ingles. so faltava passar sabonete na perna e no pe ai usei o sabonete neutro msm. e ai terminei o banho tudo ok. vesti a roupa botei o casaco e ai qnd fui pegar o sabonete neutro eu derrubei ele sem querer p dentro do box e ai tive q pegar ele e fiquei MUITO gatilhada. nao encostei em nada nem no chao nem na cortina nem na parede mas meu rosto ficou mt perto da cortina e do chao do box e isso ja eh o suficiente pra me gatilhar. dps limpei a embalagem do sabonete liquido com sabonete e passei alcool em gel. e amanha vou escaldar ele na agua quente provavelmente. o fato de eu ja estar de casaco mesmo nao encostando em nada (eu me certifiquei de nao encostar o casaco em nenhum lugar) ja fez eu sentir q ele ta sujo. so pq passei Perto de encostar. so nao boto ele pra lavar hj pq ta frio e depois disso eu tb nao to me sentindo muito limpa pra pegar outro casaco. bom eh isso vou me sentir suja ate o banho de amanha e eu ACABEI de sair do banho. isso eh tao cansativo. lavei a mao 500 vezes depois disso mas depois desses casos nao tem salvaçao. eh so o proximo banho msm. mas tb ainda nao estou enloqueucida o suficiente pra voltar pro banho depois disso meu corpo ainda ta quente da agua do chuveiro eu to com cheiro de sabonete e eu to me sentindo suja. pelo amro de deus. e digo mais eu so vou conseguir deitar na cama pq ja to chegando perto de trocar o lençol. se eu tivesse por ex trocado o lençol hoje eu ja estaria chorando de frustraçao.

• 10/07: 274

baaaaaaaaaaaaad. i dont even know how it got to this point

• 11/07: 116

:/

• 12/07: 68
• 13/07: 110
• 14/07: 80
• 15/07: 100
• 16/07: 142
• 17/07: ~ 110

:/

• 18/07: 128
• 19/07: 116
• 20/07: 150

it got bad. i touched the trashcan

• 21/07: ~ 70
• 22/07: 236

ughhh. aaaaaaaaaa

• 23/07: 108
• 24/07: 76
• 25/07: 142

it got a little bad

• 26/07: 164
• 27/07: ~ 118
• 28/07: ~ 150
• 29/07: ~ 110
• 30/07: 124

bad

• 31/07: 64

agosto

• 01/08: 186

bad

• 02/08: ~ 116
• 03/08: 120
• 04/08: 200

aaaaaaa

• 05/08: ~ 112
• 06/08: ~ 140

bad. derrubei o sabonete no chao do box bem pertinho do ralo . consegui pegar ele com duas unhas pra nao encostar em nada no chao (e de fato nao encostei). raspei o sabonete inteiro. escaldei ele na agua quente ate ele diminuir quase todo de tamanho. e msm assim nao consegui usar de novo. so faltava passar sabonete na perna e no pe e usei o liquido mesmo. mesmo tendo feito todas essas etapas, meu banho ja foi contaminado e eu nao me sinto mais totalmente limpa. esses dias esses pensamentos & compulsoes tem sido um pouco piores. i think im getting bad again but i probably won't do anything about it. ontem minha mae deixou uma cliente usar o banheiro aqui de casa (motivo o suficiente pra me gatilhar). so nao fiquei gatilhada com a toalha pq ja tinha outra limpa e minha mae trocou logo depois (pois vai q ela tenha secado a mao na minha toalha). so que escutei o barulho da descarga e a moça ficou um tempinho no banheiro ainda. eu sou mt desconfiada e pior do que ela ter olhado ou pego alguma coisa no banheiro eu fiquei pensando e se ela por algum motivo pegou minha escova de dente e sujou meu deeeeus eh insuportavel viver no meu cerebro eu acordei hoje e TROQUEI a escova de dente. eu escovei com a mesma de noite pq fiquei com preguiça e acabei ficando gatilhada e sentindo a boca contaminada eu nem encostei o rosto direito no travesseiro pq troquei o lençol ha poucos dias e nao quero contaminar nada. ta ficando meio insano.

