- legally changing my name to "kush" at age 21
- my left dimple being a christmas tree scar
- my father's one heirloom left to me being an gold pendant with what became his death date engraved on the back
- & how i subsequently lost it in a bed-stuy fitting room
- mama decapitating a snake kelley found in her room
- expelled from school in the 6th grade for getting in too many fights
- choosing to move to chicago at 13 years old
- hallucinating a dead snake resurrecting & ghostface in my livingroom on two different halloween nights as a child
- hospitalized for a day after making myself faint (so that my anorexia could be taken seriously)
- teaching myself how to paint after seeing a screenshot of susie carmichael that i wanted a pink-haired portrait of
- meeting malcolm at wordplay by swinging my legs over his on the couch
- getting enrolled in the p.i.p. program at school for being antisocial
- creating a special room out of my bedroom closet as a child
- my childhood home burning down on the first anniversary of my father's death
- born a love-child from my parent's affair
- how often i dream of snakes, wild cats, & now, horses
- how often i dreamt about my childhood home being haunted
- my friend chopping my ponytail off as a child
- moving away from my hometown in 6th grade launching a long rebellious streak
- moving to new orleans after convincing myself i wanted to move to phoenix
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