write 5 things. people's names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day. do it each day on your listography for a year.

best days marked with ♡

august.

• 1st: vomiting water & calling walgreens every 3 hours to try to get my prescription transferred to a pharmacy in rochester • baby love & I, making faces at eachother in the backseat • no service • a little spooked out navigating the pitch black of the parking lot with my phone flashlight • what felt like someone crawling into bed with me was actually my air mattress slowly deflating
• 2nd: a text to clay about learning to understand our parents as alternate versions of ourselves • siaara's rotating imagery workshop & a conversation on things we've come to appreciate about our childhood selves • my first attempt at morning pages in so long • franny's speculative fiction workshop & learning that there's a mother orca carrying her dead baby through the ocean • going to bed early & a nightmare about clay getting possessed by his ex-girlfriend
• 3rd: dropping my frittata on the deck & a great reception of my dream surrealism workshop • stumbling through a half mile of creek to get to a waterfall • lizzie mcguire: season one episodes & britney spears commercials • sparklers, the rock circle & candle ritual beneath a full body of stars • britteney's 6th grade white girl pop playlist ♡
• 4th: frustration about not being able to book a bus home, but then belgian waffles with candied apples • loving on franny choi • writing a poem about elephant-in-the-room nostalgia during britteney's "sad gaysian" workshop • poetry & pie night in an outdoor church, car talk, & generic funyuns • getting faded & talking all kinds of shit out on the deck with the quirky black girls until 3am ♡
• 5th: deflating air mattresses & saying goodbyes • finding out loon lake is real! • a salted caramel milkshake from burger king • a whole medium pineapple pizza by myself & so many blunts with siaara • stranded in the cleveland greyhound bus terminal for 3 hours with ms. mojo countdowns on youtube ♡
• 6th: opening the fridge to a waffle maker, raspberry wine, dove chocolates, & a bouquet of long-stem sunflowers • practical magic (1998) & episdoes of charmed & sabrina the teenage witch • feeling unresolved about turning 24 • dinner at handlebar & dessert at jeni's • laughing with mama, aj, & clay in the kitchen & learning how to uncork a wine bottle ♡
• 7th: breakfast burritos & scream (1996) • "but nowhere did you say to me, 'I'm in pain. I need rest. can ya'll take this back to the other cabin?'" • showtime at the apollo: wordplay edition • walking to division & leavitt and running into jason, clay, & his pops on one of the restaurant patios • fell asleep to tristan & isolde (2006) & kept waking up to pee
• 8th: recording his mixtape cassette in between doing my makeup at the windowsill • lula café & more breakfast burritos with his dad • stopping for coffee in lake bluff, which reminded us of a fake town in a video game • watching my merman swim out to sea/lake michigan • four cheese caesar salads, before-midnight beers, & alfred hitchcock presents ♡
• 9th: sleeping in & waking up without time • breakfast feat. shitty coffee, a shitty smoothie, a pretty alright grilled cheese sandwich, & closing time, semisonic • floating out in the water with my legs wrapped around his waist & a nap in the sand • caramel chocolate cheesecake truffle ben & jerry's on a very damp couch • little bottles of capriccio & invader zim: season one while he cooked our dinner ♡
• 10th: waking up a little antsy, then packing up & cleaning the airbnb • 25 years: the chain - fleetwood mac (1992) while we talked about fading out of friendships/friend groups • flattered about how many bomb squad students decided to perform poems from my workshop • raspberry wine, dove chocolates, artisinal cheeses, & rewatching scream queens: s01
• 11th: leftover baecation pasta for breakfast & artisinal cheeses with mama • morning pages on the front porch & finally picking the double spinelli sketch back up • walking down kedzie, watching episodes from my phone • if they come for us book release party with too much free alcohol • collapsing on the couch, still in my dress & makeup ♡
• 12th: reviving my finsta feat. smothered potatoes, grilled chik'n, & apple juice • keldon & kharmelo hung out downstairs with mama for a while • "...and I want to be a good teammate for you." • a crate of blueberries & dozing off during the same penultimate episode of scream queens: s02 • american horror story: coven & sketching the chloe, the teenage witch piece until 4am
• 13th: better, kelela & my revisting my favorite songs from this last season of the voice • a half-eaten spicy chik'n sandwich for me & a breakfast bowl for molly • sitting on a bench, half-writing morning pages/half-eavesdropping on clay's phonecall with his mama • my last cohort meeting • baking soda & cold water, followed by satc & creepypasta countdowns on youtube ♡