• 07/08: 140

nao posso acabar com o sabonete liquido pelo menos ate o dia 20 pelo amor de deus. i need to control myself

• 08/08: 90
• 09/08: ~ 138
• 10/08: 98
• 11/08: 182

ughhh

• 12/08: 118
• 13/08: 126

got triggered. i will only feel clean tomorrow :-( it sucks because i know i wont sleep well bc i probably wont feel clean enough to cover myself in my blanket :-(

• 14/08: 128
• 15/08: 88
• 16/08: 120

i was already triggered since yesterday night

• 17/08: 150
• 18/08 104
• 19/08: 120
• 20/08: 160

badddddddddd

• 21/08: 50

surprisingly good. its because im too lazy to use the new soap bc of its dispenser

• 22/08: 64
• 23/08: 94
• 24/08: 108
• 25/08: 142

baaaaad. eu comecei a contar pq achei que seria uma forma de manter o controle mas acho que ta na hora de admitir que a contagem eh so mais um sintoma.

• 26/08: 80
• 27/08: 56
• 28/08: 80
• 29/08: ~ 52
• 30/08: 82
• 31/08: 78

setembro

• 01/09: 52
• 02/09: 40

o dispenser do ultimo sabonete liquido eh tao ruim que quando foi chegando no final demorava anos pro sabonete cair e eu ficava com preguiça.. a minha preguiça eh sempre mais forte do que tudo ate qualquer transtorno.. entao meio q me curou mas nunca mais quero comprar esse sabonete liquido e deixar ele no potinho que ele vem.. preguiça de poha..

• 03/09: 40
• 04/09: 94
• 05/09: 118

bad

• 06/09: 116
• 07/09: 116
• 08/09: 134

bad

• 09/09: 72
• 10/09: 54
• 11/09: 102

tava indo razoavelmente bem ate pegar o pote pra colocar agua pros cachorros. nao foi nem o pote diretamente deles foi um pote que minha mae usa pra botar agua e ai botarn o pote dos cachorros. nem espirrou agua em mim (que poderia ser um receio tb pra nao espirrar agua babada do pote dos cachorros em mim). acho que foi o fato de eu ter visto minha mae usar esse pote pra limpar o chao da casa mas tb nao faz mt sentido ja que dentro desse pote so tinha agua com produto desinfetante ele deve ta mais limpo do que o meu quarto. sla.

• 12/09: 122

bad. tinha muita coisa na pia e depois desandou muito .

• 13/09: 144

>:( (it was like this at first. me just being frustrated with myself but then it got baaaaad). o lixo do banheiro ta cheio e isso eh gatilho certo infelizmente.

• 14/09: ~ 72
• 15/09 174

bad

• 16/09: 82
• 17/09: 64
• 18/09: 60
• 19/09: 50
• 20/09: 74
• 21/09: 160

bad

• 22/09: 126

got triggered

• 23/09: 64
• 24/09: 76
• 25/09: ~ 96
• 26/09: 128

idk why

• 27/09: ~ 126
• 28/09: 194

bad

• 29/09: ~ 104
• 30/09: 116

outubro

• 01/10: 140

aff

• 02/10: ~ 134
• 03/10: 174

it got bad

• 04/10: 90

baaaaaaad

• 05/10: 154
• 06/10: ~ 130
• 07/10: 142

meu pai bateu com o pijama dele na minha perna pra me perturbar mas eu nao suporto essas sebosices queria que ele entendesse que esse eh um limite de brincadeira pra mim agr vou dormir com a perna pra fora do cobertor hahahahaha vontade de dar cm a cabeça na parede que raivaaaaaaaaaaaaa dessa poha de me gatilhar de proposito

