write 5 things. people's names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day. do it each day on your listography for a year.

best days marked with ♡

july.

• 1st: jurassic park III (2001) • this is me, dream • a brief, warm rain, let go (2002) - avril lavinge, kokorokoko, occult books, & trying to find blank cds • aj googling the properties of the crystals on his birthday bracelet • stopping & rewinding armageddon (1999) while I burned my boyfriend's mix cd & watercolor painted the sleeve
• 2nd: the day after tomorrow (2004) as the sun came up & the indigo paint dried • brunch at sunrise cafe • sun delirium reading the sellout out on the star lounge patio • strawberry shortcake & mango froyo in a fussy bodycon dress • bringing the snake dream poem to my cohort & then sitting with clay & his boy, jason on the balcony while they smoked & drank beer ♡
• 3rd: mr., mrs., & baby pancake followed by his oversized pastel striped button up & waffles at cozy corner • find out who your friends are, tracy lawrence feat. tim mcgraw • atm workshop & the first week of my mandated wordplay attendance • the two of us, unfiltered off a tenth of molly, gin, rum, weed, & jello shots feat. his college friends, dance-sweaty, in 70s outfits • the loft bed & finally saying it ♡
• 4th: humidity & the east & westbound grand avenue buses • a thick nap on the couch • nasty birthday cake & the salem witch trials twitter video followed by armageddon again, while aj took his headshots • watermelon chunks with tajin • cloverfield (2008) & my baby looking so damn good in his tourist dad fit
• 5th: crazy/beautiful (2001) • almond joys & arizona fruit punch & the girl next door (2004) • a trip to aldi's with aj that resulted in string cheese • laundry & jurassic world (2015) • check in call from dex, then sitting on the curb with my bare-chested, biking boyfriend
• 6th: frustration about dog pee & redoing the accidentally-deleted particulars list • tossing out expired tea/seasonings & separating my give-away clothes into 2 boxes • juicy honey mango with tajin • nodding off at the same scene in the lovely bones (2009) • the lion king (1994) at mayfair park ♡
• 7th: strawberry pancakes & vegan sausage • gary stripping a hole into the basement & bathroom wall • braving the crop top + low rise jeans look • meeting josh & breaking 2 of my nails trying to sneak up on clay • really good curry rice mixed into green curry, the car battery dying, & cuddling to sleep instead of going to a movie ♡
• 8th: leaving his house in a comme des garçons longsleeve & a pair of briefs • raspberry wine with mama while we tried to wake aj up • edible watermelon strips & biking back & forth from aldi's to jimenez • mama made a whole dinner spread just for me! • falling asleep to I love the 90s: part deux
• 9th: getting through my morning routine with enough time for breakfast • making it to 67th/jeffrey before natalie told me I didn't have to come in today & chapter 23 of the sellout • me & gary harassing mama into getting out of bed & lowering her blood pressure • finishing the sellout & reading haruko/love poems, june jordan • the second city: mainstage show feat. a warm pretzel & fries with aioli, the beginning of my before-bed toning routine & trying to put myself to sleep with daria: is it fall yet?