• 14th: mooo!, doja cat & alternatives to sabrina claudio playlist • the introduction of papa legba in ahs: coven & pastel pink acrylic paint • a movie theatre picnic with niq during eighth grade (2018) • sydni came to wordplay with pizza & it was a surprisingly celebratory open mic • nailed it! & girl code: s01 episodes while I packed up my books & vhs tapes ♡
• 15th: don jon (2013) & messy outlining until 5am • a visceral dream in which I ran away from my past & songs I wore the fuck out in twentyeighteen playlist radio • a bad batch of spicy fried cauliflower & rubbing his head while he got the sunn tattoo • heavy rain & heavily caffeinated/pre-edible induced anxiety • obscure sadness, then so much gratitude
• 16th: strange porn & a new masturbation technique • amazon.com, zillow, & hotpads • rest in peace, aretha frankin. • "what colors make lightskinned?!" • castle rock: s01
• 17th: cool, gwen stefani • to all the boys I've loved before (2018) • comparing the pros & cons of my two prospective new orleans homes • bittersweet news • burnt orange paint & being endlessly annoyed with riverdale: s01
• 18th: chocolate cake for breakfast • sharp objects: s01 & the spinelli piece finally looks non-mediocre • typing up my art descriptions • bringing the box fan out of retirement • tater tots, a gin & tonic, & tequila shots ♡
• 19th: halloweentown (1998) & cadet kelly (2002) • halloween h20: 20 years later (1998) & halloween: resurrection (2002) • ripe peaches & a sensitive-to-touch pain in my leg • finally finishing moana (2016) & picking back up on charmed: s06 • a night shower
• 20th: sunday got a new, cute little strawberry squeak toy • a very long handshake & bittersweet at my last staff retreat • superimpose x for my going-away party flyer • washing all my bedding • a disney movie marathon while I painted spinelli's jacket ♡
• 21st: the princess and the frog (2009) & when a stranger calls (2006) • the "broke bitch" rumor • I got my apartment! • live painting the chloe piece at wordplay • my baby surprised me with vegan nachos & I fell asleep watching to all the boys I've loved before ♡
• 22nd: a playlist of truth or scare episodes on youtube • "just signed the lease on an apartment in new orleans." • urban legend (1998) • mariah getting hard on me about not being prepared for my gallery • double date feat. chihuahua cheese fries & the last 30 mins of space jam (1996)
• 23rd: knocking out the 1994 moodboard during hocus pocus (1993) • rugrats in paris: the movie (2000), hey arnold!, & baby bringing iced coffee & a neckrub • carting the spinelli piece & wine bottle of dying roses in an uber, trying to keep the petals from falling off • late night trial & error with paint markers ♡
• 24th: rugrats episodes • the final stretch on the chloe: teenage witch piece & the craft (1996) • wet paint & charmed: s06 finally getting interesting • opening night feat. my first shot of malort • a celebratory blunt on the front porch with aj ♡
• 25th: sleeping in until 1pm • telefone (2016) & the wordsearch poem mural coming out so much better than last time (because I used a projector) • orange cauliflower on the native foods patio • talking old folk sayings with mama over rosé & apricot brie • clayton pulling me back
• 26th: james deen • deleted scenes & 20th anniversary interviews of the craft • the canyons (2013) • eighth grade again, this time with my cancerians • a nutella & jameson milkshake at pick me up cafe
• 27th: halloweentown II: kalabar's revenge (2001) • me & my husband, mitski • half-off drinks with sydni at the soho house pool • uninhibited • "tell me."
• 28th: waking up still sad from my molly come-down • a big breakfast with my silly baby at longroom • sketching on the conservatory benches with disney soundtracks in my earbuds • walking back and forth from yca to burger king • tonight I wanna cry, keith urban
• 29th: a long uber ride to des plaines at 7 in the morning • sketching in the teacher's lounge while the view played in the background • cap'n crunch berries • running into popeyes to pee after we dropped aj off at the airport • falling asleep to spooky rugrats episodes & aaahh!!! real monsters
• 30th: a dream about my apartment building in new orleans & the craft again • clay took too much tylenol & slept through all my calls • reading black queer hoe cover to cover at the star lounge bar • a thick grilled cheese sandwich & another boozy milkshake • late night tattoo date with britteney ♡
• 31st: new tattoo photoshoot feat. my rich girl t-shirt from the first day of 6th grade • aretha franklin's funeral live-tweets • my last big kid slam • weed-coconut-oil-infused hot cheetos that tasted so stale & a birthday party • sitting out on the sidewalk with baby at 2 in the morning, eating chavas ♡