• 08/10: 134
• 09/10: ~ 56
• 10/10: 46
• 11/10: 80
• 12/10: 162

bad

• 13/10: ~ 68
• 14/10: 124
• 15/10: 132
• 16/10: 120
• 17/10: 80
• 18/10: 130

bad idk why

• 19/10: ~ 86
• 20/10: 174

troquei minha toalha ontem e minha escova de dente hj pq o moço que veio montar o movel da cozinha pediu pra usar o banheiro. mesmo eu sabendo que nao faz o menor sentido eu sempre fico com receio de as coisas terem ficado contaminadas. ou da pessoa ter mexido em algo de proposito. eu sei q nao faz sentido mas eu nao consigo relaxar.

• 21/10: 156

bad. especially at night

• 22/10: ~ 148
• 23/10: 98
• 24/10: 186

ended bad

• 25/10: 108

started bad

• 26/10: ~ 90
• 27/10: ~ 162
• 28/10: 160

bad

• 29/10: ~ 192

affs. bad. terrible even

• 30/10: 114
• 31/10: 252

got out of the house. and then it got bad but not only because i went out

novembro

• 01/11: 96
• 02/11: ~ 96
• 03/11: 146

it got bad suddenly

• 04/11: 84

idk

• 05/11: 128
• 06/11: 128

ended bad

• 07/11: 174

started REALLY bad

• 08/11: ~ 112
• 09/11: 158
• 10/11: ~ 200

bad just because i organized some stuff in my room. it wasnt even the stuff that needed cleaning. it turned out really bad omg

• 11/11: 102
• 12/11: 60
• 13/11: ~ 56
• 14/11: 80
• 15/11: 90
• 16/11: ~ 130
• 17/11: ~ 112
• 18/11: 106
• 19/11: 136

i thought i saw something on my room . im not sure if it was an animal or an insect but i got triggered and i dont even know if i really saw that

• 20/11: 54
• 21/11: 78
• 22/11: 119
• 23/11: 146
• 24/11: 130
• 25/11: 102
• 26/11: 106
• 27/11: 34

TA SEM AGUA NESSE CUUUU RIO DE JANEIRO DE MERDAAAAA

• 28/11: ~ 128
• 29/11: 126

bad

• 30/11: 128

dezembro

• 01/11: 88
• 02/11: 230

bad. derrubei praticamente todos os shampoo e condicionador no chao e tive q pegar eles do chao do banheiro . nao so isso . um dos shampoo tb espatifou no chao e sujou tudo .

• 03/11: 72
• 04/11: 62
• 05/11: 90
• 06/11: 174
• 07/11: 88
• 08/11: 152
• 09/11: ~ 62
• 10/11: 112
• 11/11: 132
• 12/12: 74
• 13/12: ~ 92
• 14/12: 116
• 15/12: 72
• 16/12: ~ 60
• 17/12: 74
• 18/12: 64
• 19/12: 86
• 20/12: 78
• 21/12: 160

sai de casa

• 22/12: 280

limpei meu quarto (sinto q preciso de luvas :/)

• 23/12: ~ 132
• 24/12: 180

bad

• 25/12: ~ 164

idk also bad

• 26/12: 110
• 27/12: 102
• 28/12: 188

a mosca botou bicho na cozinha. eu nem vi mas so o fato de saber que minha mae teve que limpar isso eh o suficiente pra eu querer me MATAR. to me moventando mais lento hj pq tudo tenho que parar e olhar se nao tem bicho (nao tem). antews de dormir achei um bicho no tapete na frente do meu quarto e endoidei :-)

• 29/12: 240

it's bad

• 30/12: 172

vai ai uns dias ate eu esquecer do incidente do dia 28 .

• 31/12: 234

terrible from the start i dont even know how i washed my hands 92 times before i fully started the day. troquei o lençol da cama mas so isso i guess ?