• 10th: morning commute frustration & starting peter pan: peter and wendy & peter pan in kensington gardens, j.m. barrie • day one of memorization battles with the 3rd-5th graders & metaphor workshop with the 6th-8th graders • well-deserved strawberry milkshake & walking into 30 reserved seats for wordplay • aj's (very impressive) first wordplay feature, then retelling my stressful day to clay against his van • eating a piece of gummy edible & reading myself to sleep
• 11th: peter pan: chapter vi • our mariano's picnic at commercial club park • napping in the grass at the conservatory • eating more watermelon edible & talking with mama and aj in the kitchen about my year-round halloween & going away/birthday/funeral party ideas • cardi named her baby "kulture" & everyone on instagram was asking to be asked questions ♡
• 12th: peter pan: chapter viii • second day of memorization battles with the 3rd-5th graders & we too cool scavenger hunt with the 6th-8th graders • a quick, yet thick & drooly, nap on the loop-bound route 6 • sitting in the grass in a white dress followed by hole-in-the-wall mexican food & italian ice with my boy • attempting to watch the lost world: jurassic park (1997) ♡
• 13th: still run (2018) - wet • daria: s01e08 • my first chicago dog (albeit, vegan) & sitting on a bench across from concord theatre with molly • peter pan: chapter xv • keeping time & score during taboo, then getting drunk by myself off a bottle of capriccio ♡
• 14th: constantly dozing off & rewinding peter pan (1960) • I got away with you, luke combs & the beginning of my love affair with exclusively soft-tempo country pop • a pitcher of strawberry jalapeño margarita & the first quesadillas in a really long time in pilsen with halee • the three of us out on the patio at hungry brain & the cis-het white man that came & interrupted • packing my suitcase to peter pan (2003) while clay pet sunday to keep her out of my way
• 15th: waking up at 4:30 & finishing packing with my phone flashlight so as not to wake my boy • I don't want to miss a thing, aerosmith & the wet hot american summer playlist • a margarita spiced with tabasco, eggplant sticks, & too-nutmeggy candied yams • what's yours like? then 1 hour & 56 mins with dex while I touched up my twists • cheetos puffs, biscuits soaked in honey, a shitty cover band, 2 drinks in the long neon bottles, & falling asleep naked ♡
• 16th: waking up wearing nothing but one hoop earring & a velvet scrunchie on my wrist, singing the "rubbing my naked body all over your..." song • all of us walking to the ruby slipper cafe & complaining for the whole 5 blocks about the heat • cards against humanity, coronas, & quoting the full salem witch trials video with syd & britteney • getting turned away from the bougie restaurant because of our bare shoulders • live jazz, a vanilla shark attack, hiccups, & beignets at 1am ♡
• 17th: stripes for britteney & li’l dizzy’s • raisinets & getting choked up on the city tour looking up at the rusted streetlight poles • a blunt in the rain & a nap • blue cheese & fig vinaigrette salad & “guhhh this woman.” • breaking even at my first casino experience after so much anxiety about being there & so many free tequilas on the rocks ♡
• 18th: the first blunt on the balcony after our airbnb folks said they’re 420 friendly • “we’s going on an adventure.” - syd, as she poured tequila & orange fanta into a water bottle; then riding the streetcar by open windows & finding mama celeste’s house, still there in perfect shape • our chatty, but so very sweet & informative server at meals from the heart cafe • the annoying family that sat next to me after my layover in nashville while I finished peter and wendy. • one number away, luke combs & the northbound pulaski buses, then falling asleep to riverdale: s01e01
• 19th: once again, peter pan (2003) & sunday's first behavioral collar walk! • my somebody, trent harmon • sitting across from my boy at feed, talking about not being the bigger person • putting on my chiodos shirt for him & the two of us walking a fussy sunday around the block • baby wipes & sitting on the porch, in his lap ♡
• 20th: crystal, stevie nicks & must've never met you, luke combs • telling emon's fortune with m.a.s.h. & a cootie catcher during the first half of the community accountability training • helping malcolm grab a quick outfit from the urban outfitters outlet & sitting across from him in the kitchen as the small talk got smaller • picking a kiss up from clay on the cloudy star lounge patio on my way to pick up edibles • chance's four songs while walking home from homan in the drizzle
