dear anna howard's video on desire inspired me to do this. she said make a list of compaints to figure out what you really want. and let yrself be delusional

• i don't like to be alone
• i don't like not being cuddled every single night
• i don't like eating dinner alone
• i don't like cooking for myself and only myself
• i hate how few parties i have gone to this year
• i don't like working full time
• i don't like not seeing beetle every day
• i don't like how little i've traveled
• i am bad at knitting
• i don't read enough
• i think about my body and how i look too much
• i don't have enough money
• i don't have enough art
• i don't make enough art