list first made dec 31, 2006.

• as bullshit as this sounds, he never really did mean to hurt me
• he was my best friend
• he understands me like very few people
• he loves, supports, and trusts me as i do to him
• people make mistakes all the time; his happened to be tremendous
• going with above; he actually is a good person and just...he didn't think. it doesn't excuse his behavior though, and i know that.
• i actually miss the fucker.
• i still love him.
• things like love make us do things that don't make sense. and even if i decided in the future to forgive him (oh, there's no way in hell i could do that now), i would never. ever. forget.