• 21st: reading up on new orleans' hurricane season, then a macaulay culkin article on one of those annoying sites that lure you into a slideshow • waking up from a mid-morning nap, craving blueberry pancakes & watching honest trailers • creeping myself out reading recounts of people who've found strange shit in the middle of nowhere • sunday's overactive squeaktoy named "lambchip" • stuffed crust pineapple & jalapeño pizza, pink kool-aid, comet (2014), & eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (2004)
• 22nd: love is bare, euphoric recall • the happy birthday, bluedaddy mix cd while I folded clothes • sweat stains in the sheets • dinner at honey butter fried chicken with swamp juice & the worst cramps I've had in years • falling asleep in my boy's lap during sorry to bother you (2018)
• 23rd: earth toned intellectual vibes outfit after waking up an hour past my alarm • day one of wttc: a successful erasure workshop despite my feeling unprepared • sunday reviving her "lay in grass & refuse to budge" routine from her puppy days • distant sadness over nia wilson while sitting across from my boy out on the star patio • sunday chewed up the electronic stapler cord & I made her sit by me while I scrolled through google images of furreal friends & fell asleep on the couch with my throw blanket
• 24th: drew barrymore, sza, ps2, litany, news about boating tragedies on good morning america & veggie sausage with toast • the down by the farm handgame (which I apparently had no clue how to play) with bee, nate, emon, emily, & kara, then another successful erasure workshop with the blue group • a headache at the art institute followed by a vanilla milkshake • leaving wordplay early to go hold my boy's head in my lap • clean makeup brushes, "you don't sound like yourself. you should never sacrifice yourself for someone else.", & hook (1991)
• 25th: ctrl (2017) • the erasure workshop at yca with the educators' pod & feeling the weight of the blood moon • I was raised on the internet exhibit at the museum of contemporary art • complicated, nivea in the direct line of brutal sunlight at the bus stop, & lying in silence with my arm hanging off the couch to rub sunday's belly • 2 gin & tonics + a shot of tequila during sima's set at hungry brain
• 26th: good natural lighting & baby gave me a ride to uic & I felt most fortified in our relationship • the last workshop of the camp, with a longer eternal sunshine clip • I get to go to pink door after all! • waiting on the star lounge patio, finishing chapter one of peter pan in kensington gardens • kendra's instagram
• 27th: bitte orca (2010) - dirty projectors & beetlejuice dress + bubblegum pop earrings + purple lipstick • knitted baby sea creatures, a visit from malcolm, & staff impersonations by the kids for the lst day of the writing camp • the number 5 being renamed as a "kush" while judging at big kid slam • sitting on the porch with clay, eating chavas & talking about colorism • a big mug of pomegranate wine, mood board clippings, & hook, again ♡
• 28th: 2 vivid dreams, frustration about having to be in highland park when I didn't plan to be, & hook, once again while booking a megabus to cleveland • flu-like symptoms making me move very slowly & agonizingly • hot dog buns dipped in barbecue sauce & mae's voice sounds exactly the same after all these years • the long awaited showcase feat. clay performing exceptionally well, but being too fatigued to believe it • mars sitting right next to the moon while I sipped my horchata through the lid
• 29th: taking 3 hours to get out of clayton's bed & the sun hurting my eyes • 2 cups of orange juice & sleeping from 10am - 5pm • buzzfeed celeb "while playing with puppies" interviews on youtube • laundry & jaws (1975) • a dream about moving to a sim city stuck in 2003 via a 4D/pixar-animated version of alice in wonderland after falling asleep to peter pan (1953)
• 30th: the kids are alright (2018) - chloe x halle & can you feel the love tonight, elliott yamin • going to the doctor about my strange, sudden illness & getting few answers • waking up from my late morning nap to a country music award disc set infomercial • a strawberry banana smoothie, free goodies from ulta, & a full-blown fever! • me & my boy on a date to the urgent care clinic, then weed cookies, green curry, & dinosaur (2000) ♡
• 31st: clay waking up antsy to get out of bed & me whining about it & going back to sleep • eternal sunshine of the spotless mind (2004) for the first time on vhs! • the most grueling walk from my house to the next block over, with my luggage & my fever, to catch an express uberpool • fruit snacks & canada dry at a rest stop somewhere in ohio • a bedtime blunt with siaara & her guy & a complete loss of appetite